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Wed-locked 37

2011-09-30T16:06:00.000-07:00

Previously on Wed-locked
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From : fa6ooma

“RO’9A I MUST SPEAK TO YOU ASAAAAAAAP LETS MEET TOM PLZ” - 3 am

woah! sho salfat’ha let me call her!

*dialing fa6ooma*

trrrng
trrrng

me “ ALOOO”
fa6ooma “aloo”

……………………..
me “ waaht! enzain bs gooli a7een”
fa6ooma “enzain look 3 weeks ago this woman called my mom w ennaaaaaa......ummmm 5e6boooni”

she said quietly fl a5eer
me “ WHAAAAAAAAAAT CHATHABAA”
fa6ooma “SHH Shhhh lat9aar5eeeeeen”
…………………..

fa6ooma “shit yaa.....a7s kel el 7arra fe obooy yalsa a76a feeeh......what should i reply enzaain?”
me “just tell him he surprised you w you were going to leave anyways its not about him,, w 7e6i SMILEY or tongue thing! so he dsnt get over concerned or whatever”
fa6ooma “uuuh ok......sent”

I looked down at my phone as it started ringing
fa6ooma looked towards me

fa6ooma “a7mad?”
me “yaaaaaa owaih nsait 3anaaaaaa! i was supposed to send him a message back or something ufff”
fa6ooma “hahah shelliii”

me “ufffff”

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Ro’9a
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*picks up*

me “alo...”
a7mad “mmmm hi”
me “hey”
a7mad “umm ha whats up?”
me “ummm mashay just wya fa6ooma laish?”
a7mad “laa bs as2al eh...”
me “enta fl dawam?”
a7mad “haih”
me “oh ok”
a7mad “i’ll be back by 3 i promise”
me “emm enzain”
a7mad “ see you?”
me “ya suure... bye”
a7mad “bye ro’9ee”

*toot*
i closed the phone and looked at fa6ooma and stopped her from talking 3ala 6ool

me “SHHH ok don’t say anything! this is the right way to deal with hiiim trust me i know my husband”
fa6ooma “enzaain ana maglt shaay hahah”
me “but knti btgooleeen”
fa6ooma “loooool ok its 1 now tbain trdeen elbait?”
me “laaaa lets hang out shway zyadaaaaa talk to me about whats his name”
fa6ooma “i don’t want to talk about he who must not be named “
me “marad 3alaich after that message?”

she took her phone in her hand and shoved it around

fa6ooma “nopp”
me “hmmmmmm”

we went for karak w swaalf and before i knew it , it was 3:10 pm as i looked down at my phone

me “oooo i should be home now a7mad gal he’ll be home by 3....or maybe i should give him a taste of his own medicine hmm”
fa6ooma “yalla 3aad bawadeech el bait a7een”
me “uffff why do u like him so much!! GAH basaweelch nafs elshay wya fahad haa!”
fa6ooma “haha may59 liking him bs i love u and i KNOW he loves u enzain that’s enough for me “
me “eeeeeeh fine “
me “hey listen fa6oom”
fa6ooma “whaaat?”
me “my periods late”

i said with a gulp

fa6ooma “ WHAT,,, no wait how late?”
me “ummmm a week”
fa6ooma “ohh duuude u freaked me out , at7ara 7amel wla shay hahaha”
me “i shouldn’t freak out 9a7? uff i don’t know cz feya lo3a wayd hal ayam w i’ve been getting cramps, bs that happens pre-period tooo so i shouldn’t judge uugh”
fa6ooma “yaaa bs did u check?”
me “laaa im still in denial”

I said proudly

fa6ooma “haha enzain go get a stick and pee on it, its not that hard”
me “mb chee bs....”

I stopped and looked down at my hands in thought

me “i don’t know how a7mad or his family would react if it was true......”
fa6ooma “u guys never discussed it?”
me “weirdly no...”
fa6ooma “oh...”

and before i knew it we were home i sat inside not wanting to get in the house, i miss my endless days with fa6ooma, I turned my head and frowned at her

me “bs ma sheba3t mennich”
fa6ooma “i’ll call you later ok? AND we can see each other tomorrow, or the day after or after ay wagt tbain, i’ve been missing u too, a lot”

I reach over and gave her a tight hug then heard her phone tingling

*trrrng*

she took it w opened it and read it out loud

‘ oh ok....it was good seeing u anyways ;)’ she stressed on the word WINK when she was reading it
fa6ooma “woow now he’s winking at me uuuuuuugh”

she said as she banged her head against the sekkaan....

me “hahhaha katkooot”

she looked at me and rolled her eyes
fta7t the door of the car and I stepped down and waved to her sadly

me “goodbye my lover”
fa6ooma “see u soon”

I closed the door in despair, missing the old days as I walked away from the car into the house. I wonder if a7mad is even back yet.

as i walked into the room sheft sa3ta w 3gala mafrooreen 3al 6awla, so he’s actually back huh. And i heard the shower on in the bathroom. f9a5t el 3ba w kelshay and I laid on the bed thinking about fa6ooma and how a man could have such a big impact 3ala a girl’s life. I just hope his nice facade isn’t just a facade and its real, she does deserve a good husband, she’s amazing, bs I never thought her dad would do anything like that. I mean I know they believe he’s the right fit and he’s a good guy but? really?

And as I was continually talking to myself, a7mad walked out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist and he was startled to find me there

a7mad “heeyy”

I just turned my head to check him out then turned back to my phone, awana not interested. then mumbled back

me “mmm hi”

I noticed he walked over nearer to me as he sat infront of me beside my feet , yes still in his towel.

a7mad “How was your day ro’9eee”

he said as he put his hand on my legs stroking it , looking at me with what seemed to be a guilty smile
nazalt my mobile from my hands and looked at him with a straight face

me “ uh...it was good 7emdella”

he stayed silent for a bit , as he took a breath

a7mad “wa9lch my message btw?”
me “mmm haih”
a7mad “oh maradaity t7arait it didn’t reach”

I stayed silent as I pulled my legs closer to me away from his hands

a7mad “ Listen i can’t ara’9eech for shay che, lana ma7s enny ‘3l6an , although a3arf eny za3altch”

I looked straight down, away from his stares, I understand where he’s coming from, but ….uhh i don’t know

me “ but “
a7mad “ha? but sho”
me “ wala marraaa fe 7ayatee knt fe 7adth until that day! i do know how to drive maystwee che forever”
a7mad “enzain ana maglt forever”
me “ lain mta 3yal”

I pouted,

a7mad “until your arm fully heals”

he pointed at my right arm, my elbow

me “bs its fine may3awrnii anymoore!”
a7mad “bs el doctor gal it won’t be fully healed lain 2 months, fa magdar a5aleech tsoogeen! enti mas2ooleety i cant......let ayshay ystwee feech again”

me “finee”

his face lit up at my words, and he had a soft smile, he got up ya ajrab 3anni and gave me a hug
i laughed a bit at him after he let go and looked at me

a7mad “shoooo!”
me “youuu should go put some clothes on”
a7mad “whyyy”

he said as he stretched jdamy 3al bed with a wide smile, haha it’s funny how the mood in here changes in a matter of minutes

a7mad “before we got married, knt ayls fe ‘3rfty wya boxers bs a9lan”
me “reallyy?”
a7mad “yeppp”
me “w laish wagaft y3ne”
a7mad “becaaaause i didn’t want to give you false signs you know, or a’3reech eb my sexiness”
me “ahaaa u don’t say”

i smiled to him and laughed….then fell silent to my thoughts , should ? I just ask about the what-if-baby-situation ? I frowned down at my lap while thinking , then sheft that he got up w decided to put his head on my lap
He’s like a perfect distraction of my real life that actually involves him haha

A7mad “heyyy laish skatyy whats up?”
Me “mmmm la mashaay hehe ktkoooot”

I said while pinching his cheeks, I didn’t want to ruin this happy time with him with some complication ufff I don’t know, he pushed my hand away while doing that

A7mad “ ayyyyy!”
Me “hehe sorryyy”

He sat up, still in his towel I must add and looked at me with a rather serious face now, shfta with a raised eyebrow

Me “ what now?”
A7mad “hmm one second baroo7 abadel w bayeee”
Me “mmm ok “

He got up , w as soon as he did I grabbed my BB and started PINGING fa6ooma

Fa6ooma :
WHAT WHAT
Rawdee :
BABy TALK NOW OR WHAT? CONFUSED
Fa6ooma :
Ro’9aaaa , if you don’t do it now u never will : (
Rawdee:
:’( a5af
Fa6ooma:
I don’t think u shd be , I’m here if you want to talk after :*
Rawdee:
Errr…thxx *hug* , fine I’ll do it now T_T
Fa6ooma:
Hahah good luck Ruu

As I was flipping through my phone he came out all clean and well groomed, I couldn’t help not smile at my amazing luck, this amazing man, a7mady <3

He sat 3daly quietly for a few seconds

A7mad “So tell me, what’s wrong? “
Me “Nothing wroooooong okk, why would u think that a9laan”

I said with my obvious lying voice and face, I’m so bad at faking anything

A7mad “yalla 3ad, you know I won’t stop until you spill”
Me “mmmmm enzain....mm”

I sat up and turned my whole body towards him and crossed my legs on the bed, I could see the worried look on his face, which got me worried as well

Me “mmmm you can say this is a what-if game!”

The worried face of his dropped to a glare

A7mad “KEL HAL SUSpense 3shan tbain tl3been le3ba!”
Me “nooo, mmmmmmm this subject a7s lazm enna8sh 3anna, and….and. m3rf how to start. Bs sooner or later”

I tried forcing one word after the other, with my nerves messing with me

A7mad “What is it?”
Me “a7mad…what would happen if gool…..mmmm I got pregnant”

His mouth dropped as he heard the words , which paused at that for seconds as he jumped off his place
A7mad “ WHAT? ARE YOU? RO’9AA ENTI 7AMEL???”

He said as he reached to touch my stomach

Me “ LAA laaaaa I said WHAT IFFFFF”

He rushed up and sat looking at me as if a weight has been lifted of his shoulders

A7mad “Zaya’3teeni! “

Wow. I scared him? What’s that supposed to mean? He does not want a baby? And as always my emotions were all projected onto my face expression. I wasn’t laughing but rather concerned. A bit hurt I might add
A7mad “What’s with the question then? Lol faj2a”
Me “mmm machd we discussed it so….”

He fell silent after my words, as worried as I got I tried calming myself down, although the look on his face was troublesome, as he let out a deep sigh

A7mad “bgoolch shay bs latz3leen ok?”
Me “shoo?”
A7mad “I don’t know how to say it mmm”

Skat w bla3 reeja…then looked at me with sad eyes…

A7mad “please latz3leen lana ha kan gabel I knew you, bs I never told you bcz mab’3ait ajra7ch”

Then he fell silent again, and I could feel my heart sink in down to my stomach, in agony, scared? Maybe I shouldn’t have opened this salfa

A7mad “When we got married, ommy w obooy galooli el zwaj bykoon temporary…w gabel maknt a3arfch, w that was the only reason I agreed. Maknt a3arf I’d get emotionally involved with you, let alone physically involved… so like mmmm they don’t really know we ‘sleep’ together”

Me “ What do you mean temporary?”

I’m the kind of person that tears when sad, but more importantly when in despair and annoyed and ma8hoora…all combined results in disasters, I kept it in me though. Maybe fhamt ‘3ala6?

A7mad “La y3nee enna until my dad settles things, bs that was gabel, w mmmm machd kalamt ommy 3anna after, wayd awkward! SHOO agoolha??”

I didn’t want to sound pathetic. But I had to ask, I looked at the wall infront of me, avoiding his eyes to hold my tears back and spoke with a broken voice

Me “are you going to divorce me one day y3ne?”
A7mad “ AIH ENTO SHO TGOOLEEN!”

He got up and put his hands on my shoulders

A7mad “ LOOK at me, ro’9a!”

I lifted my gaze to his face, with watery eyes

A7mad “ana mb gltellich latz3leen! Do you think ana maynooon? Ana a9lan ma at5ayal 7ayatee bdoonch anymore”

He took his hands off w sat in front of me still looking at me with a slight angry worried face

A7mad “You really don’t understand my feelings for you, do u?”
Me “but you said…”
A7mad “ SHo I said! Ana geltellich ha sho our agreement kan gaaaaaaaaabel a7een kelshay t’3ayyar, I mean I fell for you!”
Me “and you can’t tell ommk that?”
A7mad “ehhh…..uff t3arfeen ommy kaiff”
Me “yeah I know she hates me but still “

Then I stayed quiet and looked up at him as one tear managed escaping my eyes

Me “what iff….they force u enna we separate”
A7mad “I’m not going to let them! Sehla, mb 3ala kaifhom”
Me “bs nafs ma ‘39book ta5thni they can do the opposite”
A7mad “laaa shooooo you’re mine enzain ma7ad baya5thch menni ! “

He came closer, as if someone was actually coming to steal me away, and held my hand while gently brushing his fingers across it and talked now in a lower tone

A7mad “ma7ad ygdar ya5thch menni”
Me “even if I was pregnant?”
A7mad “OF COURSE! Aih I know my reaction was ‘3ala6 before, bs estwali shit kaif agool 7ag ommy w obooy! Bs now I realize that it would be amazing if you were pregnant! Imaaagine a mini meeeee and a mini YOU!!!!”

He looked up as if he’s imagining it, I got up on my knees and reached my hands around him while resting my head on his shoulder, hugged him as tight as ever
I think I shocked him because he became quiet until he realized what I was doing then hugged me back, I let the tears out the ones I had locked, in relief

Me “ I love you a7maaad”

He just hugged me tighter as a response…Then let go and I sat back down looking at his beautiful smile, as I wiped my face with a tissue , drying it from the tears , also having a stupid smile on my face.

In a bit the mood in the room lightened up

Me “a7maad”
A7mad “na3am?”

He said politely

Me “mmmmmmmm sho y3ne ur parents don’t know we’re ‘sleeeeping’ together!”
A7mad “hahahha m3rfff if they changed their minds bout everything I never talked to them about you after we got married”
Me “Bs y3ne What would we be doing all day in the room, honeymoon? I don’t think theyre that dense y3nee”
A7mad “hahahha 9a7 kalaamch, bs a5af they think ena what I had with them was a deal, but I never promised them anything”
Me “ummmm”
A7mad “I know, don’t worry I’ll be talking to my mom sooon”
Me “hehe good”
A7mad “ SOoooooooo are you pregnant wla sho?”
Me “laaa bs I was wondering what if”
A7mad “hmmmmm”

I saw my phone blinking from far, I went to get it, maybe its fa6ooma
When I opened it I was right after all

Fa6ooma :
HOW DID It go? =|
Rawdee:
Mmmmmmmmmmm 1- =O 2- T__T 3- ☹ 4- <3 5- =D
Fa6ooma :
Err………….so that means ur fine?
Rawdee :
Hahah yess yess! :$ , I guesss, I’ll tell you bout it when I seeeee u!
Fa6ooma :
Guess what….
Rawdee:
Shooo???????
Fa6ooma:
Fahad is coming OVER TODAY SHOOT ME NOWW
Rawdee:
CHATHABAAAAAA

Me “omggG”

I start talking out loud when I get excited…….I saw a7mad looking at me weirdly

A7mad “shoo fee?”
Me “ Oh 9a7 I didn’t tell u ! fa6ooma en56baat my frnd”
A7mad “oh noway tell her mbrook!”
Me “okkkk”
A7mad “OH”
Me “shoo?”
A7mad “WE CAN Double daaaaaate after like their wedding!!!”

He looked so excited while saying that

Me “hahahahha! Ya we’ll see, let her survive it first…”
A7mad “Mno hoo?”
Me “oh esma Fahad al X,,,,,,t3rfa?”
A7mad “ohhhhhhhhhhhhh liar! 9dg??”
Me “t3arfaaa?”
A7mad “ haaaaaih fahaad Abdullah al X 9a7?”
Me “dnu lemme ask her!”

I looked down to see the series of emotions this girl is going through haha mskeena

Fa6ooma :
BAZOOO3 RODAAAAA
M3rf sho albs
Maba akoon 7elwaa
Bs maba yekrahni either!!
Uffffffffffffffftt
Whyyyyyy is he comiiiiiiiiiiiing
5al ytm fe baaaaaaait’hOM!
Rawdee:
*SLAAAAAAP*
FA6ooomaa snap out of it for a sec
Fahad is fahad Abdulla al x????
Fa6ooma:
Haaih kaif 3rafty? =S

Me “a7maaaaad haaih hatha fahaad Abdulla esmaa”
A7mad “LAA! Lazm abaaarklaaaa! “
Me “Hey tell me what you know 3anna! Cz fa6ooma knows nothing w she’s so worried”
A7mad “oh…..arranged? forced? Nafsna? Haha”
Me “well Yes and NO, arranged yes,, forced only from her side, I think he likes her, bs mb nafsna, bss Matgoolla shay lana hoo may3arf enha ma’39ooba, she’s scared w mat3arf el rayyal”
A7mad “oh….la sho mabagool shay……..bs walla rayyal zain wayd 6ayyeb, w doum nel3ab way koora, bs m3rfa personally y3ne”
Me “oh hmm “

Fa6ooma :
PING
PING
Rawdee:
AIH CHILL I was talking to a7mad! HE KNOWS HIMM
Fa6ooma:
=ONOWAY!
Rawdee:
YESS WAYYY! He just said enna “elrayyal wayd zain w 6ayyeb “ yel3ab way koora w che bs not best frndz y3nee
Fa6ooma:
Oh hmmmmmm
Rawdee:
When is he coming??? Did you decide what to wear????
Fa6ooma:
Bleh I think I have Somethinggg, he’s coming in an HOUR! Uff lemme go get read =”|
Rawdee:
A7mad says mbrook :p
Fa6ooma :
Eh….Allah ybark fee -_-
Rawdee:
AIH be nice to my husband! Hahah
Fa6ooma:
Loool u know that’s not what I meant <_<
Rawdee:
Yes yes I know hahha yalla go be pretty
Fa6ooma
Ttyl <3

Fa6ooma

Greeeen? rED? UFFFFFFF m3rf shooo ALbssss
5ala9 I’ll settle for this green dress I don’t care

I quickly put in a flick of eyeliner, blush, whatever is basic, nothing too fancy I didn’t want him to think that I spent too much time making myself pretty for him
Bs a7mad gal ho rayal zain, which I know he is, although uff m3rf
So many things were going through my mind while I was fixing my shaila for the last time until I heard the bell and I could hear my mom’s scream from downstairs

Mama “FA6OOOOOOOM”
Me “na3aaaaaaaam mamaaaaaaa”
Mama “ YALLA TA3ALiiiii:
Me “OKK”

I quickly wore my heels and ran downstairs 3dal mom almost hiding behind her
My dad was gone, this was supposedly a me and him get to know each other day….awkwaaaaaaaaaaaard was the perfect word for the day

I saw him come in as he was paying his respect to my mom, like a gentleman standing a certain distance away with his hands to his sides almost bowing while speaking in his white crisp kandoora, and ‘3etra w 3gal, white in white
I stared blankly…. I don’t feel nervous at all, just analyzing him
He turned his body towards me and bent down to meet my gaze.

Fahad “ Salam w 3alaikom fa6ma”
Me “ w 3alaikom el salam fahad”

I mumbled in a low voice, avoiding his gaze of course, last time he came makan y6al3ny fe 3ainy! A7een ashoofa ytjara2
Ok ok maybe I should cut him some slack I thought
As my mom escorted us the tiny majlis we had beside our main one
I waited for him to sit down, so that I’d sit somehow far away
And I did, then my mom left to ‘get-us-drinks’ or so she claimed

We stayed quiet for a while AWKWARD!
I was screaming in my head PLEASE SAY SOMETHING PLEASE SAY SOMETHING
I mean he’s the guy he’s supposed to start the conversation right?
The 2 silent minutes that passed seemed like a centuries
I shifted my gaze to him, maybe be friendly a bit? Or try?
He noticed that I turned to him as he was playing with his hands twirling on his lap, he smiled widely, so I smiled back not to be rude

Fahad “ sh5baarch ? kaif eljam3a wyach?”
Me “umm 7emdella walla, mashay ydeed drasa w t3arf heh”
Fahad “oh zaain zaain Enshalla 5air”
Me “enta sh5abrk…”
Fahad “walla elyoum kan 3ndi el project fa way elshbab tyama3na w sawaina 3an…”

He continued on and on, that half way through I dozed off and wished he wouldn’t ask me anything because that would be embarrassing . GOSH wayd y7b ytkallam in detaaaail
At some point I started singing in my head as my mom came in
I got up to take it from her , she smiled approvingly and handed it to me and left the room again
Re7t a’9ayfa, still trying to be friendly
Me “ayy wa7d tbaa?”
Fahad “sho ha?”
Me “fee laymooon way na3na3, w ha 3nab, w fawaka, w yezar”
Fahad “Oh t3arfeen 3a9eer yzar kan wayd mufeed fe ayam awal kan ysawoona 7ag el na’9ar bs a9lan grait marra enna hal shay mb 9dg?”
Me “aha-ha”

Fake laughing can get tough sometimes

Fahad “oh sho glti hatha?”
Me “mmm fawaka”
Fahad “ay fawakh y3ne?”

Give me a gun please? PLEASE THERE’s someone I NEED TO SHOOT NOW…uff does he enjoy me standing In front of him? Y3ne la ma afham? Wla ye6annaz? Wla yla3znii? Testing my tolerance maybe

Me “m3rf ha mal rawabi”

I replied fast and short

Fahad “ooowh mb fresh…..enzain enti fe wa7d sawaitee?”
Me “mmm la2”
Fahad “kella rawabi?”
Me “m3rfF”

I was bent this time mind you, while he was ‘looking’ at them
I stood up straight since shakla m6awel

Fahad “oh sorry mb 89di ata3bchh, bs m3rf sho a5tar , ay wa7d ashrab?”
Me “ayshay t7b…”
Fahad “la enti e5tareeeli”

If I had a choice bafer ha 3ala wayhk………if only I could actually reply with that…hmmm

Me “3nab?”
Fahad “oh la ma7b 3naab”
Me “5ETH ayshay! Tba may?”

I don’t know if my face got an angry expression bs after I said that he grabbed ajrab 3a9eer fl 9eeneyya, which was fawaka
I smiled fakley w 7a6ait el bagy 3ala el6awla then sat back fe mkani

Fahad “mmm enti mabtshrbeen?”
Me “eh la maba ”
Fahad “mmm enzain”

He sipped some of his juice quietly then reached front to put it on the table

Fahad “9a7 gabel ma ansa…”

He stood half up reaching in his pocket

Fahad “ yebt shay 7aggich…….”
Me “haa? Laa 7ag sho mb laazm”

SHo yayeb???? ()!@#)(1@!@!!@#$ this is how this person makes me feeeeel

As he brought it out and scooted a chair closer to me

Fahad “ shfta thak el youm w thakarni feeech”

Continued . . .

Wed-locked 36

2011-06-26T16:12:00.000-07:00

Previously on Wed-locked
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went out, yes just me and him, felt like a honeymoon today, i ignored the cramps in my stomach to not ruin this blissful nice day,

which leaves me wondering how did I get so lucky? I do love him to bits

a7mad
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can’t I just travel with her and runaway?

if only

<3

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ro’9a
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woke up the next day with a7mad not next to me, uf he went to work already? I flipped over to grab my phone and saw that its 11 am already. And surprisingly a message, fta7ta and squinted my eyes to see sho maktoob

From : fa6ooma

“RO’9A I MUST SPEAK TO YOU ASAAAAAAAP LETS MEET TOM PLZ” - 3 am

woah! sho salfat’ha let me call her!

*dialing fa6ooma*

trrrng
trrrng

me “ ALOOO”
fa6ooma “aloo”

she replied tiredly with a sleepy voice

me “ oh shit ragdaa?”
fa6ooma “ro’9a?”
me “YAA”
fa6ooma “shhh lat9ar5een”
me “ ok bs what’s with ur message? 5air? when do u want to meet up?”
fa6ooma “ummm tgdreen tmreen 3alay?”
me “ya sure! when?”

she yawned and i could hear her stretching

fa6ooma “mmm give me an hour 3ashan atjahaz ok?”
me “ok love, ana ba3ad 5alny agoom hehe”
fa6ooma “byeee”

*disconnected*

uff 9a7 car, hmmm

*dialing a7mad *

me “ ALOOOOOOO”
a7mad “ halla hallaa....hahah sho hal 7amas mn el9b7 “
me “hehhe sorry! r u busy?”
a7mad “ la2 whats up love?”
me “mmm a7madyyyyy 7beebyyyy “
a7mad “ laah laah lah sho hal dala3 kella? what do u want? “
me “shooooo y3ne magdar adal3k unless i want something!”
a7mad “well u never did so ...ya hahhaa”
me “ ok fineeee aba a6la3 to see my friend i wanted to ask you if there’s a car i can borrow”

he was silent for a bit..then cleared his throat

a7mad “ where do you want to go?”
me “ummm m3rf yet, bs bamr 3alaiha, maybe 7ata bs fl car 3nd bait’hom i just need to talk to her”
a7mad “ fa6ma ur friend?”
me “haaaih”
a7mad “umm enzain can i drop u 3ndha?”
me “y3ne mafe sayaraaa?”
a7mad “laa bs.....umm.......last time...umm”
me “ a7maad that time it was different!”

oh i forgot about that......9a7 last time he gave me a car it was bad.........uff

a7mad “bss....m3rf ro’9a bawa9lch w ba5thch anywhere you want please?”
me “I can drive myself enzaaaain! u wont let me drive lel2abad y3ne?”
a7mad “laaa bs its too soon i don’t know ro’9aa’
me “ nevermind, bye”
a7mad “if you want just let me know ok ana 7a’9er”
me “ maba bye!”
a7mad “ummm bye”

*disconnected*

uffffffffffff sho hal 7ala i wish i had my own car!

*dialing fa6ooma*
fa6ooma “ AHHH noooo don’t tell me ur on ur waay”
me “ummm laa ma3ndy sayaraa”

i said with a toned down voice

fa6ooma “oh No problem ana bamr 3alaich then! bs lazm etdaleeni “
me “okaaaay tell me when tkooneen 9oub spynnis jumeira ok?”
fa6ooma “ok raawdyy ! yalla lebsy i’m almost done”
me “okkkk ok bye!”

*disconnected*

I got up bser3a washed my face and all, put on my foundation, little bit of bronzer, eye liner and most importantly my mascara...you know the usual haha
Put on any jeans and top i found and wore a closed 3abaya and grabbed my mulberry bag and sat on the bed waiting

30 minutes later

me “ hahah a5eeran w9altyy”
fa6ooma “ eskty enzain enti ely ‘9aya3teeni! “
me “heeheeeeeee okkkkkk wain bnrooo7”
fa6ooma “the closest place, spynnis? shakespear the village? starbucks palm strip?”
me “not shakespear”

I made a disgusted face referring to the last incident that happened when we were there

fa6ooma “haha ok palm strip?”
me “yeaa suure yallaaaaaaaa SO U TeLL ME shol salfa!”
fa6ooma “haha wait till we’re there ok!”
me “fiiine”
fa6ooma “so sha5barchhh howz a7mad treating you”
me “ummm ok......uf tawa knt aba sayara i called him and gal la”
fa6ooma “really why?”
me “well he didn’t say bs a3arf cz last time 5atht elsayara sawait 7adeth, bs that was my only 7adeth fe 7ayatyyyy ufff 8harnyyy...”
fa6ooma “ohh enzain talk to him b3dain”
me “ i will, he was like bawa9lch ay mkan call me blaa blaa, bs i told him maba and bye”
fa6ooma “hahah wayd tetdal3ain 3alaih haa...u always give him a hard time”
me “ AYYY why r u being on his side you’re MY Friend”

I pouted

fa6ooma “laa bs ur always daloo3a wyaaa haha i’m just saying ok!”
me “i know i am, bss i can’t help it uff a8har haha”

I heard my ring tone , 6ala3t my phone

*calling a7mad*

me “ehhhh its him”

fa6ooma shot me a glare, ena don’t be a daloo3a

fa6ooma “shelli !”
me “fiiiiiine”

me “alo”
a7mad “heey ha tbainy amr 3alaich wla 5ala9?”
me “la 5ala9”
a7mad “wain ray7a?”
me “ ummm palm strip”
a7mad “oh ok, fa6ma marrat 3alaich?”
me “haih.”
a7mad “ have funn 7beebtyy”
me “ok. bye”
a7mad “mmm bye”

I closed and looked at fa6ooma , haha i knew btehzbny because i was cold to him

fa6ooma “ you’re a lost cause aren’t you?”
me “whaaaaaat yestahal ok”
fa6ooma “ahaaa”
me “chub okaay hahah”

*message tone*

i looked down at my phone hmmm

fa6ooma “is it him?”
me “uuuh yaaa”
fa6ooma “what does it say haha?”

me “ mmmmmm ro’9a please latz3leen menni i’m only doing this because a5af 3alaich, Love you”

fa6ooma “ COME ONNNNN”

me “shoooooo”

i said with guilt

fa6ooma “ you have the sweetest guy fl 3alam as your husband but u don’t want to admit it hahaha”
me “ i won’t reply now enzain!”
fa6ooma “whyy y3ne?”
me “bs che! so he feels bad for shway”
fa6ooma “meaaniee”
me “haha eskti ok don’t make today about me yalla w9aaalnaa at last its ur turn to talk! muheheh”
fa6ooma “hahah okaay okaaay”

6la3na mn elsayara w we went and sat in starbucks, a7la shay in the morning, it’s all empty and shwayat englaiz

we found a perfect corner with sofas! yay ! ordered some drinks and breakfast and i folded my hands and stared at her enna staart talking

fa6ooma “err how do i start?”
me “ JUST TELL ME EVERYTHING uhhhhh sho salfatch ma7b when u do this”
fa6ooma “ m3rrrrf my life’s been foug ta7at w ma7a9alt wagt to tell u properly like thisss!! ma3ana ive been wanting to tell u mn esbooo3! bs che i dnoo”
me “ waaht! enzain bs gooli a7een”
fa6ooma “enzain look 3 weeks ago this woman called my mom w ennaaaaaa......ummmm 5e6boooni”

she said quietly fl a5eer
me “ WHAAAAAAAAAAT CHATHABAA”
fa6ooma “SHH Shhhh lat9aar5eeeeeen”

I put my hands on my mouth shit, that was loud
me “sorryy ahhhhh what whooooo when mnoo sholsalfa?”
fa6ooma “first of all CALM down ok! haha second ena nas n3rfhom mn b3eed his mom saw me in a wedding or something and she liked mee and my mom so she suggested me for her son, he’s way older ena he’s 27 noww”
me “enzaaain thats not so bad! “
fa6ooma “i knoww i know, elmohem 3gb ena che 9alait est5ara w kelshay and a week after that he came to sit wya goum baba w e5wany, lana may3rfoon elrayaal”

she stopped to take a breath, bs my curiousity was killing meeee

me “ KAMLEEEEEE”
fa6ooma “hahah ok chill, enzain elmohem ana ylast foug bs che atrayaahum 3ala a39aabi 7ata i barely took a peek of him mn foug w all i saw was a kandoora w 3gala...w b3dain at 10:30 he left w goum baba kellhom yaw foug w started saying good things about him, ena he’s so determined about his future, w he has a plan, he’s not ensan sa67y, w he has his masters now w yba ykammel his doctors and he’s leaving to boston in august to complete which is 3 months from now w he’s staying 5 years there to finish.....and so on”

me “ooooo coool”
fa6ooma “ummm yea....anyways ana mn el bdaya a9lan kel youm yalsa a9alee est5aara mn elzyaa’3 , w when dad w my brothers md7oo estwalee ena aww ok cool he’s not bad.....soo a couple of days after that mom invited HIM AND his mom over, so we can see eachother”
me “hahah him? WHATS HIS NAME?”
fa6ooma “ oh fahad..”
me “ooooow “

I winked, haha i always liked that name i generally associate it with hotties, for no reason
she ignored me then continued...

fa6ooma “so when he came che he was so quiet, w kan awal marra ashoofa fe 7ayatee tara he’s from Sharjah not Dubai....w his mom came and i dressed up w 7ala , anyways he didn’t talk much bs che shwaaya mostly his mom and for some reason i wasn’t shy”
me “awwwwwwwwwww fa6ooooomaaaa”
fa6ooma “haha don’t get too excited bs like after that i talked to him over the phone ena to see how he is before i say yes or no, and well.....he’s kind of boring...he was talking about his books and studies........and che bard when yetkallam he doesn’t joke around uuuh m3rf”
me “maybe he was nervous?”
fa6ooma “thats what i thought bs i told him ena i was overwhelmed at first, w is this how he always is? and he kept telling me ena la bs you didn’t say yes yet, cz ho metdayyen y3ne ma3nda swalf …..bs i dnt think that's the reason a7s ho chee bs like he’s so nice uuuurgh i don’t know”
me “w lain a7een maradaity 3alaihom??”
fa6ooma “m3rf ro’9a every time i talk to him i end up crying at night to my mom, and she says its ok he’s a good guy give him time,,,bs mn kalam dad ena it is YES, bs ana mb mrta7aa i can’t imagine myself with him for the rest of my lifeee “
she frowned and i could see her eyes getting watery now...
I stood up and went and sat on her sofa right next to her

me “heyyy why? ho gal chee?”
fa6ooma “haih ams ya 3ndi w he’s convinced im being daloo3a w i like someone else or something w may5e9a! he’s like why r u crying! w what r u saying doesn’t make sense he’s a great guy w in time u’ll love him mb lazm 89a9 7ub w ‘3aram from now”
me “hmmmm enzain why r u crying bs? if u know he’s nice?”
fa6ooma “cz i can’t see myself with him! i dnooo he’s nice shwaya too nice? uf i don’t know its just a feeling! maybe dad is right, bs either way mb 3ala kaify imagine yesterday mom called his mom enna yes w kelshay w he called me bs i didn’t pick up so he sent a message enna “thank you , you made my day, i understand if you don’t want to talk to me now ;)” WITH A WINK uuuurgh”
me “fa6ooomaaaaa”
fa6ooma “whaT?”
me “mat7seen ur being mean? AND YOOU always tell me im mean wya a7mad? His message is actually cute!”
fa6ooma “don't compare him to a7mad, hathak i know u love him so m3rf why ur mean to him enti weird! bs hatha mat3arfeen kaif he’s different, che on messages he’s cool bs on the phone he’s shwaya of an awkward person”
me “ya7laaailaa”
fa6ooma “DONT BE ON HIS SIDEEEEEEEE roo’9aa not u tooooo”

when i saw the tears in her eyes i stopped

me “mb 8a9dee chee im totally on ur side ok! when was i not? bs is there anything u can do to stop it?”
fa6ooma “ i don’t think so...’
me “enzain ….listen do u have his picture?”
fa6ooma “nooo bs he’s very tall and skinny ..che abya’9 yelbs na’9ara”
me “ from 1 to 10 how much?”
fa6ooma “y3ne he’s not good looking ..bs thats not why i don’t like him i’d give him a 6 y3ne he’s very 3ady”
me “hmmmmmm goum emno? maybe a7mad knows him i can ask”
fa6ooma “ yaa i guess...he’s goumg alX”
me “oh noway ygrab 7ag meera?”
fa6ooma “from school? la ma7s ,there’s many goum alX”
me “ oh yaa ….hmm bas2al a7mad elyoum w bgoolch”

I hugged her tight, couldn’t help not to, i could hear her voice breaking at the end......I hope all goes well...i hate it when i can’t do anything about things to help her
me “uf is there anything i can do?”
fa6ooma “noo i’ll be ok”

she looked down at her phone it was 12 already

fa6ooma “shit i have to head home, mom wants to take me dress shopping for 56ooba”

she frowned at that sentence

me “alaa u get a dress, i got nothing ok be grateful hahahahha...AND WHENN IS all this? and i hope ur inviting me otherwise i’ll kill u”
fa6ooma “haha of course if they let me! m3rf sho salfat’hom i think its next weekend mb hatha”
me “SHIT NOWAY”
fa6ooma “uuuh yess”

trrng.........-fa6ooma’s phone-
she looked down and her face cringed when she opened the message

me “is it him?”

she looked at me with an annoyed face and nodded

me “sho kateb?”
fa6ooma “uugh goood morning fa6ma, i hope ur doing well when can i talk to u? …....3ady agoolla NEVER?”
me “hahah duude!”
fa6ooma “fine bagoola fl laail mb mtfayjetella now to ajamla....why’s he so nice again? by the way a7s he likes me, likee like me”
me “really whyy?”
fa6ooma “he keeps trying to convince me enna he’s good for me, and he’s going to do his best to change for me...and m3rf shoo.......che ye8har”

i looked at her with a blank face, and rolled my eyes ...y3ne m3rf sho agoolha! bs teksr 5a6ry fe nafs el wagt

fa6ooma “yaaay sent....”
me “shoo ktaaaaabtiii!”
fa6ooma “hey, maybe later tonight ok ….”
me “BSS?”
fa6ooma “haaih b3d shoo! bassaaa hahaha”

trrng........
it was her phone again...she raised one eye brow while reading it
me “ sho feech?”

she looked up at me with a confused face

fa6ooma “he’s asking if that's my car outside starbucks”

As she was saying that 3 guys in kandooras and one in a suit walked into the coffee shop and one of them......in a clear crisp white kandoora and a perfectly folded 3gal really skinny and tall with pale skin and tiny glasses glanced towards us and i could see his eyes piercing fa6ooma as he smiled, i turned my face to fa6ooma and saw her blank face as she shoved it down staring back at her phone

fa6ooma “lets go”

she whispered

me “whyyyyyy i want to see him 3adel!”
fa6ooma “please ro’9aa maba”
me “uuuuh ok ok yalla “

her face e3tfas awal ma yaa she hurried out before ma ana al7agha, and out of curiosity I turned my head to take a last look and i saw him looking towards the door with a discomforted look
he wasn’t that bad , his nose was shwaya big w his eyebrows r thick with normal sized eyes...he looked geeky cute , he seems nice though

We walked to the parking without a single word, as fa6ooma ignored the sound of a message from her phone........then another one as we reached the car.

she sat in and took a deep breath

fa6ooma “ WHY IS HE IN DUBAAI”
me “ r u ok?”
fa6ooma “now it’ll be all weird bcz i ran out! bs magdart at7ammal aylssssss IN THERE”
me “sho 6arashlch?”
fa6ooma “oh m3rf”

she grabbed her phone and opened the first message and read it out loud

fa6ooma “ hey what’s wrong? did I scare you? haha :p”

then opened the second message

fa6ooma “ Did something happen? you looked ...i don’t know worried........”
me “hmmmmm”
fa6oooooma “ufffff why doesn’t he just leave me alone”
me “haha maybe because to him only yesterday you said YES to marrying him...if u think about it”

she looked up at me and stayed quiet

fa6ooma “shit yaa.....a7s kel el 7arra fe obooy yalsa a76a feeeh......what should i reply enzaain?”
me “just tell him he surprised you w you were going to leave anyways its not about him,, w 7e6i SMILEY or tongue thing! so he dsnt get over concerned or whatever”
fa6ooma “uuuh ok......sent”

I looked down at my phone as it started ringing
fa6ooma looked towards me

fa6ooma “a7mad?”
me “yaaaaaa owaih nsait 3anaaaaaa! i was supposed to send him a message back or something ufff”
fa6ooma “hahah shelliii”

me “ufffff”

*picks up*

me “alo...”

To be Continued

Wed-locked 35

2011-05-13T11:32:00.000-07:00

I carried her into my arms, and took her to the bedroom, with my work bag still in my hands. I couldn't help the feeling of guilt crawling into my stomach, this is bad. She probably hates my guts now uff, thing is I really thought I'd come early. I put her gently into the sheets, and walked away to the closet. I’m too tired to think of anything now. I took off my kandoora, took a shower then sneaked in beside her, quietly. Mafeyya she wakes up, halkaan mafeyya i argue with her and apologize and i don’t know what.

ro’9a
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Woke up in bed, hmmm i don’t remember how i fell asleep yesterday? I turned my head and saw a7mad in deep slumber right beside me. He looked so tired, I could almost hear him snoring, he’s usually a quiet sleeper. He must be really tired. I frowned at him, it really puzzles me how one look at him makes me forget how mad at him I was yesterday, not that i totally forgot, I can’t be too mad at him though right? it’s work after all? Still he could’ve messaged me, my head pained at the thoughts going through it, I numbed them away and got up to go to the bathroom and freshen up, make him regret not coming yesterday badly! I should punish him by not etdal3ing just looking so damn sexy with a ‘don’t touch me’ attitude ….teasing yes! i decided that’s going to be my revenge this time.
I sneaked out of the bathroom quietly took a pair of shorts and a cute sleeveless t-shirt, then went to the main 9ala w got him breakfast to our 9ala, before he wakes up so his head gets messed up thinking wth is wrong with me i should be mad at him. playing with his head yes!
I sat fl 9ala flipping through the channels, i slept really early, its only 8:30 am and i’m wide awake!

kamn dgeega after, he came out of the bedroom in his pjz, and looked at me with what I can tell is a guilty look. I gave him a cold smile and looked back at the tv. I saw his focus moving to the table, with food on it

a7mad “Good morning”
me “hey”
a7mad “ha akel mnoo?”
me “ 7agk..”

he came and sat carefully 3daly, I saw him checking me out, but pretended i didn’t notice.

a7mad “ u look good today”
me “ ya?”

I said ignoring it staring at the TV, Greys Anatomy was on, I’ve already seen this episode so i’m not really paying attention to it...
I saw him at the corner of my eyes picking up his sandwich and taking the first bite, then turned his head towards me, still uneasy, not knowing what to expect. I could hear the loud ‘ MUHAHAHA’ in my head.. it feels good to mess with his mind, besides he kind of deserves it

a7mad “ so i was thinking of taking a day off today”
me “ why?”

I said coldly...acting stupid

a7mad “ mmm y3ne to spend time with u …”

I ignored him for kamn minute, i could see his eyes laser-ing at me wanting me to turn my head, but i pretended i was so engrossed in what was happening on tv....then 3gb ma laf rasa, i also said coldly

me “oh sorry, ha?”
a7amd “mashay”
me “ok”

he probably expected me to ara’9ee here! NEVER
he finished his sandwich then ylas 3al krsi w stared at me...

a7mad “ ro’9a stop acting like your not mad at me..”

i looked at him with a fake confused look

me “why would i be?”
a7mad “mmmm y3ne i came ams, w i saw kelshay”
me “what kelshay?”
a7mad “oh y3ne i saw elcandles, wl dinner put nicely w kelshaay i swear i’m sorry”

I have to play this part, BE strong ro’9a!!

me “hahahah ya i was bored gelt asaweeli jaw”
a7mad “oh....but..”

I wanted to know what he says, bs he was quiet, magal shay. maba yt7arani HEAD over heels for him! which he probably does....but still y3ne

a7mad “uf now im late even if i want to go to work, i don’t like going late. mmm “
me “heh”
a7mad “ ma7a6ait alarm, i thought i’d spend the day with you bs shaklech matbainy”

he looked at me and pouted with his piercing puppy eyes...Must resist!

me “who me ? la whatever y3ne”
a7mad “ aha! So u ARE mad at mee!”
me “what la i didn’t say that”
a7mad “ you said whatever!
me “so?”
a7mad “STOP IT!”
me “stop what”
a7mad “UFFFF MASHAY”

he got up angryy w bannad el bab of the bedroom behind him bl gw.. hahhaha so now HE is mad at me? 9dg ena he’s such a baby! gelt ba6la3 mn elroom 3nad fee, so re7t our bedroom to take a shaila, w i saw him holding his laptop shooting glares at me as i walked in. he couldn’t resist not saying anything

a7mad “SO ‘3bt elyoum 3AL fa’9ee!”

I stopped took a breath and turned to him

me “ lateels u blame me ana magltellik 5eth ejaza enzain!”
a7mad “bs ams i didn’t come so GLT ba3aw’9ch today!”

i rolled my eyes, w b3dain 7asaita 6efar, he stormed up and came to me

a7mad “i’m sorry laaaaa”
me “why didn’t u msg me enzain?”
a7mad “ I KNEWWWWW u were mad at meeeeeee”

i shot him a glare!

a7mad “ok ok t3arfeen when kaif che oh we’ll finish in half an hour, 30 more 30 more, then the time was too late fa glt etha a6arsh msg baza3lch anywayz, fa i’ll c u face to face w when i came you were sleeping, and aand mn ams gltelhom ana mb yay bachr! “

me “i hate u”

he pouted, trying to make me take it back, bs no not yet...
I turned my back and wanted to walk to the 9ala , bs fa2a he held my hand and pulled me back towards him

me “ayyyy”
a7mad “ 3awartch?”

he said with a worried face, i looked at him with an angry look and nodded yes although it didn’t hurt at all
he took my hands softly w garaba mn his face and placed a soft kiss on my wrist while looking straight into my eyes. i succeeded in keeping a straight glaring face, ignoring his seduction!
he took my hand w placed it behind his back and spoke softly

a7mad “cmonnn quiet the act i know that you love me”
me “no i hate u, roo7 eldawam “
a7mad “ and leave u hanging here wanting me, la 7aram i wouldn’t do something so crueel”

he grinned , still hoping for my frown to go away...

a7mad “hmmm i know something you can’t resist”

he brought his face and started kissing my neck, resist resist resist.....resist resist ! this is what’s in my brain! uhh i shouldn’t give him the satisfaction he wants! he’ll think he can solve everything this way b3dain
he took his face back and analyzed my expression, which was still a cold one , with my head dropped down, and a glare shooting out

a7mad “no? nothing? uf i give up”

he went w dug his face on bed. I went w sat 3dala, when he noticed i was there gam w ylas straight up looking at me

a7mad “9dg, what do u want me to do?”
me “nothing”
a7mad “bs you know how much i hate it when ur za3lana menni! especially since makan intentional and and yals a3aw’9ch now.....or trying to”
me “ bs maba shay”
a7mad “ Listen..”
he got up and bent down infront of me, holding my hands

a7mad “ next time this happens, and i stay late fl dawam, and I even MIGHT not make it i’ll send u a message..ok?”

he said with a broken voice. i nodded with a frown

a7mad “asef...I was mad too kent mt7ams ...but work is work!”

I put my arms around his neck and gave him a hug, and he hugged me back then pulled his head back to see my face

a7mad “a7een r’9aity?”
me “ hehe yes a7san..”
a7mad “daloo3a!”
me “ what!”
a7mad “mashay hehee”

he grinned w got up fast

me “ daloo3 ma7ad ‘3airk enzain !”
a7mad “ whaaaat maglt shay”

he started laughing at me. ‘3abee wa7d haha a7ba !

a7mad “you want to do anything?”
me “mmmmmm like?”
a7mad “owwww tbain nroo7 YAS hotel??”
me “ but there we have to spend a nighttt w u can’t skip another day of work”
a7mad “ oh trueee ummm JBR?”
me “ lunch w walking around?”
a7mad “ yaaaa”
me “ meee and yooou”

I said eb dala3a awana, he put his hand around my waists and brought his face closer placing a kiss on my neck.

a7mad “meee and yooou”

he whispered softly to my ears. One thing led to another and before we knew it it was already noon.
a7mad “ yallla nbadel w nrooooooo7”
me “ can’t we stay on this bed forever?”
I snuggled to him and squeezed one of his arms hugging it

a7mad “ haha well technically we can bs ull get bored eventually so yalla lets go enjoy the day and come back here tonight”

he winked at me, both of us shaggeen elwayh, with a wider smile than the other, he sat up b3dain we went and changed and stuff

and went out, yes just me and him, felt like a honeymoon today, i ignored the cramps in my stomach to not ruin this blissful nice day,

which leaves me wondering how did I get so lucky? I do love him to bits

a7mad
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can’t I just travel with her and runaway?

if only

<3

Wed-locked 34

2011-02-03T14:24:00.000-08:00

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D

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he glared at me then shook her head, then she softly layed her head on the pillow, i think she’s telling me that she wants to sleep!

me “Ta3bana”
ro’9a “haai shway, feya rgad”
me “fineeee lets sleep”

I kissed her forehead w 7a6ait rasi 3edal her shoulder and closed my eyes
I felt her hand reach for mine and i held it tight

Tonight I can say that i am definitely, with no doubt, in every way

truly happy...

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Rodha
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Thank god its the weekend, i don’t want him to leave me home alone. uff t3abt mn el loneliness, I opened my eyes w shfta there on the bed, with his eyes closed peacefully.
I got out of bed went to freshen up in the bathroom, brush my teeth, fix my hair, and put some perfume and snuck back in under the sheets cuddling up to him. its 11 am he should wake up anyways, giving myself excuses.
I laid there my head near his warm chest, closed my eyes, a couple of minutes passed and I could feel him moving a bit, starting to wake up.
He opened his eyes squinting, looking down at me, I whispered

me “ good morning”

He stretched a bit and sat up

a7mad “ shit what time is it?”

I got up w looked at him, gah i was expecting a good morning back at the leasT? oh well

me “mmm 11 laaish?”
a7mad “I have a stupid meeting at 2!”
me “Whaaat?? but today’s a saturday!!”

he looked at me and pouted

a7mad “i knoww uff maaaba arooo7”
me “enzain donnt goo”
a7mad “ haha i can’t just not go, i wish i could tho uhoo, its just gonna be for an hour tho...hopefully”

I looked away from him with a frown and dug my head between my knees, hiding my teary eyes, m3rf sho feeni mstwya daloo3a, but i REALLY dont want him to goo !

I felt his hand on my back as he brought his face closer to mine and spoke softly

a7mad “heyy what’s wrong..”

I lifted my head with a frown and looked at him

me “ I don’t want u to goo”

He looked at me and smiled

a7mad “its not like i want to go enzain,,bs its work sho asaweee”
me “cant u t2ajLa to tomorrow or something y3ne laish elyoooum”
a7mad “ i wishhh 9adgeeni, bs hayail wafd they came from the US w theyre flying back tonight, so we have to sign the papers today”

I looked down at my hands with a sad face

a7mad “ enzain shoofee its still 11 im not going until 1:30 wla shay che! lets do something, u want to go out?”

I shook my head, and mumbled

me “ maba..”
a7mad “ mmmmm later today?”

I looked at him bs didn’t reply....I had most of the day planned in my heaaaad w a7een he ruins it with his stupid work!

He crawled closer and kissed me on the head

a7mad “I’m going to make it up to you, i promiseeee”

he smiled childishly...so i gave in to his charm.......like I always do !

me “finee”

I let out a sighh and laid back on the bed looking at the ceiling

a7mad “ u dont want breakfast?”
me “mmmm ya bs im not in the mood to get out of the room”
a7mad “u want me to get u smthn mn elma6ba5?”

I looked at him and gave him a shy nod, i don’t like it when he offers to do so much for me, but i’m seriously not in the mood!!

I grabbed my phone scrolling down my bbm contacts,, hmmm opened fa6oomaz convo

-RAWda- : :)
faToooMZ : HALLAAAAhhhh :D
-RAWda- : WACha dowing today!
faToooMZ : hmmmmmmmm well i do need to talk to u asap! wanna meet up later? wla busy with ur hubby?
-RAWda- : YES lets meet up! around 2? ;)
faToooMZ : Yeeyaaaa =D
-RAWda- : i’ll call yaaa
faToooMZ : i’ll be waiting (: sh5baar a7mad weyaachh
-RAWda- : (y) hehee :$
faToooMz : a5eeeran! 7mdella i was getting worried
-RAWda- : haha laaa i made up with him n all, shway ba3adni m8hoora bs whatever, you were right i know he likes me now..
faToooMz : im always right B)
-RAWda- : ahaaaaaa.......i think jra7ta fl hospital i said mean things.... he kinda cried when he was talking bout to me...DONT Tell anyone he’ll kill me:)
faToooMz : hahaah cuute! omg yal shereera! it takes a lot to make a guy cry =|
-RAWda- : i didn’t do it on purpose ok! he made me cry tooooooo!
faToooMz : hahah enzain enzain yalla i’ll talk to you later, :*
-RAWda- : seeeeee ya

He walked in on me smiling to my phone, with the two plates in his hand with 2 folded 5ubz lebnany on each plate

a7mad “hmmmmmm mno m5allennich tbtsmaain all this 3al 9b7”
me “ummmmm no oneeE”

I said teasing him still smiling widely, his face kind of changed, he took the plates w put them on the side table , then he shot a glare at me

a7mad “ayy who is it?”
me “ mashaaay im just meeting with a secret admirer when ur busy with ur work thing”

I smiled while raising my eyebrows, like this is revenge for him leaving me, haha as if he did it on purpose, mskeen walla y3anee mennii

a7mad “fine”

he said under his breath pretending not to care then took the two plates w ra7 9alatna... I got up walked behind him w sat 3dala on the chair, where he opened the TV saket, then turned his head to me in impatience

a7mad “enzain where r u meeting ur admirer?”
me “mmmm HEE didn’t tell me yet “

I said, stressing the he, to annoy him

a7mad “ is this u punishing me for going to WORK?”
me “yes u know, i have to find entertaiment for when you are not around....which is always”
a7mad “ what do u mean by that ana doum hnee ok!”

i smiled, i love how he’s taking this way too seriously, I saw him look down at the sofa, before i could see what he’s looking at, he rushed and grabbed my phone in his hand

me “AYYYYYYYYY”

He got up reaching it upward so I don’t take it, oh nooo he’s going to open the bbm? really? shit what did i tell fa6ooma bout him mat’thakaaaaaaar

me “a7maaaaaaaaaad”
a7mad “ tell meeee wla i’ll see for myself”

I jumped to grab it bs mawa9alt

a7mad “oneeeeeee”

UFF! i hate hal 7arakaaaaa! i stood there folded my arms in anger and stared at him, while he was doing his so called count down

he saw my face fa nazela w put it jdami still holding it tight

a7mad “ enzain bs gooleeli mno”
me “ no..”

I held the BB to take it bs he was still holding it tight, i gave him a glare

a7mad “mno? “
me “AHHHH ITS fa6ooma okaaaaay! “

he let go of it when glt esemha, thank god

a7mad “oh....hehee”
me “sho u really thought I would go out with a guy y3ne?”
a7mad “laaa bss knt aba a3arf y3nee”
me “ maknt a3arf hal gad t’3ar 3alay”

I smiled teasingly holding the BB in my hand

a7mad “ of course i do, enti my wife 3al fa’9ee”

he grabbed me between his arms w squeezed a hug

a7mad “ miiiiiine all mine hahah”

I laughed hugging him back tight, He tends to have this effect, you can’t be mad at him for long
he let go then with our bodies still pressed close together he looked into my eyes and brought his face closer to mine kissing me
he took my breath away.....a7baa wayd a7baaa ahhhh i love himm! I kissed back passionately, longing for this, he lifted his head slowly looking at me through his barely opened eyes

a7mad “woah”

I blushed and bit my lip smiling... I was paralyzed by his charm.. he squinted his eyes looking at me

a7mad “ have you been practising...wait “

he brought his face closer again and kissed me, then took his face away, i just stood there in awe enjoying the situation with a teasing smile

a7mad “ hahha i think i forgot how you taste like.....ahh i miss u”

he said with his low deep voice, he looked like he was thirsty for blood or something as he pushed me down 3al sofa fl 9ala, i just gave in to his desires.... of course

a7mad
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WHyyy whyy whyyyy do I have to go to work! this is so unfair uhoooo

I looked towards the tv in the sofa to see the time it was 1, I had to get up to get ready....
I got off her and sat up, she looked at me with her puppy innocent eyes, as if she just did nothing to me, haha 7beebty .

me “its 1 already ufffff”

she crawled towards me and kissed the side of my lip, teasing me, then she spoke with a low sexy voice

ro’9a “ we can continue later”

she winked, planting a smooch softly on my cheek then stood up reaching for my hand, ahhh she knows exactly the right string to pull to make me want her more …..
I took her hand and walked into the room and went to the dressing room taking off my PJ, and took out my ke7lee kandoora that she likes. 6la3t mn eldressing room with my ‘3etra and 3gal in Labs el ga7feya
she was sitting on the bed on her BB

me “ mabtetjahzain 3ashan te6l3een?”

she lifted her head looked at me paused then spoke softly

ro’9a “mmm la she just told me something came up she can’t make it”
me “ oh...3ady ba7awl ma at2a5aar walla”

she forced a smile, you can tell by her sad eyes. I know she really wanted to see her friend, w roo7a im ditching her uf I hate doing this wain sara ba5aleeha teels wyaha
I grabbed my phone w dialed sara’s number

me “ halaaaaaa lil sis”
sara “ heyyy sh5bark?”
me “okkkay Lsn sara r u busy today?”
sara “yeppp there’s a big party today laish?”
me “ oh mmmm ok never mind byeeeee hav fun”
sara “haha ok byee”

I hung up the phone looking at her disappointed, she glared at me raising one eyebrow

ro’9a “ i don’t need a baby sitter haha im fine”

re7t ajrabelha , I felt bad i don’t like seeing her like this

me “ walla asef,,,etha kan eb eedi knt ylast 3ndch 6ool elyoum”

she smiled and hugged me then let go, looking happier than before

ro’9a “ its okay, i’ll find something to do till your back”

she winked at me....hmmm i wonder if that’s a hint for something, ana ahbal ma afham hal hints so I just smiled to her

she looked at me then giggled

ro’9a “hahaha u look funny wya ur ga7feyya seer elbs el’3tra”
me “ e7m u mean i look hot in it i know, bs 5alnee aseer atjahhaz”

I got up w she came with me to the dressing area, lbast el ‘3etra w 7a6ait the perfume then looked at the mirror fixing my ‘3etra, she sneaked under my arm and hugged me looking at the mirror

ro’9a “ i love this kandoora on you”

she sighed

me “ hahahha why do u think I wore it”

I winked at her leaning to kiss her head. she took a deep breath ba3dain

ro’9a “ aaaand you smell so good ahhhhh”
me “ don’t worry i’ll be back for yooou, oh w ba5alee here keys 7ag sayarat elnissan its extra ucan take it”

she let go of me still smiling, 7emdella her mood is better a bit now, maybe I should buy her something on the way back

me “ yalla bat2a55er lazm a6la3 so I be there before them”
ro’9a “hmmmmmm ok”

garabt rasii to hers, for a last kiss before u go bs she put her hands softly on my lips

ro’9a “save that for when you’re back”

she winked teasing me, then gave me a quick kiss on my cheek

me “ayyy”
ro’9a “what?”
me “ fine fineeee i’ll save it for when im back! ”

she gave me a wide grin

me “ yalla see u “
ro’9a “byee”

6la3t to my car with a feeling of guilt for leaving her on a Saturday, hopping this meeting will finish fast!

ro’9a
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s5eeefa fa6ooma! ahhh i hate hate canceling plans, of any sort !
w just when i’m starting to have fun a7mad leaves to his job thing
maaaaybe i should prepare for us a sexy dinner thingg with candles and soft music oh yessss!
I dressed up, wore any 3ybaayaa and headed to Emirates Mall!
i kept repeating in my head, lingerie , candles, anything sexy i could find, and an only music Cd kind of thing....
I hope he doesn’t reach home before me....hmmm let me message him something indirect about that

To : a7madyy

“ 7beeby when et5alle9 let me know when te6la3 mn elshareka....so I “freshen” up ;) can’t wait to taste your lips again...”

*sent*

I parked my car in, and started my hunt,,,,it’s so hard to find sexy lingerie in here ! one shop after the other until I gave up and went to Harvey Nichols ! looked and looked in until I found one! Almost perfect!
lacy and black, with a soft light pink bow that is easy to open, without a second thought i went and payed for it.
As I was walking to zara home, and these shops for candles i got back a message

From :a7madyy

“ ay ana fl dawam 3aib....don’t seduce me like this :’(...can’t wait to lay my eyes on ya babe ;)”

I couldn’t help not smile widely at the message, people probably think i’m a weirdo ah who cares hehe

It was 4 pm by now, i think i’ve roamed everywhere, I kept fe balii enna sara told me before if he says he’ll be back by this hour it means he’ll be back in that hour plus 3! so 3 plus 3 is 6 aham shay i be back before 6 !
I went around shopping aimlessly, i don’t want to go sit in home alone, i love shopping alone though it’s relaxing!
5athtly pinkberry then went to the car it was still too early, so I went to the saloon to blow dry my hair, why the hell not, you know?
I guess he’ll send a message when he’s almost done anyways...
I finished my hair by 7 t8reeban
then headed back home

Da5ant el place, b3dain i got my candles w placed them around fl 9alaa, enna we have dinner there, then the left over candles in the bedroom, a5af hnak ned3amhom w y6ee7oon 3al ar’9, yes i’m weird that way! haha I got so excited placed some rose petals around the chairs and bed, i didn’t get to do this in my honeymoon or lailat elda5la,
vanilla, lavender, rose, grape? ahhhhh what to spray around, he always said he loved the smell of raspberries when a7e6 the perfume, let me spray it around the two rooms
light the candles ? mmm maybe not yet batraya until he messages me at least...
I got out the plates from the small cabinet and put them nicely on the coffee table fl 9ala, and set it nicely for a ‘dinner’ 9a7 bneeles 3al ar’9 bs lets make it romantic!

ahhhhh it all look breath taking, i looked over at the clock mktoob 9 ...hmm akeed he’ll be here any minute! I went to check my phone...nothing …....
glt baseer atlabbas !
I went to the dressing room put on the new lace lingerie i bought ! hides all the fsheela shows the right curves, just the way i like it :) !
i fixed my hair a bit , 3adalt my make up, put on some red lipstick, creams perfumes

looked over my blackberry every 2 seconds, it was 10 new, still nothing, should I message him wla that will annoy him? i’m kind of hungry sho ha
I was ready wtith no candles lit yet, i couldn’t lay on the bed because all the rose petals are there ba3ad

ylast 3al side sofa fl bedroom, looking down at my phone, where is he, awana an hour w he’ll come ya right.....

i hate hate hate people who say bayyoon wagt w eyoon later! a5as e7sas........
I went to the 9ala opened the tv w ylast 3al sofa.....starting to lose hope of him coming

all this for nothing? uff …...i looked over the channels not really thinking of whats on more like mentally preparing myself for when he comes through the door let me call him channa et2a55ar wayd

*calling a7maady*

toot tooot

tooot tooooot

toooot tooot

…......

*end dial*

mayrd ba3ad? hmmm let me leave him a message

To: a7maady

ba3dk?

*sent*

You know that sore feeling ,fo when you’re so prepared for something and...it just doesn’t happen because you’re too excited? it’s like me with lunch today feeling all over again, but much worse, i looked down at my blackberry and saw that fee message

From: a7maady

‘almost done’

i hate this
that’s all he has to say? ALMOST done? its frikking 11 something now......why did I even bother, how stupid of me
he doesn’t deserve this, awana sa3a thalath bard......ya right
should I just go to bed? magdar anam w ana che ma8hoora, i dont want t see him i know enna bkoon pissed off when ho rad, w che he had dinner bs i didn’t eat a thing.....i’m not even hungry anymore, w mat’3adait

uf whatever......I don’t care i kept telling myself while the tears from eyes flew out
it pinched......deep down in my stomach, it hurts....even if ho mb 8a9da......even if he doesn’t know i’m here waiting for him this much.........it still hurts to be ditched

layed on the sofa with my hair dangling down
the low voices of the tv vanishing into a background noise, tears stinging my face
and the pain deep down of feeling ignored, unworthy, and stupid

I went to sleep in that crappy feeling when the time was approaching 12 am.......

I cringed at the pain stinging in my stomach

cramps?

a7mad
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SHITTTTTTT IM SO LATE, ufffff i hate work!!
I rushed into my car, not even calling ro’9a back i just want to get home t3abt ya5ii

I parked the car at home looked at the clock reading “1:00 am”
shit walla et2a5arna this time, stupid new clients

I walked up to our room, in this quiet house, when I was near the door before opening it, i could smell the reeking scent of rasberry coming out, yummmm a7ba i thought to myself
I slowly opened the door, w noticed the dim lights, w the coffee table had candles w the 97oon properly put on it

then my eyes went to the sofa...oh no there she laid asleep on her stomach, with her hair flowing around her, and her perfect sleepy face, and her.....oh she was all dressed up for me?
This is all for me?

this is when I realized

i screwed up pretty bad this time

what to do now?!

3eedkm mbarak

2010-11-16T05:18:00.000-08:00

hey readers!
misss u guyz =O
3eedkm mbarak! 3sakm mn 3wadat el3eed =D

hope its a nice 3eed for all of ya

xoxo

wed-locked :*

Sorry In Advance

2010-10-01T17:59:00.000-07:00

Hey u guys!
I have some bad news

I was planning to write a post before all this mess starts, but didn't get to

so i'll be taking some time off,
perhaps 4 months or so enshalla

REALLY REALLY SORRY, bs my schedule is so messed up and full! iffff iffffffffffffff (which i doubt it) i find time i wILL write a post

bs until then

Lots of love,
wed-locked

3eedkum mbarak !

2010-09-10T16:21:00.000-07:00

DEAR READERS!!

kel sna wntoo 6aybeeeeeeeeen w ta8abala Allah 6a3atkum!

3sakm mn el 3aydeeen wL salmeeeeeeeeen

Lots of kisses and hugs, from Dubai

Sincerely,
Wed-locked

<3

Wed-locked 33

2010-08-31T15:50:00.000-07:00

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D

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As soon as we were home, sara walked me to our room, then excused herself. I went w sat fe our 9ala t3bana...

.......

a7mad “tbain takleen shay?”

I continued looking at my Blackberry that I held in one hand and shook my head

a7mad “akeed?”

I know he was just trying to make a conversation so I ignored him

a7mad “so ur just not gonna talk to me?”

I looked at him for a sec, saying nothing then looked back again at my phone, he walked away za3lan to the room, ksar 5a6ri a bit bs i ignored it.
I watched tv until fl lail, a7mad walked in with a plate for me , 7a6a on the table in front of me

a7mad “ here’s 3shach, please keli mb zain che”

........

I laid down that afternoon on the couch, like how I have been for a while, until about 5 when a7mad came in

....

He had his head down with a gloomy face, I sat up and looked at him w decided to go for it

me “Salam 3alaikm”

He froze in his place for a second then lifted his head looking at me in disbelief

him “wa...w 3alaikm el salam”
me “how r u?”

I could see the anguish flow away and a pleased smile draw its way on his face

.....

me “same.... u hungry?”

He almost jumped from excitement nodding

.....

He said with a wide grin putting his briefcase next to the door and rushing out...
I’ve really missed him..... I forgot what a kid he is................katkoot.....

.....

a7mad “ha? sho what hehe?”
me “why are you staring at me like that”
a7mad “oh heh............I just......I’ve missed you....so much”

he said with a sad smile. I smiled back, I wanted to hug him, every part of my body wanted it just get up and hug him, but I didn’t.......I said I’d start by talking to him... this can’t just go back like it used to, he has to understand that he can’t just lie to me

....

me “I just thought u learned your lesson....heh”

a7mad “You have to know something ro’9a....you’re the only one i love......I know you don’t believe me now....but I hope one day u do....because I mean it”

......

a7mad “I’ve missed this”

I smiled and nodded to his sentence.....this guy makes my heart melt......... that is one thing i can not deny

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Ro'9aa
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a7mad “Oh! 9a7 My mom wanted me to tell u enna she wants to throw a ‘este8bal’ thing for u”
me “ say whaaaaaa”
a7mad “mmm este8bal y3ne 3zeemaa for a 3roos”
me “ i know what it means!” *glare* “ bss for me? really? why now?”

i looked down at the jebs on my leg and hand and looked back at him with a frown

a7mad “ oh mmmm madri ymkn when it gets better, bs she told me to open the salfa with you”

he smiled widely to me and let out a small ‘heh’

me “shoo?”
a7mad “mmmmm mashay...”
me “ayy sho mashayy!”
a7mad “its just that esta’3rabt shway when mama galatly bs estanast nafs el wagt”
me “hehe because she hates me? akeed she feels sorry for me a7een cz im injured”

I said laughing

a7mad “may5e9a she doesn’t hate u”

he said in a low voice, i looked at him and laughed

me “seriously...haha who r u kidding?”
a7mad “la2 bss...it’s not hate 9adgeeni.... mama just has a hard time accepting people”
me “ahaaa”

I said teasingly...he let out a sigh then continued eating his food... 5alla9 gablee we were kind of quiet after that madri laish
he got up from the floor

a7mad “7emdella 3al ne3ma”

and he bent down kissing my head, i looked up at him with innocent wide eyes
masa7t my forehead where he kissed after ma he got up w he saw me with a surprised look

a7mad “ayyyyyyyy laish!”
me “umm ummm u just ate”

I said msta7yta.....

a7mad “soo? tufal raylech 3adiii”

I made a disgusted face at him.....the word ‘ew’ was all over my face!

a7mad “enzain enzain sorry!”

he said in a disappointed voice going to the bathroom to wash his hands
he came out w ylas 3dali lookin at me

me “ay ma7b 7ad yshoofni w ana akel”
a7mad “tbaini a’3ame’9 3yooni mathalan?”

I pointed at the tv

me “watch that”
a7mad “mabaaa ana 7urrr kaify”
me “fine i wont eat!”
a7mad “ro’9aaa! atma95ar atma95ar haa haa”

he got up took the remote w ylas 3al sofa behind me

a7mad “keli!”
me “hehe ok a7een i will”

5ala9t aklee in a few minutes w a7mad helped me up to the bathroom to wash my hands w came back on the sofa
he held my hand in his as we sat down on the sofa tight while stroking it
I pulled my hand away as i gave him a guilty smile
and there it was, that disappointed face again
he stared into space for a while until he spoke

a7mad “ro’9a...”
me “mmm yes?”
a7mad “when we were in the hospital....you said...enna you ‘hate’ me....did you mean it?”

He looked at me with sad eyes, wain awadee wayhee, i don’t know how to answer this! My face changed in discomfort

me “umm
me “at that time a bit...”
a7mad “hmm...”

he said dropping his head down between his shoulders...he looked devastated... bs sho asawee he asked, w i just answered ...hmm

a7mad “ oh by the way.......the other day fl hospital......kalamt 7anan..”

I paused for a second then looked at him, pretending i knew nothing about that

me “ oh u did?”

I said coldly, pretending enna I don’t care

a7mad “mmm hai.. i gave her a lecture to back off...w ena there was never something between me and her w to never call me again wla babale’3 3alaiha elshr6a”
me “oh”
a7mad “look ro’9a...im being honest wyach w agoolch kelshay 3shan matz3leen 3alay again...”

i looked at him and nodded... a feeling of relief hit me ....
he sighed w 6ala3ni with a frown

a7mad “please stop it pleaaaase atrajach”
me “haa?”
a7mad “ laish ur still being so cold it’s not faair!”

he said while folding his hands in anger, I noticed his eyes getting watery when I looked at him, a grin drew its way on my face bdoon ma a7s, he was just tooo ADORABLE!

me “laish t9eeeee7 ?!”

he noticed my grin while saying that, fa he glared at me with an angry face

a7mad “im nooot enzain w may’9a7kk”
me “im not laughingg”

I looked at him trying to hold back my grin..i think im being heartless! BS WAYD KTKOOOT I JUST WANNA HUG HIM

a7mad “Ana el ‘3L6an i be myself jdamch! uf walla this never happened to me before KELLA MENNCH! “
me “ana asfaaa”

gltella while giving him a frown, sho agoolla? ur too cute i cnt stop smiling? doum y76ni fe this position! elly i don’t know what to say

a7mad “ I know enny ana a7bch more than u like me, bs er7meeni shway! consider my feelings for a change”

he was sitting with his back sunk into the sofa and a frown on his face , eyeing me

me “i hate it when u say that...”
a7mad “say what?”
me “enna u love me more than i love u”

he straightened his back bser3a with a smirk on his face

a7mad “ So u do love me!”
me “may5e9 ha bs, like just because you show it all the time doesn’t mean its true”
a7mad “ mmm i dont get it”
me “ like ur always romantic w madri kaif bs i never know what to say back...enta u’ve talked to girls before so u know what to say, ana mb mt3awda”

he opened his eyes wide at me

a7mad “u think i talk to ALL Girls like this?? SHO tet7araini! ana mb player!”
me “laaa bs enaaa.......”
a7mad “bs enaa shooo?”

he said teasingly, slightly offended.

me “mm nothing, never mind”

I said frowning, with a sad voice. A smile made its way to his face while he murmured in a low voice

a7mad “katkoota”
me “ SEEE”

he looked at me confused

a7mad “haa??”
me “u always say things like that, and u leave me tongue tied not knowing what to say back”
a7mad “u don’t have to say anything back hehe...”

he chuckled, amused by my struggling

me “bs... then you end up getting hurt...i mean u just cried because of it...”
a7mad “ awalaaan i didn’t cry, thaneyan i was just mad because .......ma7asait i deserved all that cold shoulder you gave me for days.....”
me “well...”

i looked down at my lap za3lana

me “ at first knt m3a9ba 3alaik,,,,then the next day i was just in pain.....then after that i just didn’t know what to say to u even though i missed you so much”

I said as a tear escaped my eyes, I quickly wiped it out
he on the other hand was in utter silence, quietly listening to what i have to say, he then slowly reached for my hand and tucked it into his

a7mad “ i don’t understand why u do that! u don’t have to come up with something to say to me! just come up to me and say hiii walla that would’ve done the trick,,,,u dont have to be romantic with me...u never were and i still loved u.....i mean i still love u”

I looked down at our hands locked together and blushed, while he brought his face closer to mine and softly kissed my forehead. I rested my head on his chest as he wrapped his arms around me. I took this chance to take in all of his scent, his warmth, his........everything

it seemed too perfect to last, his scent was breath taking, i miss this, i miss his touch, how could someone stay mad at someone like him.....magdar! 7abeeeby
a7ebba
i do
but...... I don’t know how to tell him....

knock knock . . .

I felt his hand get tighter around me when we heard the knock

me “emm a7mad?”
a7mad “shhhhhh”

knock knock.......

I looked up at his face and his eyes were closed, seemed like he was absorbing the moment as much as I was...

the voice came muffled from behind the door, it sounded something like sara
girl “ A7maaaaaaaaaaaaaad! “

knock knock...........

he let go of me, stomped his way to the door, and opened it in anger .... katkoot he’s such a child!

a7mad “ HAa haaa na3am??”

the door swang open and his elder sister shai5a was at the door

shai5a “Besmillaaaaaaaaaa! sallem 3ala e5tk atleast !”
a7mad “salam w 3alaikm”

he said mumbling while glaring at her ...

shai5a “a9lan i didn’t come for you!”

she pushed him aside and came 3ndii

shai5a “halla ro’9aaa sh5baarch! Salamat! “

she said all at once, while salem-ing on me with a wide smile on her face. .. Am i the only one who thinks ‘THIS’ is weird hmmm, I smiled and acted nice anyways

me “ 7mdellaa...Allah ysalmch”

a7mad came and sat 3daLee and looked at shai5a suspiciously

a7mad “so? 5ala9 salamtee 3alaiha now wat?”

I looked at a7mad widening my eyes ! ok he’s being kind of rude now 7araam

me “a7mad!”

with that childish face of his he ignored my scolding still looking at his sister in annoyance

shai5a “ aih entaaaaa e7trm 3mrk haaa”

she said teasingly, with a smile on her face

shai5a “zain mennii i miss u awanyyy yaya azooork! mn ma tzawajt mt5ash fl ‘3rfa 24\7 !! “

i chuckled, is that why his mom hates me? Am i stealing her son from her? hmmmm
then she continued. . .

shai5a “ SO i came na’3za 7ag mrtk shway”

she said while winking at me

shai5a “ tara maystweee u steal him from us hal gad! i know heee’s ur husband and all bs hez u5ooy ba3ad!”

I felt his hands wrapping around me faj2a! ho kan yals waray w he hugged me and looked at his sister

a7mad “5alha t9rgniii kaifhaaa”

ana hnee gfaaa6t my face turned bright red! it’s not like im used to physical contact in front of other people! especially NOT people i don’t know that well! ahhhhhh...i tried shaking his hands off me, bs his grip was too tight for me, he let go himself a little while after that, shai5a was laughing at my face! gaf6a
I gave a7mad the scariest glare i could come up with! while he gave me a guilty grin

Ylasna shway zyada w solafna for a while

shai5a “ O may gaawd! its 2 am already? shit I need to go sleep!”
me “its 2?!!”

She jumped up off her seat and said bye closing the door behind her.

a7mad “ A5555”

he stretched his arms and legs yawning, then looked at me frowning

a7mad “ta3ban bs maba anaaaaaam”
me “hehe laish u dont want to sleep?”
a7mad “why else? i don’t want today to end ana wayd far7an ok !! a5af shay ystwee bachr w moody ystwe 5araa”
me “ ay latgool chee! “

I struggled into scooting enna akoon 3dala, then used my ‘good’ hand and put it around his neck attempting to hug him, then let go smiling to him
I hate the fact that i hurt him, or the fact that I am capable of such thing so easily, is it me or is he just too 7asas? m3rf bs i don’t like seeing him sad, he’s my husband after all
he had a peaceful smile on his face

a7mad “what if I’m dreaming”
me “hahaa! s5eef ur not ok, lets go to sleep a7een yalla i’m tired too..”
a7mad “hmmm ok”

We sat on the bed beside each other in peace, If i had to list the happiest moments of my life, this would definitely make the list
I was so tempted to kiss him......bs.......est7ait, i know ho raylee laish ast7iii bs i DNU! UF Laish ana cheeeee

a7mad
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Every nerve in my body was telling me to bend and taste her lips that i’ve been craving for so long
but I resisted.... ana youm za5ait eedha she moved awaay shway but umm she just kinda hugged me does that count?
should I? Should I not?

I unconsciously turned my head and stared at her lips while I was silently arguing with myself, She felt my stare w 9addat 9ooby

ro’9a “eem sho feek a7mad?”

she said with her charming smile, 7beebty i miss her smile! I couldn’t control the words that came out of my mouth, I just went ahead with it, what have I got to loose?

me “ I’m thinking of whether to kiss you or not”
ro’9a “w ur decision?”

she said while grinning, I decided to tease her shway

me “emmm m3rf what do u think i should do?”

She bit her lip and shrugged her shoulders in innocence, awanha tedalla3
I got up from my place w crawled over her, softly kissing her lips
how much I've missed this feeling
having her, all to myself
I couldn’t stop myself, until I felt her hand push me back, while she pulled her head away a bit
I stared into her face for a while

me “sho feech?”
ro’9a “eeedi”

I quickly jumped off, owaih shit! I accidentally put my body over her hand, nsait 3an her injuryyyyyy!

me “SORRY!”
ro’9a “la 3adi..”

she said with a smile

me “nsaaait”

I said with guilt pointing at her hand

ro’9a “haha a7mad 3adi it doesn’t hurt now bs youm pressure is applied to it”
me “ma7asait fe 3mriii.....i blame u!”

she glared at me then shook her head, then she softly layed her head on the pillow, i think she’s telling me that she wants to sleep!

me “Ta3bana”
ro’9a “haai shway, feya rgad”
me “fineeee lets sleep”

I kissed her forehead w 7a6ait rasi 3edal her shoulder and closed my eyes
I felt her hand reach for mine and i held it tight

Tonight I can say that i am definitely, with no doubt, in every way

truly happy...

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2010-07-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

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a7mad
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I sat in the waiting area since the doctor galatlee atraya barra3
my heart racing and aching all at the same time
..............

i looked at her weirdly....

me "sho 8a9dich leave me alone?"

.............

she looked up at me pissed off

ro'9a "i told u to stop..."
me "ro'9a sho feech? Is it your hand?"
ro'9a "NO a7mad it is not my hand..it's u..."
me "me?"
ro'9a "yes a7mad i know...you don't have to hide it anymore"
me "hide? what the hell are you talking about ro'9a!"
ro'9a " a7amd please stop acting stupid fatooma told me awal shay enna she 'heard' how people keep talking about how i ruined your plans of getting married to another woman and i got in the way bs ana glt laa .....akeed chatheb....making excuses for u......and then 7anan herself....."

.........................

me "noo...ro'9a it was nothing like that....w i told u ams my past is my past what I did back then doesn't matter anymore.."

ro'9a "do u know what all the girls call me a7mad? do u?"

.........................

I can't bare seeing her like this......

it's all my fault

.......

Ro'9a

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Crying in my mommy's lap sure made me feel better..
...........

I looked at him and sighed....i feel so tired i don't care anymore whatever they want to do with me...

a7mad " 3amty ...3amii... lata3boon 3markum ana batm wyaha w babat hnee..."

...........

me " I haatee u..."

I said with a resentful tone as I held part of his shirt tight in my fist..

me "I hate u..."

I repeated while still being held in his arms...
his warmth drove me to sleep ....

............

fta7ti 3ainy w looked around until I found him...he had pulled the small sofa as close as he can to my bed while his two arms were folded under his head on the side of my bed...

i noticed his phone was beside one of his hands
.....
opened his calls w i noticed enna he had a miscall just an hour ago mn ra8am '3areeb....without hesitating I dialed the number and held the phone to my ears...

toooot

tooooooot

tooooooooot

girl " Hallaa!.......7abeeebiii....i.."

I quickly closed the call before she could hear my breathing..how it became faster......I could recognize that voice anywhere

it was her........it was 7anan....

..........

i could hear him stretch and felt him pick his phone up

a7mad "uff"

all I could here were his footsteps moving away from me ....the door screeched open then a shut.....I opened my eyes and the room was empty......

ra7 yetti9iL feeha?

.............

while I was in deep thought about my emotional and physical state the door of my room flew open...at first I thought it was a7mad but the girly voices told me otherwise

sara "SHhhhhhhh She's aSLEEP SHWAY SHWAY! "
fatooma "oooopss sorry"

...........

me " wait a minute....what time is it??"

they both looked at me with guilty smiles

sara "mmmm about 3 am hehe"

............

atooma "soo how iss ............mmm....."

she looked at sara then looked back at me...

........

sara "hoooww is what?"

fatooma gave me a 'yikes' look...bs ana I was so relaxed about it

me "you mean how is who...."

.........

sara "what's wrong with him??"
me "mmm nothing's particularly wrong with him....per say....maybe his brain bs..."

i said resentfully

sara "weeeeeee r u guys fighting?"

..........

i told her........everything that happened
all that happened yesterday leaving nothing out...she had her mouth open during most of the conversation... I wasn't sure about what that meant....
then when I finished talking she was silent for a few seconds

......

sara "but...."

...........

sara "but.......if he was going to marry her he would have argued with dad about marrying you...but he didn't..... at all......I even talked to him about marrying you and how he felt about it gabel..... and he said he didn't mind getting married "

...........

I fell silent after that thinking....then faj2a the door opens and a7mad walks in........
I looked at him then stared at the phone is his hands

a7mad "oh asef! maknt a3arf enna fe 7ad da5l"

he said when he saw that fatooma was here....he turned to go back out but...

sara " A7MAD! get back in here! now!"

me and fatooma opened our eyes wide at her! what was she trying to do??
he turned looking confused and walked in closing the door behind him

a7mad "yes sara?"

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Ro'9a
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He stood fe mkana looking at her intensely...

sara got up and stood in front of him looking almost as intense as he was

sara “who’s this 7anan person ?”

his eyebrows cringed and he turned his face towards me looking angry..then 6ala3 el ar’9 thinking for a second... then lifted his head up again

a7mad “.... can I please talk to ro’9a..... alone....”
sara “bs u didn’t answer my question...”
a7mad “sara...please”

he said with an angry tone that gave me a shiver........fatooma got up gave me a ‘yikes’ look w 6l3at with sara....
and they closed the door behind them...

I admit it, knt wayd 5ayfa menna ! i’ve never seen him this serious....well i have bs che u know when a person y7asesch ennch msawya shay ‘3ala6 and u get that disgusting feeling in your stomach... i didn’t show it though i folded my arms and looked directly at him trying my hardest to hide the fear inside me...a9lan its not like he’ll do anything to me i kept telling myself
he walked towards me in slow steps.. our very angry stares met only once as he gave his back to me when he got to my bed and sat 3dali..
I could feel his body stiffen in anger... he took a deep breath trying to ease himself i guess..

a7mad “ why did u tell her?”

he said with an angry tone...he has never talked to me this way .....kan 9dg m3a99eb..

me “ everyone else knew y3ne laish a5sh menha...”

he turned towards me surprised at my words with a confused face...still angry though

a7mad “ sho kel7ad? she’s my sister ro’9a! “
me “so?”
a7mad “ sho so .. mala da3ee tseer t5abreen kel7ad fl 3alam enna we’re fighting enzain...what’s our business is our business and no one else’s ! “
me “ she deserves to know”
a7mad “ la ro’9a ana asif bs no one is supposed to know “
me “enzain kel7ad y3arf why not her too!”
a7mad “ laaa r u even listening to urself? ok a lot of people know about the rumor but no one has to know enna we’re fighting about it!”

i just looked at him annoyed and rolled my eyes

a7mad “ elmohem enna makan la da3i at all tgooleen 7ag e5ti of all people...
w ana maknt aba a7arj 3alaich ....bs stop 7arakatch el6fooleyya ne7n mb yahal”

he looked at me in disgust, got up, and slammed the door behind him.
i felt like someone punctured a hole in my stomach....what the hell, how did all this get flipped? kaif it’s all my fault a7een? ana masawait shay ‘3ala6 ........but why do i feel so much worse now... the pain inside me turned into tears in my eyes...
physical and mental pain are not a good combination... I became more aware of the pain in my hands ...transferring to my head...my tears ... shivers..... i was slowly drifting away into unconsciousness

ma w3ait ella it was morning and i can hear the nurse’s voice above me.... shway shway i opened my eyes w it was only me and two nurses fl ‘3rfa

nurse #1 “good morning maaam how do u feeel?”
me “eehh”

I stretched in my place and took a deep breath then looked at her

me “better i think what happened?”
nurse#2 “your blood pressure increased last night so you lost consciousness but everything is good now don’t worry, you’re going to be checked out in a few hours! “
me “oh ok thank you..”

I let out a yawn... I wonder where everyone is.. i can’t ignore that feeling in me...i’m such a girl 3gub kel ha i was annoyed enna a7mad wasn’t here when I woke up...
what the hell is wrong with me......mfroo’9 i don’t want to see him after thiss
the nurses were done changing my IV and everything else then 5alw my breakfast jdami w ft7ooli el tv on some random channel

i only had one hand that i can use fa fta7t el cover w was struggling to move el other stuff to put it down mkan when you know who walked in...
lafait rasi awal manfta7 el bab bs when our eyes met i quickly looked back at my plate his face wasn’t the same one from yesterday....now he was just the calm a7mad...meanwhile i was still struggling with hal stupid cover of the stupid plate ...
he did not say a word..bs ya 3ndi w very gently 7a6 eeda 3ala eedi w sneaked his fingers slowly taking the cover mn eedi making sure his hand softly touches mine making that tingly feeling in my stomach.....
i quickly took my hand away as he was placing the cover on the side table of the bed.

I took the little sandwich they had with one hand and took a bite staring at the tv ignoring a7mad..ho bs kan yals 3dalii 3al shbreyya ba3ad saying nothing...
he reached in and opened the covers of the other things for me..... uff knt aba a9fa3a... i can do it myself! but i refused to say a word.. 5ala9 malait la3at chabdee ..... i was too tired to be mad at him a9lan .....so i said nothing
i finished my sandwich quickly and quietly sipped my juice, with my eyes on the tv...

a couple of minutes later the nurse knocked and came in

nurse “hi maam how are u dooingg? hello siiir”
me “mmm i feel better a bit”
nurse “ohh good good....your father signed the sign out papers just noww”
me “oh ok”

she turned her face to a7mad who was sitting on the sofa behind her

nurse “r u her husband siir?”
a7mad “yes”

he nodded

nurse “oh ok good you can help her change her clothes”
a7mad “mmm ok”

ok? SHO OK ! i can change my own clothes!! i looked down at my arms and feet and thought that again........ok maybe i can’t bs mafee anyone else who can help me? sho haa uff....although i was so pissed, i kept my mouth shut, i just looked at him in disgust 7ag a second then looked away

the nurse gave us a cute smile and walked out

a7mad “ummmm....”

he looked towards me for a reaction...but i gave him nothing

a7mad “mmm what do u want to wear?”

sho mshkelata.......i turned my head away from him in anger uhhhhhhhhhh 8ahrenni mb mtfayjatlaaa why can’t the nurse change mee.......uf maba a7arj 3alaih ba3ad mb mtfayja agool shaay

a7mad “ermmm... i guess i’ll just choose ayshay roo7ii”

is he serious?? i turned towards him to see what he is doing.. and he was actually choosing 6alla3 a short red baggy dress w laf 9oobi holding it up in his hands

a7mad “I guess this will do....it’s easy to put on”

he walked towards me, giving me a smile.... aaaaaaaaaaah make him go awaaay y8har y8har y8har!! i was just giving him a ‘look’.

a7mad “emm enzain lazm tet7arkain shway heh”

he reached his hand on my sleeve.. i shook his hand off my shoulder

me “i can do it myself”

i said with an angry tone grabbing the dress with my hand avoiding looking at his face.....

a7mad “mmm la ro’9a u cant lat3andeen...”

gal softly, with a ‘caring’ kind of voice not a bossy one....

me “maba...please”

I mumbled with a low voice in desperation....I really don’t want him to touch me right now.....i’m not in the mood walla.....w maba a3a9b 3alaih zyada cz a3arfa w 7araka el seducing mala...and what I hate the most is that i’d actually react to them....i hate that he has that kind of effect on me...uf

a7mad “elly yra7ych”

he put down the dress on my lap

a7mad “bazgr sara to help u”

he sadly walked out of the room, why does it bother me enna ho za3lan! it shouldn’t! i’m mad at him yes! Sara came on with a smile w sa3adatni with the dress then the 3abaya, she only asked about how I am, we didn’t talk much.

My dad later walked in to my room with my mom w helped collect my stuff then wado elstuff sayarat a7mad. While I was walking out I saw fa6ooma wagfa 3nd el bab, so i went to talk to her....

fa6ooma “ heyy”
me “hii”

I managed to shurg a smile

fa6ooma “ how r u? b5air? galo ams u collapsed cz of ur blood pressure w madri sho?”
me “emm,, ya a7s im better now”
fa6ooma “ok that’s good, a7een mraw7a?”
me “ya i guess”
fa6ooma “ ok yalla bye”

she gave me a hug, then looked at me concerned

fa6ooma “don’t be too hard on a7mad”
me “a7mad? doesn’t he deserve it?”
fa6ooma “look i think i judged him too early, mmm ybayen 3alaih enna he cares about u, if he didn’t makan bytm the whole time here with u , trust me, i know”

i gave her a frown then hugged her again

me “i dont know fa6ooma..”
fa6ooma “ yalla let me take you to the car”

she held my hand w helped me walk to the car, my leg was less injured than my hand so shalo el jbs 3ana but it still hurt, and was wrapped up with a 5elga thing....

She got me into the car and then she left, Sara came in 3dalee then a7mad sat in front to drive us home, gabel manroo7 mama came and gave me a kiss good bye, then we left

As soon as we were home, sara walked me to our room, then excused herself. I went w sat fe our 9ala t3bana...
A7mad walked in with my handbag, with his head down, d5al our bedroom, I looked at him, thinking about wat fa6ooma told me....
His mom walked into the 9ala, and paused for a second when she saw me, I don’t know if I was imagining stuff, but I could’ve sworn she looked worried for a second then she looked to the bedroom

om a7mad “a7maaad?”

he came out, sallam 3alaiha w bas ras’ha

a7mad “halla ommy “

ok now i’m being rude, I tried getting up bs i cringed at the pain cz bel’3ala6 7a6ait pressure on the wrong leg, a7mad saw me so he came w helped me up, i shook his hand off awal ma wgaft

me “Salam w 3alaikm 5alo “

om a7mad “ w 3alaikm el salam”

She looked at me with an expression-less face, I think she’s being nice to me!

om a7mad “a7mad a7atjk fe shay ta3al shway....”

he nodded and followed her out of the 9ala....what could she want? I hope it’s nothing about me, mb mtfayja for any more drama...like seriously..... I just want to sit and watch tv without thinking....

He came quietly in a few minutes later and closed the door behind him

a7mad “tbain takleen shay?”

I continued looking at my Blackberry that I held in one hand and shook my head

a7mad “akeed?”

I know he was just trying to make a conversation so I ignored him

a7mad “so ur just not gonna talk to me?”

I looked at him for a sec, saying nothing then looked back again at my phone, he walked away za3lan to the room, ksar 5a6ri a bit bs i ignored it.
I watched tv until fl lail, a7mad walked in with a plate for me , 7a6a on the table in front of me

a7mad “ here’s 3shach, please keli mb zain che”

He looked at me with concern then dash el’3rfa w he opened the TV there. I got up w ylast 3al ar’9 w ate! I was so hungry, i wanted to hug him for getting food, but ya i didn’t

I slept well that night, i miss my bed, or our bed? ah whatever I slept long before a7mad came in a9lan

The next 5 days were a blur of the same thing again and again
I didn’t talk to him yet, I don’t know if i’m angry at him anymore, I just don’t know what to say to him, I know it’s only been a couple of days bs I miss talking to him so much, Fa6ooma has tried convincing me to let go of this dala3 and be a grown up about it, bs madrii

I was laying down 3al sofa that day being lazy, kan almost 2 pm el ‘9hr when sara knocked the door

me “come inn”

she peeked her face checking then came in w ylsat 3adalii

sara “ ro’9aa i need to talk to u”

3adalt my yalsa and sat up looked at her concerned

me “sho fee??”
sara “r u still not talking to a7mad?”

I nodded to her and sighed.

sara “he came to me ams...”

I looked at her with curiosity

me “he did?”
sara “yaa , gal he needed someone to talk to..”
me “about me?”
sara “yeh...Listen.....i know ho ‘3la6, bs when he came ams he was ......kaif agool? mmmm like kan ...devistated...I’ve never seen him like this.......he kept asking me sara sho asawee...i don’t know kaif ara’9eeha i tried everything w his eyes were watery...I just didn’t know what to tell him I kept quiet b3dain gltela i’ll try talking to u bs he said u wont listen”

I took a deep breath and was thinking

sara “hey im not forcing you into doing anything....bss i just thought u’d want to know..”
me “thanks sara...”

she smiled to me and gave me a tight hug,

sara “yalla I’ll go open my stupid books uf”
me “hehe ok gdluck”

I smiled to her as she walked out closing the door behind her. I’m starting to feel sorry for him, he learnt his lesson right? Maybe I should move on...bs bl tadreej?

I laid down that afternoon on the couch, like how I have been for a while, until about 5 when a7mad came in

He had his head down with a gloomy face, I sat up and looked at him w decided to go for it

me “Salam 3alaikm”

He froze in his place for a second then lifted his head looking at me in disbelief

him “wa...w 3alaikm el salam”
me “how r u?”

I could see the anguish flow away and a pleased smile draw its way on his face

him “ okay... i guess...u?”
me “same.... u hungry?”

He almost jumped from excitement nodding

him “haaaaai wayd walla! 7a6een el ‘3da barra3”
me “ohh ok yalla”
him “laa la sit down bayeeblna 2 plates a7san”

He said with a wide grin putting his briefcase next to the door and rushing out...
I’ve really missed him..... I forgot what a kid he is................katkoot......

he came in with two plates in his hand and sat on the small table jdam el tv putting the two plates on it. I got up and sat down 3dala looking at the food

me “yumm!”
him “hehee! ro’9a’s back”

I turned and glared at him... bs he didn’t laugh this time....he was smiling ever so calmly

me “whaaT?”

I said blushing

a7mad “ha? sho what hehe?”
me “why are you staring at me like that”
a7mad “oh heh............I just......I’ve missed you....so much”

he said with a sad smile. I smiled back, I wanted to hug him, every part of my body wanted it just get up and hug him, but I didn’t.......I said I’d start by talking to him... this can’t just go back like it used to, he has to understand that he can’t just lie to me

a7mad “ dont know laish u did it, bs im so so glad ur talking to me again.........mat3arfeen HOW glad”

he said with a tear in his eye, I didn’t say anything back, i didn’t want to tell him that sara or fatooma influenced me to do this, because it was majorly my choice

me “I just thought u learned your lesson....heh”

a7mad “You have to know something ro’9a....you’re the only one i love......I know you don’t believe me now....but I hope one day u do....because I mean it”

I was overwhelmed with feelings, The thing is a part of me truly believed him and the other part didn’t want to admit it. He probably noticed that I was getting nervous or something so he smiled his sexy grin

a7mad “ yalla EAT! hehe i didn’t get all this food for nothing”
me “heh..ok”

I smiled back to him, and started digging through my plate, I was so hungry! so was he haha
we watched tv w kenna nsoolef....it was fun

a7mad “I’ve missed this”

I smiled and nodded to his sentence.....this guy makes my heart melt......... that is one thing i can not deny

a7mad “Oh! 9a7 My mom..............

TO BE CONTINUED

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2010-06-05T13:33:00.000-07:00

READERS <3
UHH! I wanted to write more bs I needed more time to do that so I thought I'll just post what I have for now......:$

until next time :*
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girl "fyi ana hanan al X...a7mad al X's girl....yes i'm her...i can't believe lech wayh t6l3een jedam el 5alg after what u did..."

i was so pissed at her! so i stood up and answered back!

me " what the hell do u mean?"
girl "latsaween 3umrch baree2a....i know ur family lured his family into getting u two married just for the money...the money that's rightfully MINE!"
me "enti mn wain t2alfeen 8e9a9??stop judging people's life law sma7ty.."
girl "ma 2a2alef ur a BitCH and u know it."
me " what did u call me?"
girl "bitch."

I opened my mouth in anger and doubt then closed it. what the hell is wrong with her and how dare she...uf if i stay here one more minute i'll probably do to her something i'd regret later. I grabbed my bag bser3a and looked at fatooma who had a scared look on her face

me " fatooma ana baroo7 gabel ma i do to this Thing something i would regret! i need to go back home . BYE"

I marched out to the parking lot as her screaming accusations became lower and lower as i walked further away from her
I got into the car took a deep breath and got out of the parking....
My tears which I was trying to keep inside kept streaming on my face....my vision started becoming unclear...

so did my mind...

everything was suddenly blurry....

I couldn't hear anything anymore.....

I couldn't feel my surroundings.....

everything suddenly turned pitch black.........

tootooot.........tootoooot

what's that sound....why do I feel so tired....my eyelids were so heavy to lift open....I fought through the pain and struggeled to open my eyes....blink by blink until I could almost see what was infront of me...which looked like a philipino lady wearing white..

lady " maaam.....maam can u hear me??"

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a7mad
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I sat in the waiting area since the doctor galatlee atraya barra3
my heart racing and aching all at the same time
maybe I shouldn't have let her go out? is it my fault? I couldn't bare seeing her in this state...her arm all bandaged up and her head too.....weddi a3arf sho estwa feeha bs.....ana mt2akd she told me she had her license....i held my tears inside being a man.....
oho mat'thakar me being this sensitive uff what the hell is wrong with me...
I was the only one here in the men's waiting room...saraa and ro'9a's friend fatma were waiting on the other side fl woman's waiting room......
I got up paced until I saw the nurse coming to me informing me that my wife woke up....
I ran to her room not thinking about anything and as soon as I laid eyes on her my heart ached again...yarabiii what did she do to deserve this
r7t ylast 3dalha w i held her hand.....
she tried moving bs I noticed she cringed at the pain when she tried moving her hands...then she muttered something...

me "sho feech? tbain shay? may? e6lebi ely fe 5a6rich ro'9a w ana ayeebaa"
ro'9a "leave me alone.."

what? leave her alone? after all that worrying a7een i'll leave her alone?? 6ab3an la2! what's wrong with her!

i looked at her weirdly....

me "sho 8a9dich leave me alone?"

she looked at me bdoon nefs then she stared into the space jdamha...shakelha she was thinking....did she like loose her memory wla shay so now she doesn't know me fa tbani aroo7? ohooo ma3arf.....

ro'9a "what happened....?"
me "mmm u were in a car accident...the police told me lafaity 3ala wa7d or something...but it's ok i took care of it don't worry....."

her eyes were filled with pain....she looked at me in silence...for a bit

ro'9a "ur...car?"
me "oh ....shar w ra7...bshtree '3airha 3adi..elmohem enti b5air ro'9aa "

she was quiet again...she looked at her wounds and explored them with care... tried moving them as she cringed through the ache that came with their movement....a tear escaped her eyes...
5ala9 magdar sho ha....i went closer to her w held her hand......

me " u need to rest ro'9a...don't move..."

she actually listened to me...closed her eyes and sighed....

ro'9a " stop..."
me "ha?"

she opened her eyes w 6ale3atni eb a resentful look

ro'9a "just stop it a7mad.."
me "ro'9a what are you saying..?"
ro'9a "stop being so nice TO ME!"

i let go of her hand...slowly...what is wrong with her?
tears started pouring out of her eyes....she tried closing her eyes holding them in...but that didn't work so well....
7beebty she couldn't even wipe her tears because her hands were all tied up..she moved her left hand which was less injured and struggled into ems7ing her tears....i brought my hands to her face w masa7t a tear.....she looked up at me pissed off

ro'9a "i told u to stop..."
me "ro'9a sho feech? Is it your hand?"
ro'9a "NO a7mad it is not my hand..it's u..."
me "me?"
ro'9a "yes a7mad i know...you don't have to hide it anymore"
me "hide? what the hell are you talking about ro'9a!"
ro'9a " a7amd please stop acting stupid fatooma told me awal shay enna she 'heard' how people keep talking about how i ruined your plans of getting married to another woman and i got in the way bs ana glt laa .....akeed chatheb....making excuses for u......and then 7anan herself....."

I cringed at the sound of her name coming out of ro'9a's mouth....what the hell is going on?

ro'9a "she came up to me a7mad.......and confirmed the rumors.."

tears were coming out of her eyes..and her voice was shaky

ro'9a "she told me you wanted to get married to her...but then I came and ruined it for you two......w ana che yalsa clueless channi habla............and she's throwing words at me.... and...."

she was stuttering....I sat there in utter silence not knowing what to say to her....It was nothing like that at all.......

me "noo...ro'9a it was nothing like that....w i told u ams my past is my past what I did back then doesn't matter anymore.."

ro'9a "do u know what all the girls call me a7mad? do u?"

I shook my head not knowing how to fix this.....I hate seeing her cry.....hate it.

ro'9a "SLut. yes that's what they call me...because no i can't go around telling everyone i was forced into marrying you .....no.... so they think i seduced you and took you from 7anan...as if......"

me "but..."

ro'9a "but sho a7mad? u could have atleast gave me a heads up...bdal ma ana aseer che ignorant w adaf3 3annek jdam el nas.....I can't believe u.....I actually asked u......"

me "The marriage thing was all kalam fa'9ee bainy w bainha! I wasn't really going to do it....I never liked her that much anyways.....ro'9a please......"

ro'9a "please what? a7mad......."

she said with a lower voice....still tearing

ro'9a "can you please call my mom...i need her.....please"

she bit her lip trapping a sob inside.....I nodded in obediance...Not only have I put her through physical pain but emotional pain too...bs WHAt the hell! ana w 7anan were nothing like me and ro'9a....I just was with her out of habbit......w kan so shallow I can't believe she's around telling people that...................yarabiii shol 7al?

I called her mom w told her about the accident she starting crying on the phone...w came rushing here....I sat on the side of the room 6ool hal wagt...ro'9a wanted some peace banedat 3yoonha and napped,or pretended to, for minutes until her family came rushing in.....

salamt 3alaihum w I watched ro'9a cry in her mom's lap....little did her mom know that those tears were caused by me....it gave me an ache in the back of my stomach....i don't know what to do about it.......kill 7anan is not an option.....

i don't knoww... I just don't know.....

I can't bare seeing her like this......

it's all my fault

Ro'9a

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Crying in my mommy's lap sure made me feel better...I held her hand so tight and just cried....mskeena she thought I just missed her and was scared mn el accident ......bs I was crying more of humiliation....I hate people looking down on me.....A part of me knows it's not a7mad's fault......but I can't forgive him for not telling me...I mean why else would he hide it...he must still have feelings for her.....

mom " 7beebti hadii....ennshalla 5air.....elmohem enti b5aair...."
me "mamaa aba aroo7 el bait...3ndch......"

I could almost feel a7mad's stares piercing through me....especially when I said that....
mama just patted me on the back...telling me everything is going to be ok...my brothers and dad yLso barra3 after ma salemo 3alay baba gal byroo7 ys2al el doctor when they can release me....
this day was such a headache...y3ne could it be any worse?

i relaxed a bit my head on mama's shoulder...she signed and looked at a7mad

mom "a7mad wldiii seer erta7 mala da3i ettem bnrdha elbait 3ndk ..........7aram shaklek ta3ban wayd ! "
a7mad "laa laa 3amety........ana magdar ahed mrtii hnee w hee che...."

he looked at me giving me a soft smile...ana bs 3a6aita one glance and looked away......uf why is he still being so nice? it's getting on my nerves....
my dad barged into the room

dad "tawee kalamt el doctor..gal lazm ysawoom monitoring 7agch fa lazm etemeeen over night hnee...bs bachr el9b7 3ala 6ool tgdreen t6l3een bs lazm trta7ain wayd fl bait! "

I looked at him and sighed....i feel so tired i don't care anymore whatever they want to do with me...

a7mad " 3amty ...3amii... lata3boon 3markum ana batm wyaha w babat hnee..."

i could see a soft smile planting its way on mama's face...she liked a7mad a lot i could read it all over her face.....
baba ya basni 3ala rasii w gal he's going to come tomorrow to check on me bs 3nda sh'3L now w he said he's going to wait for mama barra3

me "mama mamaa please temmmii wyay please latroo7een! law sma7tyy 3shan 5a6rii mama..."

I said while my eyes were filled with tears and I could feel some tears escaping and streaming on my face...
mama mskeena she gave me a tight hug

mama " 7abeebty ro'9a...3adyy a7mad hnee weyaach"

she said still holding on to me...little did she know enna that was the reason i was crying...i didn't want to stay in the same room with him...maba......mabaaa..
i want to go back to when it was just me....and my family.........no complications....nothing

me " mabaa.....abach entiii..."
mama " samii billah ro'9a"

she said while loosening her hug...until she let go and looked at me with a concerned look as she wiped the tears of my face with her soft hands...

mama "yalla mama bshoofch bacher enshalla"

she got up kissed my forehead and left the room...I watched her as she left as closed the door behind her.. my eyes still fixed on where she was...I couldn't fight the tears anymore I started crying, although I did not want him to be here witnessing this..i don't want him to think i'm this weak and enna I need him or anything bs lel2asaf I was too weak....and deep deep down I knew that I did need him but i kept that emotion hidden behind the resentment I felt towards him now....with all my injuries even crying hurt more than usual...i could feel my body ache with every gasp of air I struggled to take.. the tears were suffocating me....
I could hear the sound of subtle footsteps behind my sobs...getting closer towards me until they stopped and he slowly and carefully sat beside me ...wrapping me in his arms forcibly , the warmth overwhelmed me i was not able to push him back or say anything I just continued crying while his warmth unfortunately comforted me... I closed my eyes letting the tears calm down... until I was able to speak again...

me " I haatee u..."

I said with a resentful tone as I held part of his shirt tight in my fist..

me "I hate u..."

I repeated while still being held in his arms.... he said nothing but I could tell he was startled by my words because he paused and was stiff for a minute but then continued stroking my back as if I had said nothing....
I was exhausted from the pain I couldn't take it anymore....
his warmth drove me to sleep ....

I struggled to open my eyes... my head felt better than earlier now, wow resting actually helps...I noticed that I was tucked in properly into the blanket w he wasn't near me anymore...fta7ti 3ainy w looked around until I found him...he had pulled the small sofa as close as he can to my bed while his two arms were folded under his head on the side of my bed...
he looked exhausted....a little part of me felt sorry for him and wanted to get up and tell him to come sleep beside me on the bed...bs the majority of my brain was against it...no...never....
i noticed his phone was beside one of his hands
i picked it up in curiosity...opened his inbox bs makan fe shay....opened his calls w i noticed enna he had a miscall just an hour ago mn ra8am '3areeb....without hesitating I dialed the number and held the phone to my ears...

toooot

tooooooot

tooooooooot

girl " Hallaa!.......7abeeebiii....i.."

I quickly closed the call before she could hear my breathing..how it became faster......I could recognize that voice anywhere

it was her........it was 7anan....

I threw his phone to its previous place in disgust....why did she call him? bs he didn't pick up ....oh bs maybe he was asleep mb enna he ignored her...........i hate her.....and him.....
his phone rang .....I looked over to see her number on the screen....he started moving so I closed my eyes not knowing how to look at him if our eyes meet so yes i pretended to be asleep......
i could hear him stretch and felt him pick his phone up

a7mad "uff"

all I could here were his footsteps moving away from me ....the door screeched open then a shut.....I opened my eyes and the room was empty......

ra7 yetti9iL feeha?

my stomach was twisting and twirling ....it hurt......I've never gone through this before... what have I done to deserve this?
if seeing any other girl looking at a7mad is a pinch of jealousy...the situation now is a "someone threw me off a cliff" kind of jealousy....
ok yes I admit it i'm a jealous person...bs he's at fault too , this time atleast.....I have so much hurt inside me I don't think it's healthy

while I was in deep thought about my emotional and physical state the door of my room flew open...at first I thought it was a7mad but the girly voices told me otherwise

sara "SHhhhhhhh She's aSLEEP SHWAY SHWAY! "
fatooma "oooopss sorry"

she said with a whisper...they both were too busy dealing with the door to actually turn their faces and notice that I'm actually awake

sara " WEEEE ro'9a DID WE WAke u uppp?"
me " laa laa... I was already awake "

I said with a weak smile....
fatooma rushed in and examined the cast on my arm then my foot....then looked at me with tears in her eyes

fatooma "does it hurt...??"
me "a little..."

I lied....

fatooma "7beebty ruuu you didn't deserve this I should have never let you leave! it's all my fault!"

tears started running down her face.....I reached my free hand to the other side and put it on her hand attempting to calm her down

me "la fatooma its not ur fault! 8addar allaho masha2a fa3al"

she looked at me with a sad frown as I shrugged my shoulder slightly....she calmed down at my sentence and sighed

fatooma "yah...I guess.....I'm glad you're kind of ok though..."
me "hehe"

I saw sara yawning while she was sitting at the side of the bed...then it hit me...what are they doing here???

me " wait a minute....what time is it??"

they both looked at me with guilty smiles

sara "mmmm about 3 am hehe"
me "what bs how are u guys here??"
sara "oh baba knows some people! he made some calls and TADA we stayed hehe we waited until a7mad left the room 3shan we sneak in to see u!!"

she said smiling ever so widely ...ktkoota sara...i don't care how much I hate a7mad I just love and adore saraa
I looked at fatooma....and raised one eyebrow...because I knew enna her family isn't that flexible

fatooma " I told them I was staying with you over night fl hospital stop looking at me like that!"
me "hehe"

those two kind of let my mind wander off away from the problems I was facing....thank god they were here...

fatooma "soo how iss ............mmm....."

she looked at sara then looked back at me... but sara's not stupid she knew what fatooma meant by that look ....any normal person would either walk out of the room giving us our privacy or let it go...bs la that's not how sara does it hehe

sara "hoooww is what?"

fatooma gave me a 'yikes' look...bs ana I was so relaxed about it

me "you mean how is who...."

fatooma opened her mouth at me.......the thing is I don't mind talking about a7mad in front of sara AT ALL.....

fatooma "isn't she his sister!"

she whispered at me...6b3an as I said before sara isn't dumb and she isn't deaf as well....

sara "a7mad?"

I just nodded to both of them

sara "what's wrong with him??"
me "mmm nothing's particularly wrong with him....per say....maybe his brain bs..."

i said resentfully

sara "weeeeeee r u guys fighting?"

I stared blankly for a second then sighed...

me "r u sure u want to hear this?"

I said calmly

fatooma "ro'9a! "
sara "la fatooma don't ro'9a her! i do want to knoow!"

she had her eyes wide open at me enna stop this

me "3adi fatooma....since everyone fe this frikin city y3arf doesn't she deserve to know too? "

I said with a frown as my voice slightly weakened towards the end of my sentence
her face relaxed w 7a6at her hand on mine looking down

.......

i told her........everything that happened
all that happened yesterday leaving nothing out...she had her mouth open during most of the conversation... I wasn't sure about what that meant....
then when I finished talking she was silent for a few seconds

......

sara "but...."

she shifted her stare to me....

sara "he never talked about her....ever....r u sure its true?"

I nodded.......because when I talked to a7mad about it he didn't deny it he just said he never was going to marry her....I didn't know what to believe from him....

sara "but.......if he was going to marry her he would have argued with dad about marrying you...but he didn't..... at all......I even talked to him about marrying you and how he felt about it gabel..... and he said he didn't mind getting married "

she paused....her face was so serious...I've never seen her like this before what I said has bothered her too...it's nice to see that she cares

sara "I just don't find it convincing....y3ne maydsh el ras...........besides i know that he's head over heels for u!"
me "I dunno sara....."

I fell silent after that thinking....then faj2a the door opens and a7mad walks in........
I looked at him then stared at the phone is his hands

a7mad "oh asef! maknt a3arf enna fe 7ad da5l"

he said when he saw that fatooma was here....he turned to go back out but...

sara " A7MAD! get back in here! now!"

me and fatooma opened our eyes wide at her! what was she trying to do??
he turned looking confused and walked in closing the door behind him

a7mad "yes sara?"

wed-locked 30

2010-05-20T14:36:00.000-07:00

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D

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Ro'9a
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me " la2 a7mad i'm not like that...see thiss, thiss is exactly y im shwaya mt'9ayga"
a7mad "ahaa! so u are mt'9ayga see i knew it!"

I just looked at him and glared bdoon ma agool shay

a7mad " hehe sorry sorry, inzain elmohem, what do you means this? this what?"
me " mm how can I say this,,, a7mad we hardly know each other... I mean What's your favorite color, what are your hobbies? what are things you get disgusted from, or t5af menhum . Or ....like kelshay......I hardly know anything about u"

................

It took him a minute to rush back in as he blurted

a7mad " Blue..."
me "ha....?"
a7mad " my favorite color... its blue..."
me "oh"
a7mad "and I like skiing, skate boarding, biking, swimming, reading, hanging out anywhere basically, going to the beach... w mmm what else...oh and I get disgusted from any fruit with hairy qualities.....and mmmm I'm not particularly scared from anything I just dislike cats"
me "mmm"
a7mad " no look , these things don't matter we find out these things about each other in time as we live more together ..."
me "i know but..."
a7mad " but sho ro'9a? I said I love you w I'm not going to take it back, because ana glt sho da5li w i meant it....because those small things may59hom.....I wont love you because your favorite color is green or because you hate cats too, I fell in love with you because of the way you smile to me when we first wake in the morning, because of how you took care of me when I got sick, because of how you put up with my load of crap wya my family and make me feel better at the end of every day, THOSE are the things that matter... those the reasons I fell in love with you ro'9a....not your hobbies or your favorite movie...

.................

a7mad " a7bch....I really doo ro'9a....w a3arf this is not just simple attraction to you, its not just e3jab because your pretty and all... because marrait thro that in my teenage years...but this time its different..."

.................

"fatooma Calling "

shalait el telephone as fast as I could!

me shouting " ALOOO"
fatooma " ro'9aa heey..."
..................

atooma " elsalfa 6weela I need to see you face to face! we really need to talk...about everything"
me " enzain whats it about at leaaaast??? "
fatooma " don't u dare change how ur acting around him....but it's about a7mad."
me " what? shoy5e9a?"
fatooma " when can I see u?"
me " madri ay wagtt"
fatooma " tomorrow breakfasT?"
me " ok...."
fatooma " and ro'9a.."
me "hmm?"
fatooma " I love u ..."
me " love you too...."
fatooma "byeeee"

tooooot toooooooot....................

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Ro'9a
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I stared at my phone after closing it...
3an a7mad? mmm what could it possibly be that she stopped talking to me for so long.....
I came back into the room staring at my phone held in my hand, while i was in deep thought, wondering...what could it be...mshkela I can't just ask a7mad she told me not to act differently towards him ba3ad...mmm did she see him cheating on me? wla is he like actually married or something...so many different scenarios rushed through my mind until his voice snapped me out of all of it...

a7mad " who was it?"

I lifted my head and looked at him with blank eyes ..

me " haa?"
a7mad " who was it on the phone"

he said with a soft smile on his face, not in an intruding voice bs che asking out of interest....I couldn't feel angry or anything towards him because maknt a3arf shol salfa yet ....

me "oh fatooma my best friend.."
a7mad "oh..mmmm have I seen her?"
me "mmmm ma'9n i haven't seen her or spoken to her since el...wedding..."
a7mad " ha... laish?"
me "mmm madri... bs bachr baseer breakfast wyaha 3adi?"
a7mad "ya sure..."
me "oh shit nsait as2alha wain bntrayag 9a7! "

I took my phone and sms-ed her

To : FatooMa

HEY ! magelteeeeli where we're meeeetin and what time! <3
cnt wait...!

sent.

I threw my phone on the side table w turned my head, looked at him and sighed
he had a kind of scary look on his face as he approached me 'crawling' on the bed.. i have no idea sho ho yals y7wel ysawee bt i just stared at him with one eyebrow raised. he came closer and closer lain ma yab rasa 3nd raseee exactly and he had a smirk on his face...oh he wants to kiss me? Is that what he's doing?

me "mmmmm...a7maddd ...what r u doin"

he let out a low 'heh' then brought his head closer and warmly kissed my neck, then rajja3 his head back and looked at me smiling

a7mad "this.."

The thing is moody e5trab after I talked to fatooma, especially towards a7mad, i mean i suck at pretending nothing had happened! even though I do not really know what happened....It can't be that bad of a thing can it? uff i hate thisss...!
I looked at him trying to put a 'please -no' look on my face so that he wouldn't go on with this kissing since ana 9dg mb fl mood
but...i think he took it the wrong way... he came closer w kamal sh'3la while i sat there bs 7a6ait my hand on his shoulder since i couldn't just sit there. w mb 3akaify agoola move away akeed byshek, plus i have no reason to tell him off, yet.
He stopped at a moment and looked at me with a confused face

a7mad " balach?"
me "haa? nothing.."
a7mad "mmm"

He got up and sat 3adel 3dali...

a7mad "mmm why r u being so...bardaa..."
me "barda? mmm madri t3bana shway"
a7mad "t3bana? c'mon its only 9 pm!"

I shrugged my shoulders not knowing what to say to him...bs maybe he'd take a hint and leave this 'making out' for another day or something.

a7mad "hmm is it about fatma ur friend? "
me "laa may5e9a...im just tired i didn't sleep well ams"
a7mad "la bs 3gb makalamteeha ur face t'3ayar...shaklch..che... uncomfortable"

uf why is he such a good face reader! w laish ana che fashla in hiding my feelings this is annoying

me " la a7maad im fine 9dgg..."

I said while smiling..i hate lying to him, ana mt3awda doum im honest wya this is weird...

a7mad "mmm if u say so.."

he got up the bed and walked to his side of the bed then sat 3alaih with a totally different expression than earlier...kan annoyed and m7arj...yes i can read his face just as good as he can read mine ...
I felt so guilty...what if what fatooma has to say is nothing bad w ana che i'm being mean for no reason faj2a..w tawwa he was so romantic with me earlier......im such an emotional wreck!

me " a7maad.."
a7mad " na3am?"

he said with a low voice, while turning his head looking at me with a semi- frowned face

me " ana asfaa...if u want....mmm 3ady 3ndiii.....che...u knw"

i was blurting out random non sense..m3rf etha feham sho 89dyy bs enna he's my husband magdar amna3a if he wants to do something, i don't want to get ethem....

a7mad " la 3adi...a9lan i don't feel like it anymore..."

he said coldly w laf rasa grabbed the remote w turned the tv on with low volume...
uho ma7b ashoofa che z3lan menniiii laish che sawait a7een a7s aba abooosaa to make him smile to me agaaaain..... he's such a baby...ok ok it's my fault too bs still laish che ysawee 7arakat yahaaaaal ..... MEN! uf
to make up with him or not to? mshkela when u see his face u can't resist el cuteness especially when ykoon za3lannnnn! uf bs this fatooma thing is really annoying me!
uhoo this is just so not me ill just tell him!

me " fine! "

a7mad turned his face to me with a confused look

a7mad " sho fine?"
me " it is about fatooma....."
a7mad "eh...i knew it......"

i had a troubled look on my face i couldn't keep it in, i had to face him with it, maybe he has something to say before I actually talk to fatooma....
I scooted next to him and folded my legs, took a breath, then looked at him with serious eyes...

me "mmm look is there something ur like hiding from me w u want to tell me or shay che?"

he got up w ylas 3adel looking confused...

a7mad "ha...what do u mean?"
me " like anthingg.....u'd want to t5aberni..."
a7mad "what kind of thing mathalan??"
me "ma3rf anyything..."
a7mad " can u be more specific 3shan a3arf ajawb el su2al please! "
me "magdar i really don't know....sho 8a9dik specific how many things are u hiding from me??"
a7mad "la i'm not hiding shay mennich ro'9a bs y3ne sho hal su2al what did ur friend tell u?"
me "she told me nothing a7mad... bs look she told me not to tell u anything w i trust her she was my friend since we were like 6 or something so mabt2allef ashya2... she only said that she needs to talk to me...about u tomorrow....."

He had a confused look ..

a7mad " about mee? sho 8a9dha?"
me "mmmm ma3rf i'll find out tomorrow.....bs glt bas2alk maybe u would tell me urself....wla maybe it's something you don't know of? madri...."
a7mad "hmm...."

he had a serious look on his face while he was blankly looking down...
I just sighed.....still looking at him...he looked up with a serious face....

a7mad "look ana ma3rf what ur friend is refering to....bs you should know that I didn't hide anything from you since we got married, y3ne u know kelshay estwa since we got married until now, I mean i'm always with u a9lan..... but if she is referring to my past then I have done a lot of mistakes w mashft enna la da3i I mention any of them unless you really want to know wla it actually affects u.......w 9ara7a a7s whatever happened in my past has no relevance to my life now...."
me "mmm what do u mean?"
a7mad "mm like ayshay y3ne...u know.... like you're not the first girl i talk to fe 7ayatee w che....."
me "mmm i know.."

i said while rolling my eyes ... him saying that let out an annoying feeling in my stomach...

a7mad "see ro'9a if 3ndch as2la s2leeni w i'd tell u because I have nothing to hide..."
me "mb enna 3ndi su2al bss hmmmmm ma3rf...."

should i let out my questions? I have like a zillion but maybe I can ask one or two...uf i hate my curiousityy.....

me "mmm a7mad...do u have feelings for ay7ad from ur past?"
a7mad "seriously?"

I looked at him with my big eyes..owaih maybe I shouldn't have asked that....but like seriously I should know right?...uf its that feeling deep down in my stomach again...I don't feel good...
I didn't say anything back waiting for his answer...

a7mad "I can't believe you actually think that...listen ro'9a ana mabayls a5re6 3ala MURTY w agoolha a7bch w stuff like that unless i mean it y3ne why would I lie sho ba7a9l mn wara this lie?! "
me "mmm that's not what i asked...."
a7mad "I know bs agoolch y3ne I only have feelings for you....w I've told u once before enna when et3araft 3alaich estaw3abt enna el 5arabee6 that I had before were nothing compared to this..the real thing.....so my answer is definitely not...."

he looked at me m7arrej

a7mad " i can't believe a9lan enna ur asking me this! "
me " what enzaaaain u never know.....asfaa...u can ask me whatever u want b3ad"
a7mad "no i don't have questions for u because anaaa unlike some people....i trust u..."
me "shoy5e9a...i didn't say i don't trust u.."
a7mad "mmm that's what ur question lamma7..."
me "sorry enzaaaain i just needed to feel reassured..."
a7mad " how many times do i have to tell u enny a7bbich for u to believe me?"

He was actually talking very seriously hnee..bs ana I just blushed and smiled because i duno .... i just did! a9lan if I didn't trust him maknt bafta7 hal salfa weya mn el bdaya...I wonder what fatooma has to say tho....
after that shway heda el jaw... he sighed and couldnt help not smile back at me getting shy awana...
he sat back etsanad 3ala his pillow and sighed... his face was still mmm...not fully restored y3ne...ashkera et'9ayag enna s2alta bout that... i didn't know what to do sO i just tucked in into the la7af right next to him and 7a6ait raseee 3ala chatfa...he didn't move a muscle...he usually takes my hand and holds it in his wla shay che...i don't like this feeling......

too tooot.....

i jumped up at the sound of my message w grabbed my phone w fta7t el sms.....

from: Fatooma

oh 9a7 ! lool mmm shakespeare the village ? lets meet there at 10 am? if u can?

I replied as fast as I could...ok maybe the things she wants to tell me aren't good or so...bs i miss her so muchhhh!

To: Fatooma

YAaaaaaay ok :D
can't wait to see u <3

gniteee

I put my phone back on the side table and turned towards a7mad... he was looking at me with a serious face...

a7mad "was that her?"
me " yeaa..."
a7mad " and?"
me "bntrayag fe shakespeare at 10"

I said smiling widely

a7mad "oh so ur still meeting with her y3ne?"
me "mmm yaa i haven't seen her in ages! i miss her so much"

gltella while pouting 3shan ykoon 3adi 3nda..!

a7mad "hmm...ok"

he said nodding then turned back to watch one tv, kano 7a6een harry potter....and yes a7mad is a harry potter geek.. not that I have anything against that <3
re7t ylast jreeb menna bs this time ma7a6ait my head on his shoulder, just sat up right next to him
we did not talk that night...i sat there w next thing i know I woke up to an empty room at the sound of my phone ringing

me " alooo..."
fatooma "WAINCHH??"

I jumped out of bed faj2aaaa

me " SHIT!!!! WHAT TIME IS IT?"
fatooma "mmm it's 10 w ana hnee i thought u'd be here earlyyyyy"
me " SHIt shit shit shit im soooo SORRY ufff i can't believe i didn't wake uppppp! give me 10 minutes w ba6la3 please please pleaseee"
fatooma "hahah calm down ana batraya 3adi bs zain wa3aitich!"
me "sorryyy"
fatooma " hahha 3adi yalla yalla goomi c u in a bit "
me "bye C U!"

SHIT! out of all the mornings in the world TODAY i don't hear my alarm!! wait did I put an alarm? oops i ran to my closet put on any leggings and top... took one of my new 3abayas that a7mad's mom put in my closet and wore it with marc jacobs flats w grabbed a black shan6a shoved my wallet and bb into it then paused when I saw a7mads range rover's keys on the table with a note

"I left the car for u, a7mad"

I took the keys in excitement w got in the car w drove to fatooma
I slowly parked the car into the parking carefully w got down w rushed to shakespeare w saw her ...she stood up when she saw me w we did all our hugging
then sat back down....I kinda got carried away I caught some people next to us staring at is weirdly....

me "how r uuuuuuu"
fatooma "mmmm ok"
me " i miss u zaggaa!"
fatooma "ayyy laish tsbeeni! i miss u too!"
me "hehee testahlain u just ignored me cz i got married "

i said frowning

fatooma " ayy don't say that it's not like that..."

she said while her eyes becoming watery...

fatooma "shoofi a9lan magdart at7ammal so i called u..."

I just smiled to her......

me "a7s mn sneeen i didn't talk to u...its like a7mad'z my new best friend now"

she frowned then sighed..

fatooma "listen....bout a7mad ......i didn't want to hurt u awal matzawajti u know...u were already forced into it so b'3ait u enjoy it a bit .....so maknt aba agoolch elshay fa i saw that it was better etha i stayed away.....bs i couldn't take it anymore....plus it's something you should know about your husband a7s..."

me "fatooma enough with the shoysamoona...introductions.....jst tell mee sholsalfa! "

fatooma " ok ok sorry.....bgoollich what happened mn el bdaya....
che 2 days after your wedding raysa al X called me w 3ezmatni 3ala a party they were having for her sisters birthday in their house...w 3zmo a lot of people...so i went w bs knt a3arf hayail goum 7amda w raysa .. the others i havn't seen them in my life... so ana che just standing there mstansa eyooli bntain w they're like excuuse me enti fatma al X rbee3at ro'9a al x??? ana che mmm yes i am....hum che omg ur friend is such a bitch what the hell is wrong with her stealing people's belongings! then one of them in specific esemha hanan al X was like he was mine! she stole him from mee ! we were gonna get married ....then she went on telling me to tell u she's gonna get him back and return what's rightfully hers w 5arabee6 like that...ana hnee i just looked at her like she's crazy and i walked away.....agoolch she was so scary! "

me "what? they were going to get married??"

fatooma "that's what she said... fl bdaya ana chee enna oh akeed she's just maynoona...so i ignored her...bs b3dain a lot of people came up to me w started saying things like kaif ur friend tetjarra2 tsawee chee wla man7eed ro'9a kanat like that...a7een wayd 6la3 3anha kalam....w ma3rf what else she's spreading around bs like everyone knows that they were going to get married then you came w 5athtee menha...or atleast that's what she's telling people"

me "what the hell shoy5e9a!!"

fatooma " I know!!! w ana ma3arf what to tell them OR YOU....i didn't want to overwhelm u with more bad news w enti roo7ch t3aneen knt aba atm away but now a7s u should know..."

i felt my eyes getting watery

me "he was going to get married?? but .....what the hell..."

she put her hands on my knees...making me calm down...i had nothing to say...why didn't he tell me ams? I mean i asked him right in his face!
a tear escaped my eyes w at that moment my phone rang

riing .............ring

I looked down at it...w it read his name........"a7mady" fatooma peeked in to see the caller's name then she sighed the second time it rang

fatooma " mabtsheleen?"
me ".. ma'9n i'm ready to talk to him yet..."

I felt an ache deep down in my stomach..like its twisting...painfully....the fact that he lied aches...what else could he be hiding.....
while i was lost in my miserable thoughts a girl came 3enna

girl " excuse me"

i turned my head towards her with a blank look

girl " entii ro'9a al x?"

I looked at her then thought if i should tell the truth or not bs just went with my gut and nodded...

girl "fyi ana hanan al X...a7mad al X's girl....yes i'm her...i can't believe lech wayh t6l3een jedam el 5alg after what u did..."

i was so pissed at her! so i stood up and answered back!

me " what the hell do u mean?"
girl "latsaween 3umrch baree2a....i know ur family lured his family into getting u two married just for the money...the money that's rightfully MINE!"
me "enti mn wain t2alfeen 8e9a9??stop judging people's life law sma7ty.."
girl "ma 2a2alef ur a BitCH and u know it."
me " what did u call me?"
girl "bitch."

I opened my mouth in anger and doubt then closed it. what the hell is wrong with her and how dare she...uf if i stay here one more minute i'll probably do to her something i'd regret later. I grabbed my bag bser3a and looked at fatooma who had a scared look on her face

me " fatooma ana baroo7 gabel ma i do to this Thing something i would regret! i need to go back home . BYE"

I marched out to the parking lot as her screaming accusations became lower and lower as i walked further away from her
I got into the car took a deep breath and got out of the parking....
My tears which I was trying to keep inside kept streaming on my face....my vision started becoming unclear...

so did my mind...

everything was suddenly blurry....

I couldn't hear anything anymore.....

I couldn't feel my surroundings.....

everything suddenly turned pitch black.........

tootooot.........tootoooot

what's that sound....why do I feel so tired....my eyelids were so heavy to lift open....I fought through the pain and struggeled to open my eyes....blink by blink until I could almost see what was infront of me...which looked like a philipino lady wearing white..

lady " maaam.....maam can u hear me??"

to be continued..........

wed-locked 29

2010-03-22T15:41:00.000-07:00

A5eeeeran! (A)

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D

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a7mad
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THERE I SAID IT, i thought to myself.
I felt so happy enna 6ala3t elly fe 5a6ri that I even was smiling while saying it, I looked up at her, observing her reaction.
........

she pointed out all the girls I have.. ah not that I did not expect that..

ro'9a " mno hayail?"
me " mmmmm people from my past... hehe"
ro'9a " ahaa"
............

She brought her head closer to the screen w squinted her eyes, hehe ktkoota.
she turned her head to me with a slight frown on her face she pointed at "khawla al X",

ro'9a " you know her...?"
me " ehh,, she'z a friend of a friend of mine"
..............

kept checking other people's profiles and such. Until she got up w ra7at el 7ammam. Did she look pissed wla ana at5ayyal?
elmohem I opened my inbox fast, since I had the chance to .
I read this

7anan al X
6. january subject: WTF!!!!!

7anan al X
31.December subject: ALO??

7anan al X
27.December subject: 7beebiiiiiiiiiiiii!

I stared at them blankly, it's been a while... I decided to open the first one she sent

7anan al X
27 Decembet at 03:16

halla a7mad babyyyyy!(k)
I've missed you a loooooooooot! You have no idea!!!!!!
I can't stop thinking about you latelyyyyy
I got Your emaail..and I don't know what to say
we need to meet up or could you give me your new number so I could call you?
ASAP, we need to talk, I don't want to talk here on facebook
hehe

a7ibbik 7amoody
mwah! <3

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Ro'9a
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UFF i hate showing him enna im jealous a7een by9adg 3mra!! bs he knowz khaawlaa w therez so much kalaam 3anha, y3ne sm3at'ha mb zaina, w hez rab3 wya shkthr girls, i forgot enna i hardly know a7mad! We never actually talked about our past. I hardly know anything about him.
and he said...he loves me?

that fast?
is he serious? I mean, we skipped everything and went straight to the wedding, I don't even have him on my facebook!
We definitely took things too fast, I shouldn't have led him on... uff......

I don't even know where fatoooma is to talk to her about all this!
i teared when I remembered her, I haven't talked to her in ages, w wayd things happened I NEED HER! w why the hell is she ignoring me!

6la3t mn el 7ammam w i headed to my phone immediately ignoring a7mad.
I went and typed furiously " fatooma... I don't know where you are and why you're ignoring me..but i have no one to talk to...I'm mad at you for ignoring me all this time but I really need you...ma3arf what to do...I need someone to talk to ....please...."
7a6ait el phone on the side table of the bed shway shway, hoping that she'd reply.
rfa3t rasi w shft enna he was looking at me concerned

a7mad " mm ro'9a what's wrong?"
me " nothing"
I muttered under my breath

7a6 his laptop on a side w gam w ya 3dali

a7mad " mmm sho gltee?"
me " mm glt nothing"
a7mad " bs shaklch mt'9ayga, fe 7ad athach? Tra im ur husband its my job to protect u"
me " a7mad mafeeni shay...."

skat shway tthn he looked back at me

a7mad " did I do shay '3ala6?"

I looked up at his innocent face w muttered a very low "la2"

a7mad " Then why r u acting che,, like ur za3lana menni...."
me " im not"
a7mad "yes u are ro'9a...is it cz of the facebook thing? because I knew girls before?"

I raised both eyebrows and looked at him in a 'r u serious' look, even though that was a tiny bit partially true.

me " la2 a7mad i'm not like that...see thiss, thiss is exactly y im shwaya mt'9ayga"
a7mad "ahaa! so u are mt'9ayga see i knew it!"

I just looked at him and glared bdoon ma agool shay

a7mad " hehe sorry sorry, inzain elmohem, what do you means this? this what?"
me " mm how can I say this,,, a7mad we hardly know each other... I mean What's your favorite color, what are your hobbies? what are things you get disgusted from, or t5af menhum . Or ....like kelshay......I hardly know anything about u"

He just listened carefully , looking at me fully focused into what I'm saying to him. he didn't have a blank face but his eyebrows were creased not in an angry way though, more like focused.
He didn't say anything so I decided to go on with my speech since I started already

me " mmm and "

I looked down while saying this...est7ait

me " and ... a7mad u came today w tgool enna .... you mm u know....w u hardly even know me a9lan.....a7s...a7s we went too fast....like faj2a im thinking of what happened and I don't know how all that happened....w hay mb joke we're married this is a real life we're starting....and.......m3rf... thats it i guess"

I looked up at him and faj2a he got up from his place and just walked out of the room.... without a word! nothing! He just left me hanging there my eyes followed him worrying about what might happen, I mean I don't think I said something wrong did I?
It took him a minute to rush back in as he blurted

a7mad " Blue..."
me "ha....?"
a7mad " my favorite color... its blue..."
me "oh"
a7mad "and I like skiing, skate boarding, biking, swimming, reading, hanging out anywhere basically, going to the beach... w mmm what else...oh and I get disgusted from any fruit with hairy qualities.....and mmmm I'm not particularly scared from anything I just dislike cats"
me "mmm"
a7mad " no look , these things don't matter we find out these things about each other in time as we live more together ..."
me "i know but..."
a7mad " but sho ro'9a? I said I love you w I'm not going to take it back, because ana glt sho da5li w i meant it....because those small things may59hom.....I wont love you because your favorite color is green or because you hate cats too, I fell in love with you because of the way you smile to me when we first wake in the morning, because of how you took care of me when I got sick, because of how you put up with my load of crap wya my family and make me feel better at the end of every day, THOSE are the things that matter... those the reasons I fell in love with you ro'9a....not your hobbies or your favorite movie...."

me " he..uh...mu....."

my mind....was like the blankest blank sheet of paper in the world....I did not know what to say at all.....faja2nee...I didn't expect him to say shay like this y3ne t7arait he'll just go along with me w bygool ya ok too fast bla...but ..............sho agoollaaaaaaaa.......he's kind of right.....what he said makes sense... do these small things actually matter?

his face lit up and a bright smile made its way on his face. The adorable 'im so awesome' look of his .
he was grinning waiting for me to say something, bs ana knt mertbka w i just skat w looked at him with puppy eyes....

a7mad " ha shoooo cat got ur tongue hehee"
me "mmm may59aaa"

I said as I blushed like crazy with all the shades of red, I could feel my face heating up! balanii......uf

a7mad " hehe sakattech"

he said very proudly with an amused tone. I looked up at him and pouted.
his expression turned to a softer smile, his eyes kinda sparkly....i think they sparkled or am I imagining things?

a7mad " a7bch....I really doo ro'9a....w a3arf this is not just simple attraction to you, its not just e3jab because your pretty and all... because marrait thro that in my teenage years...but this time its different..."

hnee I started grinning...my god a7madyyy i never knew he liked me this much *blush*

a7mad "haha ashoofch grinning a7eeen "
me " heheee ... you said im prettyyyy* I said while grinning wider
a7mad " a7een hal shay el wa7eed elli sma3tii mn all what i said!!" He said with a glare
me " heeeheee"
a7mad "hehee ur face"

he said while awana making fun of my voice. I just laughed at him katkoot...

a7mad " oh oh btww! I added you on facebook hehee"
me " oh mmm what if i don't accept u! muhaha"
a7mad " mmmm.......baz3al?"
me " mmmm what if I dont care if enta tz3al"
a7mad " just cz I love you more than you love me doesn't mean you don't care about my feelings okk"
me " shoy5e99aaa,,,,"
a7mad "y5e9a"
me " ushhh"

6ala3 lsaana teasing me awana.....I don't want to tell him I love him not just yet at least...because I'm not sure of how I feel...I like him ....ALOT....but isn't love a strong word?
ma3arf .......
still I wanted to show him that I do adore him , so i got up and gave him a quick kiss on his cheeks, w sat 3dalaa. I think I saw him blush a bit, w he had this innocent dimple smile of his on.

trn trn............. trn...

Is that my phone??? I jumped at the sound of it! and stared at it for a second in disbelief...re7t w took it in my hand, no one has called me in such a long time I even forgot my ringtone! I looked at the name...
noo.... I closed my eyes and opened them again and it still read the same name...

"fatooma Calling "

shalait el telephone as fast as I could!

me shouting " ALOOO"
fatooma " ro'9aa heey..."

I stormed out of the bedroom to the living room 3shan akalemha 3a ra7ti

me " HEY? hey? thats it!!! thats all you got to say??"
fatooma " .....mm"

I started tearing a bit.

me " I missed u."
fatooma " mee tooo wallaa"

She started crying on the other end of the phone

me " FATOOMA whats wrong! i know u ignored meee bs why r U crying!!"
fatooma " I just miss you a lot walla ro'9a i'm so sorry its just..."
me "just what?"
fatooma " elsalfa 6weela I need to see you face to face! we really need to talk...about everything"
me " enzain whats it about at leaaaast??? "
fatooma " don't u dare change how ur acting around him....but it's about a7mad."
me " what? shoy5e9a?"
fatooma " when can I see u?"
me " madri ay wagtt"
fatooma " tomorrow breakfasT?"
me " ok...."
fatooma " and ro'9a.."
me "hmm?"
fatooma " I love u ..."
me " love you too...."
fatooma "byeeee"

tooooot toooooooot....................

SORRY !

2010-02-25T13:34:00.000-08:00

My readers <3

omggg I'm SO SO SO SOOO SOOOOOOO SORRY walla! omg 2 months have pasSED?? SERIOUSLY SHIT im the worse blogger fl 3alam! =( !! sorry
I've been SO busy with my undergrad. in uni w projects i don't even have time to brush my hair u guys!
I REALLY WANT TO POST , uf i hate my life :(

anyways, since etrayaito this much u can wait shwaya longer right? :$ , I'll probably post something by the middle of march as soon as things clear up

If i could I really would
I'm so sorry : (

and to one of the anonymous commenters : no I DID Not pass away bismillah 3alay :$ :P

Wed-locked 28

2010-01-08T11:23:00.000-08:00

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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me " mmm a7mad, I don't think ur a coward ... ur just the 3jeebest man i know!"

I said grinning, trying to make him smile.
He took my hand that was on top of his into his own, and held it tight, i could feel his warmth. he leaned closer to me.. and whispered

a7mad "ro'9a..a7ibbich.."

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a7mad
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THERE I SAID IT, i thought to myself.
I felt so happy enna 6ala3t elly fe 5a6ri that I even was smiling while saying it, I looked up at her, observing her reaction.

her eyes were widened, and her mouth fell open but no words came out of it. She just stared at me, w ana I sat there looking back at her, not knowing what to do. Adree enna what I just told her is major, and I don't expect her to just say it back for the sake of saying it....

me " look ro'9a I KNOW it's too early to say shay che, bs walla when a guy knows he knows, right? w I don't expect u to say it back.."

I said with a smile on my face to make her feel reassured. I sensed her face relax.
her gaze moved away from me to the space in front of us. w she was so quiet. I couldn't read her face, she's usually easy to read but this time it was just blank.
hm that must have made her uncomfortable. So, I thought of giving her some space, to estaw3eb? I got up kissed her head and looked at her gave her a soft smile w stepped out of the bedroom to our 9ala, w radait el bab enna ykoon shway mftoo7 bs enough to give her privacy.

fta7t el tv, w ylast 3al sofa, w knt yals afr mn channel to channel, not really paying attention to what's on tv. I can't believe I just confessed my feelings to her! I mean adree it's not the first time I talk to a girl w che, bs fel past kan '3air, it wasn't as real as now.

I never felt this way towards anyone. w I didn't expect to feel this way towards ro'9a, so fast, I mean it's only been what? 2 weeks? ymkn I rushed into the confession? no wonder she didn't say anything back.

uf, I'm such an amateur when it comes to hal swalef.
about 15 minutes later I got bored, got up, switched the tv off w went into the room, to ayls 3al laptop or something, no it's not because i want to sit with her, I tried convincing myself, but a part of me knew that I wanted to be inside with her even if according to 'love rules' or madri what to call it I should give her space now.

d5alt el '3erfa w I saw her with her cute wondering expression looking through her mobile quietly. w she looked up at me when I got in, staring at me shyly. I smiled to her w re7t to my side of the bed and took my laptop w 7a6aita on my lap w opened my FaceBook, something i have not checked for a long while! I kept sneaking glances at her, bs I could only see her back though lel2asaf, she stayed where she was for a bit, then got up w looked at me, ana I kept staring at her as she came closer , yat ylsat right beside me w ana just sitting there smiling widely.

she pointed to my screen, lafait rasi, w I noticed that I hadn't even signed in yet.

me " ehh hehe"
I shrugged my shoulders. I was too sar7an I guess...
I started typing my email, then i typed awal part of my password then la7a'9t enna she looked away,

me " mmm I don't mind you seeing it by the way hehe"
ro'9a " oh...glt ymkn mat7eb"
me " oh laa its fine"

I typed el bagee in, w my home page fta7...mmm I wonder if she has seen my friends' list or not. Because I do have a lot of girls on my face book, not that I'm a player or anything, but I was kind of popular with the girls around high school, so I did know a lot of them, not necessarily any serious relationship though.

ro'9a "hmmmmm"

I looked at her with a questionable look.

ro'9a "mm sho maglt shay.."
me " 3yal laish u 'hmmm'-ed?"

she pointed out all the girls I have.. ah not that I did not expect that..

ro'9a " mno hayail?"
me " mmmmm people from my past... hehe"
ro'9a " ahaa"

she said Looking at me with one eye brow raised. I looked back at her innocently, tra 9dg they're only random friends that I don't even talk to.
she sat straight up, her arm not touching mine anymore. Nsait enna she gets jealous bser3a, like that time in Spain. Although she denied it awanna.
she continued looking at the screen, bs I didn't click anything, I had a couple of inbox messages bs Makent aba afta7hom nw jdamha, because I think I know who they are from.....

33 notifications, I read at the bottom of the page. Not bothering to see all of them, i just clicked it twice enna ystwee none.
then went to my profie page.
It had so many wall posts from people saying congratulations on the wedding w madri sho.
I can't believe I haven't opened my facebook since before the wedding.
i was scrolling down the page b3dain i felt her hand on top of mine, gesturing for me to stop .
She brought her head closer to the screen w squinted her eyes, hehe ktkoota.
she turned her head to me with a slight frown on her face she pointed at "khawla al X",

ro'9a " you know her...?"
me " ehh,, she'z a friend of a friend of mine"

I said casually, wanting her to stop asking questions. It's not that I do not want to tell her my past, bs I don't know if she's ready to listen, or if she wont get bothered by it, i just don't want to scare her away from me, not that I've done something major, bs ma3arf HER past to compare. I mean, maybe something I consider minor is considered major to her? ma3arf...
She kept staring at me curiously, shit does she know khawla? Is that why she's asking?

ro'9a "mm who?"
me "oh it's just this girl I used to know,,,whyyy does it matteR?"

I said defending myself.

ro'9a " if she's ur friend's friend, 3yal laish her congratulations on ur marriage mb mn 5a6erha look look, she wrote 'Congratulations on you marriage a7mad" full stop, so that means she's pissed about it!!"

I looked at her with a 'r u serious' look. Although, I knew she was right, bs makent aba a3teref. Not now at least...

me " r u serious?"

she nodded,

me " I don't know okaayy"

she looked at me suspiciously,then laffat to reach for the remote w ylsat b3eed 3anni looking at the tv

ro'9a " Fine.."

She had her arms folded, I turned my head w looked back at my screen w checked my wall again, I did not reply to any of the posts though.

I kept staring at my inbox, but I don't want to open it jdam ro'9a, I mean I just confessed my feelings for her, w the next thing she sees is this. No it's definitely too soon for her to know hal salfa.
I kept checking other people's profiles and such. Until she got up w ra7at el 7ammam. Did she look pissed wla ana at5ayyal?
elmohem I opened my inbox fast, since I had the chance to .
I read this

7anan al X
6. january subject: WTF!!!!!

7anan al X
31.December subject: ALO??

7anan al X
27.December subject: 7beebiiiiiiiiiiiii!

I stared at them blankly, it's been a while... I decided to open the first one she sent

7anan al X
27 Decembet at 03:16

halla a7mad babyyyyy!(k)
I've missed you a loooooooooot! You have no idea!!!!!!
I can't stop thinking about you latelyyyyy
I got Your emaail..and I don't know what to say
we need to meet up or could you give me your new number so I could call you?
ASAP, we need to talk, I don't want to talk here on facebook
hehe

a7ibbik 7amoody
mwah! <3

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2009-12-31T13:47:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR READERS <3

kel snaa wnto0o0o 6aybeeeeeen (k)
I would've posted if I was not out celebrating new year's bs u knw =D i was out so i did not write anything hahah
anyways, i will post soon

bs for now HAPPY NEW YEAR

from dubai ;)

xoxo

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wed-locked 27

2009-12-29T01:32:00.000-08:00

HEY READERS <3
sorry for the exteremly long delay

u knw i love u
xoxo

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Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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Ro'9a
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I had the widest grin on my face, OMG I MISS My mom so muuchh! and my dadd, and my brothersss! Nsait all my troubless awal mashft'hom ........
obooy sat on the left side 3dala my brothers, w 3dal my brother was a7mad.....
After a few minutes, they became so engrossed into their conversation, talking about money or politics , m3rf I couldn't tell. I was just enjoying my mom's warmth 3dalee,, although I was not part of their conversation either.
.......

me " hehe a7mad laish hadait'hom w yait?"
a7mad " mmmmmmm honestly?"
me " yess"
a7mad "I ran away from obooy, he's going to start telling them all his glorious 'achievements' w I've heard mor ethan enough about them!"
me " oh,,"

w ana t7arait enna he came for me, heh. Is he here to 3adel el jaw between us? r we going to talk about yesterday ? I mean c'mon

we Friki'n

DID IT..........

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RO'9a
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a7mad "aaaand because I wanted to sit with u"
he said with a wide grin.

me " ahaa.. haih 9a7"
a7mad " ayyy laish z3alteee"

I looked at him coldy, thought of playing along although I'm not really za3lana hehe, y not

me " I'm not za3lana, ok.."

then lafait the other side looking at my bro's awanna
he put his hand 3ala my knee

a7mad " hey 7beebti ro'9a, laish z3altee, walla makan 8a9dee"

i posed 3ala kelmat '7beebti', wat's wrong with him today and his new niknames for me! bs even thought i posed, i didn't show it, I wanted to annoy him more hehe
So, I just looked at him emotionless, and gave him a 'look'

a7mad "ro'9a y r u being mazajeyya u were just laughing a minute ago!"
me "I'm not.."
a7mad " omg ro'9a, the only thing that explains u being moody is..R U 7AMEL??"

He said with a sudden raise in his tone! I just widened my eyes at him, w maglt shay, then noticed he wasn't looking at me anymore, he was looking waray, I turned my head to see my mom, with widened eyes directed at us, with her mouth slightly open.
Madri laish 7asait i did something wrong, u know the feeling when ur parent finds out u did something terribly wrong behind their back? that's the feeling I got
So I shook my head as in no nooo bser3a! she squinted her eyes and nodded slightly, bs kept looking at us for kamn second then stared into space.

I JUSt wanted to screaam at him! I got up excused myself w 6la3t mn el meelas immediately. I closed the door behind me and stood on the side of it, with my back against the wall.
what's wrong with a7mad! saying things like that! y3ne he's not a kid enna may3arf what that means, does he think it's not a big of a deal or something, I sat 3al floor b3dain, just thinking, and pissed off 3ala a7mad. marr t8reeban 15 minutes until the door opened w a7mad came out.
bs ana mn ma i glimpsed enna it was him I looked back down straight ahead.
he bent down 3ala his knees and had a guilty face..

a7mad " asef..."
me " seriously a7mad! WHAt's wrong with u!!!"
a7mad " madrii walla , I didn't think of what I was saying until I said it,, walla asef adree a7rajtech"
me " its ok i just hope ma77ad else heard u.."
a7mad " ra'9yaa 3annii ya3neeee!"
he said with a wide smile. I looked at him for a second then looked down..

me "mmm.. a7mad r we gonna talk bout ams?"
a7mad " ha? mmm wat bout it?"

I lifted my head up, w he had this proud smile on his face, I couldn't help not smiling back a bit.

me " ma3aarf y3neee..."

he leaned closer to me
a7mad " bout doing it again y3ne?"

then he kissed me softly right beside my lips then rja3 rasa wara and looked at me with a smirk.

me " ayyy yal '3abee what if 7ad ye6la3 from the meelAS!!"
a7mad " hahah I don't care"

and he did it again..
then he lifted his head to say something but the door flew open and his dad was there..

a7mad's face turned pale as he was looking up at his dad, w he got up bser3a, ana i was just looking at him entertained, haha he just said I don't care, ya right he doesn't ! hehe. I got up slowly w stood there.
bs I wasn't entertained anymore when I saw the look on a7mad's dad's face.
He looked at me mn 6araf 3aina, w then spoke under his breathe, with the most angry voice I've heard in my life.

a7mad's dad " a7mad. seer da5el a7sanlek .."

a7mad looked at him and hesitated, bs 6ala3 obo with an angry look w de5al inside.
His dad gave me a look w went inside.
What did his dad mean by that , I don't get it.
I got up, took a breathe and walked in the meelas again
i noticed sara was looking at me, with an 'omg-shit' expression. I slightly smiled to her w sat back 3nd my mom.
I took a look at a7mad, I knew he was mad, although he was trying to hide it, bs I could see it in his eyes. he looked at me for a sec then looked the other side, to my brothers, my dad and his dad talking, bs he was silent, pretending to listen.

A couple of hours later, after lunch. It was time for goum mama to go. My dad got up
and excused himself w shekar and everything, w it was time enna ysalmoon 3ala b3a'9. My mom salemat 3ala om a7mad, then his sisters, then it was my turn. I looked at her frowning. honestly knt shwaya w b9ee7, I just wanted to runaway home, uf ma7eb complications, and a7mad w salfat his dad, uuh i dnoo.
before I could sallem on my mom, a7mad barged in jdamee sallam 3alaiha and left the meelas.
My eyes followed him until he was out, then back to my mom, I went closer to her and hugged her w bst ras'ha, with a sad face.

mom " mamaa, bshoofech jreeb latz3leen"
me " 9dgg??"
mom " haih 9dg!"

she kissed my forehead and walked followed my dad 3nd the door. I went w salamt 3ala my dad and brothers, then they were all out.

a7mad's family dispersed through the house kel wa7d ra7 a different direction. I went and sat on the sofa staring into space thinking.

Me and sara were the only ones left fl meelas.
I was looking at the floor when sara came and yelsat 3dalee...

sara " what happened?? "

i looked up w she had this worried look on her face, She got my mind off my family.

me " ummm.. what do u mean ? oh ur dad and a7mad? what's the deal with ur dad btw?"
sara "mmm ma3arf.... laish sho estwa a9lan?"
me " mmm a7mad did something stupid, i got mad walked out, then a7mad came to ra'9ee mee, then ur dad came out wa 7araj 3alaih w told him to go bak in. w that's it i guess"
sara " eeeh..oh akeed baba 7arraj cz its rude to go out when fe '9yoof? Madri he always blabs about things like that. Oh or the fact that he 'tagged' along behind his wife, sa3at baba thinks thats unmanly of men...madrii...bs a7mad looked pissed off..wain ra7 btw?"
me " dno akeed ra7 el'3rfa , I better go c how he's doin"
sara "yah..hmmm c u later"

I got up, sighed, and walked to our room. Fta7t bab our 9ala, it was so quiet w all the lights were off. Kamalt 6reeji to the room, opened the door and closed it behind me.
I saw a7mad sitting on the bed with his head bent down w his hand clenched into a fist. I walked to him w yalst 3dala w decided to stay quiet until he felt like he wanted to talk or something.

about 3 minutes later

a7mad " u probably think i'm a coward nw.."
me " ha...but why would I?"
a7mad " because..I just listened to my dad without saying a word, although ho kinda thalany..."
me " hmmmm.."
a7mad " I REALLy wanted to say something ! bs at the same time I really did not want to make a scene, y3ne come on ana mb yahel anymore he treats me that way. Ana rayyal metzawej! w hay mb 7ala y3amelni che jdam zoojty ba3ad.."

I had no idea what to say to him, I just took my hands and put it on his, trying to comfort him. 7beebi he was so tensed w angry.

He looked at me with his face a bit more relaxed, bs still kinda m3a99eb.

me " mmm a7mad, I don't think ur a coward ... ur just the 3jeebest man i know!"

I said grinning, trying to make him smile.
He took my hand that was on top of his into his own, and held it tight, i could feel his warmth. he leaned closer to me.. and whispered

a7mad "ro'9a..a7ibbich.."

Wed-Locked 26

2009-11-26T13:48:00.000-08:00

TO my lovely Loyal Readers, <3>

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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Sara
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oday there's this family thing......w i think her parents are coming at around 2 or something .. hhmmm
what should I wear?
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me " mamaaa where's ro'9aaaaa??"
......
I ran with my fa6eera and knocked on ro'9a and a7mad's door ,,,

and knocked agaain...
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ro'9a
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I've been up since 9 am! i think, haa ethaa I EVEN SLEPT!...............I sat on the bed thinking about last night. I keep esr7ing about it.
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sara " ok i'll wait here lain ma u put on ur shaila! yallaa cm with mee out "
me " hmmm ok'
...............

some one approaching us, rfa3t rasi n I saw enna it was a7mad, my gaze did not move away from him, he was looking at me, with a different look, like he's scared, holding back, confused. madri it was hard to read. I just looked back blankly...

Awal ma ya jreeb w he was about to say something....

6ing 6onggggg...

sara " THEY're HEREEE!"
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Ro'9a
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Sara got up mn 3dalee w shai5a ba3ad gamat
a7mad turned his head to look at kel7ad getting up then looked back at me and shrugged his shoulders w msha towards the meelas I guess. I was just staring back, y did he shrug his shoulders i dnt get it? Uhh what did he want to say to me?
I got up from where I was sitting, and followed a7mad, who was kind of far away from me. Because i don't know where anything is in this house! We got to this huge room, with golden everything, all I can say is that it was such a fa5em place with chandeliers and everything! I rushed 9oub el door where a7mad's mom was. ft7at el bab w there they were,,,,,! I had the widest grin on my face, OMG I MISS My mom so muuchh! and my dadd, and my brothersss! Nsait all my troubless awal mashft'hom
I stood there 3dal om a7mad waiting or her to finish saleming on mama, when she approached me I attacked her with a massive HUG!

me " mamaaaa eshtagtlechhhh"
mama "hehe,, 7beebtii"

I let go of her and she kept laughing at me! madri laish.. she proceeded to the person next to me. I Salemed 3ala my dad after that, it was nothing like how i hugged my mom, madri 3gob elly sawwa feeni, I just can't not think of how he did that to me. b3dain salamt 3ala my brothers! I've missed them wayddd.

kel7ad dispersed through the room to the chairs. om a7mad sat on a main chair in the middle, w my mom sat 3dalha, obooy sat on the left side 3dala my brothers, w 3dal my brother was a7mad, who kept eyeing me because I was just standing there trying to choose where to sit. But it was easy, of course I'd choose my mom! I ran 3dalhom w sat right next to her. My mom turned 9oobee with a wide grin, bss a7mad's evil mom was giving me looks, which I got used to by now, Ignoring them is the best solution.

mom " tawnyyy as2aL 5altch 3annich!"
me " hehee,,, sho ts2leeen?"
mom " as2aaL etha mla3weztenhom wla la!"
om a7mad " hah...la walla.."

My eyes widened faj2a! Was she just nicE???? I DID not expect her to say that at allllll! What is she trying to do?

mom " oh zaain 7emdellaaa,,,, "

she turned to me and smiled an approved smile. I forced a fake smile out of me, I don't think she noticed enna it was fake, because right after that she turned back to om a7mad and started talking about random things. I looked around the room, shai5a w sara weren't here, m3rf if it's because my brothers are here, wla because they're not ready yet, cz sara was in her pJ'z. oh 7atta a7mads brothers were not here yet.
I was looking 9oub the men. My dad was extremely into the conversation, w my brothers were laughing w a7mad nodding and laughing to my dad. Channa that was towards the end of my dads 'story', cz a7mad rad etsanad on his chair w he looked towards me and smiled.

The main door opened slowly w an older man was walking in, I recognized him. It was a7mad's dad! awal marra ashoofa since our weddingg....wara were his 2 other sons. de5lo salemooo 3ala my dad n brothers w yLsoo 3dalhom. After a few minutes, they became so engrossed into their conversation, talking about money or politics , m3rf I couldn't tell. I was just enjoying my mom's warmth 3dalee,, although I was not part of their conversation either. De5lo at that time sara w shai5a, sara was wearing a green jalabeyya with a shaila, w shai5a the same thing but a pink one. salemo 3ala my mom w sara jumped and sat next to me. shai5a ylsat 3dal her mom.

sara laffat towards me met7amsa, after looking around the room, she started whispering

sara " ro'9a are those ur bros??"
me " yehh y?"

She just mouthed 'woooo' and nodded

me " hahha what do u mean?"
sara " mmmm nothing nothingg"
me " tra theyre really old haha"
sara " reallyyy? bt ,,,,mm the one on the right doesn't look that olddd"
me "oh him mmmm theyre all older than me, i think he's 21"
sara " oh that's not soo old!"
me " hahah ok ok fine"

While I was talking to her , I noticed a7mad getting up from where he was sitting and heading towards us. ya ylas 3dal sara, and ommy and his mom laffo 9oobna,

mom " a7maad, hallaa sh5baarek"
a7mad " 7emdellaa 5alteee,, enti sh5baarch?"
mom " 7emdella wallaa,,,awal mashft ro'9a, w shakelha mrta7a hnee ertaa7 galbeee"

He was smiling his charming smile, I just looked at them and smiled b3ad. Then the mothers continued to talk together, a7mad ya ajrab 3nd sara and whispered to her

a7mad " sara,, roo7ee eeelsee 3nd shai5a please"

ahh! NO! laykoon he wants to 'talk' now jdam kel7ad! is he crazy?? SAra just looked at me and winked, then nodded to her bro and gamat to sit 3nd shai5a. a7mad on the other hand, scooted closer to me and grinned when I was looking up at him questionably

a7mad " hehe hi ruu"
me " Did u just call me ruu?"
a7mad " haha yes do u like it?"
me "mmmm its fine.. I guess"
a7mad " hehe fine fine ro'9a ro'9aa,,haaaa r u happyyy that u saw ur familyy?"

I nodded enthusiastically.

me "yeppp! " ( I turned to look at them while talking) " a7s it's been so long, I miss them wayd"

a7mad skat for shway, so I turned back to see his face, He was looking at them too. bs then he turned his face back to me, with a sad look on his face

a7mad " Do u wish u still lived with them?"
me " What do u mean??"
a7mad " mmm,,,y3ne do u wish I never happened to u, so u would go back to your old life..?"

I sat quiet for shway, then I looked up at him..

me " Its not enna I wish u never happened to me, I just wish U happened to me differently, in different circumstances, and I do miss home a lot.."

A soft smile was on his face, as he reached for my hand w za55a fe eeda

a7mad " Me too...me tooo... w I'm gonna try doing my best 3shan u don't miss it wayed ok?"

I smiled to him and nodded, then took my hand away from his, y3ne duDE fe wayd nas around! ast7ee.

a7mad " hehee shooo it's not like I was kissing u"

I looked up at him and glared! ye'9a7el hal ensan! Wayd '3abee..

me " hehe a7mad laish hadait'hom w yait?"
a7mad " mmmmmmm honestly?"
me " yess"
a7mad "I ran away from obooy, he's going to start telling them all his glorious 'achievements' w I've heard mor ethan enough about them!"
me " oh,,"

w ana t7arait enna he came for me, heh. Is he here to 3adel el jaw between us? r we going to talk about yesterday ? I mean c'mon

we Friki'n

DID IT..........

Wed-Locked 25

2009-11-02T13:18:00.000-08:00

i know it's short! :p
bs a post is a post
right? :$
hehe

gdnight <3

until next time <3
wed-locked

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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me " I missed u....so muchh"
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I didn't care about the limits we talked about I didn't care about anything, I just wanted him..
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we've never gone this far before.
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He was brushing his lips 3ala my ear lobes softly then he whispered, with his oh-so-sexy manly voice

a7mad " Lets just DO it...

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Sara
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uff i don't want to get up! You know when there's a BOring day ahead of you so you just DO not want to get up!! ok those are one of those days!!
Ams I was all hangingg ouut w kelshay with hessa and today there's this family thing, ok i like ro'9a and all,, bs family lunch is a bit too borrrring for me!
I sat up and stretched and decided its about time a6la3 mn el '3rfa its like 12:30 pm now, w i think her parents are coming at around 2 or something .. hhmmm
what should I wear?
Mama told me to wear something m7taram, I'll go ask her!
I washed my face w kelshay w went out in my PJz, it was louder than usual today!
I skipped to the 9ala where the noises were coming from and I saw mama there so I ran to her and kissed her head!

me " Hellooo mamaaaa! "
mama " sho helloo ma helloo! enti w ur englaaizy hehe 9aba7 el 5airr ! "
me " hehe 9aba7 el nour "

Baba wasn't here yet bs my sister shai5a was here, bs my other sister zainab wasn't ! akeed she's away weya her husband, mn ma tzawejat we hardly see her!
I ran to shai5a and hugged her

me " hiii sisterrrrrrr"
shai5a " ahh yal dubba get off of me!"
me " noo i miss uuuuuuu "
shai5a "ahh ok ok "

she gave me a pat on my back! hehe cute shai5a! I went to my brothers ba3dain a7mad, Sultan, and Mansoor were sitting in a corner ysoolfoon with their morning chay 7aleeb'z !

me " mama shoooo Albess for todaay??"
mama " oh 6alla3tellich shay, 7a6aita fe '3rftee seeri 5ethi ba3daain, awal ta3alee shrbee aw kelee shay!"
me " oh hehe okaay "

7a6ait one fa6eera cheese on my plate because I'm on a diet! mama kept complaining about how I never eat but I ignored her and ate while looking around the room. w I noticed that RO'9a was not there! Is she like all freaked out ena her parents are coming over oo0ow! mskeena

me " mamaaa where's ro'9aaaaa??"

mama looked up and was quiet for a bit then she answered

mama "mm ma3arf"
me "a7maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaD"

a7mad " ahh lat9ar5een sho fee???"
me "Where's RO'9aaaa??"

His face changed a bit then he answered

a7mad " oh hmm madri fel '3erfa?"
me " OO ok! i'll go to her then!"

He hesitated then ylaas

me " haa? U wanted to say something?"
a7mad " noo noo nothing" *smile*

I ran with my fa6eera and knocked on ro'9a and a7mad's door ,,,

and knocked agaain...

ro'9a
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I've been up since 9 am! i think, haa ethaa I EVEN SLEPT! uff my headdd hurts ! I was getting my clothes out of the kabat, I decided to wear this long sun dress kind of thing that was ke7lee with a cardigan. I put it on unwillingly, I'm so ta3bana, it's like almost 1 now w goum mom will come in an hour or so.
I sat on the bed thinking about last night. I keep esr7ing about it. Akeed everything between me and a7mad is going to change. Madri shol salfa bs I can't face him!
I was just sitting there with my clothes on. sar7ana when faj2a I heard a knock on the door, ngazt mn mkani!! SHIT who is it? laykoon a7mad! bs why the hell would he knock?? Then I heard the knock again bs I just froze in my place!

voice " RO'9aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa r u in therE?"

OH sara! thank god. bs shit I hope she doesn't make me tell her what happened!!!
I went over and opened the door w she came in all happy salming 3alay with a bread in her hand.

sara " LAISH MATft7een the dooor! "
me " hehe sorry! I was insiiidee"
sara " elmhmm elmohem! U looks so prettyyy in a dresssss I LIKE! and and ta3aliii baraa3 kel7adss sitting there! it feels wrong without u ! "
me " awh hehe laa 3adii, mmm majehazt"
sara " ok i'll wait here lain ma u put on ur shaila! yallaa cm with mee out "
me " hmmm ok'

ok 9ara7a I was readyy BS I DONT WANT TO FACE HIM! shit shit,, sara's so demanding! i still like her though, uwhoo, I went and put on my shaila, and applied shwaya blusher and mascara.

sara "Yay u look beautiful, yalla cm drink chay 7aleeb with meeee"
me " hehe kayy.."

i followed her out while she was skipping jdamee, I was so nervous, I mean I don't know. How should I acT?? Are people going to notice anything? I hope not!
Awal ma I stepped into the 9ala suddenly all the voices around me came back , it's like I was zoned out in my own head! There were so many people there. Ok la i am exaggerating, bs it felt like it. sara came and held my hand and pulled me to her mom, so I would say good morning or something? i think that's what she said

me " salam w 3alaikm"
a7madz mom "w 3alaikm el salam..."

She said it ...raddat 3alay...without being rude? ok kind of emotionless,, bs not rude at least! ok that's weird
I smiled to sarah and then went to sallem on a7mad'z sis,, shai5a I would assume, the one that I owe my life to! She wasn't so nice to me like sara, madri kanat t6ale3ni mn foug lain ta7at, as if studying me or something hmm....
I sat 3dal shia5a and sara got me chay 7leeb w we sat and soolafna about random things, well actually it was more like sara babbling and me nodding and giggling.

after a while Lma7t some one approaching us, rfa3t rasi n I saw enna it was a7mad, my gaze did not move away from him, he was looking at me, with a different look, like he's scared, holding back, confused. madri it was hard to read. I just looked back blankly...

Awal ma ya jreeb w he was about to say something....

6ing 6onggggg...

sara " THEY're HEREEE!"

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2009-10-18T11:38:00.000-07:00

omg it has been a month O_O
SO SORRY , el'9roof masem7at :(
<3
u knw i love u ;)

xoxooxo : P
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He looked down at his hands, and held on to mine tighter. Then he looked up at me

a7mad "I miss thiss...."
me "ha....? this what?"
a7mad "mmm...uss..like this... u know.."
...When we were close enough he closed his eyes, and I did the same. our lips pressed lightly onto each other...

........
Gmt the next morning........I ran towards it bser3a and took it in my hand and unfolded it

' ro'9a,
Sorry I woke u up last night.....w mmmm sorry about the kiss..... I was tired and confused........it'll never happen again....
so sorry....

a7mad. '
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a7mad's mom " walla maagltella shaay '3aair el 9dg....."
me " ay 9edg?"
a7mad's mom " enna entiii bss yalsa tl3beeen fee masha3raa 3shan ma9la7tch, fa geltella y7aaseb w yntebeh 3ala 3umraa...."
me " na3aaam? ma9laa7aat shoo enshalla?"
a7mad's mom " latsaween 3mrch '3abeyya jdamii,, 5e66etich waaa'97a! tbain a7mad y7ebbich 3shan b3dain ta5theen kel floosa w tg9een 3alaaih...! "
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I stood there jdamha silent, metfaj2a, y3ne this woman comes up with stories herself and beLieeves them! w a7mad believed her?
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toot tooot.......tooot tooot

mom "alooo"
me "aloo salam w 3alaikm"
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I thought I'm too old to ever say this..bss......aba ommyy...!
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a7mad
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it was 5:00 pm now. Bs obooy tawwa gayelli enna mafee she'3L zyada elyoum.
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I went into the house w kan hdoooo2. as usual y3ne. I walked to 9oub el 9ala (avoiding going to our room, avoiding ro'9a in other words..)
I saw my big sis there...

me " hallaa shaai5aa sh5baarech.."
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Shai5a " ta3al a7mad..mmm i need to talk to you"
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me " 5aair sho fee??"
shai5a "it's about 7remtik.....I saw her today by the way....."

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Ro'9a
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uff I was so bored mn hal '3rfaa.... I walked around the room, I've watched Tv, I've done kelshay fe this room that's do-able y3ne!
I decided to get out and go to the 9ala, maybe i'll see sara there! hopefully.
Lbast shailat 9ala, and I went out of the room, I was walking slowly looking around the place. I heard voices coming mn el 9ala... they were two voices, a male and a female. As I went closer I recognized one of them, it was a7mad. esta'3rabt enna he's here, since its tawa 6 shay. bs the girl, i didn't know who she was, she didn't sound like sara, mmm or his mom. I just stood there when what they were saying was clear to hear.

girl ' ta3al a7mad I need to talk to you"

a7mad " 5aair sho fee??"

girl "it's about 7remtik...I saw her today by the way..."

I was so surprised and curious to listen to what this girl had to say, re7t shwayaa ajrab, bs i was still out of sight from the 9ala people. Talk about being in the right place at the right time! yay me!

a7mad "hmm... and?"

girl " ya7lailha...she's not bad"

a7mad "heh...and that's what you want to talk to me about??"

girl "hmm laa.. bs gabel ma agoolek, lazim tefham enna mama has good intentions for what she does, she always thinks she's doing what's best for us 9a7? Even if sa3at what she does makes no sense, bs u hafto excuse her ryte?"

a7mad "mm ya.. I guess.."

girl " enzain...mmm whatever she told you bout ur wife....mmm .. not true..."

a7mad " haa?? what do you mean??"

girl " mmm well... today morningg me n mama were walking around the house , w when we got to the dining room, 7remtik was there.."

a7mad " her name is ro'9a btw ...heh"

girl " oh hehe ok...ro'9a was there...elmohem...Ro'9aa came up to mama and asked her about what she told You, because she said ennik met'3ayyer 3alaiha shay che ..."

a7mad " SHE CAME up to MAMA!!?"

girl " YES! .. ok elmohem mama ma re7mat'ha .. she told her enna she told u the truth.....something about ro'9a using u ya?"

a7mad " mm ya that's kind of what she told me...."

girl " well ro'9a was all like WHAT r u talkin bout!! ANA mb chee and stuff.."

a7mad " Reallyyy??"

girl " well yah... wait enta 9adagt mama youm galatlek??!"

a7mad " well yes..and no... y3ne i thought y would mama lie to me,, bs at the same time,, ro'9a was amazing weyay so makan ydsh el 3agel....."

girl " omg a7mad ! ur such an idiot haha.. didn't it occur to you that mama hates her ?? mathalan!? "

a7mad " well, adree that bs t7arait y3ne she will see how much I like her w she won't hurt me in the process at least, cz after what she said ams, w ana 7altee uff.. walla madri kaif agoollech....'

girl " so you do like her?"

a7mad " mmm.....haih..."

girl " aww myy liiil brother y7eB! "

a7mad "hahah aaihh! "

I stood there not knowing what to do for a while...I wanted to go and hug that big sister of his !! SHE sort of saved my life just now!! OMG THANK god! Im so relieeeeved......and he said y7ebni....ehh la2 maybe he's just saying that..
ok ok let me go back to the room gabel la yshooofooni!!
I was walking back when I bumped into sara 3nd bab '3rfatna.

me " SARa! "

sara "RO'9aaaa! I Was looking all over for you!! I can't believe a7mad ma3a6aach my Blackberry piiiN! here here where is your phone?? I'll add myself,,,my bro mamenna fayda!"

me " hahha.. sorry akeed nsaa..heree"

haha The things sara gets mad at are funny. Bs seriously yesterday was NOT the day he would add his sister to my phone. I gave her my phone w she added herself, then she had this wide grin on her face.

sara "YAY now I can annoy you all the time! "

me "hehe yaay ! "

a7mad " my two favorite girls in the woorld!"

his voice came out from behind us, me n sara jumped at the sound of his voice as we turned our heads, Unlike sara, I stood where I was studying the situation carefully not knowing how will he act towards me after ma ekteshaf that I was innocent. sara went and hugged him then let go w they walked closer to the door, closer to me.

a7mad " goomee sara goomee, 5aleenee asallem 3ala zoojty awaal"

I looked up at him innocently, wallah hal ensan youm yba ykoon ktkoot mafee 7ad methlaa fl denya ! 7beebyyy!
He came closer and put his hand behind my head as he bent down and layed a peck on my head. As he was standing up right he looked into my eyes, I gave him half a smile as I blushed.

sara " OMG OMG! "

a7mad " SHO SHO? hahaha"

sara "seriously YOu TWO should be in a movie or something hahah"

a7mad " hehe haih walla 9a7 kalaamch'

he said as he came right next to me and put his arm around my shoulders. I looked at him, then back at sara and gave her a shrug, ena I don't know what he's doing look.

sara " hehee okaay a7mad 9adagt 3mrek psht! .. anyHoo I'll leave you two love birds and I'll go to the NAiL station taa taaaaa!"

She said excitedly as she fled to her room. He slowly shal eeda mn my shoulder then opened our room door and 6ala3 9ooby smiling

a7mad " Ladies first "

me " hehe "

I did not know what ot say, 7asait 3mrii habla just giggling every now and then. I walked into the 9ala, w ho ya jdamy w fta7 bab el bedroom w d5al inside. mshait wara and I walked in and sat on the bed. (Don't ask I was just wayd bored!)
He took off his '3etra and 3alaga on the hanger. Followed by the kandoora of course. He was wearing wzar w faneela..he looked so funny, bs I didn't laugh, bs 6ala3ta w ashkra im holding a laugh in, smiling.

a7mad " hehe shoo moo 3aybennich myy 5abbaz look! "

me " hehe maagelt shaaaay"

I blushed. madri laish! mnzmaan matkalamna wya ba3a'9 bs che 3aba6..god I miss him.

a7mad " ashkra it shows on ur face enzain.. Btshoofeen I won't change... a9lan I can be hot in anything,, 7atta lw wzar w faneelaaa! "

me " ahahahah... riiiiight..."

a7mad " u want to dare me? I can seduce you WHILE wearing this! tet7adaaiN! "

me " mmm la 3adii....i believe uu i believe u "

I said while rolling my eyes. SEDUCE Me? walla hal ensaaan bi-polar, wala channa this morning he wrote a 'sorry-i-kissed-u' note thingie! I got off the bed since hoo ya ylas 3dalee while talking about seducing me, bs Ho za5 eedy when I was standing and pulled me 5feef towards him, KAN SHWAY w i will fall all over him! I think that was his purpose bs I stopped myself w wgaft centimeters away from him, I mean I thought we'd talk about things before actually just jumping on each other.
I mean it's been what? 2 days w ne7na weird around each other w yetwa8a3 a7een just because he decided I'm innocent we can go back to making out?
I'm not saying I don't want that ...bs.....I can't ignore that I am kind of m8hoora menna, enna how could he even think of me as a money-sucking B**ch...uff
I moved my hands freeing them from his grab. He looked up at me questionably..

me " what??"

a7mad " mmm well....r u ok?"

me " what do you mean?"

a7mad "you're acting weird... is something wrong?"

i looked at him with a ma8hoora face, is he serious? after all the drama mal the couple of days ago, he thinks I will be fine, after all that ignoring my existence he thinks it's ok?

me " r u serious a7mad?"

a7mad " serious sho? ya I'm serious I'm asking sho balach.."

me " a7mad yesteday you were all weird and stuff, and u were like kent afakker fee shay, w then the day before shay bout ur mom ... n now you come in all happy walaa channa shay mstweee....don't I have the right to be confused??!"

I'm such a drama queen, haha, awana ma3rf why he's happy, bs he doesn't know that I know so he can't just decide to act this way. And I expect him to say sorry...for what he thought of me...
He was quiet for a while, a'9en kan yfakker, his face became serious. He got up and came closer 9oobee..

a7mad " mmmm I heard that you talked to my mom today, so t7arait enna t3arfeen sholsalfa...."

me " So it's true?! You thought I'm just being nice to you 3shan I want your money? Seriously a7mad??"

a7mad " bs ro'9aa..."

I put my arms in front of his face, enna 'shh and wait', and put my other hand on my face, drying back the tears, my eyes were starting to get watery, m3rf laish. I took a deep breath thn nazalt eedi and was looking at the floor

me "bs shoo?"

a7mad " I'm sorry walla ......m3rf...i dnoo...madri kaif i believed her......bs she's my mom t3arfeen I've been living with her all my lifee.."

me " bss I'm your wife! I know you don't know me that well bs bss....I thought you knew me shwaya more than that "

A tear escaped my eyes, magdar ayawda...I was 6al3ing kella elly feeni......i want him...I want him for me.......I need him to hold me.

a7mad " wallaa asef roo'9aaa..."

He got closer to me and put one of his hands 3ala my shoulder.

me " and then...then you ignore me,,,, w ana 6ool el youm roo7ee..and...."

My tears were all over the place! I could hardly see him anymore...He took his hand off my shoulder and put his arms all around me, rasi was now 3ala 9adra,, and my hands bent jdami, I held his shirt tight with them....his smell.....his warmth...........his heartbeat......I could feel it all

me " I missed u....so muchh"

I cried at that sentence uncontrollably, I think it was all the bottled up feelings about kel7ad around me 6ela3 marra we7da. He just held me tighter and kept apologizing over and over again.
3gb shway I calmed down, w ho 7as b hal shay, so he loosened his arms around me, and looked at my face with his serious katkoot face, I didn't take my eyes off of him, more like I got my head closer to him. Doing something I knew I was not supposed to, bs I don't caare!
madait rasi w I kissed him as passionately as I knew how to, I sneaked my hands behind his head, with his hair going through my fingers. Shway shway I was pushing him towards the bed, still kissing. I could feel his hand crawling onto my back. He fell on to the bed and me right on top of him. I didn't care about the limits we talked about I didn't care about anything, I just wanted him...I lifted my head shwaya to see his face, bs it's not like ho 5alanee,, he just raised his head too and by putting his hand wara My head he pulled it back and forced our lips together again, it's like we couldn't get enough...we've never gone this far before. He rolled us over, until I was at the bottom, and he had his both arms placed enna they were lifting his weight off of me, while being on top of me. I was enjoying his warmth all over me, and the tender kisses he planted on my lips, cheeks. Shway shway he moved down he was kissing my chin, then it was my neck. It was so awkward, ok I was enjoying it w sort of closing my eyes, bss bss what am I supposed to do? Where do my hands go??
rafa3 rasa shwaya and he had this wide grin on his face, that was...extremely sexy I must say,, I haven't seen this look on him before, I have no idea what it means! Garab rasaa to my ear and he started kissing that area...it tickled and felt so right at the same time it was so weird! And well it turned him on cz the next thing he told me caught me off guard.. . . .
He was brushing his lips 3ala my ear lobes softly then he whispered, with his oh-so-sexy manly voice

a7mad " Lets just DO it..."

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2009-09-23T03:49:00.000-07:00

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kaif 5alaita y3a99eb, and what he said before he slammed the door! What does he mean? What did his mom say about me??
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me " ana asfaa ,, a7mad bss..."
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a7mad " bss sho?"
me " bs enaa..."
...
me " enaa....I really missed you w knt atrayak roo7ee and i got lonely, n then you didn't come,, w madrii a7maad, I just 7asait b'9eej, bs im sorry I got angry at you.."
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a7mad " na3am?"
me " r yooou still mad at mee" *frown*
a7mad "oh la2 i'm not"
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a7mad
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I couldn't face ro'9aa! y3ne sho agoolha ???
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the conversation between me and my mom kept repeating in my head, especially when she said " a7maad ana mat'hmnee '3air ma9la7tek, w maknt bagoolk hatha etha maknt ahtam, 7aseb mn ro'9a! tra 9a7 ymkn t7asseb ennk tdaneeha bs enta bs t3arfha 7ag kamn youm, w youm kalamt'ha ana 3shan etdeer balha 3alaik gamat 7arejat 3alay w 5athat 9a7anha w 6l3at mn el dining room ba3ad ma ana roo7ii wadaait'ha hnak!! w galat enha bt5aleek t7bha 3nad feeni! taraha matehtam feek wala t7ebbik, kel ha yalsa tsaweee 7ag ma9la7at'ha"
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this must be the worse day of my life...

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a7mad
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fta7t 3ainy wla el '3rfa '9alaaam.. I looked over at the alarm clock that was 3dal my bed, it read ' 3:02 AM', so apparently I only slept for 2 hours wla shay che... uf magdar anaam! I turned myself to face ro'9a while she was asleep. I could see her face now only half covered with the blanket. I wanted to lean closer and kiss her forehead, bs I couldn't bring myself to do that...
mt'9aayeg ya naas met'9aayeg!
I got off the bed and was walking around the room like a maniac, thinking everything over. y3ne 9ara7a kalam ommy maydsh el ras, bs ma38oola she just makes it up?? Ya rabiii I'm soo confused!
8arart a9alee 9alat el7aaja 3shan ana m7tar big time! w ma'9n ayshay byra7ni '3air rabii...fa re7t w twa'9ait w kelshay .....

ro'9a
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I heard noices around the room, doors closing, noisy footsteps. I forced myself to ignore them at first, bs they didn't go away so I got up, I was surprised enna a7mad makan 3dalee , Awal ma I lifted my head I spotted him in the corner of the room faresh el syadaa w ho y9alee. I wonder what he's praying, when sheft el sa3a kan ba3ada 3ala 9alat el fajer. hmm...
I just sat there looking at him, b3dain sra7t....I miss my mom, my dad, my brothers, and fatooma....wainhum? Should I call my mum tomorrow? bs A5er conversation we had didn't go all that well. I wonder how they're doing. They're not the only people I miss, I miss a7mad too, a lot, I've never felt this alone in my life, and it sucks uff!
I was sitting up so I bent my knees and hid my face between them trying to escape all those thoughts, my head started to hurt,, uff...marra w7da I felt a cold hand touching my hands fa ngazt and I looked up...it was a7mad with his tired face ylas 3dalee 3al shebreyya

a7mad " did I wake u up?"

I looked at him for a bit then I nodded slowly.

a7mad " ohh asef ! "
me " laa 3adi.."
a7mad " I just...couldn't sleep"

He said while looking at the floor, then looking up into my face, he was in serious need of a hug, I can read it all over his face, bs I couldn't do it, awalan knt ta3bana to move, thaneyan he said we shouldn't be all touchy w I don't want to ruin things bainna more than how they are now...

me "oh.. laish?"
a7mad "mmm....madri knt afakker wayd,,,bout kelshay.."
me " ummm.... do you want to talk about it?"

He was silent for 2 seconds thinking, then he gulped and had a worrisome look on his face

a7mad " I probably shouldn't..."
me "akeed? you can tell me anything a7mad.."

nazalt my knees and I sat closer to him, hopping that he would give in and talk,, aba a3arf sho fee, shoo m'9aygenna mat7ammal seeing him like this. I reached for his hand and held it tight, brushing my thumb on the side of his palm softly, trying to raye7 him.
He looked down at his hands, and held on to mine tighter. Then he looked up at me

a7mad "I miss thiss...."
me "ha....? this what?"
a7mad "mmm...uss..like this... u know.."

When I saw his eyes they were so serious, I didn't expect him to say that after how he acted yesterday. I looked at him innocently with a slight frown

me "...ana b3ad..."

He brought his face cautiously closer to mine, carefully looking into my eyes while gradually coming closer and closer. w ana maga9art y3ne I knew I wanted it, I wasn't going to run away this time, I was garrebing my face to his too. When we were close enough he closed his eyes, and I did the same. our lips pressed lightly onto each other....I took my hand that wasn't holding anything and put it 3ala the back of his head softly fastening his head in that position. bs a7mad didn't do anything he just kissed me, like he had never before, he wasn't stopping I don't know how much it lasted, bs I had to take a break to catch my breath..but I wish I never pulled away....
I took my lips off of his to take a breath, bs when I did he pulled his head way back, He bit his lip as if holding on to the taste, then he took a deep breath and freed his hand from my grip while getting up from the bed.

a7mad "mm...I need to go sleep..."

My mouth slightly fell open when he got up, I didn't want him to! I was screaming NOOO inside of me, bs I didn't want to sound desperate so maglt shay and I just followed him with my eyes until he layed in his side of the bed and '3a66a 3umra bel la7af while his head was turned away from me.
So much for getting him to talk to me..uff...what's wrong with him? What the hell did his mom tell him?
I layed down on my pillow, thinking about the kiss, I mean we had a deal enna no kissing bs we kissed anyways? Does that mean that rule is banished? hmmm...I was just staring at his back, worried about him, about us.... until I dazed off and fell asleep.

Gmt the next morning with a terrible headache...I went to the bathroom and changed w kelshay and was walking around the room fixing some stuff thrown around. b3dain I looked over at the bed and I spotted this folded paper on a7mad's pillow. et7amast so I ran towards it bser3a and took it in my hand and unfolded it

' ro'9a,
Sorry I woke u up last night.....w mmmm sorry about the kiss..... I was tired and confused........it'll never happen again....
so sorry....

a7mad. '

Does he see me complaining!? why the hell is he apologizing....uff! I have to make sure it DOES happen again. urghh...I'm hungry.....
I ran out of the room, rushing to the dining area where all the food was. W I CAn't explain how hungry I was, I literally put some from every kind of dish on the table on to my plate! W kalaita bser3a gabel ma the evil mom walks in....since I need to talk to her.
After eating kelshay on my plate I was so satisfied. I made sure I ate a little extra since I may not be eating anything during the day like yesterday! I was so full w just yalsa staring at my empty plate when she walked in. I got up 3ala 6ool when I heard her voice talking to someone. I was looking directly at her bs she pretended I was not there. kanat tmshee wya this girl that I don't know, the girl was wearing a jalabeyya w looked way older than me, in her late 20's probably and she was definitely staring at me, curiously.

me "umm salam w 3alaikm 5alo.."

I said coldly, still looking towards her. She turned her face to me, looking extremely annoyed by my voice. but I didn't care...

me " b'3ait akalmech fe mw'9oo3"
a7mad's mom " 5aair,,,?"

I looked at the girl, who was curiously looking at me, then back at a7mad's mom, as if ashering enna she's there

me "mmm mw'9oo3 5a9 shwaya..."
a7mad's mom " ely btgooleena jdamyy... goolee jdam bntyy ba3ad..."
me " umm enzain..."

I got off the chair and stood jdamhm...

me "mmm b'3ait asa2lch, enti sho gltee be'9aab6 7ag a7mad? 3shan ho mb ra'9ee ygoolee,, w mn ams mt'3ayyer 3alay..."

Her face lifted up when I said that! 7a8EERAA!

a7mad's mom " walla maagltella shaay '3aair el 9dg....."
me " ay 9edg?"
a7mad's mom " enna entiii bss yalsa tl3beeen fee masha3raa 3shan ma9la7tch, fa geltella y7aaseb w yntebeh 3ala 3umraa...."
me " na3aaam? ma9laa7aat shoo enshalla?"
a7mad's mom " latsaween 3mrch '3abeyya jdamii,, 5e66etich waaa'97a! tbain a7mad y7ebbich 3shan b3dain ta5theen kel floosa w tg9een 3alaaih...! "

My mouth fell open 3ala her words! WHERE the hell does she get thesE IDEAs from!! anaa after floosa?? THAt's like my last conceernnnn! I was in shockk!

me "..an...anaa??"
a7mads mom " laa anaaa 3yal? haaa tet7arainy '3abeyya maba3arf 5e66atch!"
me " mn waain ybtee hal kaalaam? mnoo ga9 3alaich?? ana a5er shay ahtam fee hwa el floos!!! "
a7mad's mom " lat7awleen tg9een 3alay ba3ad, ana mb l hal daraja '3abeyya"

I stood there jdamha silent, metfaj2a, y3ne this woman comes up with stories herself and beLieeves them! w a7mad believed her?

a7mad's mom " haa 5ala9tee kalamch?"

I gave her a pissed off look, but no answer, then she walked away. I went back and sat in my chair m8hooora! I can't belieeve hal 7rma! I was looking at them as they were walking out of the dining room, the girl, who apparently is a7mad's sis, looked back at me with a concerned look while following her mom until they were out of sight. I was thinking of a way to sort things out with a7mad, y3ne hay mb 7ala! I thought of maybe just throwing the salfa in his face, I can't believe he thinks i may be after his money. I calmed myself down with a couple of bites of the m3ajanat jdamee, then I got up and headed to our room.
I picked up my phone from the side table, 3gub I dialed in my mom's number and looked at it for a second metradeda, bs decided to call

toot tooot.......tooot tooot

mom "alooo"
me "aloo salam w 3alaikm"
mom " w 3alaikm el salaam,,, ro'9aa?"
me "haih mama ana ro'9a..."
mom "sh5baaaarchh 7beebtyy!'

dama3t when she said that, I miss her a lot, and I've been feeling alone for so long, there's SO much I wanted to say to her, bs I didn't want to sound weak, I didn't want her to get mad at me for complaining like last time. So I held my tears in and cleared my throat.

me " 7emdellaa mama...ento sh5baarkm?"
mom " ne7na b5aair.. ana hnee yalsa broo7y w obooch w e5wanch fl dawam kal 3ada..hehe....sh5bar a7mad wyach?"
me "oh hehe salmy 3alaihm....mmm a7mad...7emdella.."
mom "akeed? mb m2athetennaa?"
me "mamaa! laaa..."
mom "haha....."
me " mmmm mama tra ne7na radaina mn aspanya"
mom " oh haaih 5aberatni om a7mad, galw youm el jem3a fe '3da fe bait'hm 3shan nshoofch"
me "oh.."
mom " y3ne youmaain w nshoofech!"
me " haaih okaay....."
mom "ro'9oo yalla ana bseer ajahez el '3daa 7ag e5wanch w obooch"
me " oh enzain.."
mom " yalla ma3 el salamaa"
me "ma3...els.."

tooot ....tooot.....toooot

I layed my head on the bed, and let the locked in tears get out. So she knew I was here w ba3ad she didn't call? is that how it's going to be from now on?.... I miss them...I want to be there having lunch with them today...I want to get out of this hell hole......I thought I'm too old to ever say this..bss......aba ommyy...!

a7mad
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I was ratebing the papers on my desk, fl dawam. it was 5:00 pm now. Bs obooy tawwa gayelli enna mafee she'3L zyada elyoum. So it's one of my early days. etha this was yesterday knt bkoon wayd mstaans..bs not today. I don't want to go back home just yet. I don't want to face my mom w ro'9a. i don't know what to do about all that messed up salfa. And me kissing ro'9a, 9dg ennyy '3abee! bs I couldn't stop myself.
I did kelshay that I can, 5ala9t she'3lee ratabt el 6awla now what?
i'll drive as slow as possible on the way back.
I decided to get up w go and face my reality. rekabt el sayara, w I headed home. i we9alt there 3al 5:30, which is still TOO early. et'hayazt lain ma I got out of my car.
I went into the house w kan hdoooo2. as usual y3ne. I walked to 9oub el 9ala (avoiding going to our room, avoiding ro'9a in other words..)
I saw my big sis there...

me " hallaa shaai5aa sh5baarech.."
shai5a " a7maad? sho yaybennek mn 9ba7 Allah 5air...haa obooy m6al3ennek mnwaagt ashooof!"
me " haahahha haaih"
shai5a " ta3al a7mad..mmm i need to talk to you"

ze'3t hnee..wayehha et'3ayyar when she said that. shai5a doum the joking kind,,, fa when she's serious y3ne it must be shay mohem. I rushed 3dalha w ylast.

me " 5aair sho fee??"
shai5a "it's about 7remtik.....I saw her today by the way....."

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to be continued...........

:P

3eedkm mbarak <3 ~

2009-09-19T22:04:00.000-07:00

kel snaa wntooo 6aybeeN my readers <3 =D

ta8balla Allah 9yamkm w 9ale7 el a3mal w kel 3am wnto b5air ^^!

3eedkm mbarak
w 3sakm mn el 3aydeen wl salmeen :D

Lots of love,
Wed-locked
=D

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2009-09-10T15:04:00.000-07:00

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then I put on another show, and another one. kent 7a6etenna 3ala Friends now, it was 11 pm, w knt mb makla lunch wala dinner, I admit I was hungry.....
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It was a7mad he stepped in with an apology smile on his face. I was za3lana.....
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I continued staring at the Tv, looking as pissed off as I possibly could.........
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a7mad " I said I was sorry.."

kent ba3di za3lana, so I just looked at him coldly b3dain lafait rasy towards the TV ignoring his apology. His voice suddenly changed to a more serious angry one

a7mad " ro'9a youm 7ad yramsch 3al a8al 6al3ee... w youm 7ad yet2assaf he expects el 6araf el thani enna ytfahham shway 3al a8al.."

He said firmly, lafait rasy 9ooba w his eye brows were creased y3ne kan 9dg m7arrej. bs I didn't say anything back, I just looked back at him silently. He got up angrily and marched to the bedroom

a7mad " ufff ... I guess my mom was right about u .... ! "

and he slammed the bedroom door behind him.
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7asait b'9eeeej feeni at that moment I didn't know what to do, kaif he slammed the door, kaif 5alaita y3a99eb, and what he said before he slammed the door! What does he mean? What did his mom say about me??
I got up, with my heart racing, 7asait enny sawait shay '3ala6 by being pissed off 3alaih. I walked to the door and opened it shway shway, I had this feeling enna lazem ara'9ee before his mom's words, whatever they were, actually y2athroon 3alaih, I want the spain a7mad that I had so much fun and actionat with baack!
When d5alt quietly I was looking at him, he was standing by the bed taking off his '3etra and 3gal but he turned his head 9ooby when he heard the door open.
he gave me a glare w looked back at his 3gal while placing it on the bed, w when I was walking ajrab w ajrab to him he pretended I wasn't there and walked to the bathroom. I walked behind him, still not knowing what to say. He walked into the 7amam but didn't close the door behind him, is that a sign enna he actually wants to talk? bs za3lan? uf madrii ...Bs I walked da5el el bathroom weyaa, he was taking off his kandoora, he had only a faneela and wzar on, which looked weird on him but still not too bad bs I wasn't concerned with that at the time. I was just looking at his face with tears about to escape my eyes, and a frown on my face. I wished I could just go and hug him and forget about whatever happened since it was very stupid to begin with!
He put his kandoora beside the sink and turned his body to face me, his serious eyes were looking at me

a7mad " Fe shay that you want to say ?"
me " ummm....."

He looked at me disappointed and sighed heavily then was about to turn to take off his faneela or something but I had to say somethingg!

me " a7maad.."

He turned back to face me, and folded his arms in an 'im waiting' position. I looked at the floor then looked back up at him miserably

me " ana asfaa ,, a7mad bss..."

a tear escaped my eyes while saying that but I wiped it wya my hands and took a deep breath to control them, he probably already thinks I'm so weak and all ! No need for more crying jdama 3ala as5af el ashyaa2

a7mad " bss sho?"
me " bs enaa..."

I looked at the floor, glt ymkn its easier to talk that way

me " enaa....I really missed you w knt atrayak roo7ee and i got lonely, n then you didn't come,, w madrii a7maad, I just 7asait b'9eej, bs im sorry I got angry at you.."

*door knock*

We both looked back when we heard the door then back at each other, his face expression had changed, He put his hands on my shoulders

a7mad " dgeega.."

and rushed to the door. From the way he ran I could tell he thought it was his mom. I stood there and masse7ed my stupid dmoo3 and washed my face, then got out of the bathroom, the voice I heard didn't sound like his mom.. more like.....

sara " RO'9AA OMG I HAVE to tell u smthn!! "

She was running into the room extremely mt7amsa I would say, a7mad walked quietly behind her into the room, y3ne 9dg makan wagta for sara to come, he was looking at the floor probably thinking.
She came and was waving her arms all around talking about some stupid thing that happened at the beach, her burning and 7e99a tanning perfectly, shay che I just looked at her with a fake smile on my face, moving my stare to a7mad every now and then, he was still in the same position. sara leaned closer to me and was whispering into my ears

sara " I came to do my first test byyy the way !"

then leaned back up and started laughing, My eyes opened wide when she said that ! y3neeeee 9dgg mb wagtaaaaa !

me " NOwww? sara! "
sara " ahaha shoo?"

she put her finger on her mouth and motioned with her eyes towards a7mad ena to shut up.Then turned suddenly to him, he gave her a fake smile when she was skipping to him holding my hands pulling me with her closer to him.

sara " a7maaaad I looooooove ur wife! she's so cool"

she said with a wide grin, looking at me then back at him, I let out a small silent chuckle then looked at him forcing a smile on my face. He looked at his little sister with soft eyes, but what obviously was a fake smile.

a7mad ' uhh hai...'
sara "So that means u agree with me! "
a7mad " haa?"

He suddenly become alert of what she is saying.. seriously this girl is crazy ! Does she really think she'll know if he likes me like thiss!

sara "I said I love ur wife she's so cool u said haai! So u love ur wife and think she's cool? heheee"
a7mad "oh"

He was looking at her smiling, bs then he turned his head and looked at me with eyes that are obviously hiding something, he had a fake smile on his face 3shan 5a6er his sis I guess, wayd ydale3ha w yjamelha ! Me on the other hand, just stared back at him, eagerly waiting for his answer bs at the same time wanting to finish the salfa bain me w a7mad. He just nodded nicely to her, bs then when he looked back at me kan wayha not the fake smiley kan the serious one for a second then he changed it back when he was talking to her.

sara " OKaay anywaays I have to go to 7e99aa! oh oh a7maddd give ro'9a my pin ok !! please and thank yoou! byeeeeee love u 2"

She shouted while walking out of the door, a7mad went to lock the door behind her, then was immediately back to his serious mode and walked to me

a7mad " what were you saying?"
me "umm ana? mm ena im sorry w chee"
a7mad " oh ya.."

He said coldly, while staring at me as if waiting for more. I just stared back into his face, waiting for him to realize enna I was done with what I had to say. He sighed b3d shway then ya ajrab to me w kan wayha '3air nw, calmer bs still mayrayye7

a7mad " mmm ro'9a enti kalamtee ommi elyoum?"

he said forcefully, el kelmat kanat '3a9eb te6la3 mn booza. I looked at him questionably, bss wddii a3arf what his mom told him !

me "mmm haaih el9b7..."
a7mad " ohh mmmmm"

He walked past me and was heading to the 7amam again.. he took off his faneela while walking. wait that's it? He's not going to ask me what she said ? w He's probably not ok he still looks za3laan. I decided to switch to daloo3a mode since he's less angry now.
I went to the bathroom and leaned 3al door

me " a7maadd" (in a dala3 voice)

Laf 9ooby with his unhappy face,

a7mad " na3am?"
me " r yooou still mad at mee" *frown*
a7mad "oh la2 i'm not"

He said coldly then laf bak to the mirror and started brushing his teeth. What is wrong with him? knt aba a9ee7 right there at that moment. I thought the day can't get any worse when he was not here, bs apparently I was wrong! I went to bed and snuggled into the blanket and hid my face under the blanket while tears escaped my eyes, as I cried myself to sleep while my tummy was aching mn el yoo3, this must have been one of the worst days of my life.

a7mad
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I couldn't face ro'9aa! y3ne sho agoolha ???
ma38oola she said that to my mom ma38ooola? ro'9a of all people! I mean I know my mom doesn't like her bs she wouldn't lie to me. Although when ro'9a was apologizing she cried which looked real and not like an act.. ufff m3rfff yarabii m3rf sho asawee, ana ma3rf amathel enna everything's fine, ya Allah I was so eager to see her earlier today until I talked to my mom.

'3asalt asnani w I just wore my boxers to bed, maknt mtfayej for anything, and the conversation between me and my mom kept repeating in my head, especially when she said " a7maad ana mat'hmnee '3air ma9la7tek, w maknt bagoolk hatha etha maknt ahtam, 7aseb mn ro'9a! tra 9a7 ymkn t7asseb ennk tdaneeha bs enta bs t3arfha 7ag kamn youm, w youm kalamt'ha ana 3shan etdeer balha 3alaik gamat 7arejat 3alay w 5athat 9a7anha w 6l3at mn el dining room ba3ad ma ana roo7ii wadaait'ha hnak!! w galat enha bt5aleek t7bha 3nad feeni! taraha matehtam feek wala t7ebbik, kel ha yalsa tsaweee 7ag ma9la7at'ha"
y3ne she looked so concerned when she said that to me, m3rf sho a9adg ya Allah, ma7s ro'9a che bs ba3ad ommy machd ga9at 3alay.
fe hal la7'9a bs knt aba adfn 3mri fe mkaan mn el ka2abaa, I need someone to talk to, I wish I could talk to ro'9a, bs sho agoolha? enti t7beeni wla yalsa tg9een 3alay? That doesn't sound right. yarabii ma3arf sho asaweee
I got into bed 3dalha, I couldn't see her face kanat 5ashetenna ta7at el la7af, knt aba a7rek el la7af to see her , cz walla i miss her mn el5a6er, I've never felt this way before. knt 7as b'9eej machd 7asait fee in my life ba3ad, banadt 3ainy thinking that this must be the worse day of my life...

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yalla a7een seero 9alloooo : P

mbarak 3alaikm el shahar =D

2009-08-22T07:26:00.000-07:00

Hey Readers! =D

b'3ait abarek 3alaikm elshahaaar!

أسأل الله لكَم فى شهَر رمضآإأآن
حسنآت تتكآثر
وهموم تتطآير
وأن يجٌعل بسَمتكم سعآدة
وصومكم عبآدة

وان يكتب لكم القبول والغفرآن
وان ينور قلَبكم بالقرآن
ويجمعنآ بكم في ظل الرحمآن

..رمــضآإأآن مبآإأركــ وكل عآإم وأنتم بخير

Ameeeeen <3

and, about the posts .... I posted part 21 3shan 5a6erkom before rm'9an... w I'll post one more post during rm'9an madri mtaa bs during :P

w other than that... ta8aballa allah 9yamkm w 9ale7 el a3mal..... :)

Love,
Wed-locked
<3 =D

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2009-08-21T14:35:00.000-07:00

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sara " I'll gooo check if 7e9aa woke uppp ! "

I just nodded to her cluelessly. 7e9aaa iss her other sister I guess?

*trngg*

I took my BB in my hand, I just received a message, I opened it 3ala 6ool

FROM: a7mad

" roooo'9ee!! I just was going to tell you 3al phone that I really miss you ... Can't wait to see you later on ! "

Did he just call me ro'9ee?!

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I read the message over and over again. This message contradicts with what his mother told me completely!! But.. could this be part of him playing me? bs If he was actually doing it bs for his dad, he wouldn't act like this towards me 9a7? I ignored all the ta38eedat I was thinking of with my brain and decided to go with my heart and send him something back

TO : a7mad
" =$....! "

sent! wayd 3alay right? bs ma3rf what else to say to him. I do miss him too..bss ast7yy I say it. I was running through my old messages and I saw a couple of messages mn fatooma.. I wonder where she is

TO : fatooma
" ALooooo?? Anyone there? ..."

I sighed and took the remote and flipped through the channels.

*trng*

FROM: a7mad
"haaha laish tst7een menni hal kethir? I won't eat you! yal katkoota"

I miss him wayd! uf it's chee boring without him! I blushed while reading the message. Apparently he's the type that says a hell lot more on messages!

TO : a7mad
"I dooon't enzaain! :P
enta why r u messaging me seer esth'3L !! @_@ i'll tell ur babaa! "

I was totally mndemja fe my phone, pretending to watch TV bs a9lan I was checking my phone kl dgeega if I received a message or not.

*trngg*

FROM : a7mad

"yes you do ! =p
ana a7een I'm entertaining you w tbain tshtkeen 3alay!! Fine fine.. I'll leave you alone kaifch...."

TO: a7mad
"I Dont i dont i dont!
ayyy noo.... knt atmaa95aar (A) "

dagait send, wla marra w7da two girls barge in to the 9ala I looked up and smiled widely it was sara, and the other girl, 7e9a, she looked the same age as sara, and her features were way different she had small eyes unlike sara, and her hair was short and layered w it was black.

me " hiii "
7e9a " heeyy "

They sat down 3dal ba3a'9, 7e9a was still in her PJz ,

sara " ro'9aaa meet my bestestt friend! 7e9a!"
me " oooh ur friend? "
sara " yepp ! She almost lives here doum tbat baitna! "
me " hehe nice to meet you 7e9aa"
7e9a " you too "

She was a bit abrad 3an sara, bs she seemed sweet , the more quite type. They sat and kano ysoolfoon quietly for a while, ana I was playing on my phone.

*trng*

FROM : a7mad
" ............"

eeh laykoon z3aL!

TO : a7mad
" sorryy?"

*trng*

FROM : a7mad
" :( "

TO : a7mad
" a7maaaaaaaaad! I was kiddingggg"

*trng*

FROM : a7mad
" make it up for me..."

TO : a7mad
" But I didn't dooo anyyything! :( "

*trng*

FROM: a7mad
" fine kaifch...byee"

TO : a7mad
" ayy ok ok ok ok ! what do you want me to dooooo? "

*trng*

FROM: a7mad
" hmmm.....well.....you come up with something ..."

I was totally smiling to my phone,, adree enna a7mad was playing around, bs when estaw3abt enna I WAS smiling to my phone I looked up w shft enna sara w 7e9a were totally looking at me, and sara was giving me the suspicious look

sara " whoooo are you talking too!!! "
me " ma7aad enzaain ! "
sara "a7madD??"

I looked at her silent 7ag kamn dgeega awanna I wont tell her, bs I eventually smiled and nodded.

me " saraaa,,,"
sara " yess? "
me " You say ennch t3arfeen fe hal swalef ya??"
sara " well I try my best ...why? oh oh 7e9a can help too she's wiser than me hehee"

7e9a just looked at her and laughed, she looked more mature than sara, bs I still like sara more she's wayd ktkoota.

me "umm ok... how do we make it up to a guy etha hoo za3aln?"

7e9a and sara both looked at each other and laughed. sara looked at me and shook her head

sara " are you really 19? hehe. You knOW kaif tra'9een a man duh!"

she winked, and at that second estaw3abt what she means!

me " ahh noooo I Don't mean that way !! 8a9dee like 3al messages"
sara " oww.. mmmm u can tell him that when he comes home he'll get some treatment from you?"
me " errmm...Anything that doesn't involve contacttt? "
sara " haha fine mmmmmmmm"
7e9a " mmm Maybe you can dale3 him wayd on a message , men love it when you spoil them"
me " hmmm ok "

I said grinning and going back to my phone. hmmm let's see what I can say

TO : a7mad
" a7maadyyy! :(
I 'm really sorryy I said that , makan 8a9deee, a9lan I'd never want to get rid of u! bs abak tsht'3L so you come back to me bser3a because ..........i.....reaLLY......... Miss you... =$....=( asfaa"

dagait send. A maid came in with a sandwich and handed it to 7e9a. I wanted to ask sara about her brothers and sisters, bs ma3rf if its the right time wla kaif.

*trng*

FROM: a7mad
" fdaait el a7madyy ana ;) ... adree enna you miss me muhaha ! w a7een r'9ait .. bs one more thing when ashoofch aba asma3 9outich wnti tzgreeni eb my new nikname that you just wrote ok? ;) I'll talk to you later! ba5al9 sh'3lee a7een.....3shan I get to c u asAP! c u soon !!"

I just read it w put my phone down, w I won't call him a7mady in real life! he can't make me. It was tawa 3 o' clock el '9eher. Sara w 7e9a tamo shway then they left, galo byseeroon el beach w byrdoon el fel lail, I sort of wanted to tag along, bs they didn't ask me to, w maknt aba arez eb wayhe..When they left it was 4, so I went to our bedroom and sat inside malana. I kept checking my phone for miscalls or messages. Bs there was nothing. I expected to see shay from my mom or dad, or fatooma at least ! I'm really worried about her I wonder where she is mb mn 3adat'ha to not call me like this. I tried calling marra bs 6la3 el mobile m'3la8, I decided I'll try later.

I had such a long morning, and I was bored so la7aft 3mri and I went to sleep in the cold. I opened my eyes a few hours later to a dark room, and an empty bed. I turned my head to see el sa3a... kan mktoob 7:12 pm. I sat up and looked around, bs there was no one here yet. gmt re7t el 7ammam and washed my face, b3dain 9alait w kelshay. I checked my phone again, and there was nothing yet again

6la3t re7t el 9ala and it was so dark, fta7t el laitat and I sat there flipping through the channels. I put it on a movie and watched it. el movie 5alla9 3al sa3a 9, then I put on another show, and another one. kent 7a6etenna 3ala Friends now, it was 11 pm, w knt mb makla lunch wala dinner, I admit I was hungry, bs I was too scared to a6la3 mn el '3rfa, I ate biscuits that I found fl small bar fe 9alatna, bs b3dni yo3ana y3ne. I was watching TV when I saw the door handle moving down, wl bab shway shway ynft7. It was a7mad he stepped in with an apology smile on his face. I was za3lana, cz ana a5as shay 3ndi when someone ygool he'll come at a time w then yet2a5ar wayd! y3ne say mn el bdaya that u'll be late. 9a7 enna sara told me, bs I didn't want to believe her. I took one glance at him with a frown on my face then 9adait back at the TV with a pissed off attitude. He was walking towards me

a7mad " salam w 3alaaikm"

I continued staring at the Tv, looking as pissed off as I possibly could.

me " w 3alaikm el salam"

I said in a cold voice, not looking back at him. He came and sat right next to me and kan y6ale3ni

a7mad " ro'9aa ana asef, adree t2a5art bss obooy 3a6ani she'3L,, w chee...u knoww .. ! "

I looked at him with my pissed off look,

me " enzain laish ma6arasht message to tell me you'll be late?"
a7mad " tara I said I was busy so makan 3ndi wagt to send a message kent a7awel a5al9 el sh'3el fe asra3 wagt mumken so I could come back home! "

I raised one eye brow

me " Message maybala shay only 2 seconds y3ne ..."
a7mad " I said I was sorry.."

kent ba3di za3lana, so I just looked at him coldly b3dain lafait rasy towards the TV ignoring his apology. His voice suddenly changed to a more serious angry one

a7mad " ro'9a youm 7ad yramsch 3al a8al 6al3ee... w youm 7ad yet2assaf he expects el 6araf el thani enna ytfahham shway 3al a8al.."

He said firmly, lafait rasy 9ooba w his eye brows were creased y3ne kan 9dg m7arrej. bs I didn't say anything back, I just looked back at him silently. He got up angrily and marched to the bedroom

a7mad " ufff ... I guess my mom was right about u .... ! "

and he slammed the bedroom door behind him.

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2009-08-19T13:51:00.000-07:00

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a7mad's mom " sm3eeni zain tara maba3eedha!"

she said like she was attacking me. I was freaked out here and just nodded slowly

a7mad's mom " et7amelay tfakreen enna a7mad 9dg ybach, tara ho gayelly enna maybach w bs besawee che 7ag oboo b3dain beheddich! fa la tet7arain enti 7esbat murta wla shay. kella mas2alat she'3l w youm y5alle9, enti ba3ad bnt5alla9 mennich .....w etha l3abtii fe mu55a wla shay ana elly ba3almech mkantech!!!"

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I sat there in shock, and looked at her walking away, just like that. I put the bread that was in my hand 3al 9a7an, and stared at my plate in shock at what she said. Was she just making things up? And one sentence kept repeating in my head "tara ho gayelly enna maybach w bs besawee che 7ag oboo b3dain beheddich!", 7asait my tummy was twisting at this thought.. what if....what if it's for real? But she probably made it up.....righhtt? Or maybe he actually told her that. Bs bs...akeed it was before we went to the honeymoon ...right? Wla ma38oola all this time he's just toying with me ?? I hate to admit it bs her threatening got to me.. madri if it were her words or her tone that was convincing and scary. I sat there thinking of what to do about what she just told me when my phone rang, 6ala3ta mn my pocket and looked at the screen

Calling "a7mad"

I hesitated etha I should pick up or not, I was curious to know laish ho mete99el, bs I decided not to! a5af a9ee7 while I'm talking to him or something, w I don't think I'm going to tell him about what happened bainy w bain omma. because what if he admits to it? How am I going to put up with that? kfaya the thought that it is true hurts, Knowing it's true would probably be million marra worse! Plus etha he had to choose bain me w omma I think he'd choose his mum, fl a5eer he only knows me mn about a week or so.

I looked at the food jdami w 5atht a couple of more things 3shan gelt maybe I can distract myself with eating, and pass time or something. I got up with my plate and headed back to our room. fe el mamar to our room I saw this girl, she looked almost 15 wla shay che, and she had long hair tied up in a pony tail, she had glasses on w was wearing a fuchsia training suit, mal juicy couture. She was walking towards me curiously at first b3dain when she came closer she smiled, fa I smiled back to her. I felt kind of stupid here with my plate channi 9argetenna, I really thought no one would be around! She stopped when yat jdami

girl " heeey !"
me " hii"
girl " soo yoouu're a7maaadsss ,,,"
me " yesss ... yes its mee"
girl "owwwwwh ! so you're roo'9aaaaa"
me "hehe haih ana ro'9a"
girl " ana a7mad's sister ! my name's sara! "
me " oowh nicee to meet yooou"

She was grinning the whole time, I can't say I wasn't surprised, because after the thing that happened this morning I kind of expected this to be the house of bitches or something! She was so enthusiastic w met7amsa, maddat eedha enna to shake hands, so I shaked her handss

sara " Nice to meeeet you too! "

I just smiled back widely. estwa fatrat awkward silence 7ag 2 seconds bs then of course the enthusiastic girl broke it ...

sara " Listen ! I'm really bored 3adyy ayee wyach? "

She smiled innocently

me " ohh yaaa of course ta3alii , its ur house a9lan hehe"
sara " thank yewww! "

she just tagged along while I was walking to the suite. We sat inside, she sat like right next to me! and I opened the Tv, and was looking eb 6araf 3ainy studying her actions. she was just laying comfortably 3al sofa, like she really was bored. 7a6ait Dubai One on the tyra show. 3ala 6ool my phone rang. I took it out and shalaita 3ala 6ool knowing who it is.

me " Salaam w 3alaaaikm! "
a7mad " w 3alaaikm el salaaaaam..! 9abaa7 el5aair wainch matshleen el telephoon!"
me " oh sorryy knt atrayaag hehe"
a7mad " So you found ur way through our house I seee.."
me " mmmm haaaih "
a7mad " did you sleeeep well ro'9aa?"
me " yes yess I did sleep well"
a7mad "ro'9aaaa...."
me " na3aaaam a7maaaadddd"
a7mad " I wanna tell yoou smthnnnn'
me " gooooL"
a7mad "mmmmmmmmmm"
me " A7MAAD!!! "
a7mad " never mind never mind it's not important"
me " yalla 3aad . .. "
a7mad " ehhh lazm abanned 3gb shwaay 3ndii meeting .. I just called to check up on u"
me " mmmm enzain ..."

5alait 9oote shway za3lana here, I was looking at my lap wla sar7ana barra3 el dreesha all this time nasya enna SARA 3dalee! I turned my head w noticed enna she was looking back at me so I gave her a 5feef smile.

a7mad "wainch a7een ?"
me " umm fee our 9alaa.... withh someone,,,,"
a7mad " weya mnooo?"
me " mabagoool laain maa u tell me what you wanted to say ! "
a7mad "ro'9aaaa! "
me "a7maaaaaaaD!" *mimicking his voice*
a7mad "fine ! kaifch akeed you're making it up 3shan You want me to tell you"
me " ahaaa..! .........a7maad..."
a7mad " na3am ?'
me " mmmm mta btrd?"
a7mad " uuuh el 9ara7a ba3adnii bageeli fa enshalla 3al m'3arb ... If i'm luckyy"
me "oh..."
a7mad " ba7awel a5alle9 fast! w you can call me if you need anything!"
me " enzaainn...."
a7mad " yalla I have to gooo a7eenaa maybe I'll call you later ok?"
me " okaaai"
a7mad "byeeeee"
me " byee"

*6oooo6 6oooooooooo6*

I put the phone down and sighed heavily.

sara " Was that a7maadD??"
me " haaihh"
sara " mnzmaan mashfta! "
me " he said byrd 3al m'3arb"

She coughed a slight laugh when I said that, I looked at her confused.

sara " mmm sorryyy bs he usually comes back so late doum, so it's funny he told you that "
me " really? hmmm"

I said with a frown then looked back down 3ala my lap.

sara " OH myy God!"

I jumped at her words and stared at her face with her mouth opened looking at me, I looked at her confused

sara " YOU like him don't you!! "
me "uh..."

I struggled for words bs only ended up blushing like hell ef'97ing myself!

sara " Omg! You reallyy doo!! "

I shrugged my shoulders innocently at her , and sighed

sara " Does a7mad like you toooo??"

She said excitedly.

me "mmmm ma3arf..."
sara " ohh..."

She sat down 3al sofa seeda quiet for a couple of seconds then ngzat again

sara "oww OWw!!!! "
me " hehe shoo?"
sara " Do you want me to find out for youuu? IM really good at it heheh"
me " You're gonna ask him y3ne?"
sara " noo noo noo ... I will observe him when he's with you! I can totally tell if he likes you or not that way "

I laughed at her and then decided to play along with her, so I nodded agreeing with her. she clapped excitedly w kanat at the peak of her ta7amus!

me "mmmmmm how old are you by the way?"
sara " me?? Im 16 aaand yooou?"

she said grinning widely. That wasn't too far from my guess!

me " I'm 19"

I smiled happily to her. This girl really 3adelat mazajee.. she'z really 7abooba and overly cheerful, I LIke it !

sara "oooooh you're not that old y3nee !! "
me " hahah yess I'm not"

She got up faj2aa and was heading out of the 9alaa

sara " I'll gooo check if 7e9aa woke uppp ! "

I just nodded to her cluelessly. 7e9aaa iss her other sister I guess?

*trngg*

I took my BB in my hand, I just received a message, I opened it 3ala 6ool

FROM: a7mad

" roooo'9ee!! I just was going to tell you 3al phone that I really miss you ... Can't wait to see you later on ! "

Did he just call me ro'9ee?!

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2009-08-13T16:27:00.000-07:00

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a7mad " Pack your things, we're going back to Dubai tomorrow...."

.........

I felt his lips on my neck, fta7t 3ainy shwaya and a tear escaped
a7mad " ro'9aa! ro'9aa why are you crying!!!! I thought.. I thought... uhh asef walla t7arait u were ok with kissing ! ro'9aa... I'm sorry ..."
..............

a7mad " uuh I guess we have to know each other better than this... ro'9a....mmmm...... how about we slow things down? a7s it's better, I don't want something like this to happen again.... ok?...what do you think?"
...............

a7mad " Yalla let's pack our things together ! "
me " ummm....ok"

He walked into the closet ahead of me, I followed him slowly lost in thought...I couldn't stop thinking of how I screwed things up!

UGHH noo ! what have I done!!

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ahh! Ok so now I'm sitting in the plane beside a7mad, and he's asleep w bs bagee 1 hour until we land in dubai! And as expected la ommy wala obooy wala e5wani ete9loo feeni, bs the weird thing is enna neither did fatooma, I wonder where she is ! I'm excited w zay'3a at the same time! I mean it's a whole new life and I wonder how I can avoid a7mad's mom, w I know that my family semi - abandoned me, bs I miss them alot! Although it has been fatra g9eera, bs it feels like a decade ! I wonder if a7mad will be wayd caught up in his job wla kaif.. honestly, I don't know what to expect . . .

me " a7mad a7maad ,, yalla goum we'll land in a few minutes! "

I started nudging him after the announcement was made, 3shan ygoom. It's been somewhat awkward between us since last night... uff I have to ruin kelshay.
7beeby he's so cute when he's asleep! Yes I gave in to the fact that I really like him! And I do call him 7beeby bsss ONLY in my head where no one can hear me, for now.. hehe

I was looking at him while he was rubbing his eyes and stretching w b3dain laf 9oobee

me "Gooood Morning sunshiine hehee"

smiling to him excitedly, he grinned tiredly

a7mad " heey u "

We put our seat belts on and got ready for landing, this is it, the start of something new I guess, Allah y3een.

Nzalna mn el 6ayaraa, and we took our luggage, it was 12 : 10 am taw8eet Dubai, as I read on my BB. We were walking 9oub the exit door where all the people are greeted by 7baybhm, I looked around as we entered that area, bs there were no familiar faces, a7mad was pushing the trolly with our luggage on,

a7mad " Oh ro'9a there's the driver lets go"

I looked the other side w there he was walking towards us in his flowery colorful shirt.

Driver " hellooo sir how r yeww"
a7mad " good good 8adeer, here take the trolly"

He took the trolly w msha jdamna lain el car, I was just following them silently, I was sort of hopping enna 7ad ysta8blna fl ma6ar, bs I guess this was never a real marriage to begin with, I shouldn't expect anything right?
rkabna el sayara w on the way to their house no one was talking, a7mad kan ba3ada m9a6el w ana lost in thought. This will be the first time I step foot into their house! I wonder how big it is, w I wonder how our room will be. 9a7 enna our house wasn't a tiny room but it was not big y3ne, one floor 4 rooms che normal. Sitting in this black shining Mercedes, madri ay modail I'm not an expert in that field, bs akeed the newest of its kind or something, I felt like a different person, I mean not too long ago I was just another girl going to university, in our normal car, living like any other normal girl at my age, living in a normal house. And look at me now, everything around me is so fancy, a bit too fancy! I almost feel like an alien already.
I turned my face to take a look at him, to make me feel better shway, and it actually did ! seeing a cute guy almost always lifts a person's spirit don't you think? hehe. He turned 9oobee whn I looked at him and smiled

a7mad " Are you ok?"
me " ahh yaaa hehe why?"
a7mad " U look tense"
me " mmmm laa I'm just thinkiing"
a7mad " aboout?"
me "mmmm how things r gonna be now that we're back"
a7mad " oh ... hmmmm"

I turned and looked outside the window, we were in jumeirah, and it was so dark.

a7mad " ahh w9alnaa....! "

I looked at him with his all happy face and then looked back outside to see their house, their na6oor came out to check the car then opened the humungous gate for us, we went in and and there was a share3 that leads to the basement where the garage is, the way was lit up by lights on the side, and once we were in the garage they were many cars in the parking like definitely more than 5. The house looked so pretty bs it was too dark to see the whole house 3adel. Me and a7mad got out of the car, a7mad was heading to this door on the corner so I followed him bser3a. We got in, and I saw this huge 9alaa bs the lights were off, madri wain I followed a7mad into and we got into the lift, a7mad looked at me and 7as enna I'm nervous I guess because he smiled and then held my hand in his

a7mad "stop freaking out hehe"

I sighed and looked at him and nodded with a 5feef smile. The lift opened w 6la3na 3ala this mamar, we're in the 2nd floor 7asab kalam el lift ... and I heard the voices of a TV mn hnee mshaina akthar w then we were in the 9ala where I saw his mom sitting in her Pjz, omg she looks so different ! She got up at the sight of a7mad and they were hugging w kelshay and I was just standing there looking at them silently. When she let go of a7mad and looked 9oobe mn 6araf 3yoonha, I decided to act nice awana.

me " Salam w 3alaaikm"

I said cheerfully, She raised her head w shafatny with a disgusted look then lafat ras'ha 3ala a7mad

a7mad's mom " w 3alaikm..."

a7mad shafny and he saw that I was a bit disappointed bs '3ayar el salfa by talking to his mom about Spain. It's funny how she's a totally different person when it comes to a7mad, wayd etdal3a, kano ysoolfoon w y'97koon, and I was just sitting there, thank god the TV was on, because I was just staring at it the whole time. hmm.. I wonder etha this is how it'll be from now on. I wonder where 5awat a7mad are like, I haven't seen them w at'thakar marra he mentioned enna he has 4 sisters and 2 brothers, bs his mom is here roo7ha. I wonder if they're like a7mad, or more like his mom. The tv was on this turkish drama thing that I never watch, I don't mind watching them though. hmm most of the guys are hot in them too ...

a7mad " ro'9aa ...ro'9aaa"

I turned my face ba3ad ma sma3ta

me " ohh na3am?"
a7mad " tbain troo7een tnamain?"
me " umm la 3adii mb wayd ta3bana"
a7mad " la yalla nseer nshoof our room"
a7mad's mom " la la mb room a7maad! fa'9aitLk el suite anaa! "
a7mad " oh 9dg! zain 3yaal walla "

He got up and kissed his mom's head w asharli enna ayee 3nda.

a7mad's mom " tawel naas a7mad "
a7mad " asef bs ta3baneen bnseer ennam "

She glared at me w rolled her eyes after that channa I'm the one dragging him to the room! I just said jdamha that I'm not sleepy ( although I did want to go inside).
elmhm I ignored that and mshait wya a7mad to 'ouR' room oh oh la i mean ourr SUITe, haha ! He opened this wooden door w kan kel el laitat mbaneda , he opened them w b3dain sakkar el bab behind him. It was a beautiful modern living room with a plasma TV, and a white L sofa with a small coffee table fl ne9, it was just 3jeeb! and not to forget, there was a small bar place on the side of the room with hal high chairs and a thalaja. I was just gazing at kelshay, I love modern styles and I love houses w interior design w hal swalf. Then lafait 3ala wayh a7mad all excited with a wide grin!

a7mad " haa shooraych? "
me " 9ara7aa ! 3jeeeb"
a7mad " elmhm y3ybch!"

I just smiled at him, y3ne 9a7 enna I was forced into this, bs hal ashya el 9'3eera makes it sometimes okay, mb enna ana mayta 3al floos, bs sa3at I tell myself, WHy not ? u know what I mean! I opened bab our room myself, and it wasn't as amazing as the living room bs it was cute. It was all black and white and not that modern, more cozy like, w fee this huge sofa that looks so comfyy and I just wanted to jump in it ! bs when I went in more I saw the opening to the closet which was almost as big as the room itself! woah! I don't think I even have that much clothes to fill them out ! a7mad on the other hand just came in and sat on the bed bouncing ( while sitting) on it channa he was testing it. I took a look at the bathroom kan black and white as well, w fee this jacuzzi and candles in the bathroom too! 6ab3an I can't stop the ideas coming in my head after seeing that, bs I shoo-ed them out of my head immediately, why think of it when I can't have it ?

Radait back to the room and a7mad was taking off his shirt,, uuh I just saw the jacuzzi he shouldn't do this to me. I looked away awanna y3ne bs unfortunatly

a7mad "ro'9a btnamain a7een?"

I heard my name bs, I can't not look at him while talking to him I guess, I turned my face and tried my hardest to concentrate on his face only...

me "ha?"
a7mad "btrgdeeeeen a7eeeeeeeeeeen?"
me "ohh ohh yess yess I guess"
a7mad "oh mb channa you just told my mom you are not tired"

kan ymshee ajrab 3anni while talking. laish a7s deep down in him he's sort of torturing me!!? 6ab3an ana I couldn't resist w I looked at his 6 pack that I 'm in love with, bs I returned my concentration 3ala his face as fast as I could! w I looked at him innocentlyy with a msta7ya face

me " knt ajaamel . . ."
a7mad " haha I knew it , I saw your face while you were awana watching Tv. ashkera u were bored"
me " Laaaa2 9dgg I was 3adii if you wanted to stay"
a7mad " ahaa ahaa"

He said that while getting up w walking to the closet not letting me say anything else, hoo y3ne he's right bs I don't want his mom to have more reasons to hate me! kfaya enna she hates me and I did nothing yet! I snuggeled into the blanket of the bed with my jeans and shirt on bs farait shailtee 3al shibreyya, I closed my eyes for a few minutes and with the cold-ness of the room, I drifted awaaay.

I heard some noises and I opened my eyes shway shway, The room was empty, I kinda got used to waking up with a7mad 3dalee, I wasn't 3dala when I fell asleep either, it felt different, bad different. I could still hear a9wat 5feefa every now and then, when I saw the sa3a it was 11:30 something am, y3ne not thaat late I guess. kent m8hoora shway cz I just woke up from a really nice dream! sort of lame but a very feel-good dream! me and a7mad were on this picnic w he was just about to kiss me bs I woke up, a5as shay when you wake up on the best part of the dream!

I went to the bathroom w lbast a long red and black dress wya long sleeve body and a shaila just in case fe 7ad fl bait, I still don't know who's who and where are they , w kaif 7ayat'hm yet, so I better take my precautions. I got out of the room w found out the sources of the noises I heard earlier, they were two maids talking fe the living room of our 'suite' w kano yna'9foon, they said hi immediately after seeing me, I just smiled to them w kamalt 6reeji, I went to the 9ala a7mad'z mom was in yesterday gelt ymkn the kitchen is mkan jreeb from there because kent wayd yo3ana! I walked lain ma I came across this other maid,

me " mm helloo , where's the kitchen pleaasE?"
maid " ooh hello madaam, oh the kitchen is right here, go straight then right"
me " oh okk thank you!"

so I did as she said knt mashya seeda in a corridor with doors w b3dain 7asait fe 7ad waray so lafait w ngazt!

me " oh!"
a7mad's mom " oh enti..."
me " salam w 3alaikm"

she looked at me weirdly, like 'wth is she doing' look

a7mad's mom " mm wain ray7a?"
me " mm el ma6ba5, adawr shay akla...?"
a7mad's mom " hahaahay.. 9dg ennech......wla agool ta3ali bawadeesh wyay 3shan aba agoolch shay a9lan"

she said bitterly, I was freaked out already by her appearing behind me out of nowhere, so I said nothing and followed her, since she said there's going to be food! We walked into this room with a very high ceiling and a huge chandelier and this long table in the middle wya lots of food put on one side of it. I walked to that side and took a seat and started putting food on my plate! I do tend to get distracted when my tummy is involved with things. a7mad's mom took the seat ely mjabelni w was looking at me with her na'9rat el 7a8eera. I took a bite of the sandwich I had on my plate, la sho bite I actually finished it in almost 2 seconds before a7mad's mom would say anything, akeed she'll think I'm maja3a now or something, bs I was too hungry to care!

a7mad's mom " mmmm aba akalmech fe maw'9oo3 mohem"

I looked up innocently and curiously with a piece of cheese mana8eesh in my hand.

me "mm ok"

a7mad's mom " sm3eeni zain tara maba3eedha!"

she said like she was attacking me. I was freaked out here and just nodded slowly

a7mad's mom " et7amelay tfakreen enna a7mad 9dg ybach, tara ho gayelly enna maybach w bs besawee che 7ag oboo b3dain beheddich! fa la tet7arain enti 7esbat murta wla shay. kella mas2alat she'3l w youm y5alle9, enti ba3ad bnt5alla9 mennich .....w etha l3abtii fe mu55a wla shay ana elly ba3almech mkantech!!!"

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a7mad " Pack your things, we're going back to Dubai tomorrow...."

and he slammed the bathroom door behind him. He just left me there, as my mouth dropped open

what??!!! But why????!

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I felt tears crawling down my cheek as I was sitting there in shock. I was more freaked out than za3lana or something, why was he so angry? Like I did something to piss him off, as if it's my fault? Did I do anything that would upset him? I went over my thoughts and my memories but I couldn't come up with anything. La ,,laa it can't be my fault I know that I did nothing wrong, but why was he so angry? Why are we going back to Dubai? I don't want to go back just yet! Is he leaving me when we're there? Is our dads' deal over or something? Why wont he come out of the bathroom, why can't he explain everything to me righht now!

I felt my heart sinking, and my insides twisting, everything hurt. My heart was beating faster as I was silently crying. I couldn't stop the bad scenarios from playing in my head, of him coming out and randomly abusing me. Or going back home and divorcing me. My hands started to shiver, and my tears came out rapidly as I was still staring at the bathroom door.

chkk,,,,, *door lock opens*

The door opened slowly as he came out with his head to the floor and one of his hands scratching his head, he looked sad. He looked up at me as I was staring back at him, with the tears still freshly wet on my face, and no sound escaping my lips. I stared back at him cautiously, scared of what would happen next.
His eyebrows creased more when he saw me, and his mouth slightly opened like he was about to say something but then he closed it immediately. He walked a few steps slowly and sat right beside me and sighed. He turned his face to me, and I turned mine too and looked at him, he looked like he needed a hug much more than I do right now, bs my hands failed to lift themselves, I was still afraid of what might be his reaction, because after all I do not know him all that well.

a7mad " laish t9ee7een?"

He said calmly, with a low deep voice. I looked into his eyes and didn't say anything. Of course I wont say anything y3ne, ana roo7y zay'3a, what if I say something I shouldn't ? I want to ask him why we're going back bs..... a5af..... I'll wait for him to say the reason.
He sighed again, and reached for one of my hands and wrapped his over it, then he laid on his back, I turned my face to look at him, kan m'3amme'9 3yoona. the holding my hand thing means he's not mad at me 9a7? Why did he 7arej 3alay then?

a7mad " I don't wanna go back yet either"

He opened his eyes after saying that, then looked at me with a frown. Masa7t the dmoo3 that were on my face, it seemed like the right moment to ask him. So I laid on my side, facing him, and ybt our hands that were together nearer to my chest. I felt a relief in me because he didn't look mad at me anymore, he looked like he was back to the a7mad i have gotten used to, bs he looked really za3lan, and i couldn't hold my curiosity back any longer

me "mmm a7mad.."

I said wearily, with my weird 'after-crying' voice. He turned his face and looked at me, still with the sad face, He looked so cuute! I just wanted to kiss him 3ala 6ool, bs that would be just weird and out of nowhere! So, I cleared my throat and said with a frown

me " laish bnrd baachr?"

He looked at me while asking, b3dain he turned his face to the ceiling

a7mad " uhh5.. yarabiii ........ it's obooy and work.... el8sem elly ana adeera fl sharika 7alta really bad cz my assistant 7a'9reta 8arrar he quits faj2a because he got a way better offer in another company. W obooy mete99eL gali he booked us a ticket back cz he says its an emergency, w geltella it could wait y3ne 4 or 5 more days bs 7arraj 3alay and he said I'm irresponsible w he should've never depended on me w che, w elmhm enna '3a9bn 3anny lazm ard.."

He turned to face me, and laf that he's laying on his side now, just like me

a7mad " I'm sorry..."

At the time, I was processing kelshay, It's just a work thing y3ne? Thank god it's not my fault! bs honestly, 9a7 enna I was bummed 3shan I DO wanna stay here more, bs I was happy enna nuthing between me and a7mad changed, cz moments ago I imagined him leaving me, w I realized that I'm becoming attached to this man!

me " Why are you sorry? It's not your fault"

I said letting out a sigh of relief and a soft smile. He squinted his eyes, w looked confused, then he sat up and looked at me wonderingly

a7mad " That's it? You're not angry or annoyed or anythingg?"

I got up too and sat 3adel after he did

me " uuhh well it does ye8har bs it's your work, it's not like we can do anything to change it, right?"

I shrugged my shoulders innocently. He looked at me suspiciously, and raised one eyebrow.

a7mad " You don't even look ma8hoora. . ."
me " well......... honestlyyy..... the way u were angry t7arait it was something way worst! So I am sort of relieved because ... t7arait you were mad at me" *frown*
a7mad " Oh... Is that why you were crying?"

I nodded innocently with the etdal3ing frown still on my face.

a7mad " eeeeeh I'm sorry! bs knt m7arrej cz I don't want to go back!"
me " thats the only reason you were m7arrej??"
a7mad " Laish?" you don't think it's a good enough reason?"
me " well...I dunno... it was awal marra I see you that m7arrej, it sort of scared me"
a7mad " hehe ... knt m3a99eb w maknt a3arf what to do, ma7b when obooy y'39bni to do things for the sharika, bs at the same time ma7b I be stubborn w ignore him.....sorry I let it out on you"

I couldn't hold it in anymore! I got up and put my hands around his shoulders since ho kan yals and hugged him tightly, he looked at me weirdly while I was about to hug him, bs I ignored it!

me " hehehe You're such a baby!"

I let go of him and sat jdama on my knees 3al floor facing him. He totally ignored my teasing and looked back at me with a smile, bs .. I haven't seen this smile before, I didn't know what it was and what it meant, he looked like he was at ...peace? Madri it was weirdly different. He stayed like that for a bit, bs then I just felt weird

me "mmmmm hellooo??"
a7mad " oh sorryy.. sra7t"
me " hehe fee shooo haaaa"

I said teasingly, awana y3ne being funny, not expecting him to answer. He looked at me devilishly and smirked

a7mad " feech intii......"

he said with a deep voice that would make you shiver! My face changed and of course i turned red! w I got up and I looked at him with a scared face! ahhhh it was so awkward! 6ab3an he burst out laughing at my reaction. uurgh! I'm glad I changed his mood, bs maybe it was better when he was quieter and innocent? Adree enna I do want him, bs when he actually 'says' it ..it feels weird! I'm sooo not used to thissss !

He got up and was walking towards me, I was still looking at him scared, I started walking backwards cautiously wondering about his intentions , he stopped and raffa3 one eyebrow

a7mad " So it's only ok if YOU hug me?!"

I stood in my place, and felt stupid for thinking he would do anything else, he'd never rape me right? he's a7mad after all... but....maybe... I don't mind if it's him ? ahh no no what am I saying I DO mind if he does it by force!! But... he'll never do it ...right?

me " oh ... hehe" * i looked down and locked my hands*

I suddenly felt his hands on my shoulder, w he was slowly pushing me back, I looked up and I saw his face, still with the devilish look on. My back was to the wall now and he had one of his hands on my shoulder and the other one stretched out on the wall, he was surrounding me.

a7mad " Laish.......what did you think I would do ....."

He was breathing heavily, as he eyed my body mn ta7at laaaain foug. I on the other hand was about to cry due to the sudden change in mood! What's up with this guy! he's scaring me! ahh I should've never worn this! My face was filled with fear, I wanted to push him away bs I was too weak to lift my hands. I just stared into his eyes holding my tears inside. I know I have kissed him before, bs this person jdami is NOT acting like a7mad ! He brought his face closer and his nose rubbed on my neck. I could feel his breath on my neck, it made me shiver. I shut my eyes tight in fear, no....no.....! uuh!
I felt his lips on my neck, fta7t 3ainy shwaya and a tear escaped my eyes. rfa3 rasa after kissing my neck for a bit with a wide grin on his face, which immediately vanished after he saw my face 3adel.

a7mad " ro'9aa! ro'9aa why are you crying!!!! I thought.. I thought... uhh asef walla t7arait u were ok with kissing ! ro'9aa... I'm sorry ..."

Kel el tears that I was holding in rushed out after he said that... like it was ok to breathe now! OMg sho mshkeltiiiii! I did kiss him gabl... bs madri he was acting all scary! Bs he did do that gabl too ! bss I don't know...! I was shivering mn el 9ya7, he kept saying sorry and I dug my face in his chest and wrapped my hands around his waist, and held him tight. He put his hands around me too, which definitely calmed me down, we stayed like that for a while, he was quiet, and I was too, just breathing calming myself down.

I tilted my head up to see his face, he was looking seeda sar7an in another world. I loosened my hands around him and looked up at him. His head moved when I did that and he let go of me when he saw that I wasn't crying anymore. He went to the bed and sat 3alaih and dug his head into his palms and sighed. I couldn't help not feeling guilty, cz fl a5eer it isn't entirely his fault, like my clothes were asking for it, actually i DId want it, bs m3rf what happened to me. I went over to him and sat on my knee jdama

me "a7mad .... i'm sorry...walla.....bss u scared me.... i ...."

He lifted his head up when I was talking, and had this innocent guilty look on his face.

a7mad " ro'9a did u really think I would hurt you? 9a7 enna we haven't been together for so long, bs mb L hal daraja y3ne, I'm sorry for joking around bs t7arait you knew me better than to fall for it"
me " no bss..... uuh I dnoo"

I frowned and looked at my lap, uff 9a7 kalama I do know him better than that, bs shdarani he could have been fooling around those past few days right?

a7mad " uuh I guess we have to know each other better than this... ro'9a....mmmm...... how about we slow things down? a7s it's better, I don't want something like this to happen again.... ok?...what do you think?"

wHAT? slow things down? No more kissing? but but ....!
he is right though...I looked at him with a slight frown, bs then I nodded slowly, although I did not want to, bs it seemed as the right thing to do at the moment. He got up sighed, and smiled, more like forcibly smiled, ashkra his smile wasn't for real..

a7mad " Yalla let's pack our things together ! "
me " ummm....ok"

He walked into the closet ahead of me, I followed him slowly lost in thought...I couldn't stop thinking of how I screwed things up!

UGHH noo ! what have I done!!

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2009-07-27T13:05:00.000-07:00

Dear readers,
I KNOW it's been Long <3 !!!!!
I'll be posting more frequently now enshalla <3 =D
love uuuuuuuuuuu
thanks for ur patience <3 (A)
w I know its noooT one of A63al posts I've writen....bs this is what I could write for nw =p
dnt worry it won't be long till the next post ...enshalla =D

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I couldn't help not blushing, remembering the kiss from before. He just laughed at me and looked back at the menu. Then out of nowhere I look up and ....

manal " OMG ! a7mad hiii agaaaaaaaain! You're everywhere!!"

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OMG mn wain yat hayy!!! She walked 9oobna all perky and happy. a7mad looked at me and shrugged a smile thn laf 9oobha as she approached us.

a7mad "oh hi manal" *smiling politely*
manal "hiiiiiiii agaain hehee, we have the same taste haa" *wink*

a7mad laf 9oobi looked at me, as if he was being cautious or something,, then looked back at her and smiled. At the time, I was looking at her with no expression on my face, wla ymkn a slightly pissed look, i mean c'mon we're on our honeymoon leave us alone!

manal " Listen I hafto ask you for a favor! "

ana hny esta'3rabt y3ne, wtf is wrong with her, faj2a I saw her pulling a chair mn the 6awla ely 3dalna and she placed it 3dal a7mad. a7mad laf 9oobi and shrugged his shoulders while she was reaching for something mn her humungous Gucci bag. 6ale3at a folder with papers inside then looked up at me and flashed a fake smile

manal " I'm glad you don't mind"
me "eh..."

she turned to a7mad before I could say anything back

manal " Ok so listen, I'm SO HAppy that I bumped into you twice!! It's like fate! I had these papers w I've been wanting to give them to you, it would be grEAT if you hand them to your dad, since he'll probably read it if it's coming from you, don't worry it's nothing bad y3ne, its just suggestions, w ideas for the new project 7ag el company, w I'd really want him to give me a chance.. what do you say?"

Then she pouted, tedala3 3alaih,, uuuh! my insides were burning, first of all HOW informal is that! Second, what is she a stalker??? Third, i think I'm turning into a jealous freak altho I'm just starting to really like a7mad! I'd really like it if I could stand up and slap her and take a7mad and walk away, bs she didn't kiss him or something you know, I can't do that....lel2asaf! w the problem is that a7mad was taking it seriously, ok ymkn he's being formal wyaha, bs mb wakta this was supposed to be ouurr dinner! he was looking through her papers shwaya, then looked up at her and nodded

a7mad "enshalla I'll try my best"
manal " THANK you thank yoou! OMG ur like my heroo ! shkraan !"
a7mad " no problem"
manal " eeeeeh no 9dg u have no idea how amazing it iss yaay! ok shkran *standing up* ok I'll leave you now! see you around! "

She walked away after that, and a7mad was staring at the file then looked at me. I was staring at her walking away from us with a pissed off look. ALL this is just annoying, i don't know what to feel anymore . . .

I sighed and looked at him. He smiled innocently.. urrrrgh the ktkooooot smile that I love, bs may59ni I was still pissed, adree it's not his fault bs i AM annoyed, So I didn't smile back at him, I just looked at him for kamn second then looked back 3al 6awla and drank my water w stared straight ahead.

a7mad " cmon,, a7een 9dgggg ana masawait shay ! "

I looked at him confused with my eyebrows creased.

me " You found ALL THAt normal???"
a7mad " mmmmm el9ara7a ,,,she is weird, w sort of a stalker,,, bs it happens alot mb awal marra,,, seee I told you she didn't like me she was just using me"
me " R you sayin you have lots of stalkers ??"

he sat straight and nafa5 9adra

a7mad " Yes I AM quiet popular, you know like a celebrity e7m e7m"

I looked at him and rolled my eyes and laughed

me " ahaa riiight"
a7mad " heheh shoo 9dg!"
me " okk ana maglt shaay hehe "

He stopped laughing and looked at me and sighed, then held my hand. And smiled sincerely

a7mad " a7b... how everything is going between us....a lot"

I looked at him and blushed, then looked down awana y3ne shy ... hehe

me " me too . ..."

Then he slipped his hands off mine w before I lifted my head up he reached for my cheek and pinched it

me " ayyyyyy!! "
a7mad " muhahahha ! "

I was reaching for his cheeks for pay back bs he kept blocking my hand with his

a7mad " CAn't touch me taananana (8)"

I finally gave up and turned to my menu and glared at him.

The dinner was pleasant we didn't order much food he ordered shay 9'3eer and i ordered ayshay he suggested, and we kept laughing and making fun of each other, w then we got back to the hotel later, it was like 10 pm spain time. Aside from the freak show manal the stalker, I'd say this was one of the best nights I've spent! Is it too early to say enna a7bbbbbb hal ensaan?

Tonight I was happy, tonight I felt like I liked him alot!! so tonight I decided to wear shay maaaybe more exposed than usual? DOn't get me wrong I'm still not ready for sex, bs I do want to seduce him into making out with me! AH that was great before we went out, I love todaaay so very much! I grabbed a short white cotton night dress thing, and went to the bathroom to change while he changed in the bedroom.

I took a deep breath and put on my dress that came up to half my thighs t8reeban. Then fixed my hair, and kept my make up on.

I went out of the bathroom and saw him still in his clothes sitting on the bed talking on the phone looking at the floor, he looked up whn 6la3t, jst one glance then looked back 3al ar'9

a7mad " enzain......laa 3adii.............ok........akeed...........haih "

I went and sat on the bed 3dala, looked at his face, I haven't seen him this serious ever( not like my ever is a long time,,, bs still)

a7mad "mmm.......uhm.......haih enzain.......ok yalla.........ma3 el salama"

he put the phone on his thigh with his eyebrows creased, m3a99eb. I was scared to say anything. I don't know ho mn ay nou3, the people who like being talked to when they're angry, or the ones who want to be left alone. So I decided to just sit there, and wait for shay mn his side. He got up and threw his phone on the side table and was walking to the bathroom with his back to me

a7mad " Pack your things, we're going back to Dubai tomorrow...."

and he slammed the bathroom door behind him. He just left me there, as my mouth dropped open

what??!!! But why????!

Random

2009-07-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

Hey Readers !

I miss you guyss ! Sorry for not writing.. =(
Im going through the buZiesT 2 weeks !! <3
Hopefully I'll post as soon as things clear up =D !!
Many readers stopped commenting :( ,,,, bs maybe cz kel7ad msafR? :P hehe (hopefully) ^^

Love u all <3
=]

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2009-07-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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I looked at him dazzled. I was taken back by my thoughts.... how could I feel this way........I actually liked it .......and.....and....

I wanted more ............

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I kept looking at him dazed, his eyes looked back at mine curiously for a reaction, but I didn't give him a satisfactory reaction, I couldn't react, what was I supposed to tell him? Don't go anywhere, i want you? Or maybe I don't have to use any words.
I pulled my face closer to his hesitant face, and placed my lips on his cheeks kissing him and moving my lips lower, yet slowly getting closer and closer to his lips, I could feel him getting excited while his hands moved from my back to my lower back, then running down lower. When it was time to kiss his lips I lifted my head up and engaged my stare into his eyes, and he looked back into mine.

trrrn...trrrrn.... ( door bell)

We both paused, I sighed, and a7mad cringed.

' Rooom service ..' (from behind the door)

I sat back politely on the sofa, and looked at him innocently while he was standing up clenching his fists, obviously m8hoor.Then he took one look at me, sighed, and headed to open the door. He carried the tray himself, closed the door behind him, w ya jdami w 7a6a on the table and sat on the floor leaving a space mjabel the tray. raffa3 rasa and looked at me, as if saying ta3ali, but strangely, he said nothing. I got up, and sat 3al floor in front of my tray, for some reason me and a7mad weren't even smiling at each other. Both of us looked at each other carefully, as if waiting for a response for what has happened earlier. But, no one said anything about it.

a7mad " uuh... ro'9aa"

I jumped at the sound of his voice, while I was taking off the covers on my food. And looked at him innocently and decided to use my innocent voice too, hoping he wouldn't talk about anything, a7s it would be awkward.

me " na3am?"
a7mad " Do you want to go out ba3ad u eat?" *with a wide smile drawn on his face*

I think I forgot about my tummy hurting me after all that closy-ness. I could feel my face brighten as he asked me, I grinned back and enthusiastically nodded. I was kind of tired of this room, I really wanted to go out, although it was almost dark outside, bs whatever I slept through most of the day anyways! I gobbled my food bser3a, while he went in to change, then I followed him into the room. He came out of the dressing room area with only his jeans on! and two shirts in his hand, ASHKRa he's seducing me! this slutty man! hehe.. he looked at me first with a devilish grin, then he looked at his k7le lacoste shirt, and the other black shirt mktoob 3alaih Emporio Armani.

a7mad " Which one should I wear?"
me "mmm both r nice"

I think he noticed that I wasn't even looking at his shirts, I'm pretty obvious when I stare at something else. His super fit body was, pure hotness I should say, or maybe I'm just saying that because I just kissed him? I swear my hormones are out of proportion today! He came closer to me, I forced my eye off his body and on to his face, he was looking at me with a grin of a person 9dg m9addeg 3mra! uuh I shouldn't boost his confidence this much

a7mad " What are you staring at?"

He said with the most arrogant voice fl 3alam! He just has to embarrass me doesn't he ! uf uf uf ! I glared at him and then looked the other way

me " You should wear the lacoste shirt, I'll go change bser3a"

I went to my bag and pulled out pair of black skinny jeans, and an orange diesel baggy shirt, and a black long sleeve body and wore my sheila and put on eyeliner, mascara, and all the basic make up, and shalait this black bag that my mom put for me, I think it was burberry, interesting. I just took it because it matched my clothes, and then I dumped in it my phone wallet and stuff, and ran to the 9ala, where a7mad was sitting on the sofa impatiently, but his face lightened up when he saw me, and he stood up.

a7mad " You look '3air.. hehe"
me " ayy what do you mean?" *etdal3ing frown*
a7mad " la2 bs y3ne, che ur met3adla u know"
me " ehhh.. thank you?"
a7mad " hehe yalla yalla lets goo"

He took the room's card and his BB, and put it in his jeans pocket w 6la3na mn our room. gabl ma ne6l3 mn el lift, he saw me, and smiled, then reached for my hand and held it in his, and looked straight jdam, and walked dragging me along with him to the lobby to ask for a lemo to take us out.

We sat in the lobby where there were sofas, and we were randomly nsoolf about where to go, to eat, or just walk around, and stuff, when I heard this girly voice mn b3eed

girl " a7maaaad a7maad!!!"

I turned my face to see this girl approaching us, she had black leggings on, with a sleeveless blue short dress , and fully accessorized, with her hair in curls, all perfectly done, she made me feel so under dressed! a7mad got up when she got closer, so I decided do get up as well. to be nice? Who the hell is she screaming his name like that in the first place? She came running to a7mad,

girl " halla a7maaaaad sh5baark! omg sub7anna allah sho hal 9dfa el 7elwa! of all the places we r both in SPAIN! and in the same hotel omg ! LOL "
a7mad " hehe ya"
girl " so umm..... you're here on your honeymoon I'm guessing?"

A7mad turned and gestured towards me, She looked at me and glared! I swear I saw her glare!! w she scanned me mn foug lain ta7at, ma 5allat shay feeni she didn't eye.

a7mad "yup,,,,manal this is ro'9a"

I decided to be nice, fa tjadamt and I stood exactly near a7mad and smiled

me "hi"
manal "uuuh... hey"

she gave me a disgusted look! and Looked at a7mad with a totally different face of smiles and flirting. I felt so disregarded, so I went and sat back on the sofa, a7mad turned 9oobe when I walked away, then about a minute later she said goodbye and left him.

He came and sat beside me on the sofa I was on, I had my arms crossed, and I was tapping my feet on the floor in discomfort. I had this burning feeling inside my stomach, it hurt, and as he came closer to me and I saw his face, with a smile like he just enjoyed talking to her, I felt like throwing up all of a sudden. I hate that girl! HOW dare she stare at me like that, and be all over 'my' husband right in front of me! omg ! How could some people be so low !

a7mad " ro'9aaa... the car is here yallaa"

He grabbed my hands and pulled me off the sofa, w rekabna in the lemo and headed off to this place 3nd a lake, where there's a small known restaurant, I didn't hear the other details he was saying, My mind was busy with this 'manal' and how she was totally flirting with him, it bothered me. We didn't talk fl way, he just looked at me then smiled and we both were staring out at spain, at last we were out! Although I still had that awful feeling in my stomach after i saw 'manal' .

When w9alna, the lemo guy came and opened the door for me, I went out and saw a7mad walking towards me with a wide grin. I didn't smile back, just looked at him as he came and led us lain el ma63am, it was such a cosy restaurant with dim lights, and soft music, we sat on the table elly barra3 ely y6el 3al bu7ayra, I wasn't going to eat, bs I really wanted to go out, bs a7een this feeling in me is really annoying, I've never felt shay che before. I was staring 3al bu7ayra, as the waitress was giving a7mad the menu, and making da3aya for their new offer or something, then handed me the menu as I was still staring 3al bu7ayra.

a7mad " ro'9aa"

I turned towards him and looked at his concerned face.

a7mad " what's wrong?"
me " ha? nothing's wrong" (I tried putting on a fake smile)
a7mad " c'mon ro'9a, u can tell me, marra w7da u became che, i thought u wanted to go out..."
me " Yes I do, I'm fine a7mad, it's nothing"
a7mad " Bs you were laughing w kelshay fl lobby until...."

He paused a bit, then raffa3 one eyebrow, and looked at me as if he just discovered something.

a7mad " until manal came . . . "
me " may5e9a... I'm fine... who is she by the way?"

I said with a sort of shaky voice, getting straight to the point. He had his arrogant smile on.

a7mad " hehe... maknt a3arf ennch t'3arain 3alay.. heheee"

I creased my eyebrows, then looked at the menu laying jdami, avoiding his stare.

me " I don't.."

I said with a low voice, barely hearable. Because apparently, I do. But I just found out that, sooo it doesn't count?

a7mad " ahaa.... well manal is fl dawam wyana, she works for my dad y3ne.."
me " oh . . ."
a7mad " I'm flattered ena you're jealous.. bs ro'9a mb l hal daraja? hehe... maknt a3arf ennch u like me this much "

He said with a wide grin, m9addeg 3mra. 9a7 enna I was jealous bs I wouldn't admit that to him! Haly nage9, a5alee y9adg 3mra zyada.

me " It's not that, it's just that I didn't like her..."
a7mad " why? She's really nice"
me " only to you...." ( I rolled my eyes)
a7mad " sho 8a9dch?"
me " What I mean is that she's just nice wyak entaa"
a7mad " may59a.. it's just cz she works for my dad, that's why she's che wyay"
me " ahaa..."
a7mad " haha '3ayoooraa"
me " I told u may5e9a, bs 3a6atny na'9rat 7a8eera, it was annoying, like I'm beneath her or something"
a7mad " hahaha You probably imagined that because you were jealous heheh! "

uff! A7een I'm opening up to him and he's making fun of me, ana el '3al6ana! I sighed heavily and then glared at him w folded my hands. He noticed that I was seriously mad, so he tried changing the subject

a7mad " so, sho bt6lbeeen?"
me " mashay, mb yo3ana....I just ate"
a7mad " drinks? desert ? 3ndhm those fruits wyaa vanilla ice cream looks latheeth , shoo rayech?"
me " la2.... maba........"
a7mad " fine kaifch ana baa6lb shay latheeeeth w I won't give you mennaa ! hehe"

I lifted my head and looked him in the eye and pouted slightly, knt sort of za3lana, my hormones, mixed with jealousy, mixed with annoyance from his teasing me, When a girl tetdalla3 a guy should give her face ! not tease her more..... I know I was over doing it, bs knt aba ydaal3nii back,, and well,,, I wasn't getting anything yet.

He sighed then put his menu on the table, and stood up and pulled his chair so that its exactly 3dal mine, and sat back down. He put his hands 3ala my chair and turned me so that I'm exactly facing him, knee to knee. I looked at him innocently still with an 'im za3lana' face...I knew I was being over daloo3a, bs I really wanted something like ' THIS ' to happen!.. hehe...

He looked into my eyes, with all the teasing sense gone, he had his serious face on.

a7mad " Laish za3lana ro'9a?"

I opened my lips wanting to say something, bs ma3eraft what to tell him... So I just looked into his eyes with a sad look on my face. He reached for my hands and wrapped both of them in his. I bet he knew that would comfort me

me " its just ........"
a7mad " just what?..."
me " She was just all over you, wala channa I exist right there behind you, 7atta when you told her, she acted wala ka2anna it matters and continued with whatever she was doing......and well....... it annoyed me..... I don't care how we got married,, you're still myyy husband, ma7b when people disregard me"
a7mad " So you're mad at herr so that automatically makes you mad at me?"
me " 7asait you were 6affing me too when knt tkalemha.....and... madri 7asait what if we were back in Dubai, is that how it's going to be? And madrii"

My eyes starting tearing, I don't know where all this was coming from, but it's true, it is how I felt.

a7mad " I waasn't ignooring u ! bs salamt 3alaiha, I was being nice y3ne"

I looked down at our hands interlocked. I liked what we had here so far, It's much better than I had ever expected it to be, bs a7s it's too good to be true. Akeed something's going to change once we go back home. I saw one of his hands letting go of mine, then he placed it on my cheeks I looked at him

a7mad " Listen to me ro'9a.... I'm sorry etha 7sastech enna I was ignoring you, but that wasn't my intention really! I'd never do shay like that to u. W you should know that the only thing that's going to change once we go back is that we'll be closer to each other than now...I hope y3ne heh.."

He said as a sincere smile was gradually drawn on his face. I looked into his eyes, and couldn't hold back my smile, HE always knew what to say! I couldn't fight back the tears in my eyes, they weren't tears of sadness, bs che he was too sweet and it made me cry ( I had my period you can't blame me )

a7mad " ayy lat9ee7een ro'9aaa"
me " ehh.. sorryyy"

I was wiping my tears wya my hand, still smiling widely. he took my hands off my face and massa7 one cheek, then the other, then got closer and kissed the crown of my head slowly, and passionately. After that 6ala3ny in my eyes with a devilish grin on his face, I looked down shyly and smiled

a7mad " hehe katkootaa"

I looked at him and just grinned, as he turned to face the table and opened my menu

a7mad " yallaaa lets see what ro'9a wants to eat! "
me " hehe ro'9a will eat whatever a7mad wants her to eat"
a7mad " wehh kel ha because he kissed her forehead, 3yal etha kan y3arf kan kel youm he'll kiss her"

I couldn't help not blushing, remembering the kiss from before. He just laughed at me and looked back at the menu. Then out of nowhere I look up and ....

manal " OMG ! a7mad hiii agaaaaaaaain! You're everywhere!!"

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2009-07-03T03:58:00.001-07:00

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I was thinking about what fatooma said, it kept rewinding in my head ' ur in denial!'

am I?

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a7mad eventually fell asleep with the Tv on, it showed that he was fast asleep, he was sleeping on his tummy with his head laf 9oobi and his arms one near his face and the other jst stretched b3eed. I took the remote from 3dala and put it over the side table, and 3adalat la7afa that he is well m'3a6ay, he must get better, mafeeni ymra'9 anymore. akeed te3ab, lots have happened, it's been a long day. I climbed down into the blanket, and was thinking about the things that have happened. I can't believe I already feel comfortable with him with me on the same bed. I sighed and closed my eyes putting the events of today behind me, and fell asleep.

I woke up to very low voices, but kept my eyes closed, I was still half asleep. While trying to identify the annoying voices, I could feel my head going up, then down, then up a bit then down again and so on, very slightly , but the feeling was present I was sure. I opened my eyes slightly , but everything was still blurry so I closed them, I stretched my arms and body, then put my arm around my pillow, the pillow seemed harder than usual, I didn't want to wake up, I think I've slept for over 10 hours I can feel it, whenever I oversleep I tend to become lazy and unable to wake up immediately. I tightened my arms around the pillow, I didn't want to wake up just yet, the state I was in felt so comfortable, so warm, so right. I peeked through my closed eyes, and I saw that my pillow was black, weird I remember my pillow being white yesterday. I struggled into opening my eyes more, and my vision cleared up more. I saw two legs extending from my pillow, how weird. I must be dreaming? I sat up and looked at the room around me, it looked just like the room I was in last night, my dreams are never this real. I turned my face and I saw a7mad with an amused look on his face with a slight grin brushing on his lips. I stared at him with my eyebrows creased. what a weird dream this is. I kept staring at him, waiting for something to happen in this dream.

a7mad " 9abaa7 el 5aair?"

I stared at his face, then looked away at the room again, investigating my surroundings. then I looked down at his shirt, it was black, and the extending legs, were his. I got off the bed, why was I sleeping on 9adra in this dream?

me "weird" *mumbling to myself"
a7mad " ha?"
me " this is a weird dream"

that's when he burst out laughing, I think I saw tears escaping his eyes, I looked at him confused, then he lifted his head looked at my confused look with a huge grin on his face and still laughing,

a7mad " r u serious?"

I just creased my eyebrows more, and looked at him weirdly. He got up ya jdamy and reached his hand to my shoulder, then pinched me

me " AYY! What was that for???... "

I rubbed my hand on the place he pinched me, it really hurt! What kind of dream is this real???? but it can't be real

a7mad " To prove you're awake and not dreaming??"
me " bs this has to be a dream!"
a7mad " haha Laish?"
me " Why in hell would I be sleeping on your chest IN REAL LIFE??"
a7mad * flashing a hot devilish grin* " you tell me...."

I looked at him scared, then ran off to the bathroom and locked the door behind me. Then went to the sink and splashed some water on my face. Shit I am awake! How many hours of sleep does it take to make me this m9a6la!! AND WHy IN HELL Was I sleeping 3ala 9aDRAAAA?!! HE was the one that sleep talked at night Not me!

I stepped out of the bathroom and saw him sitting on the edge of the bed looking at the Tv, well that explains the low noisy voices! Bs as soon as I got out of the bathroom his stare shifted to me, and the amused grin was drawn on his face all over again. I scowled at him

me "don't u dare say anything! ..."
a7mad " say what? that you were sleeping 3alay? Or the part where you thought it was all a dream? hahahaha"

I just stood there staring at him laughing hysterically like it was the funniest thing he has ever witnessed, it was so embarrassing my face turned flashy red, and I crossed my hands waiting for him to stop it, but he didn't he was still laughing, I know it's funny bs mb l hal daraja! My eyes started tearing up, I was embarrassed, angry, mtwatra, and everything. faj2a the sound of his laugh disappeared and he rushed jreeb 3anni and his face expression turned to a worried one

a7mad "Ro'9aa?? why are you crying???"

I know I am mad, bs mb l hal daraja enna I cry! I wanted to say I don't know to him, but I knew if I said anything I would cry more. I just shook my head and shrugged my shoulders.

a7mad "heyyy c'moon! bs 3ashan I laughed?? I'm sorry ok? It's just that it was so funny ! hehehhe"

Why was I this angry!??! I gave him a cold stare, then went to the bathroom again. My assumption was correct. Now I know why I was crying. It's that time of the month!
I washed my face again, and waited to calm down this time before getting out of the bathroom. Then when 6ela3t there was no one there fl bedroom. I felt like crap. That explains my million hour sleep, I climbed back into the blankets, here goes another day in spain to waste. I saw him walk into the bedroom slowly, looking at me with an apologetical look, as he sat on the bed beside me, facing me. He reached for my forehead, checking my temperature I guess. Then he looked at me with concerned eyes, yet serious ones.

a7mad " what's wrong? shay y3awrch?"

I shook my head innocently and cringed at the pain of my stomach.

a7mad " y3ne kel ha just cz I laughed at you ro'9a?"

I didn't reply, I wished he would just vanish away, i hate talking to people when I have my period, I just want to be alone. I shut my eyes closed and heard him sigh and leave the room.

I woke up later, still feeling lazy. I got up went to the bathroom, then re7t el 9ala. A7mad was sitting there flipping through the channels, with an extremely bored expression on his face. He saw me come out of the bedroom bs jst one glance then took his stare back to the Tv. mmm that was a first. I sat beside him on the sofa and put a pillow over my stomach to keep it warm. I was desperately waiting for him to say something, but he didn't. I turned my face to him, and just looked at him, waiting for him to look back, he turned his face to me and raised one eyebrow

a7mad "what?"
me " mmm a7mad..uh"
a7mad "ro'9a if you expect me to apologize for laughing at a funny thing, I wont 3ashan el 9ara7a I don't think ana '3al6an in any way, I don't know why you cried, bs ... mm madrii"

He said it with such a cold expression and turned his face back to the Tv. Who said I expect him to apologize?!! What happened to the ' I don't want to see you crying' a7mad, I felt the tears crawling back to my eyes. Oh no, my hormones are kicking in agaain ,, ahhh!
He turned to face me, with a surprised, confused face.

a7mad ' ahh what did I do now??"

I looked at him with my teary eyes and shrugged my shoulders, as in saying I don't know. At that moment all I wanted was someone to comfort me, even if my crying had no explanation, but of course he didn't get that, he doesn't even know what's wrong with me. I couldn't sit up anymore, my stomach pain was kicking back in. I put my head down on his lap and held my knees close to 9adry, ignoring his overly confused face, I need something, or someone warm, and this was the only way I could get it, I didn't want to bother explain myself. I felt his hand on my hands that were placed on my stomach, then his cold touch on my face, moving my hair off my face

a7mad " ro'9a sho feech?"

I looked to his worried face, and thought it was time I tell him, uff why didn't he figure it out lain a7een?! He's definitely old enough to know symptoms of the period! I pointed at my stomach, then he looked at me for seconds trying to figure out what I meant, then he gasped as he found out

a7mad " Oooooh! That..."

I just nodded slightly, then he gave me a soft smile.

a7mad "That explains everything!"

He put his hands over my hip and I heard him mumble a sorry bs I wasn't so sure that's what he said, but that was what it sounded like. We sat there in silence, with nothing but the Tv sound on. After about an hour I was so hungry, I haven't eaten anything all day, I sat up as he turned to face my frowned face questionably,

me " a7mad I'm hungry"
a7mad " oh mmm what do you want to eat?"
me " mmm madri ayshay you want...?"
a7mad " oh mmmm I hope you don't mind bs ana kalait when you were sleeping, knt wayd yo3an...bs mmm I ate shay che chicken and mushroom sauce fouga with baked potato kan latheeth you want?"

The thought that he ate without me bothered me, but I don't know why. It gave me a weird feeling in my stomach. I didn't want to think so I decided to just eat what he ate

me "oh... mmm ok"
a7mad " ok I'll call them now for u"

He went to the phone and dialed room service, and ordered. Then he came back to where he was sitting

a7mad " So, are you feeling any better?"
me "mmmm maybe shway"

I gave him a slight smile that I tried forcing out of myself.

a7mad "come here"

He said while patting 3dala and putting his arm stretched on top of the cushion. I thought about it for a second, but decided to abandon my worries, it's just a7mad after all. So r7t 3dala and he pushed my head gently onto his chest and put his stretched arm around my shoulder. I tilted my head up looking at his satisfied face, he looked happy.

I felt this sudden attraction to him, I wanted him, I wanted to kiss him, his lips seemed to call for mine. Both of us were heavily breathing at that time. He started bringing his face closer to mine, he was aiming for my lips I could see his eyes filled with lust staring at my lips. I didn't want to runaway, I was right where I wanted to be.
He was so close that I could feel his breath on my face, There was a hesitation on both parts as our lips were only centimeters away from touching, He closed his eyes, and I closed mine, and I felt it, his lips on mine, just a peck that lasted for seconds and he pulled slowly back studying my face. I was bewildered, my expression was blank, I looked at him dazzled. I was taken back by my thoughts.... how could I feel this way........I actually liked it .......and.....and....

I wanted more ............

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2009-06-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

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Could I really just forget what he just said to me? Is that why he almost kissed me last time,

OMG,, how could I be so dense!!?

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I just sat there in my place staring into space. Does he expect anything to change since he 'likes' me now? I know that I am not ready for any kind of touching or intimacy or whatever. Ok he's hot and cute and nice, but daloo3! bs elmhm enna I'm not ready. I turned my face to him with the cover over his head, omg channa baby this guy, but he's hurt, it was written all over his face when he got angry, although I didn't hurt him on purpose, sho asawee a7een? I wonder what he said after the 'this girl i like' part, he said it was hard for him to say it, I must let it out of him, starting with apologizing? y3ne 9dg he said HE LIKES me, that's a big deal, y3ne usually people say one thing at a time... bs el'9ahr he's '3air 3an kel el nas.

I got off the bed and went to my side ( the side he was facing), He closed his eyes the second I saw his angry face, awana y3ne he's sleeping. I laid on my back staring at the ceiling, maybe waiting for the moment he realizes that what he's doing is very childish perhaps? Until my stomach started growling ruining everything! I was so hungry it was like noon now and I haven't eaten anything since my sushi and little bit of pasta last night. As soon as it grumbled a7mad fta7 3aina and looked at me, ashkra holding in a laugh, My face went directly red! My stomach tends to be embarrassing a lot . . bs maybe this time it would help lighten the mood between me and a7mad?

me "oh shit!" *poking my tummy 3shan it shuts the hell up*

He looked at me again, sighed, and sat up. His angry face was back he turned his face to the other side, still acting like a kid,

a7mad "so I guess you're hungry?"

me "mm........a7mad listen....."

I guess I caught his attention when I said his name, he turned his head with his cold, hurt stare.

a7mad "Listening .......unlike.....someone I know....."

He shot me a glare, I mean seriously? hehe Y'9a7k though! I gave him a ' r u serious' look then went back to my apology thing

me "I don't know what to say .... '3air...enaaa...I'm really sorry...I didn't do it on purpose wallaa.... it's just......its just....."

I noticed his eye's emotion changing, his wrinkled eye brows rested.

a7mad " it's just what?"

I looked at him then shifted my stare to my now locked fingers tapping each other, and decided to just not look him in the eye while talking, perhaps that would be easier

me " a7mad....It was too much to process all at once, I zoned out after hearing like one sentence..... I'm sorry bs mb bl 3amd... I'm really sorry that I offended you or something...."

I heard no response from him so I decided to take the courage and look up, rfa3t rasi and I saw him staring into his palms, thinking, I think?

me "mmmmm.... what is this payback y3ne ur ignoring me? a7maaad?"

He looked slowly up and a slight smile was drawn on his face, like way too 5feef, but good for a start I guess.

a7mad " heh.... I didn't think of that, bs that would've been a good one hehe...."

y3ne this means he's ok 5ala9? But like we didn't even talk about it, I looked straight w knt sar7ana, rewinding what he said to me gabL.....I looked up at him, lost in his thoughts as well....Kan fatrat silence, bs not an awkward one, bs che both of us suddenly sra7na, He had his head dropped, and his forehead creased with serious eyes, and a straight face bs around his eyes it was a bit darker, and his eyes were red. It came back to me! I forgot that he was sick.

me "a7mad,,, how's your fever 9a7??"

He snapped out of his world, and looked at me lost for a second, lain ma he came back together.

a7mad " oh that..mmmm rasi shway y3awrni bs my throat is better"

He gave me his ultimate cute smile, the full wide one! The one that you can't help not smiling back to.

me "soo.. mmmm....... you're not mad at me anymore??"
a7mad "ehh... Look ro'9a... adree I got really angry w I'm so sorry, Bs t3arfeen I felt embarrassed, I blurted everything out w fl a5eer it's like I was talking to myself u know?"
me *with a frown and puppy eyes* "I said I was sorryyy"
a7mad " hehe adree adree.... btw mmmm what did you hear me say ?"

He looked at me with curious eyes, I looked straight down at my lap, ahhh maynoon! Akeed he knows what I heard bs he wants to tease me ? uuh whatever here goes nothing, I felt my face burning though! It must be really red right nooow!

me "mmmm... u knw... enna... yoouuu...u like this girl "

I heard him chuckle so I looked up in confusion, what's so funny?

a7mad " You look cute when you blush" *smirk*

I opened my eyes wide at him, then looked down with my wide eyes and blushed more! What's WROng with me!!!

a7mad "hehe,,, I'll order breakfast so your stomach maysaweelna another earthquake hahahha"

I shot him a glare, he makes a joke and laughs at his own joke? Maynoon! He took the phone and called room service and such.
He closed the phone and looked at me

a7mad " all taken care of! hehe"

he winked at me, then smiled his amazing smile, and I smiled back w we stayed like that for a while,

a7mad " hehe If this was a movie, we'd be kissing by now"

I could feel my face turning pale and the smile vanishing straight away, and my eyes widening. He leaned his head closer with his eye brows raised still looking at me

a7mad "KiddinG? hahahh! t'9a7keen"

I sighed and took the pillow and raised it above me as in ready to aferra 3alaih he blocked his face with his hands , but right then, my phone rang! For the first time in 2 days! I let go of the pillow and jumped to my phone grabbed it, and read the name "Mommy" and looked at a7mad staring at me questionably and picked up waiting for her to say something first.

mom "Salam w 3alaikm ro'9aaa,, sh5baarich? Shomsaweeen?"
me " w 3alaaaikm el salam,, mmmmm 7emdella zaineen"
mom " sh5bar a7mad?"
me "mmmmm 7emdellaa"

I sat on the side of the bed facing the wall, avoiding a7mad's gaze

mom " bs om a7mad mete9la feeni tgool el7egi wldi mree'9, w bntch matehtam fee,,, w"
me " na3aam? Ommi bs fee 7emma w a9lan ho a7een a7san, w ana shoy59ni etha ho mra'9 ana masawait shay"
mom " bs ro'9a... enti a7een mb 9'3eera kella may59ni w may59ni,,, ha raylch w lazm tehtamain feee....."
me " OMMy awalan ho mb yahel 3ashan ahtam fee, w thaneyan ana yalsa elyoum fl baait 3ashana, etha tbain t3arfeen y3ne "
mom " oh zain ba3ad.... latsaweelna f'9aye7 ro'9a"

I could hear my dad's voice calling her name in the background.

mom " oh yalla ba5aleech, obooch ybani, ma3 el salama"

6oooo6 6ooo6 6ooooo6

I slipped my phone down until it was 9oub my lap and pressed the end dial button. My eyes started tearing, It's like no one cares how I feel anymore, It's all about a7mad! The tears just got worse as I thought about it then I felt a hand on my shoulder

a7mad " ro'9a ro'9aaaa are you ok?? ro'9aaa"

I didn't even look at him, I tried shaking his hands off my shoulder, I was crying because it seemed like kelshay revolved around him, and I was just this ghost 3dala, like his maid or something! But I couldn't shake him off I felt too weak, He came, stood up jdami and leaned shway looking into my eyes.

a7mad " It's my fault isn't it?"

I didn't look up at him I kept crying, trying to wipe the tears off my face, but they kept being replaced by new ones, ymkn it's my hormones, omg it is that time of the month almost, laykoon etjademat!

a7mad "ro'9a please stop crying, pleaase!"

He kept coming closer and closer to me until he had his arms all around me and my head was on one of his shoulders, He squeezed me tighter a bit, his warmth overcoming my weak body, I gave in and surrendered my head to his shoulder, and kept crying. It was so comforting, and it felt right, like I fitted into his wide shoulders and masculine body. I wanted to wipe my tears bs I couldn't move from his grip, or hug? He actually calmed me down, I took a deep breath and kept my head on his shoulder, when the door bell rang. He slowly loosened his grip and looked me into my eyes with a sincere look

a7mad " I'll go tell them to put it fl living room"

He let me go, got up, and closed the door behind him. I sat there with my mind blank, I didn't feel like crying anymore, but was thinking of how good he smelled, and how good it felt when he tried comforting me. I sighed, it's ironic how he's the reason I'm angry bs he's the only person that is comforting me at the moment.
I heard him come in, but I was still facing the wall and didn't bother turning my head, I still felt weak, and like crap. He came in front of me and sat on his knees that his face was at the same level as mine. I couldn't help not looking back at him, his face was so close to mine. don't get me wrong, not 'kissing' position close, bs close y3ne. He still had his serious face on.

a7mad "ro'9a...I know I haven't known you for wayd, well actually it's only been like what 2, 3 days ? Bs ma3arf, I feel like I've known you for a long while even though ymkn ma3arfch 3adel, bs what I do know enna I don't like seeing u chee, ro'9a if ayshay m'9aygennich you can talk to me about it, whatever it is... you can trust me...."

His words seemed to soothe me, I don't know why, they were like the medicine to my suffering. I was so about to drool, he looked so hot! and was too close, and talking like he's in a movie or something! I didn't know what to do so I swallowed while looking at him, He probably thought that as a gulp so he stood up and held his hand out to me

a7mad "let's go eat?"

I smiled and put my hand in his as I '3a9eb got up, I thought he would let my hand go when gmt, bs he held it tighter as he led me to the living room. I just looked at his hand holding on to mine, dazed. He always does this to me, makes me daze, and zone out! he pulled me to the sofa 3dala and put his arm around me moving his fingers on my shoulders while staring at me, I had to run away from this! I jumped down the sofa as fast as I could and sat on my knees in front of the table that had our breakfast\lunch on it!

a7mad " hehe so I guess the food addict is back"

I looked back at him with a shy smile, I wanted to 6al3 Lsani to him and glare, bs my heart skipped a beat when I saw him, my face turned red, I turned my face back to the food bser3a, before I embarrass myself akthar. I opened the covers of the food and he opened the Tv on a random series and we said bismillah and started eating. It was such a quiet lunch, I guess both of us were really hungry, just the sounds of us eating and a little giggle every now and then on the series that was on. When 5ala9na I went and washed my hands w on my way back I saw the sa3a it said 6 pm. tawa kan like 4 wth?! The day passed so quickly, and It was crap but at the same time....I don't know...a7mad making me feel better, and knowing that he cares took my mind off how crapyy it is...I guess
I walked out of the room and saw a7mad on the sofa with his eyes closed, bs his back up straight. I walked closer to him, he must be really tired.

me "a7maad.. a7mad"
a7mad *marra w7da ngaz* " what sho fee?"
me "ahh laa it's nothing bss r u ok ?? Maybe you should go sleep inside"
a7mad "Oh no its just my head, ba8aya 7emma I guess

He said while rubbing his head, massaging it i think, I imagined myself going behind him and massaging his shoulders and then his head, ray7ing him, bs then I shook that thought away, why am I having thoughts of touching him ew ew no no ! I shook my head, and I noticed him looking at me with one eye brow raised

a7mad "ahh r YOU ok?"
me "oh hahha yaa it's nothing hehee" * blushing and laughing i don't know why!*
a7mad " ahhh ok if you say so"

I have to embarrass myself DOUM! I shouldn't be allowed to talk to him! fsheelaaaaa!

me "mmmm sa3a 6 a7een"

I said while throwing myself on the couch beside him staring at the Tv.

a7mad "oh... tbain tseereen mkan?"

I turned my head towards him, he had a guilt look on his face,

me "oh laaaaaa a7mad that's not what I mean, bs y3ne I meant ena el wakt mar bser3a w cheee! "
a7mad " no bs 9dg ro'9a I seriously ruined your day, w I promise I'll tryyyy making it up to u!"
me " heh la 9dg it's no problem, u don't have to"

He brought his face closer to mine, Like REALLY close this time and looked at my chin going up to my lips then my nose then into my eyes.

a7mad "I insist...."

He said it with such a deep voice, that I froze in my place, paralyzed. His voice was pulling me closer to him, so were his eyes, they were pleading for me to get nearer and make the gap between us go away. bs to my good luck! my phone rang. I jumped at it looked at him apologetically( I DOn't know why!) I saw him doo his mn8hr face, bs I ran into the room before he said anything and closed the door behind me, I needed to breathe! I went to my phone, it seems to be my birthday today everyone's calling.... I saw the name AND got really excited so I pressed the dial button as fast as I could!

me " FATOOOOMTYYYYYYYYYY"
fatooma " rooooRoooTYYYY !!!!"
me " I misss yoooooooou so much yal s5eeefaaa!!"
fatooma " Bs i talked to u two days ago ! "
me " It feels like forever ok , like ka2ana a year PASSEd u dont undestaaand!!!! "
fatooma " What do u mean?? MAKe me understand owaih is it a7mad?!!! aaba detaaaaaaails... if he's not in the room wyach y3ne"
me " heheh to ur LUck HE's noT!"

I continued blabbing to her about every single detail, from the almost kiss to the confession thing, to...

me " and fatooma.... m3rf what's happening to me... che faj2a he's JUST smiling to me and I blush! it's so embarrassing !"
fatooma " OMG ro'9aaaaa! First he confesses his LOVe, so obviously you're falling for him hahaha !"
me " Fatooma, I can't love him this fast wth, ana mb fe film! 2 days w love, I admit enna I like him bs still fatooma,, mat7seen his AAND my mom overreacted? Lain mta they'll stay che? It's like I did nothing w it's all on me, w i know he told me to tell him etha shay m'9aygnni , but what am I supposed to say, oh a7mad it's all ur fault w I have to take care of u???"
fatooma " first, okaay ymkn mb love bs u do like him a lot that he is able to make u blush! u've never blushed to a guy! 7atta remember that time when I told u i think this guy likes u, you started hating him ? I guess it's different this time haa"
me " Fatooma a7mad is my husband its '3air! Plus that guy was a total 9aye3 w sho u wanted me to do TAlk to him? NEVER"
fatooma " haha La Of course I knew u wouldn't elmhm bout omma w ommch, mmmm give it time I guess, w Allah ysa3dch, W if he could do something about 'his' mom that would be good"
me "mhmmmm ...truee....."

He suddenly came into the room and peeked his head, w saw that I was only on the phone fa he came in. I stayed quiet looking at him

fatooma " Is it himmmmmmmmm?? RO'9AA SNAP OUT OF ur bubbleee"
me " what bubble!! and yaa it isss "

I looked at him smiling to me so I smiled back, he sat on the bed

fatooma " MAKE him talkkkkk ! im curious aba asma3 9oota"
me " fatooma seriouslyyy"
fatooma " yeh sho ba3ad do u have anything better to do ? "

He was looking at me with amusement for some reason, maybe because I was walking around the room like crazy? I don't know how to talk to fatooma while I'm sitting, perhaps it's because I get too excited? hehe I don't know

me (to fatooma) "ok fine"

I stood in front of him, ya he was still looking at me following my movements around the room. I shot him an arrogant look

me( to a7mad) " can I help u?"
a7mad " haa laa it's nothing"

He looked embarrassed, and I think he blushed bs I'm not sure, bs wayha et'3ayar.

fatooma *over the phone* " ahhhhh nooooo that was too LOW I hardly heard anything!!"
me " omg seeri walliiiii ur not getting anything else......."
fatooma "hahha and enti malgaity shay '3air u say Can i help u!! haha where did that come from! "
me " hehe ... m3rf"
fatooma " ro'9aaaaaaaaa"
me " what?"
fatoom " admit it"
me " admit what ba3ad?"
fatooma " that You 'REaLLy' like him tooo"
me " I don't ok it's not like that..."
fatooma " are you staring at him now?"
me " ha??"
fatooma " just answer me!!"
me " well yaah bss....."
fatooma " noo bss! Does your stomach feel all mushy and ka2ana you want to puke bs it's a good feeling"
me " Noooooooo not really ... "
fatooma " Oh maybe that one was too much.... r u almost drooling for him?"
me " mmm ehh... maybe? it's not my fault ok! "
fatooma " hahah omg you're in denial!! "
me " fatooma chubbbbb! "
fatooma " hahah ok el mohim i have to go work on my project now ! I'll leave you to you're adventures, until next timeeee"
me " fatooma...."
fatooma " yaa?"
me " Lat6awleeen wayd, like 2 days, i miss youuu" ( I pouted involuntarily)

A7mad looked at me and smiled, or giggled I wasn't sure, bs I said my goodbyes then closed the phone and looked him

me " aayyyy! Laish t'97aaaaaak ! "
a7mad " awal marra ashoofch this enthusiastic, it's cutee"

Shit is he flirting with me again? I forced a smile, and sat on the bed, facing the Tv. that he just turned on. We just sat there this night, watching something on Tv. I don't even know what we were watching, my mind was far away from what was in front of me, I was thinking of what I had to face when I go back home, and how will my life be, I didn't even meet his sisters yet. Allah y3een.
but most importantly I was thinking about what fatooma said, it kept rewinding in my head ' ur in denial!'

am I?

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2009-06-18T12:51:00.000-07:00

My Lovely readers,,
I know it's short hehe I'm sorryyy(A),,, bs better than nothing ey? ;)
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her shouting was only the trigger of the crying, but still

how could she?!?!!!!

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I sat on the floor of the bathroom with my back against the door crying, I couldn't stop I was gasping for air trying to breathe, and the tears kept flowing, a7mad came about 5 seconds after I locked myself in and kept knocking the door

a7mad " RO'9aa! ro'9aa pleassee ft7ii el bab, ro'9aa"

His voice didn't stop from behind the door, it lasted I would say 15 minutes knocking then he started calling my name every kamn dgeega, thn he stopped, and it was quiet. I didn't want to go out, I dug my head between my knees and closed my eyes trying to control my emotions. I missed my parents and brothers so much, I mean although it's been only 2 days since I've seen them, but you know when reality hits you, and you acknowledge the fact that it's never going to be like it used to? This was the main reason I was crying. His mom shouting at me just made me ma8hoora and when I'm ma8hoora I cry, but I got over that fast, I mean i know she's like that I should've expected it from her. I sat there in silence for a while, then lifted my head, stood up, w washed my face, then took a breath and unlocked the door. And slowly opened the door and peeked out and opened it wide after what I saw. a7mad had a pillow on the floor right next to the door and was sleeping on it, omg mskeeen kaatkoot, I shook my head at that, did I just call him katkoot? shit, errr what should I do, shit it's all my fault and he's sick I bent down on my knees to check on his fever, It seemed to be better than before, he needed to get on the bed, the floor must be killing him.

me "a7mad a7mad,, yalla goum"

before I could say anything else he jumped out of his sleep and grabbed my wrist, and breathed shwaya , then looked at me with a sign of relief in his eyes then sighed and let go of my wrist. I was sitting in front of him on the floor jdam the bathroom door. He put his hand on my shoulder

a7mad " ro'9a, are you ok?? I shouldn't have let you pick up the phone , bss knt ta3ban, bss still it's all my fault........ ro'9a.... please say something ... "

I looked down at my hand, Although he was t3ban, bs I didn't want him to think enna oh its ok if my mom does this to her again she doesn't mind, knt lazm i make this the last time something like this happened.

me "what do you want me to say a7mad?"

I looked up into his eyes with an almost dry angry expression, I mean that's the expression I was aiming for, m3rf what showed up on my face, the redness 5aff in his eyes, bs they were still sleepy and tired looking. I shook his hand off my shoulder and stood up, madait eedi for him still with my pissed off expression

me "ta3al rest now, we'll talk bout this b3dain"

He was obedient, za5 eedi w he carried his pillow with the other hand and got up, I dragged him to the bed where he put his pillow, then he sat on the side of the bed and kept staring at me, with intense, or he was in deep thought, I mean that's what he looked like. I tried staring back into his eyes 3shan he changes his expression, but he didn't at all. He started scaring me so I decided to say something.

me "mm a7mad by rest I meant Sleep, yalla lay down,, u look tired"

His gaze's direction did not change, but the expression changed, it turned to a softer one, and seconds later, he pouted. POUTEd, I was so confused. I walked a few steps closer to him leaving a hand distance between me and his knee.

me "what's wrong??"
a7mad "I'm so confused can you help me?"
me " emmm, what's the problem?"
a7mad " It's a long story you should sit"

He patted the place next to him, while I was looking at him still confused, and still with my depressed, sad, and angry expression. I decided to give in so I went ahead and sat next to him still keeping the hand distance gap thing. He stared down at the gap, then looked at me, then scooted closer

a7mad " So ana bagoolch el situation w you should help me ok?"
me "mmm sure"
a7mad " So my mom is a really over protective person, she's nice IF she wants to be, bs usually she's not, w maybe I'm used to it, but others aren't. and you see the problem is that.... she shouted at this girl I'm starting to reeeally like ...and.."

He wasn't looking at me when he said the last sentence, he was looking straight out the door. My mouth fell open and I tried estaw3bing what he had just said, I zoned out of what he was saying afterwards. Girl as in me? What does he mean he's starting to like this girl? I snapped out of my stream of thoughts when He started waving in front of my face, I gasped and looked at him frozen.

a7mad "Did you listen to anything I said???"
me "I..uuh....I.."

I was stuttering I couldn't help it, I DID not hear anything he said after that sentence. and kan shakla m3a9eb when he noticed that I wasn't listening, w marra w7da He lifted his leg, and tucked it into the bed sheet. I looked at him with guilty eyes, my chest hurt, Kan m7arrej 3alay, like seriously angry and pissed and hurt. Was he over reacting??

me "You're sleeping?"
a7amd " LAish y3ne tbainy I talk to you more so U ignore me? y3ne 9dg ro'9a you think it was easy for me to say all that, oh wait you don't even KNOW what I said ! w agool forget it, I take all of it back ! "

He turned his head the opposite side and covered his head with his blanket. He is such a dalooo3! He tells me that he likes me fe awal jumla then he expects me to actually listen to the rest of the conversation?? He said he takes it all back? Could I really just forget what he just said to me? Is that why he almost kissed me last time,

OMG,, how could I be so dense!!?

TAG

2009-06-15T11:20:00.000-07:00

Was tagged By Dazzlin =D
here goes my first tag, hehe :)

8 things I am looking forward to:
≈ Moving to our new house
≈ Harry potter movie <3 =D
≈ NEW MOON MOVIE IN NOVember!!
≈ Driving a car <3
≈ Free Time
≈ The next season of desperate housewives, greys anatomy, gossip girl, and 90210 :P
≈ traveling next summer :$ :P
≈ writing my next post (A) :P

8 things I wish I could do:
≈ Dance properly :$
≈ ride a horse
≈ Go to Tokyo, NY, and Rome <3
≈ Speak japanese
≈ Own an island and have my own beach 24\7 =]
≈ Be a figure skater
≈ Get whatever I want !
≈ Go on a diet, and be committed to exercising :P

8 things I love:
≈ Twilight
≈ My familYyy
≈ skiing
≈ My amazing friends
≈ sushi (A)
≈ cinema
≈ Going out wherever
≈ Cold weather

8 things I did yesterday:
≈ Took a bath
≈ 'cooked' frozen fridays food hehe =D
≈ watched the big bang theory <3!
≈ Went to a school graduation
≈ Saw my friends =]
≈ Posted on my blog, and read blogs
≈ faceboook-ed
≈ slept late

8 shows I watch:
≈ Desperate housewives
≈ Greys anatomy
≈ House
≈ Gossip girl
≈ 90210
≈ The big bang theory
≈ How I met your mother
≈I used to watch but stopped SEAson's aGO : lost, heroes, prison break, smallville, 6 feet under, true blood, (A) lol =p

8 bloggers I tag:
≈ Dreamer
≈ Allure
≈ forever yours
≈ Exquisite :*
≈ ~Blat
≈ distracted
≈ Sunset
≈ m76;**

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2009-06-14T14:56:00.000-07:00

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I couldn't wait till tomorrow she looked really excited, w for some reason a7b I see her smiling, is it because I feel sorry for her? enna it's my fault she's in all this?

or is it something else?

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r o ' 9 a

Sushii SUSHI SUSHI! I've been craving it since forever, I'm so glad he's not the kind of person who gets disgusted by sushi and such! I was almost jumping from excitement waiting for my sushi oh and the movie we're going to watch, I don't like scary movies wayd, bs a7mad looked like he really wanted to see it w I didn't mind because I love Jim carrey! I went to my bag to check the Pjs I had, w I found one che cotton black long night gown 3alaih a sleeping sheep, It was cute, w mb wayd mfa9a5 its only sleevless bs 6weel, I don't need anymore drama tonight, we didn't discuss how we will sleep, and a7s its awkward etha I bring it up bs che out of nowhere.. so i kept the topic for later.

I climbed on the bed to sit 3dal the side table ely has my phone on, a7mad was sitting there on the other side already in his k7lee Pj short and black Pj shirt mad reela with a pillow behind his back. I took my phone to check for any messages or miscalls, bs there was only one message.

Fatooma
+971*********

BEL SALAMA! HAVE FUN HUNNAAAY!!
U R GONNA TELL ME ALL ABOUT IT!!!!

LOVE U
XOXOXOXOXOXOOXOX

I miss fatooma, but I was sort of shocked enna there was no miscall or message whatsoever from anyone from my family, not my dad or my mom or my brothers, ma7ad msawelli salfa. I frowned at that thought w 7a6ait my phone back on the table w stared straight met'9ayga cz of this thing.

a7mad " hey r u ok?"

He caught me off guard, I forgot that he was 3daly so I turned my face to him giving him a soft smile

me " it's nothing.... don't worry bout it :) "
a7mad "mmm ok 3ala ra7tch.........bs mmm etha there is something U can always tell me"

He gave me a sincere smile, not the usual grin that I melt for, bs an " i care" smile, it was so warm and different, I just nodded to him and smiled. A second after that we both jumped at the sound of the bell, it ruined the 'moment' thing that was going on, thank god, it was starting to become awkward, I can't believe how this man becomes nicer by the minute! I mean although I was freaked out by the thing that happened bs when he apologized for it, with the puppy face he made, NO one can stay angry at him after witnessing that!

a7mad "ro'9a it's ROOM service! wear ur shaila,, wla agool seeri el7amam lain ma y6la3 as'hal hehe"
me " oh 9a7 ok ! DONT EAT MY SUSHI! "
a7mad " I wont i wont lat5afain yalla go "

I went to the bathroom and closed the door behind me, and listened to a7mad talking to the room service guy, I couldn't hear well what they were saying it sounded weird, incomprehensible to me, so I just waited there until someone opened the bathroom door to me, looked at me grinnig

a7mad "YOUr suushi is hereee"

I shouted a 'YAAY' and ran outside of the bathroom I think I pushed him out of my way, but I'm not really sure if I did or not and saw the covered food nicely put over the bed 3ala a table nafs mal breakfast in bed, w there was a small flower on the long table extending over most of the bed, I was thinking of a way to get on the bed without making everything fall over

a7mad " hey sho? ur not hungry anymore??"

I pointed at the food then looked at him with questionable eyes, che troubled and confused.

me " but how can I get on the bed without making everything fall??"

I frowned to him after saying that, then he laughed at me! YEs laughed! he thought I was joking bs lel2asaf I wasn't at all. He went over to his side of the bed, and sat cross legged and flashed me a grin

a7mad " Like THIs!"

I went to my side, and copied what he did then looked at him innocently

me "ohhh,,,"

He giggled at me again, I couldn't help not feeling embarrassed, so I turned my head to the food and smiled so widely!

a7mad " heheh...You love food don't you"

I nodded with the wide grin still on my face, opening the '36a of the plate in front of me. There it was! 8 pieces of rolled sushi with fried tempura prawns inside of it yummy!!! and two sauces on its side, soya sauce, and the mayo-chili-sauce thing that I loved. Then I turned my face to see his pastaa..Kan ye6la3 d5an menna mn kthr ma it was hot, w it looked so yummy with its sauce and mushroom

a7mad "hehe yalla sammiii"
me " bismillaah"

We put the Tv on a random channel that had f.r.i.e.n.d.s on to watch while eating. We shared the food, I suggested n8assem the sushi 4 for me and 4 for him but he insisted on giving me one of his enna I have 5 and him 3, and well I can't say no to sushi! But I didn't eat much from the pasta cz shba3t sort of, I ate kamn spoon then I decided that I had enough w I let him eat the rest. By the time we played the movie it was 1 am in Dubai, I watched parts of the movie, bs then I fell asleep 3ashan I was so ta3bana I didn't sleep well the night before!

I opened my eyes to the dark room | was in, I could hear the sound of the wind blowing, I stretched my arms and sat up and looked at the opened window, and thought akeed a7mad left it open. speaking of a7mad, I looked around the room bs there was no sign of him abadan, I saw the clock w it said 5 am, I got up to see where a7mad was, i tiptoed into the 9ala trying to make no noises just in case he was sleeping there, I walked up to the sofa, and there he was, sound asleep while breathing sort of loudly, his feet were hanging in the air because they exceeded the length of the sofa, it didn't look so comfortable, 7asait eb ta2neeb el'9ameer, bs it's not like I asked him to sleep on the sofa right? He started moving on the sofa right, then left, just as he did when we were on the bed. I went over the little kitchen elly fl 9ala and opened the fridge and found a bottle of milk so I decided to drink it and closed the fridge, I walked back to the bedroom quietly and opened the Tv and put it on a very low volume and was watching a romantic movie, m3rf what was its name I forgot. about an hour later I heard noises in the living room, b3dain shft enna it was a7mad, he came by the door with a blanket in his hand, and I could see his tired eyes, w kan shakla wayd m3tfs w ta3ban

a7mad "ro'9a.. 3ady anam wyach?"

He said with the sleepiest tired voice I've ever heard. And he was itching his eyes.

me " yaa it's ok ta3aaal "

Mskeen, I didn't know the sofa was this bad, plus madri a7s I don't mind having him on the same bed as me, especially enna when I slept earlier ho roo7a ra7 el 9ala and slept there, that gave me a feeling of trust for him madri laish. He crawled onto the bed and sighed deeply and covered himself up with his blanket, w a second after that he closed his eyes. I closed the Tv 3shan ma a7shera, He started moaning 3gub that, and moving a lot and I was well observing him, kan shakla different, his face was red. He looked like he was sick y3ne,

me " a7mad.. a7mad.?? are u asleep??"

He opened his eyes 3al 5feeef, and completed with his tired voice

a7mad "no..my throat hurts, w 5ashmy ensad, magdar anam"

I got up and went to my bag immediately! Shit Why did he get sick! I noticed y3ne it was sort of cold fl 9ala, bs mb l hal daraja, Is his body that sensitive y3ne? I got out my medicine small bag that my mom put for me, w kan da5la strepsils, and panadol, and behind it I found panadol cold and flu, I took them all out, w went and got him a glass of water, I mean I know I haven't been with a7mad alot, bs he's always joyful, he looks so tired now. I ran w sat 3ala 6araf el bed on his side and poked him

me "a7mad.. a7mad goum shway take this medicine so you can sleep shway at least"

He turned slowly and lazily and sat up shwaya and looked at me. I think he was totally m9a6el because he just stared into my face w tam like that, I took the glass of water and shoved it into his hand w gave him 7abtain panadol cold and flu

me "swallow this now!"

He was still looking at my face, shit man he looked so tired it was scary. So I decided to play the daloo3a card.

me "a7mad pleaase swallooow pleaase"

He opened his eyes a tiny bit wider when I said that and looked down at his panadol w he swallowed it then I took the glass from him w 7a6aita on the table and gave him a stripsel for his throat. He took it with no need of begging and went back to laying on his back while playing with the medicine in his mouth. I looked at him with worried eyes, kan shakla y3ne obviously fever symptoms, bs I don't know wHY I felt guilty w m3rf laish it felt like it was my fault. He looked back at me, and gave me a slight smile that lasted for a second on his face

a7mad "I'm ok you don't have to worry about me hehe"

He said it with a teasing tone!! 7ad teaSES at a time like this!! maynoooon!! the worry on my face disappeared and I gave him A GLare! and used the same tone he used with me

me "I'm not I don't care a9lan!"

And I sunk into my blanket, still secretly worried, m3rf what to do for him. Should I take him to the hospital? for Antibiotics maybe? We should go tomorrow, mb mhm our 6al3a we can do it when he gets better, although i 'was' excited about it. I went back to sleep bs kept my head facing the side away from him, w grait el mo3awethat, so may3adeeni, it's enough we have one sick person, who will take care of both of us at the same time??

I woke up the next morning and immediately turned my head to check on him, he was breathing really heavily with his mouth shway open because of his blocked nose I assumed. I put my hand on his forehead to check his fever, w it was so warm! Ashkra its a fever ! I didn't know who to call for help, y3ne what should he eat for breakfast? I decided to ask him what he wanted when he wakes up. I went to the bathroom to wash my face w che, w when I came out he was getting out of bed I rushed to him angrily!

me "a7maaaaad! Get back in your bed, feek 7emma"

He put on a fake smile, with his red face, and sweaty neck

a7mad " La mafeeni shay , I'm ok lets get ready 3ashan ne6la3"
me "A7MAD! I can't believe you're even considering the 6al3a GET baCK INTO your bed w you're not going anywhere!!!!"

His fake smiley face vanished and was replaces by a surprised one as he sat back on the bed I mean I know I over-reacted w sort of screamed but it was for his own good! he looked kind of scared too. I sat next to him and put my hand on his forehead to check again, w it was just as warm. In the mean time a7mad was staring at my hand, then my face, I took my hands off then faj2a He reaches for it and holds it with his hand, he held it weakly and reached it over his lap and looked down at his lap

a7mad " I'm so sorry,, you were really excited about today w a7een this is what happens"

He looked up at me with a mn8eher, sad face, at the same time, I was looking at him with my eye brows raised, confused about the 'hand holding' and what he's saying

me "a7mad you're sick sho you're apologizing? seriously??! w it's just a 6al3a, enta get better w b3dain we can do something if you want, I actually like this hotel it's fun w they have good channels you know mb lazm ne6la3"

I lied, bs it felt like I had to, to convince him to stay in bed and get better at least. My eye's gaze moved towards my held hand by the end of my sentence, He was starting to stroke it! STROKing my hand! I just stared at it, maybe he's dooing it..cz...cz.. because he's sick? I looked at him and then felt him letting go of my hand slowly, until eventually it was free. He got into the blanket, so I got up to go to the living room so I let him yrta7 y3ne,

a7mad "ro'9aa ro'9aaa"

I turned fast, t7arait something happened, and I saw his pleading eyes and a frown on his face

a7mad "Please don't leave me alone..."
me "uhh....mmm...ok"

I went back to my side of the bed w sat in it, and I looked at him gasping for air and blowing his nose. He pulled his head closer to me until he placed it on my thighs and he closed his eyes. ma3arf if he was using the fact that he is sick, wla 9idg he wanted me there because he doesn't like to be alone when he is sick? I was confused. I opened the Tv bs on mute, and sat there bored and hungry b3dain I heard his ringtone so I leaned to grab his phone it read 'el walda"

me "a7mad a7mad it's your mom"
a7mad "please enti shellii............."

He said it with a pleading sick voice so I couldn't say no, bs I knew that I would regret it

me "Salam w 3alaikm 5alo"
om a7mad " w 3alaikm el salam? enti mno?"
me "mmm ana ro'9a"
om a7mad "oh haih enti, wain a7mad aba akalma"
me " mmm ho ragd, bs galli ashel el telephone etha enti teti'9leen"
om a7mad " RAGD lain a7een?? LAISH SHO FEE WLDI ! Sho sawaiTY FEE!?"
me " mmmm la2 mashay, bs ta3ban shwaya fe 7emma 5feefa"

I was starting to get nervous, I hated the tone she used with me, ka2anna i'm below her or something, It was really irritating.

om a7mad "MREEE'9 ??? MREE'9??ALLAH YA5THCH! SHO SAWAITY FEE! KEL HAL Sneeen wEYAY W Maymra'9 W YOUM Wa7D WYACH W MAT3aRFEEN TEHTAmAIN FE WLDI! ! Yal SHAi6ANA SHO SAWAITEE FEE! WALLA 3RAFT ennich MATnf3EEN ! MSKEEN WLDIIi!!!"
me " mmm la2 5alo.. ana ..."
om a7mad " CHUB WALA KELMA! KEL HA SAWAITY fee W TBAin tgooleeeen a3thar!! 9DG ENNICH MAtst7EEN 3aLA WAYHiCH ! AHLCH MO MRABEENCH 3aDEL 8aLEELAT ADAB! w ma7AD y3ANI '3aIR A7MAD WYACH!!! YAl ..............."

My teary eyes couldn't bear the words she was directed at me, I haven't been screamed at this much ever, W WHO is she TO judge 3ala MY family! AS if her family is perfect!! I didn't say anything back and I didn't know what she was saying either, bs she didn't stop complaining and shouting at me, lain ma a7mad raised his head and looked at me in shock of my tears, and grabbed the phone as fast as his body allowed him to from my hand

a7mad " OMMY!!!"

I ran off the bed to the bathroom and locked the door behind me, and started crying non stop! I don't think it was just because his mom sabatny, but all the emotions came crashing on my shoulder, her shouting was only the trigger of the crying, but still

how could she?!?!!!!

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2009-06-09T12:47:00.000-07:00

Hey Readers,
I wanted to tell you guyz enna starting now, w for a month and a half almost, I'm not going to post as frequently, I'll be really busy! bs I promise enna whenever I have free time I'll post
=D

Enjoy <3

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Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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he was so close to my body, what was he doing? What was he thinking!...What has just happened?

O M G

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Shit what did I just do! mskeena she was in shock shwaya w bt9ee7. ahh I promised myself not to touch her, so it would be easier to leave her 3gub after I get the stupid position my dad wants, with no one hurt. but ... but.... I didn't expect her to be 7elwa, and this attractive, y3ne m3rf what happens to me when I'm around her uff sho ha I can't even control myself! I buried my head into my palms sitting on the sofa in the living room of our suite mad at myself, I didn't hear anything from inside the room, where I left her and ran away. ma9adg I was so close to kissing her, we hardly know each other, w a7een it's going to get awkward bainna, shit I should apologize wla shay, I lifted my head m3a9b 3ala 3mri and looked towards the room, still silence, nothing.. I wonder if she's ok ... It's all my fault, awal ma we start getting along I had to ruin it! ya Allaaaaah!

My phone started ringing, it was inside the room, I had to go get it, but she was in there, I was afraid to face her, m3rf what she will do, she probably doesn't want anything to do with me..uf 9dg enny '3abee! I managed to get myself up, '3a9bn 3anni, adre my mom would go insane if I don't pick up so lazm I go get my phone, I had no other choice.

I stepped into the room, wla ashoofha with her pink dress holding her knees close to her chest bs laffa the other side not facing the door. ksrat 5a6ry, roo7ha b3eeda 3an ahelha w I'm the only person wyaha here, then I offend her like that 9dg enny 7mar. I should apologize, bs 5alny I call my mom first.
I grabbed my phone from the side table of the bed, trying to avoid her face, bs my eyes falied to restrain, so I looked at her, she was sleeping, bs makan the peaceful sleep, her face didn't look mrta7 at all, guilt built up within me more and more, I'll apologize awal ma she wakes up. I grabbed my BB and headed out to the 9ala 3shan ma az3jha, then saw the miscall w just as I thought, It was my mom. I dialed her number, and she picked up mal7ag yren

ommy "a7maDO! waink mn sa3a a7awl a6e9L!! LAISH matshl! 3awart galbee! enta b5aair?? A7mAD a7MAD!! "

a7mad " ommy hehe ana hny lat7ateen wain baroo7.. w wa3alikm el salaam"

ommy " t3arf enny a7atee bser3a laish che tsawee feeni!"

a7mad "Asif ommy bs telephonee makan 3ndi, a5r marra?"

ommy " haih zain! sh5bark ba3ad?"

a7mad "mmm 7emdella.."

ommy "sh5bar....mmm..el..."

a7mad "7emdella.....ro'9a zaina ba3ad.."

ommy "oh hmmm.... etha '9aygatk..."

I interrupted her, she looked down at ro'9a because of her family, unfortunatly my mom is wayd mn hal nou3, bs it's not like ro'9a wayd wanted to be with me enna my mom balmes her, elmhm enny ma7b whn my mom talks about her che, because fl a5eer she is 'my' wife.

a7mad "Ommy!"

ommy "sho maglt shay! bs 5aberni y3ne w ana araweeha, etha t'9ayg wldii "

a7mad "ommy ana mb 9'3eer ayee atshakka 3nddch! w a9lan he masawatlee shay y3ne"

ommy " haih,, haih,, bs y3ne etha... t3arf wainy ana...."

I stayed silent, she knew I didn't like it when she said stuff like that, bs that never stopped her. Allah y3een ro'9a 3alaiha, kella sebbat obooy, ya Allaah...

ommy "a7mad ?"

a7mad "na3am?"

ommy " oh ba3dk hnee t7araitk banadt,, yalla ana ba5aleeek a7een w mb matshl eltelephoon marra thanyaa!"

a7mad " oh enzain, la enshalla ma3eedha hehe, yalla ma3 el salama"

ommy " ma3 el salama"

6oo6 6ooooo6. . . .

I went back into the room to put my phone back to its place, then maybe lay on the bed lain ma ro'9a tgoom so I apologize to her or try to. 7a6ait my phone on the side table thn ylast on the bed, looking at her, I couldn't stop the feeling of guilt that climbed through my veins, awal shay '9almet'ha wyay because of a stupid position. When my dad told me enna I have to get married for the position, maknt 7a6 fe bali enna 2 weeks from what he said I would actually be married, I can't imagine what she went through.

7awalt I put on a mask, so we stay distant from each other but y3ne when my dad told me I'd marry from alX family 9ara7a knt 7a6 fe bali te6la3 w7da wayd 3adiyya, 7ata glt ymkn tkoon mteena, w I wanted that so it would be easier for me to stay away. bs just my luck, I walk into the wedding w she looks amazing, she looked perfect, I couldn't help not talking to her in the lemo, w she was so amusing during the wedding, and how nervous she was. I admit I was extremely nervous myself, bs I can manage to hide it easily, bs unlike me, she had all her emotions on her face, nervous, then sad, then angry at times. She was transparent w 7abait hal shay feeha. But, I didn't want to ruin my plan to stay away from her, cz lets face it I don't plan on staying with her my whole life, laish a'9lm both of us into this forced relationship? W she showed a mutual feeling of that in the lemo when I tried making a conversation. Mn che when we reached the hotel I dived into the bed, although I wasn't sleepy at all, bs I didn't want to do anything that I will regret later........

I tightened my hands into fists. and looked at her again, she looked beautiful, with her dark almost black hair that's almost long y3ne, yoo9al half her back I think. And her tanned skin, w how can I forget her perfect figure, y3ne staying away from her is like torture, I'm a man u know! I can't help it, bs still I will control myself, y3ne sho mb chayif 5air! She started moving a bit w she opened her eyes shway shway, blink then closed it then blinked again till she had her eyes open, w her gaze on me with her big round light brown eyes, I didn't know if she was really awake so I just stared back into her mesmerizing eyes. We stayed like that for some time, lain ma she got up and sat streching and rubbing her eyes then looked back at me with a scared look on her face, as if afraid from me, it seemed like the perfect time for my apology.

me " ro'9a... mmm can we talk?"

She just looked at me with wondering eyes, I tried looking as guilty as possible, so she wouldn't be scared from me. Then she nodded w sat cross legged on the bed looking down at her hands while playing with them, in other words avoiding eye contact with me.

me "mmm ro'9a.........I'm so sorry about what just happened gabl, walla m3rf what came into me, w I won't do it again , bs m3rf sho agool '3air im really really REally sorry ro'9a"

She lifted her head looking at me, so I took that chance and frowned, She took a while looking at me then looking around, b3dain back at me, w her face expression changed, that's what was amazing about her, she was so easy to read, thus, so easy to be with. Her expression changed to a peaceful one, and she gave me a slight smile, and I couldn't help not smiling back, bs not a slight smile like hers, but one of my wide smiles, I was glad enna sam7atni or else the rest of this week would've been hell of me talking to myself.

ro'9a "mm sa3a kam a7een?"

me "uuh its 5 pm 3ala taw8eet Barcelona 7asab that watch"

I pointed at the watch of the Tv in front of us, glad to hear her voice.

ro'9a "ummm are we going to do anything?"

me "mm tbain te6l3een y3ne?"

ro'9a " la mmmm 3ala ra7tk..."

me " ana 3ady 3ndy y3ne ayshay I don't mind.. bs a7s a7san if we go out tomorrow in the morning 3al a8al fe akthar people and we can ask around, plus we can spend a full day out"

I said grinning, she looked at me and smiled a wide smile back, I guess I wasn't the only one that's mb mtfayej to go out today hehe.

ro'9a "ok... goood plan ! "

me " hehe yes of course because it's My Plan"

I love teasing her because she has the cutest glare, ok 9a7 enny I want to stay away from her, bs mb y3ne enna I can't enjoy her a bit she is my wife after all, 9a7?

ro'9a "aha right right . . . hehe"

me "mmmm what do you want to do now?"

ro'9a "uuh... what do you have in mind"

she tilted her head a bit and smiled to me, hehe I wanted to pinch her cheeks, bs I knew better than to do that

me "mmmmm we can mmm ,, oh we can order room service anything we want, a'9n I saw 3jeeb food fe their menu! oh and we can watch a movie, we can choose from this list"

I got up and took the list of movies the hotel offered and gave it to her to choose from.

ro'9a "mmm bs ma3rf what kind of movie you like"

me " hehe, ana ashoof ayshay tara don't worry, enti sho tbain tshoofeen?"

I sat back on the bed and scooted shwaya near to her to look at the movies, bs I noticed she moved shway away from me. It's like we both are pretending that nothing happened, bs ashkra it's more awkward bainna than before, and it's all my fault. After a while of discussion we decided to watch 'Number 23' mal Jim Carrey. She said enna its da3aya was sort of scary, bs kan wayd 5a6ri to watch it w she said she wanted to watch it too, then it was time to choose our food bs that didn't take as much time she insisted we order tempura sushi, w I ordered a alfredo pasta w gelna we'll share, it's good we had the same taste in food. adree maa 6labna anything spanish, bs we kept that for tomorrow! I couldn't wait till tomorrow she looked really excited, w for some reason a7b I see her smiling, is it because I feel sorry for her? enna it's my fault she's in all this?

or is it something else?

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2009-06-07T12:21:00.001-07:00

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I moved his head a bit bs he started moving, I slipped my hand away bser3a, and just seconds later, he moves his head and palces it...... ON My shoulder...

Here we go agaaaaain ..... !!!
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I should've known something like this would happen, It's as if he's 8 once he closes his eyes walaa channa he's 7 years older than me!! I inhaled and exhaled calming myself down, so eventually I gave in to the situation and decided to watch Tv, unconsciously I rested my head on his head that was on my shoulder, it felt so comfortable so tamait in that position watching my movie.

It got boring half way through my movie so I moved my gaze lain ta7at wla ashoof a7mad's hands moving, in a way that he's playing with his fingers. I took of my head bser3a, then he took off his and looked at me, I had a shocked\worried expression on my face.

me " uhh.... I thought you were asleep . . . "
a7mad " oh laa i've been up mn fatra, bs t7arait you were ragda so I didn't move"
me " owh..me too!"

I sighed and put my back on the chair again, bs he was still staring at me with a worried look on his face then he pointed at my shoulder

a7mad "did ii.......uuuuh"
me "mmmm yes......u did....."

He had this really guilty look on his face, I felt bad for him so I slipped a soft shy smile while looking at his gel-ed hair that did not get ruined at all, it was so perfectly modeled!

a7mad "asif, walla maknt 7as fe 3mri ..w"
me *intrupting his speech* " la mmmm...3adyyy I guess, I 'm sorry too for...uuh .... u know"
a7mad " La I started it, w its my fault, w mali 7ag che 3akaify"

I did not know what to say back, so I just smiled to him, and he returned it , SCORE! I get a smile yay! I couldn't deny how much I enjoyed looked at his smile. But at the same time I hated the fact that I liked it, I did not want to get close to him because that would make my parents feel 'better' about themselves for doing this to me, w I did not want that because I was so angry at them for making me do this. At the same time I can't ignore him w act bitchy because first, I'm really bad at pretending to be someone I'm not, w two, he's such a nice guy he does not deserve it, he was forced into this thing just as much as I was forced into it ( I think). When I turned to him he was lost in his thoughts just as much as I was, bs when he saw me looking raffa3 rasa with a smile on his face

a7mad "So, what do you want to do in Spain?"
me "oh, 9a7,mmmm good question, what is there to dooo?"
a7mad "mmm I don't know 9ara7a, bs glt noo9al then we go to our hotel n7e6 a'3ra'9na w ymkn nrta7 kamn sa3a, then look online for places to go? w if you want to shop wla shay u knw"
me "mmmm ya anythings fine... but .. uuh"
a7mad " sho fe?"
me " La bs I think I forgot my credit card back home"
a7mad " oh, hehe, but you're my 'wife' now, ana mas2ool 3annech you don't need your credit card"
me " Laaa, shoo, mmmm"

I did not want to spend his money! ON anything, especially the fact that it came from his father, who I despise at the moment. I looked at him with a bothered face and signed w looked straight, I don't want him to think I'm being nice to him for the money, I'm not that kind of person, money is my last concern fl 7aya, It's the source of kel el mshakel! The reason I'm here away from my family, I held the tears that were going to run out of my eye w breathed, and tried distracting my thoughts by thinking of what to do in Spain.

a7mad "ro'9aaa"
me " mm na3am?"
a7mad " mmmm glt shay '3ala6? ....because uum...U don't look ok"
me " haa... laa.......*THINK OF AN excuuse!*,,its just,, enna ...mmm...when I'm on a plane I feel dizzy...hehe"

I smiled a silly smile to him, which made him let out a little laugh, m3rf If I should've been offended that he laughed at my face, bs he looked too cute for me to get mad at him! When we got off the plane w w9alna the luggage place he told me to stand roo7i w he went ahead, he looked so good in his jeans and t-shirt look! It fit him perfectly, w he had a nice simple style that looked 3ajeeb on him! Then we went to the hotel 7a6aina shna6na, w we both took baths cleaning ourselves up w che, i wore this pink dress yoo9al ta7at my knee a little and has a short sleeve with a circular wide kneck opening, It was one of the few not-so-revealing things in my bag!(adree it IS revealing, but compared to the rest of the things! kan mo7taram) My bag was full of new things! 7ata I noticed that some of the underwear ely 7a6eeli were Calvin Klein, So I guess my dad got his bonus raise before the wedding! I really wanted to kill my mom killa shorts! w backless things, she's definitely trying to torture me! uurgh! I felt so angry but at the same time amused by the pretty things in my bag I was so hyper today for some reason. a7mad came out of the bathroom labis PJ pants and a short sleeve faneela and nashaf sha3ra thn sat on the bed cross legged facing me, y3ne he copied the way I was sitting and grinned

a7mad " SO, tell me about yourself"
me " ha? ,,, me? "
a7mad " Laish fe 7ad '3air fl '3orfa? akeed u ! hehe t'9a7keen"

I glared at him, then let out a wide smile.

me "mmmmm what do you want to know y3ne?"
a7mad " mmm I know your name is ro'9a alX, w I know that you're 19, So I want to know ayshay other than that"
me "uuuuh y3neee my hobbies mathalan?"
a7mad " hehe, ya that will do !"
me "mmmm i like,, i like skiing, Ice skating, w mmm swimming, and i like the beach"
a7mad "hehe beach hobby a7een?"
me *blush* "m3rfffff,, it could be!"
a7mad "hehe ok ok, ww what about which schoool and uni w che?"
me " I was in Itti7ad school, w i 'WaS' in aus,,, and i ''Was' studying interior design"

I think he noticed me stressing on the 'was', ok I meant to say it like that cz kan feyya 8ahar, I really liked drasty, and I was just answering his question! His face changed shway whn i said that, bs he gave me a slight smile ena ooh i see .

me "mmmm what about u ?"
a7mad " mee? wla"

Laf wara rasa awanna ydawr 3ala 7ad thani! ahhh yet6anaz 3alay! I took the pillow el 3daalii and wgaft on my knees and threw it on his face , then grinned a triumphal grin

a7mad "Ayyy!"
me " hehe , You asked for it ...."

For some reason, I felt so comfortable around him, he was the kind of guy that you feel 'safe' with, I don't know how to explain it bs it's how I felt. He made me feel enna I could be myself with him. He was rubbing his face

a7mad "a555,, I did Not expect that"

I looked at him and 'hehee-ed' and blushed all at the same time, I did not expect that from Me either.

me "heheee I did not mean for it to hurt? y3aawr?"

He chuckled, then awana he was frowning

a7mad "haai, y3aawr z3aalt"
me "hehe so?"

I put out my tongue to tease him, he looked like he was really enjoying this ' thing', It did not sound like a conversation, I don't know what it was.

a7mad " ay maystwee you don't care about your husband, lazm tra'9eeni, hehe"
me "hehe reallyyyy?"

As I said that I grabbed a pillow from behind me and threw another one on his face.

a7mad "AyyyyyYYYyyy! what was this one fooor!?"

I cracked up laughing at his shocked face and fell on the bed laughing, it was so funny ! he looked at me with a 'baraweeech' look then climbed over me and held 3 pillows w yawadhm foug my head

a7mad "I could strangle u, u knw"

I looked at him with puppy eyes, a3arf enna he wasn't going to do it, So I tried making the run for it bs madri what happend w ho ertbak and fell over me, like FULL body over mine, chest to chest, tummy to tummy!

me "AAYyyyyyyyyy"

It really hurt ! he was heavy y3ne he's a guy 7atta lw he's thin he's heavy and he fell over me his full weight was over me ! Then he lifted himself with his two hands, and bent his knee lifting the weight of his body off of mine. He was levitating over my body as if I was his prisoner. and me on the other hand was in shock, with my eyes WIDe open looking at him, staring, gazing, dazing, you name it! He looked into my eyes with a smirk on his face then leaned closer and closer to my face, I held my breath, not knowing what's going to happen, or what the F is he doing! I wanted to scream or kick him and run away bs my whole body felt paralyzed I couldn't move an inch. He came to the side of my face, and breathed in my scent, or the scent of my hair? m3rf what he was doing bs he breathed in then lifted his head looked at me with what seemed to be a guilty face and closed his eyes tight w gam 3anni his hands in fists and rushed out of the room. Leaving me there, on the bed, still paralyzed, he was so close to my body, what was he doing? What was he thinking!...What has just happened?

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Wed-Locked 9

2009-06-06T15:04:00.000-07:00

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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I shook my head trying to forget what fatooma told me! Thinking of a way to return things back to how they were this morning, y3ne casual at the least!

how do I fix this??
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I looked at my watch it was, 5:45 pm, w wondered how long the flight will take, I've never been to Spain before. Although my fantasy honeymoon was supposed to be either in Italy, or Maldives, bs y3ne Spain isn't so bad either, w it's not like it's going to be like any regular romantic honeymoon, MAN it's GONNA be awkward, lafait rasi to see what 'a7mad' is doing, w he had his i-touch, wya his headphones on, looking out the window. I wanted to sit 3edal the window! I love looking out the window in airplanes! But unfortunately he was walking ahead of me, and he sat there. i wanted to say something but his face wasn't the friendly face I saw this morning, so '3ayart rayee! He had a serious look on his face b3dain laf 9oobi, when he noticed I was staring and gave me a look! che enna wtf-r-u-looking-at look! IT gave me shivers and lafait rasi fast pretending to browse the magazines in the front pocket thing, my heart was beating so fast! What have I done! I took out my mobile, gabl lift off, and sent a messege to Fatooma, tellin her swalf bye w i love u, you know. I flipped through all the magazines, then after finishing I stared at my hands nervously,I was scared to look 9ooba again. Uff if I only knew enna bnsafr I would've brought my Ipod with me too.

10 minutes after lift off, the belt sign went off, and

Flight attendant: Attention Passengers we'd like to congratulate the newlyweds that are here with us todaay! Their off to their honeymoon in spaaain...Congratulations you twoo !

I didn't estaw3b what she just said until another flight attendant etty 9oobna smiling, 3shan noogaf, me w a7mad stood up bser3a and looked at eachother confused, thn looked back at the flight attendant, she was still smiling wla warana people are congratulating us w a7mad started giving out his fake smiles, he's amazing at mojamala situations, unlike myself! I gave a shy smile too to the people. These two old american couple that were sitting 3dalna looked at us all happy and stuff

old lady " ohhhmaaay! congratulations! me and my husband are on our anniversaryy to spain"

she looked back at her husband and winked to him while he was reading his newspaper, I couldn't help not smiling back to her she was soo sweet!

me " hehe, thank yoou! awwh happy anniversary to u !"
a7mad " happyy anniversary ! "
old lady " aww thank yooou! u two look beautiful together I must say!"

I blushed and gave her a smile, sadly she was right, he was tall and I reached to his shoulders, and well both of us looked not bad I must say. A7mad gave her his famous smile, while we sat back down, oh I forgot to mention the flowers we got from the airplane people they were beautiful roses! I held them in my hand and breathed the smell in then put it on the side leaning on the chair that was in front of me. a7mad went back to his ipod zone with his expressionless face. I thought we'd talk about how this happened y3ne how did they know, bs No, he didn't even bother making conversation with me, he must be really angry, or offended? I came to a conclusion that it must've been 7ad mn our parents that did this thing, but I did not understand why! While I was day dreaming w analyzing situations

old lady " heLLo briide!"

I turned to her smiling face and couldn't help not smiling back, YAY someone to talk to!

me " hehe ya?"
old lady "I noticed you newlyweds not talking! r u two in a fiight?"

She sounded so sweet, not the malgoofa tone, but concerned and worried, almost disappointed, I turned to him then turned back to her and sighed

me "mm, I don't really know, but You could say that I guess "
old lady "Jeez! u just got married! Did he start it? Men always start the fights! "
me *with a frown on my face* "No, I think it's my fault, but I really didn't mean it, it's a big misunderstanding and I have no idea how to fix it!"

I don't know why I talked to her, and told her things, but she was so nice and I was bored so glt maybe she has a solution that would help me?

old lady "don't u know what makes a man happy?" *wink*
me "mmm no what?" *all innocent* ( I really didn't know!)
old lady "hah newly weds, *sigh* well try seducing him, and perhaps kiss him a bit, prepare him for the big treat at night, u know what I mean"

I just blushed at her answer, I mean , that's not the solution I was looking for, and NOT anywhere near it! that's when her husband turned his head towards us and chuckled and then shook his head laughing at his wife. they were such an 'AWW' couple, I just wanted to hug them! Then I saw her smiling towards me but not to me, so I turned my face w shft he was looking at her, then back at me with a smile on his face, channa he's holding in a laugh! He looked at me, smiling! HE smiled to me!! that must be a good sign, I smiled back, then he looked back to the window, with an amused look on his face. Ok so maybe he wasn't mad at me? Akeed it was his parents or something, I sighed a sigh of relief, glad that perhaps this problem is over. But I was still bored

me "a7mad ... a7mad"

He looked towards me and took off his headphones

a7mad "ya?"
me "mmmm what are you listening to?"

I pointed to his ipod with an eager grin on my face. Then his face expression changed, w ertbak,,,

a7mad "uuh... ummmm... me?... its..."

I gave him a weird look then grabbed his ipod to see it myself, what is he listening to? Is it a dirty song? Akeed that's y ertbak hehe... I pressed the button bs no response from the ipod, then poked the screen, but nothing.Then looked at him with a confused look

me " the battery's dead?"
a7mad " uuh... yaa tawa bannad 3alay hehe"

You know when ashkra someone is faking something, well this was one of these situations, I put the Ipod back in its place and smiled then looked seeda. I guess he's only good in faking a smile to people, what a bad liar, I wonder how long the battery has been off? Then it hit me! He smiled right after I had the talk with the old lady! Did he hear us?? OMg how embarrassing! He heard everything! But why in hell did he keep his headphones on even after the battery died? Was he trying to avoid talking to me? Then lafait rasi to see him, but he was fast asleep. He had his face towards the right y3ne towards me bs sleeping, and snoring! I don't remember him snoring yesterday , akeed it's because of the position of his head.. mmmm... mskeeen..... I could feel someone poking my arm

old lady " hey Hun, I think You should fix your husband's head, poor guy is tired"
me "ohh... hehe ok I'll try"

eeeek! What do I do, I moved my finger slowly towards his cheek then poked it, bs no response,, ehh I have to move his head sho asawi! I put the palm of my hands behind his head touching his hair, it felt so na3m! so soft, ahh RO'9a FOCUS! I moved his head a bit bs he started moving, I slipped my hand away bser3a, and just seconds later, he moves his head and palces it...... ON My shoulder...

Here we go agaaaaain ..... !!!

The smile

2009-06-05T13:22:00.000-07:00

Hey Readerss,
=D! Hope you're enjoying the storyyy So far <3 !!!

w I wanted to show u what I meant by 'bracket' thingie smile , soo basically a7mad's smile that is my weakness! I know it's not a very good picture,, but its the best I could do (A)!

Noootice the braacketss,,, heheeee *blushh bluuush*

;) until next post,
xo xo