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Friday, September 30, 2011

Wed-locked 37

Previously on Wed-locked

From : fa6ooma


woah! sho salfat’ha let me call her!

*dialing fa6ooma*


me “ ALOOO”
fa6ooma “aloo”

me “ waaht! enzain bs gooli a7een”
fa6ooma “enzain look 3 weeks ago this woman called my mom w ennaaaaaa......ummmm 5e6boooni”

she said quietly fl a5eer
fa6ooma “SHH Shhhh lat9aar5eeeeeen”

fa6ooma “shit yaa.....a7s kel el 7arra fe obooy yalsa a76a feeeh......what should i reply enzaain?”
me “just tell him he surprised you w you were going to leave anyways its not about him,, w 7e6i SMILEY or tongue thing! so he dsnt get over concerned or whatever”
fa6ooma “uuuh ok......sent”

I looked down at my phone as it started ringing
fa6ooma looked towards me

fa6ooma “a7mad?”
me “yaaaaaa owaih nsait 3anaaaaaa! i was supposed to send him a message back or something ufff”
fa6ooma “hahah shelliii”

me “ufffff”



*picks up*

me “alo...”
a7mad “mmmm hi”
me “hey”
a7mad “umm ha whats up?”
me “ummm mashay just wya fa6ooma laish?”
a7mad “laa bs as2al eh...”
me “enta fl dawam?”
a7mad “haih”
me “oh ok”
a7mad “i’ll be back by 3 i promise”
me “emm enzain”
a7mad “ see you?”
me “ya suure... bye”
a7mad “bye ro’9ee”

i closed the phone and looked at fa6ooma and stopped her from talking 3ala 6ool

me “SHHH ok don’t say anything! this is the right way to deal with hiiim trust me i know my husband”
fa6ooma “enzaain ana maglt shaay hahah”
me “but knti btgooleeen”
fa6ooma “loooool ok its 1 now tbain trdeen elbait?”
me “laaaa lets hang out shway zyadaaaaa talk to me about whats his name”
fa6ooma “i don’t want to talk about he who must not be named “
me “marad 3alaich after that message?”

she took her phone in her hand and shoved it around

fa6ooma “nopp”
me “hmmmmmm”

we went for karak w swaalf and before i knew it , it was 3:10 pm as i looked down at my phone

me “oooo i should be home now a7mad gal he’ll be home by 3....or maybe i should give him a taste of his own medicine hmm”
fa6ooma “yalla 3aad bawadeech el bait a7een”
me “uffff why do u like him so much!! GAH basaweelch nafs elshay wya fahad haa!”
fa6ooma “haha may59 liking him bs i love u and i KNOW he loves u enzain that’s enough for me “
me “eeeeeeh fine “
me “hey listen fa6oom”
fa6ooma “whaaat?”
me “my periods late”

i said with a gulp

fa6ooma “ WHAT,,, no wait how late?”
me “ummmm a week”
fa6ooma “ohh duuude u freaked me out , at7ara 7amel wla shay hahaha”
me “i shouldn’t freak out 9a7? uff i don’t know cz feya lo3a wayd hal ayam w i’ve been getting cramps, bs that happens pre-period tooo so i shouldn’t judge uugh”
fa6ooma “yaaa bs did u check?”
me “laaa im still in denial”

I said proudly

fa6ooma “haha enzain go get a stick and pee on it, its not that hard”
me “mb chee bs....”

I stopped and looked down at my hands in thought

me “i don’t know how a7mad or his family would react if it was true......”
fa6ooma “u guys never discussed it?”
me “weirdly no...”
fa6ooma “oh...”

and before i knew it we were home i sat inside not wanting to get in the house, i miss my endless days with fa6ooma, I turned my head and frowned at her

me “bs ma sheba3t mennich”
fa6ooma “i’ll call you later ok? AND we can see each other tomorrow, or the day after or after ay wagt tbain, i’ve been missing u too, a lot”

I reach over and gave her a tight hug then heard her phone tingling


she took it w opened it and read it out loud

‘ oh was good seeing u anyways ;)’ she stressed on the word WINK when she was reading it
fa6ooma “woow now he’s winking at me uuuuuuugh”

she said as she banged her head against the sekkaan....

me “hahhaha katkooot”

she looked at me and rolled her eyes
fta7t the door of the car and I stepped down and waved to her sadly

me “goodbye my lover”
fa6ooma “see u soon”

I closed the door in despair, missing the old days as I walked away from the car into the house. I wonder if a7mad is even back yet.

as i walked into the room sheft sa3ta w 3gala mafrooreen 3al 6awla, so he’s actually back huh. And i heard the shower on in the bathroom. f9a5t el 3ba w kelshay and I laid on the bed thinking about fa6ooma and how a man could have such a big impact 3ala a girl’s life. I just hope his nice facade isn’t just a facade and its real, she does deserve a good husband, she’s amazing, bs I never thought her dad would do anything like that. I mean I know they believe he’s the right fit and he’s a good guy but? really?

And as I was continually talking to myself, a7mad walked out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist and he was startled to find me there

a7mad “heeyy”

I just turned my head to check him out then turned back to my phone, awana not interested. then mumbled back

me “mmm hi”

I noticed he walked over nearer to me as he sat infront of me beside my feet , yes still in his towel.

a7mad “How was your day ro’9eee”

he said as he put his hand on my legs stroking it , looking at me with what seemed to be a guilty smile
nazalt my mobile from my hands and looked at him with a straight face

me “ was good 7emdella”

he stayed silent for a bit , as he took a breath

a7mad “wa9lch my message btw?”
me “mmm haih”
a7mad “oh maradaity t7arait it didn’t reach”

I stayed silent as I pulled my legs closer to me away from his hands

a7mad “ Listen i can’t ara’9eech for shay che, lana ma7s enny ‘3l6an , although a3arf eny za3altch”

I looked straight down, away from his stares, I understand where he’s coming from, but ….uhh i don’t know

me “ but “
a7mad “ha? but sho”
me “ wala marraaa fe 7ayatee knt fe 7adth until that day! i do know how to drive maystwee che forever”
a7mad “enzain ana maglt forever”
me “ lain mta 3yal”

I pouted,

a7mad “until your arm fully heals”

he pointed at my right arm, my elbow

me “bs its fine may3awrnii anymoore!”
a7mad “bs el doctor gal it won’t be fully healed lain 2 months, fa magdar a5aleech tsoogeen! enti mas2ooleety i cant......let ayshay ystwee feech again”

me “finee”

his face lit up at my words, and he had a soft smile, he got up ya ajrab 3anni and gave me a hug
i laughed a bit at him after he let go and looked at me

a7mad “shoooo!”
me “youuu should go put some clothes on”
a7mad “whyyy”

he said as he stretched jdamy 3al bed with a wide smile, haha it’s funny how the mood in here changes in a matter of minutes

a7mad “before we got married, knt ayls fe ‘3rfty wya boxers bs a9lan”
me “reallyy?”
a7mad “yeppp”
me “w laish wagaft y3ne”
a7mad “becaaaause i didn’t want to give you false signs you know, or a’3reech eb my sexiness”
me “ahaaa u don’t say”

i smiled to him and laughed….then fell silent to my thoughts , should ? I just ask about the what-if-baby-situation ? I frowned down at my lap while thinking , then sheft that he got up w decided to put his head on my lap
He’s like a perfect distraction of my real life that actually involves him haha

A7mad “heyyy laish skatyy whats up?”
Me “mmmm la mashaay hehe ktkoooot”

I said while pinching his cheeks, I didn’t want to ruin this happy time with him with some complication ufff I don’t know, he pushed my hand away while doing that

A7mad “ ayyyyy!”
Me “hehe sorryyy”

He sat up, still in his towel I must add and looked at me with a rather serious face now, shfta with a raised eyebrow

Me “ what now?”
A7mad “hmm one second baroo7 abadel w bayeee”
Me “mmm ok “

He got up , w as soon as he did I grabbed my BB and started PINGING fa6ooma

Fa6ooma :
Rawdee :
Fa6ooma :
Ro’9aaaa , if you don’t do it now u never will : (
:’( a5af
I don’t think u shd be , I’m here if you want to talk after :*
Errr…thxx *hug* , fine I’ll do it now T_T
Hahah good luck Ruu

As I was flipping through my phone he came out all clean and well groomed, I couldn’t help not smile at my amazing luck, this amazing man, a7mady <3

He sat 3daly quietly for a few seconds

A7mad “So tell me, what’s wrong? “
Me “Nothing wroooooong okk, why would u think that a9laan”

I said with my obvious lying voice and face, I’m so bad at faking anything

A7mad “yalla 3ad, you know I won’t stop until you spill”
Me “mmmmm”

I sat up and turned my whole body towards him and crossed my legs on the bed, I could see the worried look on his face, which got me worried as well

Me “mmmm you can say this is a what-if game!”

The worried face of his dropped to a glare

A7mad “KEL HAL SUSpense 3shan tbain tl3been le3ba!”
Me “nooo, mmmmmmm this subject a7s lazm enna8sh 3anna, and….and. m3rf how to start. Bs sooner or later”

I tried forcing one word after the other, with my nerves messing with me

A7mad “What is it?”
Me “a7mad…what would happen if gool…..mmmm I got pregnant”

His mouth dropped as he heard the words , which paused at that for seconds as he jumped off his place

He said as he reached to touch my stomach

Me “ LAA laaaaa I said WHAT IFFFFF”

He rushed up and sat looking at me as if a weight has been lifted of his shoulders

A7mad “Zaya’3teeni! “

Wow. I scared him? What’s that supposed to mean? He does not want a baby? And as always my emotions were all projected onto my face expression. I wasn’t laughing but rather concerned. A bit hurt I might add
A7mad “What’s with the question then? Lol faj2a”
Me “mmm machd we discussed it so….”

He fell silent after my words, as worried as I got I tried calming myself down, although the look on his face was troublesome, as he let out a deep sigh

A7mad “bgoolch shay bs latz3leen ok?”
Me “shoo?”
A7mad “I don’t know how to say it mmm”

Skat w bla3 reeja…then looked at me with sad eyes…

A7mad “please latz3leen lana ha kan gabel I knew you, bs I never told you bcz mab’3ait ajra7ch”

Then he fell silent again, and I could feel my heart sink in down to my stomach, in agony, scared? Maybe I shouldn’t have opened this salfa

A7mad “When we got married, ommy w obooy galooli el zwaj bykoon temporary…w gabel maknt a3arfch, w that was the only reason I agreed. Maknt a3arf I’d get emotionally involved with you, let alone physically involved… so like mmmm they don’t really know we ‘sleep’ together”

Me “ What do you mean temporary?”

I’m the kind of person that tears when sad, but more importantly when in despair and annoyed and ma8hoora…all combined results in disasters, I kept it in me though. Maybe fhamt ‘3ala6?

A7mad “La y3nee enna until my dad settles things, bs that was gabel, w mmmm machd kalamt ommy 3anna after, wayd awkward! SHOO agoolha??”

I didn’t want to sound pathetic. But I had to ask, I looked at the wall infront of me, avoiding his eyes to hold my tears back and spoke with a broken voice

Me “are you going to divorce me one day y3ne?”

He got up and put his hands on my shoulders

A7mad “ LOOK at me, ro’9a!”

I lifted my gaze to his face, with watery eyes

A7mad “ana mb gltellich latz3leen! Do you think ana maynooon? Ana a9lan ma at5ayal 7ayatee bdoonch anymore”

He took his hands off w sat in front of me still looking at me with a slight angry worried face

A7mad “You really don’t understand my feelings for you, do u?”
Me “but you said…”
A7mad “ SHo I said! Ana geltellich ha sho our agreement kan gaaaaaaaaabel a7een kelshay t’3ayyar, I mean I fell for you!”
Me “and you can’t tell ommk that?”
A7mad “ehhh…..uff t3arfeen ommy kaiff”
Me “yeah I know she hates me but still “

Then I stayed quiet and looked up at him as one tear managed escaping my eyes

Me “what iff….they force u enna we separate”
A7mad “I’m not going to let them! Sehla, mb 3ala kaifhom”
Me “bs nafs ma ‘39book ta5thni they can do the opposite”
A7mad “laaa shooooo you’re mine enzain ma7ad baya5thch menni ! “

He came closer, as if someone was actually coming to steal me away, and held my hand while gently brushing his fingers across it and talked now in a lower tone

A7mad “ma7ad ygdar ya5thch menni”
Me “even if I was pregnant?”
A7mad “OF COURSE! Aih I know my reaction was ‘3ala6 before, bs estwali shit kaif agool 7ag ommy w obooy! Bs now I realize that it would be amazing if you were pregnant! Imaaagine a mini meeeee and a mini YOU!!!!”

He looked up as if he’s imagining it, I got up on my knees and reached my hands around him while resting my head on his shoulder, hugged him as tight as ever
I think I shocked him because he became quiet until he realized what I was doing then hugged me back, I let the tears out the ones I had locked, in relief

Me “ I love you a7maaad”

He just hugged me tighter as a response…Then let go and I sat back down looking at his beautiful smile, as I wiped my face with a tissue , drying it from the tears , also having a stupid smile on my face.

In a bit the mood in the room lightened up

Me “a7maad”
A7mad “na3am?”

He said politely

Me “mmmmmmmm sho y3ne ur parents don’t know we’re ‘sleeeeping’ together!”
A7mad “hahahha m3rfff if they changed their minds bout everything I never talked to them about you after we got married”
Me “Bs y3ne What would we be doing all day in the room, honeymoon? I don’t think theyre that dense y3nee”
A7mad “hahahha 9a7 kalaamch, bs a5af they think ena what I had with them was a deal, but I never promised them anything”
Me “ummmm”
A7mad “I know, don’t worry I’ll be talking to my mom sooon”
Me “hehe good”
A7mad “ SOoooooooo are you pregnant wla sho?”
Me “laaa bs I was wondering what if”
A7mad “hmmmmm”

I saw my phone blinking from far, I went to get it, maybe its fa6ooma
When I opened it I was right after all

Fa6ooma :
HOW DID It go? =|
Mmmmmmmmmmm 1- =O 2- T__T 3- ☹ 4- <3 5- =D
Fa6ooma :
Err………….so that means ur fine?
Rawdee :
Hahah yess yess! :$ , I guesss, I’ll tell you bout it when I seeeee u!
Fa6ooma :
Guess what….

Me “omggG”

I start talking out loud when I get excited…….I saw a7mad looking at me weirdly

A7mad “shoo fee?”
Me “ Oh 9a7 I didn’t tell u ! fa6ooma en56baat my frnd”
A7mad “oh noway tell her mbrook!”
Me “okkkk”
A7mad “OH”
Me “shoo?”
A7mad “WE CAN Double daaaaaate after like their wedding!!!”

He looked so excited while saying that

Me “hahahahha! Ya we’ll see, let her survive it first…”
A7mad “Mno hoo?”
Me “oh esma Fahad al X,,,,,,t3rfa?”
A7mad “ohhhhhhhhhhhhh liar! 9dg??”
Me “t3arfaaa?”
A7mad “ haaaaaih fahaad Abdullah al X 9a7?”
Me “dnu lemme ask her!”

I looked down to see the series of emotions this girl is going through haha mskeena

Fa6ooma :
M3rf sho albs
Maba akoon 7elwaa
Bs maba yekrahni either!!
Whyyyyyy is he comiiiiiiiiiiiing
5al ytm fe baaaaaaait’hOM!
FA6ooomaa snap out of it for a sec
Fahad is fahad Abdulla al x????
Haaih kaif 3rafty? =S

Me “a7maaaaad haaih hatha fahaad Abdulla esmaa”
A7mad “LAA! Lazm abaaarklaaaa! “
Me “Hey tell me what you know 3anna! Cz fa6ooma knows nothing w she’s so worried”
A7mad “oh…..arranged? forced? Nafsna? Haha”
Me “well Yes and NO, arranged yes,, forced only from her side, I think he likes her, bs mb nafsna, bss Matgoolla shay lana hoo may3arf enha ma’39ooba, she’s scared w mat3arf el rayyal”
A7mad “oh….la sho mabagool shay…… walla rayyal zain wayd 6ayyeb, w doum nel3ab way koora, bs m3rfa personally y3ne”
Me “oh hmm “

Fa6ooma :
AIH CHILL I was talking to a7mad! HE KNOWS HIMM
YESS WAYYY! He just said enna “elrayyal wayd zain w 6ayyeb “ yel3ab way koora w che bs not best frndz y3nee
Oh hmmmmmm
When is he coming??? Did you decide what to wear????
Bleh I think I have Somethinggg, he’s coming in an HOUR! Uff lemme go get read =”|
A7mad says mbrook :p
Fa6ooma :
Eh….Allah ybark fee -_-
AIH be nice to my husband! Hahah
Loool u know that’s not what I meant <_<
Yes yes I know hahha yalla go be pretty
Ttyl <3


Greeeen? rED? UFFFFFFF m3rf shooo ALbssss
5ala9 I’ll settle for this green dress I don’t care

I quickly put in a flick of eyeliner, blush, whatever is basic, nothing too fancy I didn’t want him to think that I spent too much time making myself pretty for him
Bs a7mad gal ho rayal zain, which I know he is, although uff m3rf
So many things were going through my mind while I was fixing my shaila for the last time until I heard the bell and I could hear my mom’s scream from downstairs

Me “na3aaaaaaaam mamaaaaaaa”
Mama “ YALLA TA3ALiiiii:
Me “OKK”

I quickly wore my heels and ran downstairs 3dal mom almost hiding behind her
My dad was gone, this was supposedly a me and him get to know each other day….awkwaaaaaaaaaaaard was the perfect word for the day

I saw him come in as he was paying his respect to my mom, like a gentleman standing a certain distance away with his hands to his sides almost bowing while speaking in his white crisp kandoora, and ‘3etra w 3gal, white in white
I stared blankly…. I don’t feel nervous at all, just analyzing him
He turned his body towards me and bent down to meet my gaze.

Fahad “ Salam w 3alaikom fa6ma”
Me “ w 3alaikom el salam fahad”

I mumbled in a low voice, avoiding his gaze of course, last time he came makan y6al3ny fe 3ainy! A7een ashoofa ytjara2
Ok ok maybe I should cut him some slack I thought
As my mom escorted us the tiny majlis we had beside our main one
I waited for him to sit down, so that I’d sit somehow far away
And I did, then my mom left to ‘get-us-drinks’ or so she claimed

We stayed quiet for a while AWKWARD!
I mean he’s the guy he’s supposed to start the conversation right?
The 2 silent minutes that passed seemed like a centuries
I shifted my gaze to him, maybe be friendly a bit? Or try?
He noticed that I turned to him as he was playing with his hands twirling on his lap, he smiled widely, so I smiled back not to be rude

Fahad “ sh5baarch ? kaif eljam3a wyach?”
Me “umm 7emdella walla, mashay ydeed drasa w t3arf heh”
Fahad “oh zaain zaain Enshalla 5air”
Me “enta sh5abrk…”
Fahad “walla elyoum kan 3ndi el project fa way elshbab tyama3na w sawaina 3an…”

He continued on and on, that half way through I dozed off and wished he wouldn’t ask me anything because that would be embarrassing . GOSH wayd y7b ytkallam in detaaaail
At some point I started singing in my head as my mom came in
I got up to take it from her , she smiled approvingly and handed it to me and left the room again
Re7t a’9ayfa, still trying to be friendly
Me “ayy wa7d tbaa?”
Fahad “sho ha?”
Me “fee laymooon way na3na3, w ha 3nab, w fawaka, w yezar”
Fahad “Oh t3arfeen 3a9eer yzar kan wayd mufeed fe ayam awal kan ysawoona 7ag el na’9ar bs a9lan grait marra enna hal shay mb 9dg?”
Me “aha-ha”

Fake laughing can get tough sometimes

Fahad “oh sho glti hatha?”
Me “mmm fawaka”
Fahad “ay fawakh y3ne?”

Give me a gun please? PLEASE THERE’s someone I NEED TO SHOOT NOW…uff does he enjoy me standing In front of him? Y3ne la ma afham? Wla ye6annaz? Wla yla3znii? Testing my tolerance maybe

Me “m3rf ha mal rawabi”

I replied fast and short

Fahad “ooowh mb fresh…..enzain enti fe wa7d sawaitee?”
Me “mmm la2”
Fahad “kella rawabi?”
Me “m3rfF”

I was bent this time mind you, while he was ‘looking’ at them
I stood up straight since shakla m6awel

Fahad “oh sorry mb 89di ata3bchh, bs m3rf sho a5tar , ay wa7d ashrab?”
Me “ayshay t7b…”
Fahad “la enti e5tareeeli”

If I had a choice bafer ha 3ala wayhk………if only I could actually reply with that…hmmm

Me “3nab?”
Fahad “oh la ma7b 3naab”
Me “5ETH ayshay! Tba may?”

I don’t know if my face got an angry expression bs after I said that he grabbed ajrab 3a9eer fl 9eeneyya, which was fawaka
I smiled fakley w 7a6ait el bagy 3ala el6awla then sat back fe mkani

Fahad “mmm enti mabtshrbeen?”
Me “eh la maba ”
Fahad “mmm enzain”

He sipped some of his juice quietly then reached front to put it on the table

Fahad “9a7 gabel ma ansa…”

He stood half up reaching in his pocket

Fahad “ yebt shay 7aggich…….”
Me “haa? Laa 7ag sho mb laazm”

SHo yayeb???? ()!@#)(1@!@!!@#$ this is how this person makes me feeeeel

As he brought it out and scooted a chair closer to me

Fahad “ shfta thak el youm w thakarni feeech”

Continued . . .

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Wed-locked 36

Previously on Wed-locked
went out, yes just me and him, felt like a honeymoon today, i ignored the cramps in my stomach to not ruin this blissful nice day,

which leaves me wondering how did I get so lucky? I do love him to bits


can’t I just travel with her and runaway?

if only




woke up the next day with a7mad not next to me, uf he went to work already? I flipped over to grab my phone and saw that its 11 am already. And surprisingly a message, fta7ta and squinted my eyes to see sho maktoob

From : fa6ooma


woah! sho salfat’ha let me call her!

*dialing fa6ooma*


me “ ALOOO”
fa6ooma “aloo”

she replied tiredly with a sleepy voice

me “ oh shit ragdaa?”
fa6ooma “ro’9a?”
me “YAA”
fa6ooma “shhh lat9ar5een”
me “ ok bs what’s with ur message? 5air? when do u want to meet up?”
fa6ooma “ummm tgdreen tmreen 3alay?”
me “ya sure! when?”

she yawned and i could hear her stretching

fa6ooma “mmm give me an hour 3ashan atjahaz ok?”
me “ok love, ana ba3ad 5alny agoom hehe”
fa6ooma “byeee”


uff 9a7 car, hmmm

*dialing a7mad *

a7mad “ halla hallaa....hahah sho hal 7amas mn el9b7 “
me “hehhe sorry! r u busy?”
a7mad “ la2 whats up love?”
me “mmm a7madyyyyy 7beebyyyy “
a7mad “ laah laah lah sho hal dala3 kella? what do u want? “
me “shooooo y3ne magdar adal3k unless i want something!”
a7mad “well u never did so ...ya hahhaa”
me “ ok fineeee aba a6la3 to see my friend i wanted to ask you if there’s a car i can borrow”

he was silent for a bit..then cleared his throat

a7mad “ where do you want to go?”
me “ummm m3rf yet, bs bamr 3alaiha, maybe 7ata bs fl car 3nd bait’hom i just need to talk to her”
a7mad “ fa6ma ur friend?”
me “haaaih”
a7mad “umm enzain can i drop u 3ndha?”
me “y3ne mafe sayaraaa?”
a7mad “laa bs.....umm.......last time...umm”
me “ a7maad that time it was different!”

oh i forgot about that......9a7 last time he gave me a car it was bad.........uff

a7mad “bss....m3rf ro’9a bawa9lch w ba5thch anywhere you want please?”
me “I can drive myself enzaaaain! u wont let me drive lel2abad y3ne?”
a7mad “laaa bs its too soon i don’t know ro’9aa’
me “ nevermind, bye”
a7mad “if you want just let me know ok ana 7a’9er”
me “ maba bye!”
a7mad “ummm bye”


uffffffffffff sho hal 7ala i wish i had my own car!

*dialing fa6ooma*
fa6ooma “ AHHH noooo don’t tell me ur on ur waay”
me “ummm laa ma3ndy sayaraa”

i said with a toned down voice

fa6ooma “oh No problem ana bamr 3alaich then! bs lazm etdaleeni “
me “okaaaay tell me when tkooneen 9oub spynnis jumeira ok?”
fa6ooma “ok raawdyy ! yalla lebsy i’m almost done”
me “okkkk ok bye!”


I got up bser3a washed my face and all, put on my foundation, little bit of bronzer, eye liner and most importantly my know the usual haha
Put on any jeans and top i found and wore a closed 3abaya and grabbed my mulberry bag and sat on the bed waiting

30 minutes later

me “ hahah a5eeran w9altyy”
fa6ooma “ eskty enzain enti ely ‘9aya3teeni! “
me “heeheeeeeee okkkkkk wain bnrooo7”
fa6ooma “the closest place, spynnis? shakespear the village? starbucks palm strip?”
me “not shakespear”

I made a disgusted face referring to the last incident that happened when we were there

fa6ooma “haha ok palm strip?”
me “yeaa suure yallaaaaaaaa SO U TeLL ME shol salfa!”
fa6ooma “haha wait till we’re there ok!”
me “fiiine”
fa6ooma “so sha5barchhh howz a7mad treating you”
me “ummm ok......uf tawa knt aba sayara i called him and gal la”
fa6ooma “really why?”
me “well he didn’t say bs a3arf cz last time 5atht elsayara sawait 7adeth, bs that was my only 7adeth fe 7ayatyyyy ufff 8harnyyy...”
fa6ooma “ohh enzain talk to him b3dain”
me “ i will, he was like bawa9lch ay mkan call me blaa blaa, bs i told him maba and bye”
fa6ooma “hahah wayd tetdal3ain 3alaih haa...u always give him a hard time”
me “ AYYY why r u being on his side you’re MY Friend”

I pouted

fa6ooma “laa bs ur always daloo3a wyaaa haha i’m just saying ok!”
me “i know i am, bss i can’t help it uff a8har haha”

I heard my ring tone , 6ala3t my phone

*calling a7mad*

me “ehhhh its him”

fa6ooma shot me a glare, ena don’t be a daloo3a

fa6ooma “shelli !”
me “fiiiiiine”

me “alo”
a7mad “heey ha tbainy amr 3alaich wla 5ala9?”
me “la 5ala9”
a7mad “wain ray7a?”
me “ ummm palm strip”
a7mad “oh ok, fa6ma marrat 3alaich?”
me “haih.”
a7mad “ have funn 7beebtyy”
me “ok. bye”
a7mad “mmm bye”

I closed and looked at fa6ooma , haha i knew btehzbny because i was cold to him

fa6ooma “ you’re a lost cause aren’t you?”
me “whaaaaaat yestahal ok”
fa6ooma “ahaaa”
me “chub okaay hahah”

*message tone*

i looked down at my phone hmmm

fa6ooma “is it him?”
me “uuuh yaaa”
fa6ooma “what does it say haha?”

me “ mmmmmm ro’9a please latz3leen menni i’m only doing this because a5af 3alaich, Love you”

fa6ooma “ COME ONNNNN”

me “shoooooo”

i said with guilt

fa6ooma “ you have the sweetest guy fl 3alam as your husband but u don’t want to admit it hahaha”
me “ i won’t reply now enzain!”
fa6ooma “whyy y3ne?”
me “bs che! so he feels bad for shway”
fa6ooma “meaaniee”
me “haha eskti ok don’t make today about me yalla w9aaalnaa at last its ur turn to talk! muheheh”
fa6ooma “hahah okaay okaaay”

6la3na mn elsayara w we went and sat in starbucks, a7la shay in the morning, it’s all empty and shwayat englaiz

we found a perfect corner with sofas! yay ! ordered some drinks and breakfast and i folded my hands and stared at her enna staart talking

fa6ooma “err how do i start?”
me “ JUST TELL ME EVERYTHING uhhhhh sho salfatch ma7b when u do this”
fa6ooma “ m3rrrrf my life’s been foug ta7at w ma7a9alt wagt to tell u properly like thisss!! ma3ana ive been wanting to tell u mn esbooo3! bs che i dnoo”
me “ waaht! enzain bs gooli a7een”
fa6ooma “enzain look 3 weeks ago this woman called my mom w ennaaaaaa......ummmm 5e6boooni”

she said quietly fl a5eer
fa6ooma “SHH Shhhh lat9aar5eeeeeen”

I put my hands on my mouth shit, that was loud
me “sorryy ahhhhh what whooooo when mnoo sholsalfa?”
fa6ooma “first of all CALM down ok! haha second ena nas n3rfhom mn b3eed his mom saw me in a wedding or something and she liked mee and my mom so she suggested me for her son, he’s way older ena he’s 27 noww”
me “enzaaain thats not so bad! “
fa6ooma “i knoww i know, elmohem 3gb ena che 9alait est5ara w kelshay and a week after that he came to sit wya goum baba w e5wany, lana may3rfoon elrayaal”

she stopped to take a breath, bs my curiousity was killing meeee

fa6ooma “hahah ok chill, enzain elmohem ana ylast foug bs che atrayaahum 3ala a39aabi 7ata i barely took a peek of him mn foug w all i saw was a kandoora w 3gala...w b3dain at 10:30 he left w goum baba kellhom yaw foug w started saying good things about him, ena he’s so determined about his future, w he has a plan, he’s not ensan sa67y, w he has his masters now w yba ykammel his doctors and he’s leaving to boston in august to complete which is 3 months from now w he’s staying 5 years there to finish.....and so on”

me “ooooo coool”
fa6ooma “ummm yea....anyways ana mn el bdaya a9lan kel youm yalsa a9alee est5aara mn elzyaa’3 , w when dad w my brothers md7oo estwalee ena aww ok cool he’s not bad.....soo a couple of days after that mom invited HIM AND his mom over, so we can see eachother”
me “hahah him? WHATS HIS NAME?”
fa6ooma “ oh fahad..”
me “ooooow “

I winked, haha i always liked that name i generally associate it with hotties, for no reason
she ignored me then continued...

fa6ooma “so when he came che he was so quiet, w kan awal marra ashoofa fe 7ayatee tara he’s from Sharjah not Dubai....w his mom came and i dressed up w 7ala , anyways he didn’t talk much bs che shwaaya mostly his mom and for some reason i wasn’t shy”
me “awwwwwwwwwww fa6ooooomaaaa”
fa6ooma “haha don’t get too excited bs like after that i talked to him over the phone ena to see how he is before i say yes or no, and well.....he’s kind of boring...he was talking about his books and studies........and che bard when yetkallam he doesn’t joke around uuuh m3rf”
me “maybe he was nervous?”
fa6ooma “thats what i thought bs i told him ena i was overwhelmed at first, w is this how he always is? and he kept telling me ena la bs you didn’t say yes yet, cz ho metdayyen y3ne ma3nda swalf … i dnt think that's the reason a7s ho chee bs like he’s so nice uuuurgh i don’t know”
me “w lain a7een maradaity 3alaihom??”
fa6ooma “m3rf ro’9a every time i talk to him i end up crying at night to my mom, and she says its ok he’s a good guy give him time,,,bs mn kalam dad ena it is YES, bs ana mb mrta7aa i can’t imagine myself with him for the rest of my lifeee “
she frowned and i could see her eyes getting watery now...
I stood up and went and sat on her sofa right next to her

me “heyyy why? ho gal chee?”
fa6ooma “haih ams ya 3ndi w he’s convinced im being daloo3a w i like someone else or something w may5e9a! he’s like why r u crying! w what r u saying doesn’t make sense he’s a great guy w in time u’ll love him mb lazm 89a9 7ub w ‘3aram from now”
me “hmmmm enzain why r u crying bs? if u know he’s nice?”
fa6ooma “cz i can’t see myself with him! i dnooo he’s nice shwaya too nice? uf i don’t know its just a feeling! maybe dad is right, bs either way mb 3ala kaify imagine yesterday mom called his mom enna yes w kelshay w he called me bs i didn’t pick up so he sent a message enna “thank you , you made my day, i understand if you don’t want to talk to me now ;)” WITH A WINK uuuurgh”
me “fa6ooomaaaaa”
fa6ooma “whaT?”
me “mat7seen ur being mean? AND YOOU always tell me im mean wya a7mad? His message is actually cute!”
fa6ooma “don't compare him to a7mad, hathak i know u love him so m3rf why ur mean to him enti weird! bs hatha mat3arfeen kaif he’s different, che on messages he’s cool bs on the phone he’s shwaya of an awkward person”
me “ya7laaailaa”
fa6ooma “DONT BE ON HIS SIDEEEEEEEE roo’9aa not u tooooo”

when i saw the tears in her eyes i stopped

me “mb 8a9dee chee im totally on ur side ok! when was i not? bs is there anything u can do to stop it?”
fa6ooma “ i don’t think so...’
me “enzain ….listen do u have his picture?”
fa6ooma “nooo bs he’s very tall and skinny ..che abya’9 yelbs na’9ara”
me “ from 1 to 10 how much?”
fa6ooma “y3ne he’s not good looking thats not why i don’t like him i’d give him a 6 y3ne he’s very 3ady”
me “hmmmmmm goum emno? maybe a7mad knows him i can ask”
fa6ooma “ yaa i guess...he’s goumg alX”
me “oh noway ygrab 7ag meera?”
fa6ooma “from school? la ma7s ,there’s many goum alX”
me “ oh yaa ….hmm bas2al a7mad elyoum w bgoolch”

I hugged her tight, couldn’t help not to, i could hear her voice breaking at the end......I hope all goes well...i hate it when i can’t do anything about things to help her
me “uf is there anything i can do?”
fa6ooma “noo i’ll be ok”

she looked down at her phone it was 12 already

fa6ooma “shit i have to head home, mom wants to take me dress shopping for 56ooba”

she frowned at that sentence

me “alaa u get a dress, i got nothing ok be grateful hahahahha...AND WHENN IS all this? and i hope ur inviting me otherwise i’ll kill u”
fa6ooma “haha of course if they let me! m3rf sho salfat’hom i think its next weekend mb hatha”
fa6ooma “uuuh yess”

trrng.........-fa6ooma’s phone-
she looked down and her face cringed when she opened the message

me “is it him?”

she looked at me with an annoyed face and nodded

me “sho kateb?”
fa6ooma “uugh goood morning fa6ma, i hope ur doing well when can i talk to u? …....3ady agoolla NEVER?”
me “hahah duude!”
fa6ooma “fine bagoola fl laail mb mtfayjetella now to ajamla....why’s he so nice again? by the way a7s he likes me, likee like me”
me “really whyy?”
fa6ooma “he keeps trying to convince me enna he’s good for me, and he’s going to do his best to change for me...and m3rf shoo.......che ye8har”

i looked at her with a blank face, and rolled my eyes ...y3ne m3rf sho agoolha! bs teksr 5a6ry fe nafs el wagt

fa6ooma “yaaay sent....”
me “shoo ktaaaaabtiii!”
fa6ooma “hey, maybe later tonight ok ….”
me “BSS?”
fa6ooma “haaih b3d shoo! bassaaa hahaha”

it was her phone again...she raised one eye brow while reading it
me “ sho feech?”

she looked up at me with a confused face

fa6ooma “he’s asking if that's my car outside starbucks”

As she was saying that 3 guys in kandooras and one in a suit walked into the coffee shop and one of a clear crisp white kandoora and a perfectly folded 3gal really skinny and tall with pale skin and tiny glasses glanced towards us and i could see his eyes piercing fa6ooma as he smiled, i turned my face to fa6ooma and saw her blank face as she shoved it down staring back at her phone

fa6ooma “lets go”

she whispered

me “whyyyyyy i want to see him 3adel!”
fa6ooma “please ro’9aa maba”
me “uuuuh ok ok yalla “

her face e3tfas awal ma yaa she hurried out before ma ana al7agha, and out of curiosity I turned my head to take a last look and i saw him looking towards the door with a discomforted look
he wasn’t that bad , his nose was shwaya big w his eyebrows r thick with normal sized eyes...he looked geeky cute , he seems nice though

We walked to the parking without a single word, as fa6ooma ignored the sound of a message from her phone........then another one as we reached the car.

she sat in and took a deep breath

fa6ooma “ WHY IS HE IN DUBAAI”
me “ r u ok?”
fa6ooma “now it’ll be all weird bcz i ran out! bs magdart at7ammal aylssssss IN THERE”
me “sho 6arashlch?”
fa6ooma “oh m3rf”

she grabbed her phone and opened the first message and read it out loud

fa6ooma “ hey what’s wrong? did I scare you? haha :p”

then opened the second message

fa6ooma “ Did something happen? you looked ...i don’t know worried........”
me “hmmmmm”
fa6oooooma “ufffff why doesn’t he just leave me alone”
me “haha maybe because to him only yesterday you said YES to marrying him...if u think about it”

she looked up at me and stayed quiet

fa6ooma “shit yaa.....a7s kel el 7arra fe obooy yalsa a76a feeeh......what should i reply enzaain?”
me “just tell him he surprised you w you were going to leave anyways its not about him,, w 7e6i SMILEY or tongue thing! so he dsnt get over concerned or whatever”
fa6ooma “uuuh ok......sent”

I looked down at my phone as it started ringing
fa6ooma looked towards me

fa6ooma “a7mad?”
me “yaaaaaa owaih nsait 3anaaaaaa! i was supposed to send him a message back or something ufff”
fa6ooma “hahah shelliii”

me “ufffff”

*picks up*

me “alo...”

To be Continued

Friday, May 13, 2011

Wed-locked 35

I carried her into my arms, and took her to the bedroom, with my work bag still in my hands. I couldn't help the feeling of guilt crawling into my stomach, this is bad. She probably hates my guts now uff, thing is I really thought I'd come early. I put her gently into the sheets, and walked away to the closet. I’m too tired to think of anything now. I took off my kandoora, took a shower then sneaked in beside her, quietly. Mafeyya she wakes up, halkaan mafeyya i argue with her and apologize and i don’t know what.


Woke up in bed, hmmm i don’t remember how i fell asleep yesterday? I turned my head and saw a7mad in deep slumber right beside me. He looked so tired, I could almost hear him snoring, he’s usually a quiet sleeper. He must be really tired. I frowned at him, it really puzzles me how one look at him makes me forget how mad at him I was yesterday, not that i totally forgot, I can’t be too mad at him though right? it’s work after all? Still he could’ve messaged me, my head pained at the thoughts going through it, I numbed them away and got up to go to the bathroom and freshen up, make him regret not coming yesterday badly! I should punish him by not etdal3ing just looking so damn sexy with a ‘don’t touch me’ attitude ….teasing yes! i decided that’s going to be my revenge this time.
I sneaked out of the bathroom quietly took a pair of shorts and a cute sleeveless t-shirt, then went to the main 9ala w got him breakfast to our 9ala, before he wakes up so his head gets messed up thinking wth is wrong with me i should be mad at him. playing with his head yes!
I sat fl 9ala flipping through the channels, i slept really early, its only 8:30 am and i’m wide awake!

kamn dgeega after, he came out of the bedroom in his pjz, and looked at me with what I can tell is a guilty look. I gave him a cold smile and looked back at the tv. I saw his focus moving to the table, with food on it

a7mad “Good morning”
me “hey”
a7mad “ha akel mnoo?”
me “ 7agk..”

he came and sat carefully 3daly, I saw him checking me out, but pretended i didn’t notice.

a7mad “ u look good today”
me “ ya?”

I said ignoring it staring at the TV, Greys Anatomy was on, I’ve already seen this episode so i’m not really paying attention to it...
I saw him at the corner of my eyes picking up his sandwich and taking the first bite, then turned his head towards me, still uneasy, not knowing what to expect. I could hear the loud ‘ MUHAHAHA’ in my head.. it feels good to mess with his mind, besides he kind of deserves it

a7mad “ so i was thinking of taking a day off today”
me “ why?”

I said coldly...acting stupid

a7mad “ mmm y3ne to spend time with u …”

I ignored him for kamn minute, i could see his eyes laser-ing at me wanting me to turn my head, but i pretended i was so engrossed in what was happening on tv....then 3gb ma laf rasa, i also said coldly

me “oh sorry, ha?”
a7amd “mashay”
me “ok”

he probably expected me to ara’9ee here! NEVER
he finished his sandwich then ylas 3al krsi w stared at me...

a7mad “ ro’9a stop acting like your not mad at me..”

i looked at him with a fake confused look

me “why would i be?”
a7mad “mmmm y3ne i came ams, w i saw kelshay”
me “what kelshay?”
a7mad “oh y3ne i saw elcandles, wl dinner put nicely w kelshaay i swear i’m sorry”

I have to play this part, BE strong ro’9a!!

me “hahahah ya i was bored gelt asaweeli jaw”
a7mad “oh....but..”

I wanted to know what he says, bs he was quiet, magal shay. maba yt7arani HEAD over heels for him! which he probably does....but still y3ne

a7mad “uf now im late even if i want to go to work, i don’t like going late. mmm “
me “heh”
a7mad “ ma7a6ait alarm, i thought i’d spend the day with you bs shaklech matbainy”

he looked at me and pouted with his piercing puppy eyes...Must resist!

me “who me ? la whatever y3ne”
a7mad “ aha! So u ARE mad at mee!”
me “what la i didn’t say that”
a7mad “ you said whatever!
me “so?”
a7mad “STOP IT!”
me “stop what”

he got up angryy w bannad el bab of the bedroom behind him bl gw.. hahhaha so now HE is mad at me? 9dg ena he’s such a baby! gelt ba6la3 mn elroom 3nad fee, so re7t our bedroom to take a shaila, w i saw him holding his laptop shooting glares at me as i walked in. he couldn’t resist not saying anything

a7mad “SO ‘3bt elyoum 3AL fa’9ee!”

I stopped took a breath and turned to him

me “ lateels u blame me ana magltellik 5eth ejaza enzain!”
a7mad “bs ams i didn’t come so GLT ba3aw’9ch today!”

i rolled my eyes, w b3dain 7asaita 6efar, he stormed up and came to me

a7mad “i’m sorry laaaaa”
me “why didn’t u msg me enzain?”
a7mad “ I KNEWWWWW u were mad at meeeeeee”

i shot him a glare!

a7mad “ok ok t3arfeen when kaif che oh we’ll finish in half an hour, 30 more 30 more, then the time was too late fa glt etha a6arsh msg baza3lch anywayz, fa i’ll c u face to face w when i came you were sleeping, and aand mn ams gltelhom ana mb yay bachr! “

me “i hate u”

he pouted, trying to make me take it back, bs no not yet...
I turned my back and wanted to walk to the 9ala , bs fa2a he held my hand and pulled me back towards him

me “ayyyy”
a7mad “ 3awartch?”

he said with a worried face, i looked at him with an angry look and nodded yes although it didn’t hurt at all
he took my hands softly w garaba mn his face and placed a soft kiss on my wrist while looking straight into my eyes. i succeeded in keeping a straight glaring face, ignoring his seduction!
he took my hand w placed it behind his back and spoke softly

a7mad “cmonnn quiet the act i know that you love me”
me “no i hate u, roo7 eldawam “
a7mad “ and leave u hanging here wanting me, la 7aram i wouldn’t do something so crueel”

he grinned , still hoping for my frown to go away...

a7mad “hmmm i know something you can’t resist”

he brought his face and started kissing my neck, resist resist resist.....resist resist ! this is what’s in my brain! uhh i shouldn’t give him the satisfaction he wants! he’ll think he can solve everything this way b3dain
he took his face back and analyzed my expression, which was still a cold one , with my head dropped down, and a glare shooting out

a7mad “no? nothing? uf i give up”

he went w dug his face on bed. I went w sat 3dala, when he noticed i was there gam w ylas straight up looking at me

a7mad “9dg, what do u want me to do?”
me “nothing”
a7mad “bs you know how much i hate it when ur za3lana menni! especially since makan intentional and and yals a3aw’9ch now.....or trying to”
me “ bs maba shay”
a7mad “ Listen..”
he got up and bent down infront of me, holding my hands

a7mad “ next time this happens, and i stay late fl dawam, and I even MIGHT not make it i’ll send u a message..ok?”

he said with a broken voice. i nodded with a frown

a7mad “asef...I was mad too kent mt7ams ...but work is work!”

I put my arms around his neck and gave him a hug, and he hugged me back then pulled his head back to see my face

a7mad “a7een r’9aity?”
me “ hehe yes a7san..”
a7mad “daloo3a!”
me “ what!”
a7mad “mashay hehee”

he grinned w got up fast

me “ daloo3 ma7ad ‘3airk enzain !”
a7mad “ whaaaat maglt shay”

he started laughing at me. ‘3abee wa7d haha a7ba !

a7mad “you want to do anything?”
me “mmmmmm like?”
a7mad “owwww tbain nroo7 YAS hotel??”
me “ but there we have to spend a nighttt w u can’t skip another day of work”
a7mad “ oh trueee ummm JBR?”
me “ lunch w walking around?”
a7mad “ yaaaa”
me “ meee and yooou”

I said eb dala3a awana, he put his hand around my waists and brought his face closer placing a kiss on my neck.

a7mad “meee and yooou”

he whispered softly to my ears. One thing led to another and before we knew it it was already noon.
a7mad “ yallla nbadel w nrooooooo7”
me “ can’t we stay on this bed forever?”
I snuggled to him and squeezed one of his arms hugging it

a7mad “ haha well technically we can bs ull get bored eventually so yalla lets go enjoy the day and come back here tonight”

he winked at me, both of us shaggeen elwayh, with a wider smile than the other, he sat up b3dain we went and changed and stuff

and went out, yes just me and him, felt like a honeymoon today, i ignored the cramps in my stomach to not ruin this blissful nice day,

which leaves me wondering how did I get so lucky? I do love him to bits


can’t I just travel with her and runaway?

if only


Thursday, February 3, 2011

Wed-locked 34

Previously on W E D - L O C K E D


he glared at me then shook her head, then she softly layed her head on the pillow, i think she’s telling me that she wants to sleep!

me “Ta3bana”
ro’9a “haai shway, feya rgad”
me “fineeee lets sleep”

I kissed her forehead w 7a6ait rasi 3edal her shoulder and closed my eyes
I felt her hand reach for mine and i held it tight

Tonight I can say that i am definitely, with no doubt, in every way

truly happy...



Thank god its the weekend, i don’t want him to leave me home alone. uff t3abt mn el loneliness, I opened my eyes w shfta there on the bed, with his eyes closed peacefully.
I got out of bed went to freshen up in the bathroom, brush my teeth, fix my hair, and put some perfume and snuck back in under the sheets cuddling up to him. its 11 am he should wake up anyways, giving myself excuses.
I laid there my head near his warm chest, closed my eyes, a couple of minutes passed and I could feel him moving a bit, starting to wake up.
He opened his eyes squinting, looking down at me, I whispered

me “ good morning”

He stretched a bit and sat up

a7mad “ shit what time is it?”

I got up w looked at him, gah i was expecting a good morning back at the leasT? oh well

me “mmm 11 laaish?”
a7mad “I have a stupid meeting at 2!”
me “Whaaat?? but today’s a saturday!!”

he looked at me and pouted

a7mad “i knoww uff maaaba arooo7”
me “enzain donnt goo”
a7mad “ haha i can’t just not go, i wish i could tho uhoo, its just gonna be for an hour tho...hopefully”

I looked away from him with a frown and dug my head between my knees, hiding my teary eyes, m3rf sho feeni mstwya daloo3a, but i REALLY dont want him to goo !

I felt his hand on my back as he brought his face closer to mine and spoke softly

a7mad “heyy what’s wrong..”

I lifted my head with a frown and looked at him

me “ I don’t want u to goo”

He looked at me and smiled

a7mad “its not like i want to go enzain,,bs its work sho asaweee”
me “cant u t2ajLa to tomorrow or something y3ne laish elyoooum”
a7mad “ i wishhh 9adgeeni, bs hayail wafd they came from the US w theyre flying back tonight, so we have to sign the papers today”

I looked down at my hands with a sad face

a7mad “ enzain shoofee its still 11 im not going until 1:30 wla shay che! lets do something, u want to go out?”

I shook my head, and mumbled

me “ maba..”
a7mad “ mmmmm later today?”

I looked at him bs didn’t reply....I had most of the day planned in my heaaaad w a7een he ruins it with his stupid work!

He crawled closer and kissed me on the head

a7mad “I’m going to make it up to you, i promiseeee”

he smiled i gave in to his I always do !

me “finee”

I let out a sighh and laid back on the bed looking at the ceiling

a7mad “ u dont want breakfast?”
me “mmmm ya bs im not in the mood to get out of the room”
a7mad “u want me to get u smthn mn elma6ba5?”

I looked at him and gave him a shy nod, i don’t like it when he offers to do so much for me, but i’m seriously not in the mood!!

I grabbed my phone scrolling down my bbm contacts,, hmmm opened fa6oomaz convo

-RAWda- : :)
faToooMZ : HALLAAAAhhhh :D
-RAWda- : WACha dowing today!
faToooMZ : hmmmmmmmm well i do need to talk to u asap! wanna meet up later? wla busy with ur hubby?
-RAWda- : YES lets meet up! around 2? ;)
faToooMZ : Yeeyaaaa =D
-RAWda- : i’ll call yaaa
faToooMZ : i’ll be waiting (: sh5baar a7mad weyaachh
-RAWda- : (y) hehee :$
faToooMz : a5eeeran! 7mdella i was getting worried
-RAWda- : haha laaa i made up with him n all, shway ba3adni m8hoora bs whatever, you were right i know he likes me now..
faToooMz : im always right B)
-RAWda- : ahaaaaaa.......i think jra7ta fl hospital i said mean things.... he kinda cried when he was talking bout to me...DONT Tell anyone he’ll kill me:)
faToooMz : hahaah cuute! omg yal shereera! it takes a lot to make a guy cry =|
-RAWda- : i didn’t do it on purpose ok! he made me cry tooooooo!
faToooMz : hahah enzain enzain yalla i’ll talk to you later, :*
-RAWda- : seeeeee ya

He walked in on me smiling to my phone, with the two plates in his hand with 2 folded 5ubz lebnany on each plate

a7mad “hmmmmmm mno m5allennich tbtsmaain all this 3al 9b7”
me “ummmmm no oneeE”

I said teasing him still smiling widely, his face kind of changed, he took the plates w put them on the side table , then he shot a glare at me

a7mad “ayy who is it?”
me “ mashaaay im just meeting with a secret admirer when ur busy with ur work thing”

I smiled while raising my eyebrows, like this is revenge for him leaving me, haha as if he did it on purpose, mskeen walla y3anee mennii

a7mad “fine”

he said under his breath pretending not to care then took the two plates w ra7 9alatna... I got up walked behind him w sat 3dala on the chair, where he opened the TV saket, then turned his head to me in impatience

a7mad “enzain where r u meeting ur admirer?”
me “mmmm HEE didn’t tell me yet “

I said, stressing the he, to annoy him

a7mad “ is this u punishing me for going to WORK?”
me “yes u know, i have to find entertaiment for when you are not around....which is always”
a7mad “ what do u mean by that ana doum hnee ok!”

i smiled, i love how he’s taking this way too seriously, I saw him look down at the sofa, before i could see what he’s looking at, he rushed and grabbed my phone in his hand


He got up reaching it upward so I don’t take it, oh nooo he’s going to open the bbm? really? shit what did i tell fa6ooma bout him mat’thakaaaaaaar

me “a7maaaaaaaaaad”
a7mad “ tell meeee wla i’ll see for myself”

I jumped to grab it bs mawa9alt

a7mad “oneeeeeee”

UFF! i hate hal 7arakaaaaa! i stood there folded my arms in anger and stared at him, while he was doing his so called count down

he saw my face fa nazela w put it jdami still holding it tight

a7mad “ enzain bs gooleeli mno”
me “ no..”

I held the BB to take it bs he was still holding it tight, i gave him a glare

a7mad “mno? “
me “AHHHH ITS fa6ooma okaaaaay! “

he let go of it when glt esemha, thank god

a7mad “oh....hehee”
me “sho u really thought I would go out with a guy y3ne?”
a7mad “laaa bss knt aba a3arf y3nee”
me “ maknt a3arf hal gad t’3ar 3alay”

I smiled teasingly holding the BB in my hand

a7mad “ of course i do, enti my wife 3al fa’9ee”

he grabbed me between his arms w squeezed a hug

a7mad “ miiiiiine all mine hahah”

I laughed hugging him back tight, He tends to have this effect, you can’t be mad at him for long
he let go then with our bodies still pressed close together he looked into my eyes and brought his face closer to mine kissing me
he took my breath away.....a7baa wayd a7baaa ahhhh i love himm! I kissed back passionately, longing for this, he lifted his head slowly looking at me through his barely opened eyes

a7mad “woah”

I blushed and bit my lip smiling... I was paralyzed by his charm.. he squinted his eyes looking at me

a7mad “ have you been practising...wait “

he brought his face closer again and kissed me, then took his face away, i just stood there in awe enjoying the situation with a teasing smile

a7mad “ hahha i think i forgot how you taste like.....ahh i miss u”

he said with his low deep voice, he looked like he was thirsty for blood or something as he pushed me down 3al sofa fl 9ala, i just gave in to his desires.... of course


WHyyy whyy whyyyy do I have to go to work! this is so unfair uhoooo

I looked towards the tv in the sofa to see the time it was 1, I had to get up to get ready....
I got off her and sat up, she looked at me with her puppy innocent eyes, as if she just did nothing to me, haha 7beebty .

me “its 1 already ufffff”

she crawled towards me and kissed the side of my lip, teasing me, then she spoke with a low sexy voice

ro’9a “ we can continue later”

she winked, planting a smooch softly on my cheek then stood up reaching for my hand, ahhh she knows exactly the right string to pull to make me want her more …..
I took her hand and walked into the room and went to the dressing room taking off my PJ, and took out my ke7lee kandoora that she likes. 6la3t mn eldressing room with my ‘3etra and 3gal in Labs el ga7feya
she was sitting on the bed on her BB

me “ mabtetjahzain 3ashan te6l3een?”

she lifted her head looked at me paused then spoke softly

ro’9a “mmm la she just told me something came up she can’t make it”
me “ oh...3ady ba7awl ma at2a5aar walla”

she forced a smile, you can tell by her sad eyes. I know she really wanted to see her friend, w roo7a im ditching her uf I hate doing this wain sara ba5aleeha teels wyaha
I grabbed my phone w dialed sara’s number

me “ halaaaaaa lil sis”
sara “ heyyy sh5bark?”
me “okkkay Lsn sara r u busy today?”
sara “yeppp there’s a big party today laish?”
me “ oh mmmm ok never mind byeeeee hav fun”
sara “haha ok byee”

I hung up the phone looking at her disappointed, she glared at me raising one eyebrow

ro’9a “ i don’t need a baby sitter haha im fine”

re7t ajrabelha , I felt bad i don’t like seeing her like this

me “ walla asef,,,etha kan eb eedi knt ylast 3ndch 6ool elyoum”

she smiled and hugged me then let go, looking happier than before

ro’9a “ its okay, i’ll find something to do till your back”

she winked at me....hmmm i wonder if that’s a hint for something, ana ahbal ma afham hal hints so I just smiled to her

she looked at me then giggled

ro’9a “hahaha u look funny wya ur ga7feyya seer elbs el’3tra”
me “ e7m u mean i look hot in it i know, bs 5alnee aseer atjahhaz”

I got up w she came with me to the dressing area, lbast el ‘3etra w 7a6ait the perfume then looked at the mirror fixing my ‘3etra, she sneaked under my arm and hugged me looking at the mirror

ro’9a “ i love this kandoora on you”

she sighed

me “ hahahha why do u think I wore it”

I winked at her leaning to kiss her head. she took a deep breath ba3dain

ro’9a “ aaaand you smell so good ahhhhh”
me “ don’t worry i’ll be back for yooou, oh w ba5alee here keys 7ag sayarat elnissan its extra ucan take it”

she let go of me still smiling, 7emdella her mood is better a bit now, maybe I should buy her something on the way back

me “ yalla bat2a55er lazm a6la3 so I be there before them”
ro’9a “hmmmmmm ok”

garabt rasii to hers, for a last kiss before u go bs she put her hands softly on my lips

ro’9a “save that for when you’re back”

she winked teasing me, then gave me a quick kiss on my cheek

me “ayyy”
ro’9a “what?”
me “ fine fineeee i’ll save it for when im back! ”

she gave me a wide grin

me “ yalla see u “
ro’9a “byee”

6la3t to my car with a feeling of guilt for leaving her on a Saturday, hopping this meeting will finish fast!


s5eeefa fa6ooma! ahhh i hate hate canceling plans, of any sort !
w just when i’m starting to have fun a7mad leaves to his job thing
maaaaybe i should prepare for us a sexy dinner thingg with candles and soft music oh yessss!
I dressed up, wore any 3ybaayaa and headed to Emirates Mall!
i kept repeating in my head, lingerie , candles, anything sexy i could find, and an only music Cd kind of thing....
I hope he doesn’t reach home before me....hmmm let me message him something indirect about that

To : a7madyy

“ 7beeby when et5alle9 let me know when te6la3 mn I “freshen” up ;) can’t wait to taste your lips again...”


I parked my car in, and started my hunt,,,,it’s so hard to find sexy lingerie in here ! one shop after the other until I gave up and went to Harvey Nichols ! looked and looked in until I found one! Almost perfect!
lacy and black, with a soft light pink bow that is easy to open, without a second thought i went and payed for it.
As I was walking to zara home, and these shops for candles i got back a message

From :a7madyy

“ ay ana fl dawam 3aib....don’t seduce me like this :’(...can’t wait to lay my eyes on ya babe ;)”

I couldn’t help not smile widely at the message, people probably think i’m a weirdo ah who cares hehe

It was 4 pm by now, i think i’ve roamed everywhere, I kept fe balii enna sara told me before if he says he’ll be back by this hour it means he’ll be back in that hour plus 3! so 3 plus 3 is 6 aham shay i be back before 6 !
I went around shopping aimlessly, i don’t want to go sit in home alone, i love shopping alone though it’s relaxing!
5athtly pinkberry then went to the car it was still too early, so I went to the saloon to blow dry my hair, why the hell not, you know?
I guess he’ll send a message when he’s almost done anyways...
I finished my hair by 7 t8reeban
then headed back home

Da5ant el place, b3dain i got my candles w placed them around fl 9alaa, enna we have dinner there, then the left over candles in the bedroom, a5af hnak ned3amhom w y6ee7oon 3al ar’9, yes i’m weird that way! haha I got so excited placed some rose petals around the chairs and bed, i didn’t get to do this in my honeymoon or lailat elda5la,
vanilla, lavender, rose, grape? ahhhhh what to spray around, he always said he loved the smell of raspberries when a7e6 the perfume, let me spray it around the two rooms
light the candles ? mmm maybe not yet batraya until he messages me at least...
I got out the plates from the small cabinet and put them nicely on the coffee table fl 9ala, and set it nicely for a ‘dinner’ 9a7 bneeles 3al ar’9 bs lets make it romantic!

ahhhhh it all look breath taking, i looked over at the clock mktoob 9 ...hmm akeed he’ll be here any minute! I went to check my phone...nothing …....
glt baseer atlabbas !
I went to the dressing room put on the new lace lingerie i bought ! hides all the fsheela shows the right curves, just the way i like it :) !
i fixed my hair a bit , 3adalt my make up, put on some red lipstick, creams perfumes

looked over my blackberry every 2 seconds, it was 10 new, still nothing, should I message him wla that will annoy him? i’m kind of hungry sho ha
I was ready wtith no candles lit yet, i couldn’t lay on the bed because all the rose petals are there ba3ad

ylast 3al side sofa fl bedroom, looking down at my phone, where is he, awana an hour w he’ll come ya right.....

i hate hate hate people who say bayyoon wagt w eyoon later! a5as e7sas........
I went to the 9ala opened the tv w ylast 3al sofa.....starting to lose hope of him coming

all this for nothing? uff …...i looked over the channels not really thinking of whats on more like mentally preparing myself for when he comes through the door let me call him channa et2a55ar wayd

*calling a7maady*

toot tooot

tooot tooooot

toooot tooot


*end dial*

mayrd ba3ad? hmmm let me leave him a message

To: a7maady



You know that sore feeling ,fo when you’re so prepared for something just doesn’t happen because you’re too excited? it’s like me with lunch today feeling all over again, but much worse, i looked down at my blackberry and saw that fee message

From: a7maady

‘almost done’

i hate this
that’s all he has to say? ALMOST done? its frikking 11 something now......why did I even bother, how stupid of me
he doesn’t deserve this, awana sa3a thalath bard......ya right
should I just go to bed? magdar anam w ana che ma8hoora, i dont want t see him i know enna bkoon pissed off when ho rad, w che he had dinner bs i didn’t eat a thing.....i’m not even hungry anymore, w mat’3adait

uf whatever......I don’t care i kept telling myself while the tears from eyes flew out
it pinched......deep down in my stomach, it hurts....even if ho mb 8a9da......even if he doesn’t know i’m here waiting for him this still hurts to be ditched

layed on the sofa with my hair dangling down
the low voices of the tv vanishing into a background noise, tears stinging my face
and the pain deep down of feeling ignored, unworthy, and stupid

I went to sleep in that crappy feeling when the time was approaching 12 am.......

I cringed at the pain stinging in my stomach



SHITTTTTTT IM SO LATE, ufffff i hate work!!
I rushed into my car, not even calling ro’9a back i just want to get home t3abt ya5ii

I parked the car at home looked at the clock reading “1:00 am”
shit walla et2a5arna this time, stupid new clients

I walked up to our room, in this quiet house, when I was near the door before opening it, i could smell the reeking scent of rasberry coming out, yummmm a7ba i thought to myself
I slowly opened the door, w noticed the dim lights, w the coffee table had candles w the 97oon properly put on it

then my eyes went to the sofa...oh no there she laid asleep on her stomach, with her hair flowing around her, and her perfect sleepy face, and her.....oh she was all dressed up for me?
This is all for me?

this is when I realized

i screwed up pretty bad this time

what to do now?!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

3eedkm mbarak

hey readers!
misss u guyz =O
3eedkm mbarak! 3sakm mn 3wadat el3eed =D

hope its a nice 3eed for all of ya


wed-locked :*

Friday, October 1, 2010

Sorry In Advance

Hey u guys!
I have some bad news

I was planning to write a post before all this mess starts, but didn't get to

so i'll be taking some time off,
perhaps 4 months or so enshalla

REALLY REALLY SORRY, bs my schedule is so messed up and full! iffff iffffffffffffff (which i doubt it) i find time i wILL write a post

bs until then

Lots of love,