hey readers!
misss u guyz =O
3eedkm mbarak! 3sakm mn 3wadat el3eed =D
hope its a nice 3eed for all of ya
xoxo
wed-locked :*
This year?
3 months ago
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
Sorry In Advance
Hey u guys!
I have some bad news
I was planning to write a post before all this mess starts, but didn't get to
so i'll be taking some time off,
perhaps 4 months or so enshalla
REALLY REALLY SORRY, bs my schedule is so messed up and full! iffff iffffffffffffff (which i doubt it) i find time i wILL write a post
bs until then
Lots of love,
wed-locked
I have some bad news
I was planning to write a post before all this mess starts, but didn't get to
so i'll be taking some time off,
perhaps 4 months or so enshalla
REALLY REALLY SORRY, bs my schedule is so messed up and full! iffff iffffffffffffff (which i doubt it) i find time i wILL write a post
bs until then
Lots of love,
wed-locked
Friday, September 10, 2010
3eedkum mbarak !
DEAR READERS!!
kel sna wntoo 6aybeeeeeeeeen w ta8abala Allah 6a3atkum!
3sakm mn el 3aydeeen wL salmeeeeeeeeen
Lots of kisses and hugs, from Dubai
Sincerely,
Wed-locked
<3
kel sna wntoo 6aybeeeeeeeeen w ta8abala Allah 6a3atkum!
3sakm mn el 3aydeeen wL salmeeeeeeeeen
Lots of kisses and hugs, from Dubai
Sincerely,
Wed-locked
<3
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Wed-locked 33
Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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As soon as we were home, sara walked me to our room, then excused herself. I went w sat fe our 9ala t3bana...
.......
a7mad “tbain takleen shay?”
I continued looking at my Blackberry that I held in one hand and shook my head
a7mad “akeed?”
I know he was just trying to make a conversation so I ignored him
a7mad “so ur just not gonna talk to me?”
I looked at him for a sec, saying nothing then looked back again at my phone, he walked away za3lan to the room, ksar 5a6ri a bit bs i ignored it.
I watched tv until fl lail, a7mad walked in with a plate for me , 7a6a on the table in front of me
a7mad “ here’s 3shach, please keli mb zain che”
........
I laid down that afternoon on the couch, like how I have been for a while, until about 5 when a7mad came in
....
He had his head down with a gloomy face, I sat up and looked at him w decided to go for it
me “Salam 3alaikm”
He froze in his place for a second then lifted his head looking at me in disbelief
him “wa...w 3alaikm el salam”
me “how r u?”
I could see the anguish flow away and a pleased smile draw its way on his face
.....
me “same.... u hungry?”
He almost jumped from excitement nodding
.....
He said with a wide grin putting his briefcase next to the door and rushing out...
I’ve really missed him..... I forgot what a kid he is................katkoot.....
.....
a7mad “ha? sho what hehe?”
me “why are you staring at me like that”
a7mad “oh heh............I just......I’ve missed you....so much”
he said with a sad smile. I smiled back, I wanted to hug him, every part of my body wanted it just get up and hug him, but I didn’t.......I said I’d start by talking to him... this can’t just go back like it used to, he has to understand that he can’t just lie to me
....
me “I just thought u learned your lesson....heh”
a7mad “You have to know something ro’9a....you’re the only one i love......I know you don’t believe me now....but I hope one day u do....because I mean it”
......
a7mad “I’ve missed this”
I smiled and nodded to his sentence.....this guy makes my heart melt......... that is one thing i can not deny
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Ro'9aa
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a7mad “Oh! 9a7 My mom wanted me to tell u enna she wants to throw a ‘este8bal’ thing for u”
me “ say whaaaaaa”
a7mad “mmm este8bal y3ne 3zeemaa for a 3roos”
me “ i know what it means!” *glare* “ bss for me? really? why now?”
i looked down at the jebs on my leg and hand and looked back at him with a frown
a7mad “ oh mmmm madri ymkn when it gets better, bs she told me to open the salfa with you”
he smiled widely to me and let out a small ‘heh’
me “shoo?”
a7mad “mmmmm mashay...”
me “ayy sho mashayy!”
a7mad “its just that esta’3rabt shway when mama galatly bs estanast nafs el wagt”
me “hehe because she hates me? akeed she feels sorry for me a7een cz im injured”
I said laughing
a7mad “may5e9a she doesn’t hate u”
he said in a low voice, i looked at him and laughed
me “seriously...haha who r u kidding?”
a7mad “la2 bss...it’s not hate 9adgeeni.... mama just has a hard time accepting people”
me “ahaaa”
I said teasingly...he let out a sigh then continued eating his food... 5alla9 gablee we were kind of quiet after that madri laish
he got up from the floor
a7mad “7emdella 3al ne3ma”
and he bent down kissing my head, i looked up at him with innocent wide eyes
masa7t my forehead where he kissed after ma he got up w he saw me with a surprised look
a7mad “ayyyyyyyy laish!”
me “umm ummm u just ate”
I said msta7yta.....
a7mad “soo? tufal raylech 3adiii”
I made a disgusted face at him.....the word ‘ew’ was all over my face!
a7mad “enzain enzain sorry!”
he said in a disappointed voice going to the bathroom to wash his hands
he came out w ylas 3dali lookin at me
me “ay ma7b 7ad yshoofni w ana akel”
a7mad “tbaini a’3ame’9 3yooni mathalan?”
I pointed at the tv
me “watch that”
a7mad “mabaaa ana 7urrr kaify”
me “fine i wont eat!”
a7mad “ro’9aaa! atma95ar atma95ar haa haa”
he got up took the remote w ylas 3al sofa behind me
a7mad “keli!”
me “hehe ok a7een i will”
5ala9t aklee in a few minutes w a7mad helped me up to the bathroom to wash my hands w came back on the sofa
he held my hand in his as we sat down on the sofa tight while stroking it
I pulled my hand away as i gave him a guilty smile
and there it was, that disappointed face again
he stared into space for a while until he spoke
a7mad “ro’9a...”
me “mmm yes?”
a7mad “when we were in the hospital....you said...enna you ‘hate’ me....did you mean it?”
He looked at me with sad eyes, wain awadee wayhee, i don’t know how to answer this! My face changed in discomfort
me “umm
me “at that time a bit...”
a7mad “hmm...”
he said dropping his head down between his shoulders...he looked devastated... bs sho asawee he asked, w i just answered ...hmm
a7mad “ oh by the way.......the other day fl hospital......kalamt 7anan..”
I paused for a second then looked at him, pretending i knew nothing about that
me “ oh u did?”
I said coldly, pretending enna I don’t care
a7mad “mmm hai.. i gave her a lecture to back off...w ena there was never something between me and her w to never call me again wla babale’3 3alaiha elshr6a”
me “oh”
a7mad “look ro’9a...im being honest wyach w agoolch kelshay 3shan matz3leen 3alay again...”
i looked at him and nodded... a feeling of relief hit me ....
he sighed w 6ala3ni with a frown
a7mad “please stop it pleaaaase atrajach”
me “haa?”
a7mad “ laish ur still being so cold it’s not faair!”
he said while folding his hands in anger, I noticed his eyes getting watery when I looked at him, a grin drew its way on my face bdoon ma a7s, he was just tooo ADORABLE!
me “laish t9eeeee7 ?!”
he noticed my grin while saying that, fa he glared at me with an angry face
a7mad “im nooot enzain w may’9a7kk”
me “im not laughingg”
I looked at him trying to hold back my grin..i think im being heartless! BS WAYD KTKOOOT I JUST WANNA HUG HIM
a7mad “Ana el ‘3L6an i be myself jdamch! uf walla this never happened to me before KELLA MENNCH! “
me “ana asfaaa”
gltella while giving him a frown, sho agoolla? ur too cute i cnt stop smiling? doum y76ni fe this position! elly i don’t know what to say
a7mad “ I know enny ana a7bch more than u like me, bs er7meeni shway! consider my feelings for a change”
he was sitting with his back sunk into the sofa and a frown on his face , eyeing me
me “i hate it when u say that...”
a7mad “say what?”
me “enna u love me more than i love u”
he straightened his back bser3a with a smirk on his face
a7mad “ So u do love me!”
me “may5e9 ha bs, like just because you show it all the time doesn’t mean its true”
a7mad “ mmm i dont get it”
me “ like ur always romantic w madri kaif bs i never know what to say back...enta u’ve talked to girls before so u know what to say, ana mb mt3awda”
he opened his eyes wide at me
a7mad “u think i talk to ALL Girls like this?? SHO tet7araini! ana mb player!”
me “laaa bs enaaa.......”
a7mad “bs enaa shooo?”
he said teasingly, slightly offended.
me “mm nothing, never mind”
I said frowning, with a sad voice. A smile made its way to his face while he murmured in a low voice
a7mad “katkoota”
me “ SEEE”
he looked at me confused
a7mad “haa??”
me “u always say things like that, and u leave me tongue tied not knowing what to say back”
a7mad “u don’t have to say anything back hehe...”
he chuckled, amused by my struggling
me “bs... then you end up getting hurt...i mean u just cried because of it...”
a7mad “ awalaaan i didn’t cry, thaneyan i was just mad because .......ma7asait i deserved all that cold shoulder you gave me for days.....”
me “well...”
i looked down at my lap za3lana
me “ at first knt m3a9ba 3alaik,,,,then the next day i was just in pain.....then after that i just didn’t know what to say to u even though i missed you so much”
I said as a tear escaped my eyes, I quickly wiped it out
he on the other hand was in utter silence, quietly listening to what i have to say, he then slowly reached for my hand and tucked it into his
a7mad “ i don’t understand why u do that! u don’t have to come up with something to say to me! just come up to me and say hiii walla that would’ve done the trick,,,,u dont have to be romantic with me...u never were and i still loved u.....i mean i still love u”
I looked down at our hands locked together and blushed, while he brought his face closer to mine and softly kissed my forehead. I rested my head on his chest as he wrapped his arms around me. I took this chance to take in all of his scent, his warmth, his........everything
it seemed too perfect to last, his scent was breath taking, i miss this, i miss his touch, how could someone stay mad at someone like him.....magdar! 7abeeeby
a7ebba
i do
but...... I don’t know how to tell him....
knock knock . . .
I felt his hand get tighter around me when we heard the knock
me “emm a7mad?”
a7mad “shhhhhh”
knock knock.......
I looked up at his face and his eyes were closed, seemed like he was absorbing the moment as much as I was...
the voice came muffled from behind the door, it sounded something like sara
girl “ A7maaaaaaaaaaaaaad! “
knock knock...........
he let go of me, stomped his way to the door, and opened it in anger .... katkoot he’s such a child!
a7mad “ HAa haaa na3am??”
the door swang open and his elder sister shai5a was at the door
shai5a “Besmillaaaaaaaaaa! sallem 3ala e5tk atleast !”
a7mad “salam w 3alaikm”
he said mumbling while glaring at her ...
shai5a “a9lan i didn’t come for you!”
she pushed him aside and came 3ndii
shai5a “halla ro’9aaa sh5baarch! Salamat! “
she said all at once, while salem-ing on me with a wide smile on her face. .. Am i the only one who thinks ‘THIS’ is weird hmmm, I smiled and acted nice anyways
me “ 7mdellaa...Allah ysalmch”
a7mad came and sat 3daLee and looked at shai5a suspiciously
a7mad “so? 5ala9 salamtee 3alaiha now wat?”
I looked at a7mad widening my eyes ! ok he’s being kind of rude now 7araam
me “a7mad!”
with that childish face of his he ignored my scolding still looking at his sister in annoyance
shai5a “ aih entaaaaa e7trm 3mrk haaa”
she said teasingly, with a smile on her face
shai5a “zain mennii i miss u awanyyy yaya azooork! mn ma tzawajt mt5ash fl ‘3rfa 24\7 !! “
i chuckled, is that why his mom hates me? Am i stealing her son from her? hmmmm
then she continued. . .
shai5a “ SO i came na’3za 7ag mrtk shway”
she said while winking at me
shai5a “ tara maystweee u steal him from us hal gad! i know heee’s ur husband and all bs hez u5ooy ba3ad!”
I felt his hands wrapping around me faj2a! ho kan yals waray w he hugged me and looked at his sister
a7mad “5alha t9rgniii kaifhaaa”
ana hnee gfaaa6t my face turned bright red! it’s not like im used to physical contact in front of other people! especially NOT people i don’t know that well! ahhhhhh...i tried shaking his hands off me, bs his grip was too tight for me, he let go himself a little while after that, shai5a was laughing at my face! gaf6a
I gave a7mad the scariest glare i could come up with! while he gave me a guilty grin
Ylasna shway zyada w solafna for a while
shai5a “ O may gaawd! its 2 am already? shit I need to go sleep!”
me “its 2?!!”
She jumped up off her seat and said bye closing the door behind her.
a7mad “ A5555”
he stretched his arms and legs yawning, then looked at me frowning
a7mad “ta3ban bs maba anaaaaaam”
me “hehe laish u dont want to sleep?”
a7mad “why else? i don’t want today to end ana wayd far7an ok !! a5af shay ystwee bachr w moody ystwe 5araa”
me “ ay latgool chee! “
I struggled into scooting enna akoon 3dala, then used my ‘good’ hand and put it around his neck attempting to hug him, then let go smiling to him
I hate the fact that i hurt him, or the fact that I am capable of such thing so easily, is it me or is he just too 7asas? m3rf bs i don’t like seeing him sad, he’s my husband after all
he had a peaceful smile on his face
a7mad “what if I’m dreaming”
me “hahaa! s5eef ur not ok, lets go to sleep a7een yalla i’m tired too..”
a7mad “hmmm ok”
We sat on the bed beside each other in peace, If i had to list the happiest moments of my life, this would definitely make the list
I was so tempted to kiss him......bs.......est7ait, i know ho raylee laish ast7iii bs i DNU! UF Laish ana cheeeee
a7mad
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Every nerve in my body was telling me to bend and taste her lips that i’ve been craving for so long
but I resisted.... ana youm za5ait eedha she moved awaay shway but umm she just kinda hugged me does that count?
should I? Should I not?
I unconsciously turned my head and stared at her lips while I was silently arguing with myself, She felt my stare w 9addat 9ooby
ro’9a “eem sho feek a7mad?”
she said with her charming smile, 7beebty i miss her smile! I couldn’t control the words that came out of my mouth, I just went ahead with it, what have I got to loose?
me “ I’m thinking of whether to kiss you or not”
ro’9a “w ur decision?”
she said while grinning, I decided to tease her shway
me “emmm m3rf what do u think i should do?”
She bit her lip and shrugged her shoulders in innocence, awanha tedalla3
I got up from my place w crawled over her, softly kissing her lips
how much I've missed this feeling
having her, all to myself
I couldn’t stop myself, until I felt her hand push me back, while she pulled her head away a bit
I stared into her face for a while
me “sho feech?”
ro’9a “eeedi”
I quickly jumped off, owaih shit! I accidentally put my body over her hand, nsait 3an her injuryyyyyy!
me “SORRY!”
ro’9a “la 3adi..”
she said with a smile
me “nsaaait”
I said with guilt pointing at her hand
ro’9a “haha a7mad 3adi it doesn’t hurt now bs youm pressure is applied to it”
me “ma7asait fe 3mriii.....i blame u!”
she glared at me then shook her head, then she softly layed her head on the pillow, i think she’s telling me that she wants to sleep!
me “Ta3bana”
ro’9a “haai shway, feya rgad”
me “fineeee lets sleep”
I kissed her forehead w 7a6ait rasi 3edal her shoulder and closed my eyes
I felt her hand reach for mine and i held it tight
Tonight I can say that i am definitely, with no doubt, in every way
truly happy...
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As soon as we were home, sara walked me to our room, then excused herself. I went w sat fe our 9ala t3bana...
.......
a7mad “tbain takleen shay?”
I continued looking at my Blackberry that I held in one hand and shook my head
a7mad “akeed?”
I know he was just trying to make a conversation so I ignored him
a7mad “so ur just not gonna talk to me?”
I looked at him for a sec, saying nothing then looked back again at my phone, he walked away za3lan to the room, ksar 5a6ri a bit bs i ignored it.
I watched tv until fl lail, a7mad walked in with a plate for me , 7a6a on the table in front of me
a7mad “ here’s 3shach, please keli mb zain che”
........
I laid down that afternoon on the couch, like how I have been for a while, until about 5 when a7mad came in
....
He had his head down with a gloomy face, I sat up and looked at him w decided to go for it
me “Salam 3alaikm”
He froze in his place for a second then lifted his head looking at me in disbelief
him “wa...w 3alaikm el salam”
me “how r u?”
I could see the anguish flow away and a pleased smile draw its way on his face
.....
me “same.... u hungry?”
He almost jumped from excitement nodding
.....
He said with a wide grin putting his briefcase next to the door and rushing out...
I’ve really missed him..... I forgot what a kid he is................katkoot.....
.....
a7mad “ha? sho what hehe?”
me “why are you staring at me like that”
a7mad “oh heh............I just......I’ve missed you....so much”
he said with a sad smile. I smiled back, I wanted to hug him, every part of my body wanted it just get up and hug him, but I didn’t.......I said I’d start by talking to him... this can’t just go back like it used to, he has to understand that he can’t just lie to me
....
me “I just thought u learned your lesson....heh”
a7mad “You have to know something ro’9a....you’re the only one i love......I know you don’t believe me now....but I hope one day u do....because I mean it”
......
a7mad “I’ve missed this”
I smiled and nodded to his sentence.....this guy makes my heart melt......... that is one thing i can not deny
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Ro'9aa
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a7mad “Oh! 9a7 My mom wanted me to tell u enna she wants to throw a ‘este8bal’ thing for u”
me “ say whaaaaaa”
a7mad “mmm este8bal y3ne 3zeemaa for a 3roos”
me “ i know what it means!” *glare* “ bss for me? really? why now?”
i looked down at the jebs on my leg and hand and looked back at him with a frown
a7mad “ oh mmmm madri ymkn when it gets better, bs she told me to open the salfa with you”
he smiled widely to me and let out a small ‘heh’
me “shoo?”
a7mad “mmmmm mashay...”
me “ayy sho mashayy!”
a7mad “its just that esta’3rabt shway when mama galatly bs estanast nafs el wagt”
me “hehe because she hates me? akeed she feels sorry for me a7een cz im injured”
I said laughing
a7mad “may5e9a she doesn’t hate u”
he said in a low voice, i looked at him and laughed
me “seriously...haha who r u kidding?”
a7mad “la2 bss...it’s not hate 9adgeeni.... mama just has a hard time accepting people”
me “ahaaa”
I said teasingly...he let out a sigh then continued eating his food... 5alla9 gablee we were kind of quiet after that madri laish
he got up from the floor
a7mad “7emdella 3al ne3ma”
and he bent down kissing my head, i looked up at him with innocent wide eyes
masa7t my forehead where he kissed after ma he got up w he saw me with a surprised look
a7mad “ayyyyyyyy laish!”
me “umm ummm u just ate”
I said msta7yta.....
a7mad “soo? tufal raylech 3adiii”
I made a disgusted face at him.....the word ‘ew’ was all over my face!
a7mad “enzain enzain sorry!”
he said in a disappointed voice going to the bathroom to wash his hands
he came out w ylas 3dali lookin at me
me “ay ma7b 7ad yshoofni w ana akel”
a7mad “tbaini a’3ame’9 3yooni mathalan?”
I pointed at the tv
me “watch that”
a7mad “mabaaa ana 7urrr kaify”
me “fine i wont eat!”
a7mad “ro’9aaa! atma95ar atma95ar haa haa”
he got up took the remote w ylas 3al sofa behind me
a7mad “keli!”
me “hehe ok a7een i will”
5ala9t aklee in a few minutes w a7mad helped me up to the bathroom to wash my hands w came back on the sofa
he held my hand in his as we sat down on the sofa tight while stroking it
I pulled my hand away as i gave him a guilty smile
and there it was, that disappointed face again
he stared into space for a while until he spoke
a7mad “ro’9a...”
me “mmm yes?”
a7mad “when we were in the hospital....you said...enna you ‘hate’ me....did you mean it?”
He looked at me with sad eyes, wain awadee wayhee, i don’t know how to answer this! My face changed in discomfort
me “umm
me “at that time a bit...”
a7mad “hmm...”
he said dropping his head down between his shoulders...he looked devastated... bs sho asawee he asked, w i just answered ...hmm
a7mad “ oh by the way.......the other day fl hospital......kalamt 7anan..”
I paused for a second then looked at him, pretending i knew nothing about that
me “ oh u did?”
I said coldly, pretending enna I don’t care
a7mad “mmm hai.. i gave her a lecture to back off...w ena there was never something between me and her w to never call me again wla babale’3 3alaiha elshr6a”
me “oh”
a7mad “look ro’9a...im being honest wyach w agoolch kelshay 3shan matz3leen 3alay again...”
i looked at him and nodded... a feeling of relief hit me ....
he sighed w 6ala3ni with a frown
a7mad “please stop it pleaaaase atrajach”
me “haa?”
a7mad “ laish ur still being so cold it’s not faair!”
he said while folding his hands in anger, I noticed his eyes getting watery when I looked at him, a grin drew its way on my face bdoon ma a7s, he was just tooo ADORABLE!
me “laish t9eeeee7 ?!”
he noticed my grin while saying that, fa he glared at me with an angry face
a7mad “im nooot enzain w may’9a7kk”
me “im not laughingg”
I looked at him trying to hold back my grin..i think im being heartless! BS WAYD KTKOOOT I JUST WANNA HUG HIM
a7mad “Ana el ‘3L6an i be myself jdamch! uf walla this never happened to me before KELLA MENNCH! “
me “ana asfaaa”
gltella while giving him a frown, sho agoolla? ur too cute i cnt stop smiling? doum y76ni fe this position! elly i don’t know what to say
a7mad “ I know enny ana a7bch more than u like me, bs er7meeni shway! consider my feelings for a change”
he was sitting with his back sunk into the sofa and a frown on his face , eyeing me
me “i hate it when u say that...”
a7mad “say what?”
me “enna u love me more than i love u”
he straightened his back bser3a with a smirk on his face
a7mad “ So u do love me!”
me “may5e9 ha bs, like just because you show it all the time doesn’t mean its true”
a7mad “ mmm i dont get it”
me “ like ur always romantic w madri kaif bs i never know what to say back...enta u’ve talked to girls before so u know what to say, ana mb mt3awda”
he opened his eyes wide at me
a7mad “u think i talk to ALL Girls like this?? SHO tet7araini! ana mb player!”
me “laaa bs enaaa.......”
a7mad “bs enaa shooo?”
he said teasingly, slightly offended.
me “mm nothing, never mind”
I said frowning, with a sad voice. A smile made its way to his face while he murmured in a low voice
a7mad “katkoota”
me “ SEEE”
he looked at me confused
a7mad “haa??”
me “u always say things like that, and u leave me tongue tied not knowing what to say back”
a7mad “u don’t have to say anything back hehe...”
he chuckled, amused by my struggling
me “bs... then you end up getting hurt...i mean u just cried because of it...”
a7mad “ awalaaan i didn’t cry, thaneyan i was just mad because .......ma7asait i deserved all that cold shoulder you gave me for days.....”
me “well...”
i looked down at my lap za3lana
me “ at first knt m3a9ba 3alaik,,,,then the next day i was just in pain.....then after that i just didn’t know what to say to u even though i missed you so much”
I said as a tear escaped my eyes, I quickly wiped it out
he on the other hand was in utter silence, quietly listening to what i have to say, he then slowly reached for my hand and tucked it into his
a7mad “ i don’t understand why u do that! u don’t have to come up with something to say to me! just come up to me and say hiii walla that would’ve done the trick,,,,u dont have to be romantic with me...u never were and i still loved u.....i mean i still love u”
I looked down at our hands locked together and blushed, while he brought his face closer to mine and softly kissed my forehead. I rested my head on his chest as he wrapped his arms around me. I took this chance to take in all of his scent, his warmth, his........everything
it seemed too perfect to last, his scent was breath taking, i miss this, i miss his touch, how could someone stay mad at someone like him.....magdar! 7abeeeby
a7ebba
i do
but...... I don’t know how to tell him....
knock knock . . .
I felt his hand get tighter around me when we heard the knock
me “emm a7mad?”
a7mad “shhhhhh”
knock knock.......
I looked up at his face and his eyes were closed, seemed like he was absorbing the moment as much as I was...
the voice came muffled from behind the door, it sounded something like sara
girl “ A7maaaaaaaaaaaaaad! “
knock knock...........
he let go of me, stomped his way to the door, and opened it in anger .... katkoot he’s such a child!
a7mad “ HAa haaa na3am??”
the door swang open and his elder sister shai5a was at the door
shai5a “Besmillaaaaaaaaaa! sallem 3ala e5tk atleast !”
a7mad “salam w 3alaikm”
he said mumbling while glaring at her ...
shai5a “a9lan i didn’t come for you!”
she pushed him aside and came 3ndii
shai5a “halla ro’9aaa sh5baarch! Salamat! “
she said all at once, while salem-ing on me with a wide smile on her face. .. Am i the only one who thinks ‘THIS’ is weird hmmm, I smiled and acted nice anyways
me “ 7mdellaa...Allah ysalmch”
a7mad came and sat 3daLee and looked at shai5a suspiciously
a7mad “so? 5ala9 salamtee 3alaiha now wat?”
I looked at a7mad widening my eyes ! ok he’s being kind of rude now 7araam
me “a7mad!”
with that childish face of his he ignored my scolding still looking at his sister in annoyance
shai5a “ aih entaaaaa e7trm 3mrk haaa”
she said teasingly, with a smile on her face
shai5a “zain mennii i miss u awanyyy yaya azooork! mn ma tzawajt mt5ash fl ‘3rfa 24\7 !! “
i chuckled, is that why his mom hates me? Am i stealing her son from her? hmmmm
then she continued. . .
shai5a “ SO i came na’3za 7ag mrtk shway”
she said while winking at me
shai5a “ tara maystweee u steal him from us hal gad! i know heee’s ur husband and all bs hez u5ooy ba3ad!”
I felt his hands wrapping around me faj2a! ho kan yals waray w he hugged me and looked at his sister
a7mad “5alha t9rgniii kaifhaaa”
ana hnee gfaaa6t my face turned bright red! it’s not like im used to physical contact in front of other people! especially NOT people i don’t know that well! ahhhhhh...i tried shaking his hands off me, bs his grip was too tight for me, he let go himself a little while after that, shai5a was laughing at my face! gaf6a
I gave a7mad the scariest glare i could come up with! while he gave me a guilty grin
Ylasna shway zyada w solafna for a while
shai5a “ O may gaawd! its 2 am already? shit I need to go sleep!”
me “its 2?!!”
She jumped up off her seat and said bye closing the door behind her.
a7mad “ A5555”
he stretched his arms and legs yawning, then looked at me frowning
a7mad “ta3ban bs maba anaaaaaam”
me “hehe laish u dont want to sleep?”
a7mad “why else? i don’t want today to end ana wayd far7an ok !! a5af shay ystwee bachr w moody ystwe 5araa”
me “ ay latgool chee! “
I struggled into scooting enna akoon 3dala, then used my ‘good’ hand and put it around his neck attempting to hug him, then let go smiling to him
I hate the fact that i hurt him, or the fact that I am capable of such thing so easily, is it me or is he just too 7asas? m3rf bs i don’t like seeing him sad, he’s my husband after all
he had a peaceful smile on his face
a7mad “what if I’m dreaming”
me “hahaa! s5eef ur not ok, lets go to sleep a7een yalla i’m tired too..”
a7mad “hmmm ok”
We sat on the bed beside each other in peace, If i had to list the happiest moments of my life, this would definitely make the list
I was so tempted to kiss him......bs.......est7ait, i know ho raylee laish ast7iii bs i DNU! UF Laish ana cheeeee
a7mad
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Every nerve in my body was telling me to bend and taste her lips that i’ve been craving for so long
but I resisted.... ana youm za5ait eedha she moved awaay shway but umm she just kinda hugged me does that count?
should I? Should I not?
I unconsciously turned my head and stared at her lips while I was silently arguing with myself, She felt my stare w 9addat 9ooby
ro’9a “eem sho feek a7mad?”
she said with her charming smile, 7beebty i miss her smile! I couldn’t control the words that came out of my mouth, I just went ahead with it, what have I got to loose?
me “ I’m thinking of whether to kiss you or not”
ro’9a “w ur decision?”
she said while grinning, I decided to tease her shway
me “emmm m3rf what do u think i should do?”
She bit her lip and shrugged her shoulders in innocence, awanha tedalla3
I got up from my place w crawled over her, softly kissing her lips
how much I've missed this feeling
having her, all to myself
I couldn’t stop myself, until I felt her hand push me back, while she pulled her head away a bit
I stared into her face for a while
me “sho feech?”
ro’9a “eeedi”
I quickly jumped off, owaih shit! I accidentally put my body over her hand, nsait 3an her injuryyyyyy!
me “SORRY!”
ro’9a “la 3adi..”
she said with a smile
me “nsaaait”
I said with guilt pointing at her hand
ro’9a “haha a7mad 3adi it doesn’t hurt now bs youm pressure is applied to it”
me “ma7asait fe 3mriii.....i blame u!”
she glared at me then shook her head, then she softly layed her head on the pillow, i think she’s telling me that she wants to sleep!
me “Ta3bana”
ro’9a “haai shway, feya rgad”
me “fineeee lets sleep”
I kissed her forehead w 7a6ait rasi 3edal her shoulder and closed my eyes
I felt her hand reach for mine and i held it tight
Tonight I can say that i am definitely, with no doubt, in every way
truly happy...
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Wed-locked 32
Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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a7mad
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I sat in the waiting area since the doctor galatlee atraya barra3
my heart racing and aching all at the same time
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i looked at her weirdly....
me "sho 8a9dich leave me alone?"
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she looked up at me pissed off
ro'9a "i told u to stop..."
me "ro'9a sho feech? Is it your hand?"
ro'9a "NO a7mad it is not my hand..it's u..."
me "me?"
ro'9a "yes a7mad i know...you don't have to hide it anymore"
me "hide? what the hell are you talking about ro'9a!"
ro'9a " a7amd please stop acting stupid fatooma told me awal shay enna she 'heard' how people keep talking about how i ruined your plans of getting married to another woman and i got in the way bs ana glt laa .....akeed chatheb....making excuses for u......and then 7anan herself....."
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me "noo...ro'9a it was nothing like that....w i told u ams my past is my past what I did back then doesn't matter anymore.."
ro'9a "do u know what all the girls call me a7mad? do u?"
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I can't bare seeing her like this......
it's all my fault
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Ro'9a
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Crying in my mommy's lap sure made me feel better..
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I looked at him and sighed....i feel so tired i don't care anymore whatever they want to do with me...
a7mad " 3amty ...3amii... lata3boon 3markum ana batm wyaha w babat hnee..."
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me " I haatee u..."
I said with a resentful tone as I held part of his shirt tight in my fist..
me "I hate u..."
I repeated while still being held in his arms...
his warmth drove me to sleep ....
............
fta7ti 3ainy w looked around until I found him...he had pulled the small sofa as close as he can to my bed while his two arms were folded under his head on the side of my bed...
i noticed his phone was beside one of his hands
.....
opened his calls w i noticed enna he had a miscall just an hour ago mn ra8am '3areeb....without hesitating I dialed the number and held the phone to my ears...
toooot
tooooooot
tooooooooot
girl " Hallaa!.......7abeeebiii....i.."
I quickly closed the call before she could hear my breathing..how it became faster......I could recognize that voice anywhere
it was her........it was 7anan....
..........
i could hear him stretch and felt him pick his phone up
a7mad "uff"
all I could here were his footsteps moving away from me ....the door screeched open then a shut.....I opened my eyes and the room was empty......
ra7 yetti9iL feeha?
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while I was in deep thought about my emotional and physical state the door of my room flew open...at first I thought it was a7mad but the girly voices told me otherwise
sara "SHhhhhhhh She's aSLEEP SHWAY SHWAY! "
fatooma "oooopss sorry"
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me " wait a minute....what time is it??"
they both looked at me with guilty smiles
sara "mmmm about 3 am hehe"
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atooma "soo how iss ............mmm....."
she looked at sara then looked back at me...
........
sara "hoooww is what?"
fatooma gave me a 'yikes' look...bs ana I was so relaxed about it
me "you mean how is who...."
.........
sara "what's wrong with him??"
me "mmm nothing's particularly wrong with him....per say....maybe his brain bs..."
i said resentfully
sara "weeeeeee r u guys fighting?"
..........
i told her........everything that happened
all that happened yesterday leaving nothing out...she had her mouth open during most of the conversation... I wasn't sure about what that meant....
then when I finished talking she was silent for a few seconds
......
sara "but...."
...........
sara "but.......if he was going to marry her he would have argued with dad about marrying you...but he didn't..... at all......I even talked to him about marrying you and how he felt about it gabel..... and he said he didn't mind getting married "
...........
I fell silent after that thinking....then faj2a the door opens and a7mad walks in........
I looked at him then stared at the phone is his hands
a7mad "oh asef! maknt a3arf enna fe 7ad da5l"
he said when he saw that fatooma was here....he turned to go back out but...
sara " A7MAD! get back in here! now!"
me and fatooma opened our eyes wide at her! what was she trying to do??
he turned looking confused and walked in closing the door behind him
a7mad "yes sara?"
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Ro'9a
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He stood fe mkana looking at her intensely...
sara got up and stood in front of him looking almost as intense as he was
sara “who’s this 7anan person ?”
his eyebrows cringed and he turned his face towards me looking angry..then 6ala3 el ar’9 thinking for a second... then lifted his head up again
a7mad “.... can I please talk to ro’9a..... alone....”
sara “bs u didn’t answer my question...”
a7mad “sara...please”
he said with an angry tone that gave me a shiver........fatooma got up gave me a ‘yikes’ look w 6l3at with sara....
and they closed the door behind them...
I admit it, knt wayd 5ayfa menna ! i’ve never seen him this serious....well i have bs che u know when a person y7asesch ennch msawya shay ‘3ala6 and u get that disgusting feeling in your stomach... i didn’t show it though i folded my arms and looked directly at him trying my hardest to hide the fear inside me...a9lan its not like he’ll do anything to me i kept telling myself
he walked towards me in slow steps.. our very angry stares met only once as he gave his back to me when he got to my bed and sat 3dali..
I could feel his body stiffen in anger... he took a deep breath trying to ease himself i guess..
a7mad “ why did u tell her?”
he said with an angry tone...he has never talked to me this way .....kan 9dg m3a99eb..
me “ everyone else knew y3ne laish a5sh menha...”
he turned towards me surprised at my words with a confused face...still angry though
a7mad “ sho kel7ad? she’s my sister ro’9a! “
me “so?”
a7mad “ sho so .. mala da3ee tseer t5abreen kel7ad fl 3alam enna we’re fighting enzain...what’s our business is our business and no one else’s ! “
me “ she deserves to know”
a7mad “ la ro’9a ana asif bs no one is supposed to know “
me “enzain kel7ad y3arf why not her too!”
a7mad “ laaa r u even listening to urself? ok a lot of people know about the rumor but no one has to know enna we’re fighting about it!”
i just looked at him annoyed and rolled my eyes
a7mad “ elmohem enna makan la da3i at all tgooleen 7ag e5ti of all people...
w ana maknt aba a7arj 3alaich ....bs stop 7arakatch el6fooleyya ne7n mb yahal”
he looked at me in disgust, got up, and slammed the door behind him.
i felt like someone punctured a hole in my stomach....what the hell, how did all this get flipped? kaif it’s all my fault a7een? ana masawait shay ‘3ala6 ........but why do i feel so much worse now... the pain inside me turned into tears in my eyes...
physical and mental pain are not a good combination... I became more aware of the pain in my hands ...transferring to my head...my tears ... shivers..... i was slowly drifting away into unconsciousness
ma w3ait ella it was morning and i can hear the nurse’s voice above me.... shway shway i opened my eyes w it was only me and two nurses fl ‘3rfa
nurse #1 “good morning maaam how do u feeel?”
me “eehh”
I stretched in my place and took a deep breath then looked at her
me “better i think what happened?”
nurse#2 “your blood pressure increased last night so you lost consciousness but everything is good now don’t worry, you’re going to be checked out in a few hours! “
me “oh ok thank you..”
I let out a yawn... I wonder where everyone is.. i can’t ignore that feeling in me...i’m such a girl 3gub kel ha i was annoyed enna a7mad wasn’t here when I woke up...
what the hell is wrong with me......mfroo’9 i don’t want to see him after thiss
the nurses were done changing my IV and everything else then 5alw my breakfast jdami w ft7ooli el tv on some random channel
i only had one hand that i can use fa fta7t el cover w was struggling to move el other stuff to put it down mkan when you know who walked in...
lafait rasi awal manfta7 el bab bs when our eyes met i quickly looked back at my plate his face wasn’t the same one from yesterday....now he was just the calm a7mad...meanwhile i was still struggling with hal stupid cover of the stupid plate ...
he did not say a word..bs ya 3ndi w very gently 7a6 eeda 3ala eedi w sneaked his fingers slowly taking the cover mn eedi making sure his hand softly touches mine making that tingly feeling in my stomach.....
i quickly took my hand away as he was placing the cover on the side table of the bed.
I took the little sandwich they had with one hand and took a bite staring at the tv ignoring a7mad..ho bs kan yals 3dalii 3al shbreyya ba3ad saying nothing...
he reached in and opened the covers of the other things for me..... uff knt aba a9fa3a... i can do it myself! but i refused to say a word.. 5ala9 malait la3at chabdee ..... i was too tired to be mad at him a9lan .....so i said nothing
i finished my sandwich quickly and quietly sipped my juice, with my eyes on the tv...
a couple of minutes later the nurse knocked and came in
nurse “hi maam how are u dooingg? hello siiir”
me “mmm i feel better a bit”
nurse “ohh good good....your father signed the sign out papers just noww”
me “oh ok”
she turned her face to a7mad who was sitting on the sofa behind her
nurse “r u her husband siir?”
a7mad “yes”
he nodded
nurse “oh ok good you can help her change her clothes”
a7mad “mmm ok”
ok? SHO OK ! i can change my own clothes!! i looked down at my arms and feet and thought that again........ok maybe i can’t bs mafee anyone else who can help me? sho haa uff....although i was so pissed, i kept my mouth shut, i just looked at him in disgust 7ag a second then looked away
the nurse gave us a cute smile and walked out
a7mad “ummmm....”
he looked towards me for a reaction...but i gave him nothing
a7mad “mmm what do u want to wear?”
sho mshkelata.......i turned my head away from him in anger uhhhhhhhhhh 8ahrenni mb mtfayjatlaaa why can’t the nurse change mee.......uf maba a7arj 3alaih ba3ad mb mtfayja agool shaay
a7mad “ermmm... i guess i’ll just choose ayshay roo7ii”
is he serious?? i turned towards him to see what he is doing.. and he was actually choosing 6alla3 a short red baggy dress w laf 9oobi holding it up in his hands
a7mad “I guess this will do....it’s easy to put on”
he walked towards me, giving me a smile.... aaaaaaaaaaah make him go awaaay y8har y8har y8har!! i was just giving him a ‘look’.
a7mad “emm enzain lazm tet7arkain shway heh”
he reached his hand on my sleeve.. i shook his hand off my shoulder
me “i can do it myself”
i said with an angry tone grabbing the dress with my hand avoiding looking at his face.....
a7mad “mmm la ro’9a u cant lat3andeen...”
gal softly, with a ‘caring’ kind of voice not a bossy one....
me “maba...please”
I mumbled with a low voice in desperation....I really don’t want him to touch me right now.....i’m not in the mood walla.....w maba a3a9b 3alaih zyada cz a3arfa w 7araka el seducing mala...and what I hate the most is that i’d actually react to them....i hate that he has that kind of effect on me...uf
a7mad “elly yra7ych”
he put down the dress on my lap
a7mad “bazgr sara to help u”
he sadly walked out of the room, why does it bother me enna ho za3lan! it shouldn’t! i’m mad at him yes! Sara came on with a smile w sa3adatni with the dress then the 3abaya, she only asked about how I am, we didn’t talk much.
My dad later walked in to my room with my mom w helped collect my stuff then wado elstuff sayarat a7mad. While I was walking out I saw fa6ooma wagfa 3nd el bab, so i went to talk to her....
fa6ooma “ heyy”
me “hii”
I managed to shurg a smile
fa6ooma “ how r u? b5air? galo ams u collapsed cz of ur blood pressure w madri sho?”
me “emm,, ya a7s im better now”
fa6ooma “ok that’s good, a7een mraw7a?”
me “ya i guess”
fa6ooma “ ok yalla bye”
she gave me a hug, then looked at me concerned
fa6ooma “don’t be too hard on a7mad”
me “a7mad? doesn’t he deserve it?”
fa6ooma “look i think i judged him too early, mmm ybayen 3alaih enna he cares about u, if he didn’t makan bytm the whole time here with u , trust me, i know”
i gave her a frown then hugged her again
me “i dont know fa6ooma..”
fa6ooma “ yalla let me take you to the car”
she held my hand w helped me walk to the car, my leg was less injured than my hand so shalo el jbs 3ana but it still hurt, and was wrapped up with a 5elga thing....
She got me into the car and then she left, Sara came in 3dalee then a7mad sat in front to drive us home, gabel manroo7 mama came and gave me a kiss good bye, then we left
As soon as we were home, sara walked me to our room, then excused herself. I went w sat fe our 9ala t3bana...
A7mad walked in with my handbag, with his head down, d5al our bedroom, I looked at him, thinking about wat fa6ooma told me....
His mom walked into the 9ala, and paused for a second when she saw me, I don’t know if I was imagining stuff, but I could’ve sworn she looked worried for a second then she looked to the bedroom
om a7mad “a7maaad?”
he came out, sallam 3alaiha w bas ras’ha
a7mad “halla ommy “
ok now i’m being rude, I tried getting up bs i cringed at the pain cz bel’3ala6 7a6ait pressure on the wrong leg, a7mad saw me so he came w helped me up, i shook his hand off awal ma wgaft
me “Salam w 3alaikm 5alo “
om a7mad “ w 3alaikm el salam”
She looked at me with an expression-less face, I think she’s being nice to me!
om a7mad “a7mad a7atjk fe shay ta3al shway....”
he nodded and followed her out of the 9ala....what could she want? I hope it’s nothing about me, mb mtfayja for any more drama...like seriously..... I just want to sit and watch tv without thinking....
He came quietly in a few minutes later and closed the door behind him
a7mad “tbain takleen shay?”
I continued looking at my Blackberry that I held in one hand and shook my head
a7mad “akeed?”
I know he was just trying to make a conversation so I ignored him
a7mad “so ur just not gonna talk to me?”
I looked at him for a sec, saying nothing then looked back again at my phone, he walked away za3lan to the room, ksar 5a6ri a bit bs i ignored it.
I watched tv until fl lail, a7mad walked in with a plate for me , 7a6a on the table in front of me
a7mad “ here’s 3shach, please keli mb zain che”
He looked at me with concern then dash el’3rfa w he opened the TV there. I got up w ylast 3al ar’9 w ate! I was so hungry, i wanted to hug him for getting food, but ya i didn’t
I slept well that night, i miss my bed, or our bed? ah whatever I slept long before a7mad came in a9lan
The next 5 days were a blur of the same thing again and again
I didn’t talk to him yet, I don’t know if i’m angry at him anymore, I just don’t know what to say to him, I know it’s only been a couple of days bs I miss talking to him so much, Fa6ooma has tried convincing me to let go of this dala3 and be a grown up about it, bs madrii
I was laying down 3al sofa that day being lazy, kan almost 2 pm el ‘9hr when sara knocked the door
me “come inn”
she peeked her face checking then came in w ylsat 3adalii
sara “ ro’9aa i need to talk to u”
3adalt my yalsa and sat up looked at her concerned
me “sho fee??”
sara “r u still not talking to a7mad?”
I nodded to her and sighed.
sara “he came to me ams...”
I looked at her with curiosity
me “he did?”
sara “yaa , gal he needed someone to talk to..”
me “about me?”
sara “yeh...Listen.....i know ho ‘3la6, bs when he came ams he was ......kaif agool? mmmm like kan ...devistated...I’ve never seen him like this.......he kept asking me sara sho asawee...i don’t know kaif ara’9eeha i tried everything w his eyes were watery...I just didn’t know what to tell him I kept quiet b3dain gltela i’ll try talking to u bs he said u wont listen”
I took a deep breath and was thinking
sara “hey im not forcing you into doing anything....bss i just thought u’d want to know..”
me “thanks sara...”
she smiled to me and gave me a tight hug,
sara “yalla I’ll go open my stupid books uf”
me “hehe ok gdluck”
I smiled to her as she walked out closing the door behind her. I’m starting to feel sorry for him, he learnt his lesson right? Maybe I should move on...bs bl tadreej?
I laid down that afternoon on the couch, like how I have been for a while, until about 5 when a7mad came in
He had his head down with a gloomy face, I sat up and looked at him w decided to go for it
me “Salam 3alaikm”
He froze in his place for a second then lifted his head looking at me in disbelief
him “wa...w 3alaikm el salam”
me “how r u?”
I could see the anguish flow away and a pleased smile draw its way on his face
him “ okay... i guess...u?”
me “same.... u hungry?”
He almost jumped from excitement nodding
him “haaaaai wayd walla! 7a6een el ‘3da barra3”
me “ohh ok yalla”
him “laa la sit down bayeeblna 2 plates a7san”
He said with a wide grin putting his briefcase next to the door and rushing out...
I’ve really missed him..... I forgot what a kid he is................katkoot......
he came in with two plates in his hand and sat on the small table jdam el tv putting the two plates on it. I got up and sat down 3dala looking at the food
me “yumm!”
him “hehee! ro’9a’s back”
I turned and glared at him... bs he didn’t laugh this time....he was smiling ever so calmly
me “whaaT?”
I said blushing
a7mad “ha? sho what hehe?”
me “why are you staring at me like that”
a7mad “oh heh............I just......I’ve missed you....so much”
he said with a sad smile. I smiled back, I wanted to hug him, every part of my body wanted it just get up and hug him, but I didn’t.......I said I’d start by talking to him... this can’t just go back like it used to, he has to understand that he can’t just lie to me
a7mad “ dont know laish u did it, bs im so so glad ur talking to me again.........mat3arfeen HOW glad”
he said with a tear in his eye, I didn’t say anything back, i didn’t want to tell him that sara or fatooma influenced me to do this, because it was majorly my choice
me “I just thought u learned your lesson....heh”
a7mad “You have to know something ro’9a....you’re the only one i love......I know you don’t believe me now....but I hope one day u do....because I mean it”
I was overwhelmed with feelings, The thing is a part of me truly believed him and the other part didn’t want to admit it. He probably noticed that I was getting nervous or something so he smiled his sexy grin
a7mad “ yalla EAT! hehe i didn’t get all this food for nothing”
me “heh..ok”
I smiled back to him, and started digging through my plate, I was so hungry! so was he haha
we watched tv w kenna nsoolef....it was fun
a7mad “I’ve missed this”
I smiled and nodded to his sentence.....this guy makes my heart melt......... that is one thing i can not deny
a7mad “Oh! 9a7 My mom..............
TO BE CONTINUED
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a7mad
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I sat in the waiting area since the doctor galatlee atraya barra3
my heart racing and aching all at the same time
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i looked at her weirdly....
me "sho 8a9dich leave me alone?"
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she looked up at me pissed off
ro'9a "i told u to stop..."
me "ro'9a sho feech? Is it your hand?"
ro'9a "NO a7mad it is not my hand..it's u..."
me "me?"
ro'9a "yes a7mad i know...you don't have to hide it anymore"
me "hide? what the hell are you talking about ro'9a!"
ro'9a " a7amd please stop acting stupid fatooma told me awal shay enna she 'heard' how people keep talking about how i ruined your plans of getting married to another woman and i got in the way bs ana glt laa .....akeed chatheb....making excuses for u......and then 7anan herself....."
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me "noo...ro'9a it was nothing like that....w i told u ams my past is my past what I did back then doesn't matter anymore.."
ro'9a "do u know what all the girls call me a7mad? do u?"
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I can't bare seeing her like this......
it's all my fault
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Ro'9a
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Crying in my mommy's lap sure made me feel better..
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I looked at him and sighed....i feel so tired i don't care anymore whatever they want to do with me...
a7mad " 3amty ...3amii... lata3boon 3markum ana batm wyaha w babat hnee..."
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me " I haatee u..."
I said with a resentful tone as I held part of his shirt tight in my fist..
me "I hate u..."
I repeated while still being held in his arms...
his warmth drove me to sleep ....
............
fta7ti 3ainy w looked around until I found him...he had pulled the small sofa as close as he can to my bed while his two arms were folded under his head on the side of my bed...
i noticed his phone was beside one of his hands
.....
opened his calls w i noticed enna he had a miscall just an hour ago mn ra8am '3areeb....without hesitating I dialed the number and held the phone to my ears...
toooot
tooooooot
tooooooooot
girl " Hallaa!.......7abeeebiii....i.."
I quickly closed the call before she could hear my breathing..how it became faster......I could recognize that voice anywhere
it was her........it was 7anan....
..........
i could hear him stretch and felt him pick his phone up
a7mad "uff"
all I could here were his footsteps moving away from me ....the door screeched open then a shut.....I opened my eyes and the room was empty......
ra7 yetti9iL feeha?
.............
while I was in deep thought about my emotional and physical state the door of my room flew open...at first I thought it was a7mad but the girly voices told me otherwise
sara "SHhhhhhhh She's aSLEEP SHWAY SHWAY! "
fatooma "oooopss sorry"
...........
me " wait a minute....what time is it??"
they both looked at me with guilty smiles
sara "mmmm about 3 am hehe"
............
atooma "soo how iss ............mmm....."
she looked at sara then looked back at me...
........
sara "hoooww is what?"
fatooma gave me a 'yikes' look...bs ana I was so relaxed about it
me "you mean how is who...."
.........
sara "what's wrong with him??"
me "mmm nothing's particularly wrong with him....per say....maybe his brain bs..."
i said resentfully
sara "weeeeeee r u guys fighting?"
..........
i told her........everything that happened
all that happened yesterday leaving nothing out...she had her mouth open during most of the conversation... I wasn't sure about what that meant....
then when I finished talking she was silent for a few seconds
......
sara "but...."
...........
sara "but.......if he was going to marry her he would have argued with dad about marrying you...but he didn't..... at all......I even talked to him about marrying you and how he felt about it gabel..... and he said he didn't mind getting married "
...........
I fell silent after that thinking....then faj2a the door opens and a7mad walks in........
I looked at him then stared at the phone is his hands
a7mad "oh asef! maknt a3arf enna fe 7ad da5l"
he said when he saw that fatooma was here....he turned to go back out but...
sara " A7MAD! get back in here! now!"
me and fatooma opened our eyes wide at her! what was she trying to do??
he turned looking confused and walked in closing the door behind him
a7mad "yes sara?"
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Ro'9a
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He stood fe mkana looking at her intensely...
sara got up and stood in front of him looking almost as intense as he was
sara “who’s this 7anan person ?”
his eyebrows cringed and he turned his face towards me looking angry..then 6ala3 el ar’9 thinking for a second... then lifted his head up again
a7mad “.... can I please talk to ro’9a..... alone....”
sara “bs u didn’t answer my question...”
a7mad “sara...please”
he said with an angry tone that gave me a shiver........fatooma got up gave me a ‘yikes’ look w 6l3at with sara....
and they closed the door behind them...
I admit it, knt wayd 5ayfa menna ! i’ve never seen him this serious....well i have bs che u know when a person y7asesch ennch msawya shay ‘3ala6 and u get that disgusting feeling in your stomach... i didn’t show it though i folded my arms and looked directly at him trying my hardest to hide the fear inside me...a9lan its not like he’ll do anything to me i kept telling myself
he walked towards me in slow steps.. our very angry stares met only once as he gave his back to me when he got to my bed and sat 3dali..
I could feel his body stiffen in anger... he took a deep breath trying to ease himself i guess..
a7mad “ why did u tell her?”
he said with an angry tone...he has never talked to me this way .....kan 9dg m3a99eb..
me “ everyone else knew y3ne laish a5sh menha...”
he turned towards me surprised at my words with a confused face...still angry though
a7mad “ sho kel7ad? she’s my sister ro’9a! “
me “so?”
a7mad “ sho so .. mala da3ee tseer t5abreen kel7ad fl 3alam enna we’re fighting enzain...what’s our business is our business and no one else’s ! “
me “ she deserves to know”
a7mad “ la ro’9a ana asif bs no one is supposed to know “
me “enzain kel7ad y3arf why not her too!”
a7mad “ laaa r u even listening to urself? ok a lot of people know about the rumor but no one has to know enna we’re fighting about it!”
i just looked at him annoyed and rolled my eyes
a7mad “ elmohem enna makan la da3i at all tgooleen 7ag e5ti of all people...
w ana maknt aba a7arj 3alaich ....bs stop 7arakatch el6fooleyya ne7n mb yahal”
he looked at me in disgust, got up, and slammed the door behind him.
i felt like someone punctured a hole in my stomach....what the hell, how did all this get flipped? kaif it’s all my fault a7een? ana masawait shay ‘3ala6 ........but why do i feel so much worse now... the pain inside me turned into tears in my eyes...
physical and mental pain are not a good combination... I became more aware of the pain in my hands ...transferring to my head...my tears ... shivers..... i was slowly drifting away into unconsciousness
ma w3ait ella it was morning and i can hear the nurse’s voice above me.... shway shway i opened my eyes w it was only me and two nurses fl ‘3rfa
nurse #1 “good morning maaam how do u feeel?”
me “eehh”
I stretched in my place and took a deep breath then looked at her
me “better i think what happened?”
nurse#2 “your blood pressure increased last night so you lost consciousness but everything is good now don’t worry, you’re going to be checked out in a few hours! “
me “oh ok thank you..”
I let out a yawn... I wonder where everyone is.. i can’t ignore that feeling in me...i’m such a girl 3gub kel ha i was annoyed enna a7mad wasn’t here when I woke up...
what the hell is wrong with me......mfroo’9 i don’t want to see him after thiss
the nurses were done changing my IV and everything else then 5alw my breakfast jdami w ft7ooli el tv on some random channel
i only had one hand that i can use fa fta7t el cover w was struggling to move el other stuff to put it down mkan when you know who walked in...
lafait rasi awal manfta7 el bab bs when our eyes met i quickly looked back at my plate his face wasn’t the same one from yesterday....now he was just the calm a7mad...meanwhile i was still struggling with hal stupid cover of the stupid plate ...
he did not say a word..bs ya 3ndi w very gently 7a6 eeda 3ala eedi w sneaked his fingers slowly taking the cover mn eedi making sure his hand softly touches mine making that tingly feeling in my stomach.....
i quickly took my hand away as he was placing the cover on the side table of the bed.
I took the little sandwich they had with one hand and took a bite staring at the tv ignoring a7mad..ho bs kan yals 3dalii 3al shbreyya ba3ad saying nothing...
he reached in and opened the covers of the other things for me..... uff knt aba a9fa3a... i can do it myself! but i refused to say a word.. 5ala9 malait la3at chabdee ..... i was too tired to be mad at him a9lan .....so i said nothing
i finished my sandwich quickly and quietly sipped my juice, with my eyes on the tv...
a couple of minutes later the nurse knocked and came in
nurse “hi maam how are u dooingg? hello siiir”
me “mmm i feel better a bit”
nurse “ohh good good....your father signed the sign out papers just noww”
me “oh ok”
she turned her face to a7mad who was sitting on the sofa behind her
nurse “r u her husband siir?”
a7mad “yes”
he nodded
nurse “oh ok good you can help her change her clothes”
a7mad “mmm ok”
ok? SHO OK ! i can change my own clothes!! i looked down at my arms and feet and thought that again........ok maybe i can’t bs mafee anyone else who can help me? sho haa uff....although i was so pissed, i kept my mouth shut, i just looked at him in disgust 7ag a second then looked away
the nurse gave us a cute smile and walked out
a7mad “ummmm....”
he looked towards me for a reaction...but i gave him nothing
a7mad “mmm what do u want to wear?”
sho mshkelata.......i turned my head away from him in anger uhhhhhhhhhh 8ahrenni mb mtfayjatlaaa why can’t the nurse change mee.......uf maba a7arj 3alaih ba3ad mb mtfayja agool shaay
a7mad “ermmm... i guess i’ll just choose ayshay roo7ii”
is he serious?? i turned towards him to see what he is doing.. and he was actually choosing 6alla3 a short red baggy dress w laf 9oobi holding it up in his hands
a7mad “I guess this will do....it’s easy to put on”
he walked towards me, giving me a smile.... aaaaaaaaaaah make him go awaaay y8har y8har y8har!! i was just giving him a ‘look’.
a7mad “emm enzain lazm tet7arkain shway heh”
he reached his hand on my sleeve.. i shook his hand off my shoulder
me “i can do it myself”
i said with an angry tone grabbing the dress with my hand avoiding looking at his face.....
a7mad “mmm la ro’9a u cant lat3andeen...”
gal softly, with a ‘caring’ kind of voice not a bossy one....
me “maba...please”
I mumbled with a low voice in desperation....I really don’t want him to touch me right now.....i’m not in the mood walla.....w maba a3a9b 3alaih zyada cz a3arfa w 7araka el seducing mala...and what I hate the most is that i’d actually react to them....i hate that he has that kind of effect on me...uf
a7mad “elly yra7ych”
he put down the dress on my lap
a7mad “bazgr sara to help u”
he sadly walked out of the room, why does it bother me enna ho za3lan! it shouldn’t! i’m mad at him yes! Sara came on with a smile w sa3adatni with the dress then the 3abaya, she only asked about how I am, we didn’t talk much.
My dad later walked in to my room with my mom w helped collect my stuff then wado elstuff sayarat a7mad. While I was walking out I saw fa6ooma wagfa 3nd el bab, so i went to talk to her....
fa6ooma “ heyy”
me “hii”
I managed to shurg a smile
fa6ooma “ how r u? b5air? galo ams u collapsed cz of ur blood pressure w madri sho?”
me “emm,, ya a7s im better now”
fa6ooma “ok that’s good, a7een mraw7a?”
me “ya i guess”
fa6ooma “ ok yalla bye”
she gave me a hug, then looked at me concerned
fa6ooma “don’t be too hard on a7mad”
me “a7mad? doesn’t he deserve it?”
fa6ooma “look i think i judged him too early, mmm ybayen 3alaih enna he cares about u, if he didn’t makan bytm the whole time here with u , trust me, i know”
i gave her a frown then hugged her again
me “i dont know fa6ooma..”
fa6ooma “ yalla let me take you to the car”
she held my hand w helped me walk to the car, my leg was less injured than my hand so shalo el jbs 3ana but it still hurt, and was wrapped up with a 5elga thing....
She got me into the car and then she left, Sara came in 3dalee then a7mad sat in front to drive us home, gabel manroo7 mama came and gave me a kiss good bye, then we left
As soon as we were home, sara walked me to our room, then excused herself. I went w sat fe our 9ala t3bana...
A7mad walked in with my handbag, with his head down, d5al our bedroom, I looked at him, thinking about wat fa6ooma told me....
His mom walked into the 9ala, and paused for a second when she saw me, I don’t know if I was imagining stuff, but I could’ve sworn she looked worried for a second then she looked to the bedroom
om a7mad “a7maaad?”
he came out, sallam 3alaiha w bas ras’ha
a7mad “halla ommy “
ok now i’m being rude, I tried getting up bs i cringed at the pain cz bel’3ala6 7a6ait pressure on the wrong leg, a7mad saw me so he came w helped me up, i shook his hand off awal ma wgaft
me “Salam w 3alaikm 5alo “
om a7mad “ w 3alaikm el salam”
She looked at me with an expression-less face, I think she’s being nice to me!
om a7mad “a7mad a7atjk fe shay ta3al shway....”
he nodded and followed her out of the 9ala....what could she want? I hope it’s nothing about me, mb mtfayja for any more drama...like seriously..... I just want to sit and watch tv without thinking....
He came quietly in a few minutes later and closed the door behind him
a7mad “tbain takleen shay?”
I continued looking at my Blackberry that I held in one hand and shook my head
a7mad “akeed?”
I know he was just trying to make a conversation so I ignored him
a7mad “so ur just not gonna talk to me?”
I looked at him for a sec, saying nothing then looked back again at my phone, he walked away za3lan to the room, ksar 5a6ri a bit bs i ignored it.
I watched tv until fl lail, a7mad walked in with a plate for me , 7a6a on the table in front of me
a7mad “ here’s 3shach, please keli mb zain che”
He looked at me with concern then dash el’3rfa w he opened the TV there. I got up w ylast 3al ar’9 w ate! I was so hungry, i wanted to hug him for getting food, but ya i didn’t
I slept well that night, i miss my bed, or our bed? ah whatever I slept long before a7mad came in a9lan
The next 5 days were a blur of the same thing again and again
I didn’t talk to him yet, I don’t know if i’m angry at him anymore, I just don’t know what to say to him, I know it’s only been a couple of days bs I miss talking to him so much, Fa6ooma has tried convincing me to let go of this dala3 and be a grown up about it, bs madrii
I was laying down 3al sofa that day being lazy, kan almost 2 pm el ‘9hr when sara knocked the door
me “come inn”
she peeked her face checking then came in w ylsat 3adalii
sara “ ro’9aa i need to talk to u”
3adalt my yalsa and sat up looked at her concerned
me “sho fee??”
sara “r u still not talking to a7mad?”
I nodded to her and sighed.
sara “he came to me ams...”
I looked at her with curiosity
me “he did?”
sara “yaa , gal he needed someone to talk to..”
me “about me?”
sara “yeh...Listen.....i know ho ‘3la6, bs when he came ams he was ......kaif agool? mmmm like kan ...devistated...I’ve never seen him like this.......he kept asking me sara sho asawee...i don’t know kaif ara’9eeha i tried everything w his eyes were watery...I just didn’t know what to tell him I kept quiet b3dain gltela i’ll try talking to u bs he said u wont listen”
I took a deep breath and was thinking
sara “hey im not forcing you into doing anything....bss i just thought u’d want to know..”
me “thanks sara...”
she smiled to me and gave me a tight hug,
sara “yalla I’ll go open my stupid books uf”
me “hehe ok gdluck”
I smiled to her as she walked out closing the door behind her. I’m starting to feel sorry for him, he learnt his lesson right? Maybe I should move on...bs bl tadreej?
I laid down that afternoon on the couch, like how I have been for a while, until about 5 when a7mad came in
He had his head down with a gloomy face, I sat up and looked at him w decided to go for it
me “Salam 3alaikm”
He froze in his place for a second then lifted his head looking at me in disbelief
him “wa...w 3alaikm el salam”
me “how r u?”
I could see the anguish flow away and a pleased smile draw its way on his face
him “ okay... i guess...u?”
me “same.... u hungry?”
He almost jumped from excitement nodding
him “haaaaai wayd walla! 7a6een el ‘3da barra3”
me “ohh ok yalla”
him “laa la sit down bayeeblna 2 plates a7san”
He said with a wide grin putting his briefcase next to the door and rushing out...
I’ve really missed him..... I forgot what a kid he is................katkoot......
he came in with two plates in his hand and sat on the small table jdam el tv putting the two plates on it. I got up and sat down 3dala looking at the food
me “yumm!”
him “hehee! ro’9a’s back”
I turned and glared at him... bs he didn’t laugh this time....he was smiling ever so calmly
me “whaaT?”
I said blushing
a7mad “ha? sho what hehe?”
me “why are you staring at me like that”
a7mad “oh heh............I just......I’ve missed you....so much”
he said with a sad smile. I smiled back, I wanted to hug him, every part of my body wanted it just get up and hug him, but I didn’t.......I said I’d start by talking to him... this can’t just go back like it used to, he has to understand that he can’t just lie to me
a7mad “ dont know laish u did it, bs im so so glad ur talking to me again.........mat3arfeen HOW glad”
he said with a tear in his eye, I didn’t say anything back, i didn’t want to tell him that sara or fatooma influenced me to do this, because it was majorly my choice
me “I just thought u learned your lesson....heh”
a7mad “You have to know something ro’9a....you’re the only one i love......I know you don’t believe me now....but I hope one day u do....because I mean it”
I was overwhelmed with feelings, The thing is a part of me truly believed him and the other part didn’t want to admit it. He probably noticed that I was getting nervous or something so he smiled his sexy grin
a7mad “ yalla EAT! hehe i didn’t get all this food for nothing”
me “heh..ok”
I smiled back to him, and started digging through my plate, I was so hungry! so was he haha
we watched tv w kenna nsoolef....it was fun
a7mad “I’ve missed this”
I smiled and nodded to his sentence.....this guy makes my heart melt......... that is one thing i can not deny
a7mad “Oh! 9a7 My mom..............
TO BE CONTINUED
Saturday, June 5, 2010
wed-locked 31
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Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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girl "fyi ana hanan al X...a7mad al X's girl....yes i'm her...i can't believe lech wayh t6l3een jedam el 5alg after what u did..."
i was so pissed at her! so i stood up and answered back!
me " what the hell do u mean?"
girl "latsaween 3umrch baree2a....i know ur family lured his family into getting u two married just for the money...the money that's rightfully MINE!"
me "enti mn wain t2alfeen 8e9a9??stop judging people's life law sma7ty.."
girl "ma 2a2alef ur a BitCH and u know it."
me " what did u call me?"
girl "bitch."
I opened my mouth in anger and doubt then closed it. what the hell is wrong with her and how dare she...uf if i stay here one more minute i'll probably do to her something i'd regret later. I grabbed my bag bser3a and looked at fatooma who had a scared look on her face
me " fatooma ana baroo7 gabel ma i do to this Thing something i would regret! i need to go back home . BYE"
I marched out to the parking lot as her screaming accusations became lower and lower as i walked further away from her
I got into the car took a deep breath and got out of the parking....
My tears which I was trying to keep inside kept streaming on my face....my vision started becoming unclear...
so did my mind...
everything was suddenly blurry....
I couldn't hear anything anymore.....
I couldn't feel my surroundings.....
everything suddenly turned pitch black.........
tootooot.........tootoooot
what's that sound....why do I feel so tired....my eyelids were so heavy to lift open....I fought through the pain and struggeled to open my eyes....blink by blink until I could almost see what was infront of me...which looked like a philipino lady wearing white..
lady " maaam.....maam can u hear me??"
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a7mad
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I sat in the waiting area since the doctor galatlee atraya barra3
my heart racing and aching all at the same time
maybe I shouldn't have let her go out? is it my fault? I couldn't bare seeing her in this state...her arm all bandaged up and her head too.....weddi a3arf sho estwa feeha bs.....ana mt2akd she told me she had her license....i held my tears inside being a man.....
oho mat'thakar me being this sensitive uff what the hell is wrong with me...
I was the only one here in the men's waiting room...saraa and ro'9a's friend fatma were waiting on the other side fl woman's waiting room......
I got up paced until I saw the nurse coming to me informing me that my wife woke up....
I ran to her room not thinking about anything and as soon as I laid eyes on her my heart ached again...yarabiii what did she do to deserve this
r7t ylast 3dalha w i held her hand.....
she tried moving bs I noticed she cringed at the pain when she tried moving her hands...then she muttered something...
me "sho feech? tbain shay? may? e6lebi ely fe 5a6rich ro'9a w ana ayeebaa"
ro'9a "leave me alone.."
what? leave her alone? after all that worrying a7een i'll leave her alone?? 6ab3an la2! what's wrong with her!
i looked at her weirdly....
me "sho 8a9dich leave me alone?"
she looked at me bdoon nefs then she stared into the space jdamha...shakelha she was thinking....did she like loose her memory wla shay so now she doesn't know me fa tbani aroo7? ohooo ma3arf.....
ro'9a "what happened....?"
me "mmm u were in a car accident...the police told me lafaity 3ala wa7d or something...but it's ok i took care of it don't worry....."
her eyes were filled with pain....she looked at me in silence...for a bit
ro'9a "ur...car?"
me "oh ....shar w ra7...bshtree '3airha 3adi..elmohem enti b5air ro'9aa "
she was quiet again...she looked at her wounds and explored them with care... tried moving them as she cringed through the ache that came with their movement....a tear escaped her eyes...
5ala9 magdar sho ha....i went closer to her w held her hand......
me " u need to rest ro'9a...don't move..."
she actually listened to me...closed her eyes and sighed....
ro'9a " stop..."
me "ha?"
she opened her eyes w 6ale3atni eb a resentful look
ro'9a "just stop it a7mad.."
me "ro'9a what are you saying..?"
ro'9a "stop being so nice TO ME!"
i let go of her hand...slowly...what is wrong with her?
tears started pouring out of her eyes....she tried closing her eyes holding them in...but that didn't work so well....
7beebty she couldn't even wipe her tears because her hands were all tied up..she moved her left hand which was less injured and struggled into ems7ing her tears....i brought my hands to her face w masa7t a tear.....she looked up at me pissed off
ro'9a "i told u to stop..."
me "ro'9a sho feech? Is it your hand?"
ro'9a "NO a7mad it is not my hand..it's u..."
me "me?"
ro'9a "yes a7mad i know...you don't have to hide it anymore"
me "hide? what the hell are you talking about ro'9a!"
ro'9a " a7amd please stop acting stupid fatooma told me awal shay enna she 'heard' how people keep talking about how i ruined your plans of getting married to another woman and i got in the way bs ana glt laa .....akeed chatheb....making excuses for u......and then 7anan herself....."
I cringed at the sound of her name coming out of ro'9a's mouth....what the hell is going on?
ro'9a "she came up to me a7mad.......and confirmed the rumors.."
tears were coming out of her eyes..and her voice was shaky
ro'9a "she told me you wanted to get married to her...but then I came and ruined it for you two......w ana che yalsa clueless channi habla............and she's throwing words at me.... and...."
she was stuttering....I sat there in utter silence not knowing what to say to her....It was nothing like that at all.......
me "noo...ro'9a it was nothing like that....w i told u ams my past is my past what I did back then doesn't matter anymore.."
ro'9a "do u know what all the girls call me a7mad? do u?"
I shook my head not knowing how to fix this.....I hate seeing her cry.....hate it.
ro'9a "SLut. yes that's what they call me...because no i can't go around telling everyone i was forced into marrying you .....no.... so they think i seduced you and took you from 7anan...as if......"
me "but..."
ro'9a "but sho a7mad? u could have atleast gave me a heads up...bdal ma ana aseer che ignorant w adaf3 3annek jdam el nas.....I can't believe u.....I actually asked u......"
me "The marriage thing was all kalam fa'9ee bainy w bainha! I wasn't really going to do it....I never liked her that much anyways.....ro'9a please......"
ro'9a "please what? a7mad......."
she said with a lower voice....still tearing
ro'9a "can you please call my mom...i need her.....please"
she bit her lip trapping a sob inside.....I nodded in obediance...Not only have I put her through physical pain but emotional pain too...bs WHAt the hell! ana w 7anan were nothing like me and ro'9a....I just was with her out of habbit......w kan so shallow I can't believe she's around telling people that...................yarabiii shol 7al?
I called her mom w told her about the accident she starting crying on the phone...w came rushing here....I sat on the side of the room 6ool hal wagt...ro'9a wanted some peace banedat 3yoonha and napped,or pretended to, for minutes until her family came rushing in.....
salamt 3alaihum w I watched ro'9a cry in her mom's lap....little did her mom know that those tears were caused by me....it gave me an ache in the back of my stomach....i don't know what to do about it.......kill 7anan is not an option.....
i don't knoww... I just don't know.....
I can't bare seeing her like this......
it's all my fault
Ro'9a
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Crying in my mommy's lap sure made me feel better...I held her hand so tight and just cried....mskeena she thought I just missed her and was scared mn el accident ......bs I was crying more of humiliation....I hate people looking down on me.....A part of me knows it's not a7mad's fault......but I can't forgive him for not telling me...I mean why else would he hide it...he must still have feelings for her.....
mom " 7beebti hadii....ennshalla 5air.....elmohem enti b5aair...."
me "mamaa aba aroo7 el bait...3ndch......"
I could almost feel a7mad's stares piercing through me....especially when I said that....
mama just patted me on the back...telling me everything is going to be ok...my brothers and dad yLso barra3 after ma salemo 3alay baba gal byroo7 ys2al el doctor when they can release me....
this day was such a headache...y3ne could it be any worse?
i relaxed a bit my head on mama's shoulder...she signed and looked at a7mad
mom "a7mad wldiii seer erta7 mala da3i ettem bnrdha elbait 3ndk ..........7aram shaklek ta3ban wayd ! "
a7mad "laa laa 3amety........ana magdar ahed mrtii hnee w hee che...."
he looked at me giving me a soft smile...ana bs 3a6aita one glance and looked away......uf why is he still being so nice? it's getting on my nerves....
my dad barged into the room
dad "tawee kalamt el doctor..gal lazm ysawoom monitoring 7agch fa lazm etemeeen over night hnee...bs bachr el9b7 3ala 6ool tgdreen t6l3een bs lazm trta7ain wayd fl bait! "
I looked at him and sighed....i feel so tired i don't care anymore whatever they want to do with me...
a7mad " 3amty ...3amii... lata3boon 3markum ana batm wyaha w babat hnee..."
i could see a soft smile planting its way on mama's face...she liked a7mad a lot i could read it all over her face.....
baba ya basni 3ala rasii w gal he's going to come tomorrow to check on me bs 3nda sh'3L now w he said he's going to wait for mama barra3
me "mama mamaa please temmmii wyay please latroo7een! law sma7tyy 3shan 5a6rii mama..."
I said while my eyes were filled with tears and I could feel some tears escaping and streaming on my face...
mama mskeena she gave me a tight hug
mama " 7abeebty ro'9a...3adyy a7mad hnee weyaach"
she said still holding on to me...little did she know enna that was the reason i was crying...i didn't want to stay in the same room with him...maba......mabaaa..
i want to go back to when it was just me....and my family.........no complications....nothing
me " mabaa.....abach entiii..."
mama " samii billah ro'9a"
she said while loosening her hug...until she let go and looked at me with a concerned look as she wiped the tears of my face with her soft hands...
mama "yalla mama bshoofch bacher enshalla"
she got up kissed my forehead and left the room...I watched her as she left as closed the door behind her.. my eyes still fixed on where she was...I couldn't fight the tears anymore I started crying, although I did not want him to be here witnessing this..i don't want him to think i'm this weak and enna I need him or anything bs lel2asaf I was too weak....and deep deep down I knew that I did need him but i kept that emotion hidden behind the resentment I felt towards him now....with all my injuries even crying hurt more than usual...i could feel my body ache with every gasp of air I struggled to take.. the tears were suffocating me....
I could hear the sound of subtle footsteps behind my sobs...getting closer towards me until they stopped and he slowly and carefully sat beside me ...wrapping me in his arms forcibly , the warmth overwhelmed me i was not able to push him back or say anything I just continued crying while his warmth unfortunately comforted me... I closed my eyes letting the tears calm down... until I was able to speak again...
me " I haatee u..."
I said with a resentful tone as I held part of his shirt tight in my fist..
me "I hate u..."
I repeated while still being held in his arms.... he said nothing but I could tell he was startled by my words because he paused and was stiff for a minute but then continued stroking my back as if I had said nothing....
I was exhausted from the pain I couldn't take it anymore....
his warmth drove me to sleep ....
I struggled to open my eyes... my head felt better than earlier now, wow resting actually helps...I noticed that I was tucked in properly into the blanket w he wasn't near me anymore...fta7ti 3ainy w looked around until I found him...he had pulled the small sofa as close as he can to my bed while his two arms were folded under his head on the side of my bed...
he looked exhausted....a little part of me felt sorry for him and wanted to get up and tell him to come sleep beside me on the bed...bs the majority of my brain was against it...no...never....
i noticed his phone was beside one of his hands
i picked it up in curiosity...opened his inbox bs makan fe shay....opened his calls w i noticed enna he had a miscall just an hour ago mn ra8am '3areeb....without hesitating I dialed the number and held the phone to my ears...
toooot
tooooooot
tooooooooot
girl " Hallaa!.......7abeeebiii....i.."
I quickly closed the call before she could hear my breathing..how it became faster......I could recognize that voice anywhere
it was her........it was 7anan....
I threw his phone to its previous place in disgust....why did she call him? bs he didn't pick up ....oh bs maybe he was asleep mb enna he ignored her...........i hate her.....and him.....
his phone rang .....I looked over to see her number on the screen....he started moving so I closed my eyes not knowing how to look at him if our eyes meet so yes i pretended to be asleep......
i could hear him stretch and felt him pick his phone up
a7mad "uff"
all I could here were his footsteps moving away from me ....the door screeched open then a shut.....I opened my eyes and the room was empty......
ra7 yetti9iL feeha?
my stomach was twisting and twirling ....it hurt......I've never gone through this before... what have I done to deserve this?
if seeing any other girl looking at a7mad is a pinch of jealousy...the situation now is a "someone threw me off a cliff" kind of jealousy....
ok yes I admit it i'm a jealous person...bs he's at fault too , this time atleast.....I have so much hurt inside me I don't think it's healthy
while I was in deep thought about my emotional and physical state the door of my room flew open...at first I thought it was a7mad but the girly voices told me otherwise
sara "SHhhhhhhh She's aSLEEP SHWAY SHWAY! "
fatooma "oooopss sorry"
she said with a whisper...they both were too busy dealing with the door to actually turn their faces and notice that I'm actually awake
sara " WEEEE ro'9a DID WE WAke u uppp?"
me " laa laa... I was already awake "
I said with a weak smile....
fatooma rushed in and examined the cast on my arm then my foot....then looked at me with tears in her eyes
fatooma "does it hurt...??"
me "a little..."
I lied....
fatooma "7beebty ruuu you didn't deserve this I should have never let you leave! it's all my fault!"
tears started running down her face.....I reached my free hand to the other side and put it on her hand attempting to calm her down
me "la fatooma its not ur fault! 8addar allaho masha2a fa3al"
she looked at me with a sad frown as I shrugged my shoulder slightly....she calmed down at my sentence and sighed
fatooma "yah...I guess.....I'm glad you're kind of ok though..."
me "hehe"
I saw sara yawning while she was sitting at the side of the bed...then it hit me...what are they doing here???
me " wait a minute....what time is it??"
they both looked at me with guilty smiles
sara "mmmm about 3 am hehe"
me "what bs how are u guys here??"
sara "oh baba knows some people! he made some calls and TADA we stayed hehe we waited until a7mad left the room 3shan we sneak in to see u!!"
she said smiling ever so widely ...ktkoota sara...i don't care how much I hate a7mad I just love and adore saraa
I looked at fatooma....and raised one eyebrow...because I knew enna her family isn't that flexible
fatooma " I told them I was staying with you over night fl hospital stop looking at me like that!"
me "hehe"
those two kind of let my mind wander off away from the problems I was facing....thank god they were here...
fatooma "soo how iss ............mmm....."
she looked at sara then looked back at me... but sara's not stupid she knew what fatooma meant by that look ....any normal person would either walk out of the room giving us our privacy or let it go...bs la that's not how sara does it hehe
sara "hoooww is what?"
fatooma gave me a 'yikes' look...bs ana I was so relaxed about it
me "you mean how is who...."
fatooma opened her mouth at me.......the thing is I don't mind talking about a7mad in front of sara AT ALL.....
fatooma "isn't she his sister!"
she whispered at me...6b3an as I said before sara isn't dumb and she isn't deaf as well....
sara "a7mad?"
I just nodded to both of them
sara "what's wrong with him??"
me "mmm nothing's particularly wrong with him....per say....maybe his brain bs..."
i said resentfully
sara "weeeeeee r u guys fighting?"
I stared blankly for a second then sighed...
me "r u sure u want to hear this?"
I said calmly
fatooma "ro'9a! "
sara "la fatooma don't ro'9a her! i do want to knoow!"
she had her eyes wide open at me enna stop this
me "3adi fatooma....since everyone fe this frikin city y3arf doesn't she deserve to know too? "
I said with a frown as my voice slightly weakened towards the end of my sentence
her face relaxed w 7a6at her hand on mine looking down
.......
i told her........everything that happened
all that happened yesterday leaving nothing out...she had her mouth open during most of the conversation... I wasn't sure about what that meant....
then when I finished talking she was silent for a few seconds
......
sara "but...."
she shifted her stare to me....
sara "he never talked about her....ever....r u sure its true?"
I nodded.......because when I talked to a7mad about it he didn't deny it he just said he never was going to marry her....I didn't know what to believe from him....
sara "but.......if he was going to marry her he would have argued with dad about marrying you...but he didn't..... at all......I even talked to him about marrying you and how he felt about it gabel..... and he said he didn't mind getting married "
she paused....her face was so serious...I've never seen her like this before what I said has bothered her too...it's nice to see that she cares
sara "I just don't find it convincing....y3ne maydsh el ras...........besides i know that he's head over heels for u!"
me "I dunno sara....."
I fell silent after that thinking....then faj2a the door opens and a7mad walks in........
I looked at him then stared at the phone is his hands
a7mad "oh asef! maknt a3arf enna fe 7ad da5l"
he said when he saw that fatooma was here....he turned to go back out but...
sara " A7MAD! get back in here! now!"
me and fatooma opened our eyes wide at her! what was she trying to do??
he turned looking confused and walked in closing the door behind him
a7mad "yes sara?"
UHH! I wanted to write more bs I needed more time to do that so I thought I'll just post what I have for now......:$
until next time :*
wed-locked
Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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girl "fyi ana hanan al X...a7mad al X's girl....yes i'm her...i can't believe lech wayh t6l3een jedam el 5alg after what u did..."
i was so pissed at her! so i stood up and answered back!
me " what the hell do u mean?"
girl "latsaween 3umrch baree2a....i know ur family lured his family into getting u two married just for the money...the money that's rightfully MINE!"
me "enti mn wain t2alfeen 8e9a9??stop judging people's life law sma7ty.."
girl "ma 2a2alef ur a BitCH and u know it."
me " what did u call me?"
girl "bitch."
I opened my mouth in anger and doubt then closed it. what the hell is wrong with her and how dare she...uf if i stay here one more minute i'll probably do to her something i'd regret later. I grabbed my bag bser3a and looked at fatooma who had a scared look on her face
me " fatooma ana baroo7 gabel ma i do to this Thing something i would regret! i need to go back home . BYE"
I marched out to the parking lot as her screaming accusations became lower and lower as i walked further away from her
I got into the car took a deep breath and got out of the parking....
My tears which I was trying to keep inside kept streaming on my face....my vision started becoming unclear...
so did my mind...
everything was suddenly blurry....
I couldn't hear anything anymore.....
I couldn't feel my surroundings.....
everything suddenly turned pitch black.........
tootooot.........tootoooot
what's that sound....why do I feel so tired....my eyelids were so heavy to lift open....I fought through the pain and struggeled to open my eyes....blink by blink until I could almost see what was infront of me...which looked like a philipino lady wearing white..
lady " maaam.....maam can u hear me??"
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a7mad
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I sat in the waiting area since the doctor galatlee atraya barra3
my heart racing and aching all at the same time
maybe I shouldn't have let her go out? is it my fault? I couldn't bare seeing her in this state...her arm all bandaged up and her head too.....weddi a3arf sho estwa feeha bs.....ana mt2akd she told me she had her license....i held my tears inside being a man.....
oho mat'thakar me being this sensitive uff what the hell is wrong with me...
I was the only one here in the men's waiting room...saraa and ro'9a's friend fatma were waiting on the other side fl woman's waiting room......
I got up paced until I saw the nurse coming to me informing me that my wife woke up....
I ran to her room not thinking about anything and as soon as I laid eyes on her my heart ached again...yarabiii what did she do to deserve this
r7t ylast 3dalha w i held her hand.....
she tried moving bs I noticed she cringed at the pain when she tried moving her hands...then she muttered something...
me "sho feech? tbain shay? may? e6lebi ely fe 5a6rich ro'9a w ana ayeebaa"
ro'9a "leave me alone.."
what? leave her alone? after all that worrying a7een i'll leave her alone?? 6ab3an la2! what's wrong with her!
i looked at her weirdly....
me "sho 8a9dich leave me alone?"
she looked at me bdoon nefs then she stared into the space jdamha...shakelha she was thinking....did she like loose her memory wla shay so now she doesn't know me fa tbani aroo7? ohooo ma3arf.....
ro'9a "what happened....?"
me "mmm u were in a car accident...the police told me lafaity 3ala wa7d or something...but it's ok i took care of it don't worry....."
her eyes were filled with pain....she looked at me in silence...for a bit
ro'9a "ur...car?"
me "oh ....shar w ra7...bshtree '3airha 3adi..elmohem enti b5air ro'9aa "
she was quiet again...she looked at her wounds and explored them with care... tried moving them as she cringed through the ache that came with their movement....a tear escaped her eyes...
5ala9 magdar sho ha....i went closer to her w held her hand......
me " u need to rest ro'9a...don't move..."
she actually listened to me...closed her eyes and sighed....
ro'9a " stop..."
me "ha?"
she opened her eyes w 6ale3atni eb a resentful look
ro'9a "just stop it a7mad.."
me "ro'9a what are you saying..?"
ro'9a "stop being so nice TO ME!"
i let go of her hand...slowly...what is wrong with her?
tears started pouring out of her eyes....she tried closing her eyes holding them in...but that didn't work so well....
7beebty she couldn't even wipe her tears because her hands were all tied up..she moved her left hand which was less injured and struggled into ems7ing her tears....i brought my hands to her face w masa7t a tear.....she looked up at me pissed off
ro'9a "i told u to stop..."
me "ro'9a sho feech? Is it your hand?"
ro'9a "NO a7mad it is not my hand..it's u..."
me "me?"
ro'9a "yes a7mad i know...you don't have to hide it anymore"
me "hide? what the hell are you talking about ro'9a!"
ro'9a " a7amd please stop acting stupid fatooma told me awal shay enna she 'heard' how people keep talking about how i ruined your plans of getting married to another woman and i got in the way bs ana glt laa .....akeed chatheb....making excuses for u......and then 7anan herself....."
I cringed at the sound of her name coming out of ro'9a's mouth....what the hell is going on?
ro'9a "she came up to me a7mad.......and confirmed the rumors.."
tears were coming out of her eyes..and her voice was shaky
ro'9a "she told me you wanted to get married to her...but then I came and ruined it for you two......w ana che yalsa clueless channi habla............and she's throwing words at me.... and...."
she was stuttering....I sat there in utter silence not knowing what to say to her....It was nothing like that at all.......
me "noo...ro'9a it was nothing like that....w i told u ams my past is my past what I did back then doesn't matter anymore.."
ro'9a "do u know what all the girls call me a7mad? do u?"
I shook my head not knowing how to fix this.....I hate seeing her cry.....hate it.
ro'9a "SLut. yes that's what they call me...because no i can't go around telling everyone i was forced into marrying you .....no.... so they think i seduced you and took you from 7anan...as if......"
me "but..."
ro'9a "but sho a7mad? u could have atleast gave me a heads up...bdal ma ana aseer che ignorant w adaf3 3annek jdam el nas.....I can't believe u.....I actually asked u......"
me "The marriage thing was all kalam fa'9ee bainy w bainha! I wasn't really going to do it....I never liked her that much anyways.....ro'9a please......"
ro'9a "please what? a7mad......."
she said with a lower voice....still tearing
ro'9a "can you please call my mom...i need her.....please"
she bit her lip trapping a sob inside.....I nodded in obediance...Not only have I put her through physical pain but emotional pain too...bs WHAt the hell! ana w 7anan were nothing like me and ro'9a....I just was with her out of habbit......w kan so shallow I can't believe she's around telling people that...................yarabiii shol 7al?
I called her mom w told her about the accident she starting crying on the phone...w came rushing here....I sat on the side of the room 6ool hal wagt...ro'9a wanted some peace banedat 3yoonha and napped,or pretended to, for minutes until her family came rushing in.....
salamt 3alaihum w I watched ro'9a cry in her mom's lap....little did her mom know that those tears were caused by me....it gave me an ache in the back of my stomach....i don't know what to do about it.......kill 7anan is not an option.....
i don't knoww... I just don't know.....
I can't bare seeing her like this......
it's all my fault
Ro'9a
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Crying in my mommy's lap sure made me feel better...I held her hand so tight and just cried....mskeena she thought I just missed her and was scared mn el accident ......bs I was crying more of humiliation....I hate people looking down on me.....A part of me knows it's not a7mad's fault......but I can't forgive him for not telling me...I mean why else would he hide it...he must still have feelings for her.....
mom " 7beebti hadii....ennshalla 5air.....elmohem enti b5aair...."
me "mamaa aba aroo7 el bait...3ndch......"
I could almost feel a7mad's stares piercing through me....especially when I said that....
mama just patted me on the back...telling me everything is going to be ok...my brothers and dad yLso barra3 after ma salemo 3alay baba gal byroo7 ys2al el doctor when they can release me....
this day was such a headache...y3ne could it be any worse?
i relaxed a bit my head on mama's shoulder...she signed and looked at a7mad
mom "a7mad wldiii seer erta7 mala da3i ettem bnrdha elbait 3ndk ..........7aram shaklek ta3ban wayd ! "
a7mad "laa laa 3amety........ana magdar ahed mrtii hnee w hee che...."
he looked at me giving me a soft smile...ana bs 3a6aita one glance and looked away......uf why is he still being so nice? it's getting on my nerves....
my dad barged into the room
dad "tawee kalamt el doctor..gal lazm ysawoom monitoring 7agch fa lazm etemeeen over night hnee...bs bachr el9b7 3ala 6ool tgdreen t6l3een bs lazm trta7ain wayd fl bait! "
I looked at him and sighed....i feel so tired i don't care anymore whatever they want to do with me...
a7mad " 3amty ...3amii... lata3boon 3markum ana batm wyaha w babat hnee..."
i could see a soft smile planting its way on mama's face...she liked a7mad a lot i could read it all over her face.....
baba ya basni 3ala rasii w gal he's going to come tomorrow to check on me bs 3nda sh'3L now w he said he's going to wait for mama barra3
me "mama mamaa please temmmii wyay please latroo7een! law sma7tyy 3shan 5a6rii mama..."
I said while my eyes were filled with tears and I could feel some tears escaping and streaming on my face...
mama mskeena she gave me a tight hug
mama " 7abeebty ro'9a...3adyy a7mad hnee weyaach"
she said still holding on to me...little did she know enna that was the reason i was crying...i didn't want to stay in the same room with him...maba......mabaaa..
i want to go back to when it was just me....and my family.........no complications....nothing
me " mabaa.....abach entiii..."
mama " samii billah ro'9a"
she said while loosening her hug...until she let go and looked at me with a concerned look as she wiped the tears of my face with her soft hands...
mama "yalla mama bshoofch bacher enshalla"
she got up kissed my forehead and left the room...I watched her as she left as closed the door behind her.. my eyes still fixed on where she was...I couldn't fight the tears anymore I started crying, although I did not want him to be here witnessing this..i don't want him to think i'm this weak and enna I need him or anything bs lel2asaf I was too weak....and deep deep down I knew that I did need him but i kept that emotion hidden behind the resentment I felt towards him now....with all my injuries even crying hurt more than usual...i could feel my body ache with every gasp of air I struggled to take.. the tears were suffocating me....
I could hear the sound of subtle footsteps behind my sobs...getting closer towards me until they stopped and he slowly and carefully sat beside me ...wrapping me in his arms forcibly , the warmth overwhelmed me i was not able to push him back or say anything I just continued crying while his warmth unfortunately comforted me... I closed my eyes letting the tears calm down... until I was able to speak again...
me " I haatee u..."
I said with a resentful tone as I held part of his shirt tight in my fist..
me "I hate u..."
I repeated while still being held in his arms.... he said nothing but I could tell he was startled by my words because he paused and was stiff for a minute but then continued stroking my back as if I had said nothing....
I was exhausted from the pain I couldn't take it anymore....
his warmth drove me to sleep ....
I struggled to open my eyes... my head felt better than earlier now, wow resting actually helps...I noticed that I was tucked in properly into the blanket w he wasn't near me anymore...fta7ti 3ainy w looked around until I found him...he had pulled the small sofa as close as he can to my bed while his two arms were folded under his head on the side of my bed...
he looked exhausted....a little part of me felt sorry for him and wanted to get up and tell him to come sleep beside me on the bed...bs the majority of my brain was against it...no...never....
i noticed his phone was beside one of his hands
i picked it up in curiosity...opened his inbox bs makan fe shay....opened his calls w i noticed enna he had a miscall just an hour ago mn ra8am '3areeb....without hesitating I dialed the number and held the phone to my ears...
toooot
tooooooot
tooooooooot
girl " Hallaa!.......7abeeebiii....i.."
I quickly closed the call before she could hear my breathing..how it became faster......I could recognize that voice anywhere
it was her........it was 7anan....
I threw his phone to its previous place in disgust....why did she call him? bs he didn't pick up ....oh bs maybe he was asleep mb enna he ignored her...........i hate her.....and him.....
his phone rang .....I looked over to see her number on the screen....he started moving so I closed my eyes not knowing how to look at him if our eyes meet so yes i pretended to be asleep......
i could hear him stretch and felt him pick his phone up
a7mad "uff"
all I could here were his footsteps moving away from me ....the door screeched open then a shut.....I opened my eyes and the room was empty......
ra7 yetti9iL feeha?
my stomach was twisting and twirling ....it hurt......I've never gone through this before... what have I done to deserve this?
if seeing any other girl looking at a7mad is a pinch of jealousy...the situation now is a "someone threw me off a cliff" kind of jealousy....
ok yes I admit it i'm a jealous person...bs he's at fault too , this time atleast.....I have so much hurt inside me I don't think it's healthy
while I was in deep thought about my emotional and physical state the door of my room flew open...at first I thought it was a7mad but the girly voices told me otherwise
sara "SHhhhhhhh She's aSLEEP SHWAY SHWAY! "
fatooma "oooopss sorry"
she said with a whisper...they both were too busy dealing with the door to actually turn their faces and notice that I'm actually awake
sara " WEEEE ro'9a DID WE WAke u uppp?"
me " laa laa... I was already awake "
I said with a weak smile....
fatooma rushed in and examined the cast on my arm then my foot....then looked at me with tears in her eyes
fatooma "does it hurt...??"
me "a little..."
I lied....
fatooma "7beebty ruuu you didn't deserve this I should have never let you leave! it's all my fault!"
tears started running down her face.....I reached my free hand to the other side and put it on her hand attempting to calm her down
me "la fatooma its not ur fault! 8addar allaho masha2a fa3al"
she looked at me with a sad frown as I shrugged my shoulder slightly....she calmed down at my sentence and sighed
fatooma "yah...I guess.....I'm glad you're kind of ok though..."
me "hehe"
I saw sara yawning while she was sitting at the side of the bed...then it hit me...what are they doing here???
me " wait a minute....what time is it??"
they both looked at me with guilty smiles
sara "mmmm about 3 am hehe"
me "what bs how are u guys here??"
sara "oh baba knows some people! he made some calls and TADA we stayed hehe we waited until a7mad left the room 3shan we sneak in to see u!!"
she said smiling ever so widely ...ktkoota sara...i don't care how much I hate a7mad I just love and adore saraa
I looked at fatooma....and raised one eyebrow...because I knew enna her family isn't that flexible
fatooma " I told them I was staying with you over night fl hospital stop looking at me like that!"
me "hehe"
those two kind of let my mind wander off away from the problems I was facing....thank god they were here...
fatooma "soo how iss ............mmm....."
she looked at sara then looked back at me... but sara's not stupid she knew what fatooma meant by that look ....any normal person would either walk out of the room giving us our privacy or let it go...bs la that's not how sara does it hehe
sara "hoooww is what?"
fatooma gave me a 'yikes' look...bs ana I was so relaxed about it
me "you mean how is who...."
fatooma opened her mouth at me.......the thing is I don't mind talking about a7mad in front of sara AT ALL.....
fatooma "isn't she his sister!"
she whispered at me...6b3an as I said before sara isn't dumb and she isn't deaf as well....
sara "a7mad?"
I just nodded to both of them
sara "what's wrong with him??"
me "mmm nothing's particularly wrong with him....per say....maybe his brain bs..."
i said resentfully
sara "weeeeeee r u guys fighting?"
I stared blankly for a second then sighed...
me "r u sure u want to hear this?"
I said calmly
fatooma "ro'9a! "
sara "la fatooma don't ro'9a her! i do want to knoow!"
she had her eyes wide open at me enna stop this
me "3adi fatooma....since everyone fe this frikin city y3arf doesn't she deserve to know too? "
I said with a frown as my voice slightly weakened towards the end of my sentence
her face relaxed w 7a6at her hand on mine looking down
.......
i told her........everything that happened
all that happened yesterday leaving nothing out...she had her mouth open during most of the conversation... I wasn't sure about what that meant....
then when I finished talking she was silent for a few seconds
......
sara "but...."
she shifted her stare to me....
sara "he never talked about her....ever....r u sure its true?"
I nodded.......because when I talked to a7mad about it he didn't deny it he just said he never was going to marry her....I didn't know what to believe from him....
sara "but.......if he was going to marry her he would have argued with dad about marrying you...but he didn't..... at all......I even talked to him about marrying you and how he felt about it gabel..... and he said he didn't mind getting married "
she paused....her face was so serious...I've never seen her like this before what I said has bothered her too...it's nice to see that she cares
sara "I just don't find it convincing....y3ne maydsh el ras...........besides i know that he's head over heels for u!"
me "I dunno sara....."
I fell silent after that thinking....then faj2a the door opens and a7mad walks in........
I looked at him then stared at the phone is his hands
a7mad "oh asef! maknt a3arf enna fe 7ad da5l"
he said when he saw that fatooma was here....he turned to go back out but...
sara " A7MAD! get back in here! now!"
me and fatooma opened our eyes wide at her! what was she trying to do??
he turned looking confused and walked in closing the door behind him
a7mad "yes sara?"
Thursday, May 20, 2010
wed-locked 30
Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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Ro'9a
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me " la2 a7mad i'm not like that...see thiss, thiss is exactly y im shwaya mt'9ayga"
a7mad "ahaa! so u are mt'9ayga see i knew it!"
I just looked at him and glared bdoon ma agool shay
a7mad " hehe sorry sorry, inzain elmohem, what do you means this? this what?"
me " mm how can I say this,,, a7mad we hardly know each other... I mean What's your favorite color, what are your hobbies? what are things you get disgusted from, or t5af menhum . Or ....like kelshay......I hardly know anything about u"
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It took him a minute to rush back in as he blurted
a7mad " Blue..."
me "ha....?"
a7mad " my favorite color... its blue..."
me "oh"
a7mad "and I like skiing, skate boarding, biking, swimming, reading, hanging out anywhere basically, going to the beach... w mmm what else...oh and I get disgusted from any fruit with hairy qualities.....and mmmm I'm not particularly scared from anything I just dislike cats"
me "mmm"
a7mad " no look , these things don't matter we find out these things about each other in time as we live more together ..."
me "i know but..."
a7mad " but sho ro'9a? I said I love you w I'm not going to take it back, because ana glt sho da5li w i meant it....because those small things may59hom.....I wont love you because your favorite color is green or because you hate cats too, I fell in love with you because of the way you smile to me when we first wake in the morning, because of how you took care of me when I got sick, because of how you put up with my load of crap wya my family and make me feel better at the end of every day, THOSE are the things that matter... those the reasons I fell in love with you ro'9a....not your hobbies or your favorite movie...
.................
a7mad " a7bch....I really doo ro'9a....w a3arf this is not just simple attraction to you, its not just e3jab because your pretty and all... because marrait thro that in my teenage years...but this time its different..."
.................
"fatooma Calling "
shalait el telephone as fast as I could!
me shouting " ALOOO"
fatooma " ro'9aa heey..."
..................
atooma " elsalfa 6weela I need to see you face to face! we really need to talk...about everything"
me " enzain whats it about at leaaaast??? "
fatooma " don't u dare change how ur acting around him....but it's about a7mad."
me " what? shoy5e9a?"
fatooma " when can I see u?"
me " madri ay wagtt"
fatooma " tomorrow breakfasT?"
me " ok...."
fatooma " and ro'9a.."
me "hmm?"
fatooma " I love u ..."
me " love you too...."
fatooma "byeeee"
tooooot toooooooot....................
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Ro'9a
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I stared at my phone after closing it...
3an a7mad? mmm what could it possibly be that she stopped talking to me for so long.....
I came back into the room staring at my phone held in my hand, while i was in deep thought, wondering...what could it be...mshkela I can't just ask a7mad she told me not to act differently towards him ba3ad...mmm did she see him cheating on me? wla is he like actually married or something...so many different scenarios rushed through my mind until his voice snapped me out of all of it...
a7mad " who was it?"
I lifted my head and looked at him with blank eyes ..
me " haa?"
a7mad " who was it on the phone"
he said with a soft smile on his face, not in an intruding voice bs che asking out of interest....I couldn't feel angry or anything towards him because maknt a3arf shol salfa yet ....
me "oh fatooma my best friend.."
a7mad "oh..mmmm have I seen her?"
me "mmmm ma'9n i haven't seen her or spoken to her since el...wedding..."
a7mad " ha... laish?"
me "mmm madri... bs bachr baseer breakfast wyaha 3adi?"
a7mad "ya sure..."
me "oh shit nsait as2alha wain bntrayag 9a7! "
I took my phone and sms-ed her
To : FatooMa
HEY ! magelteeeeli where we're meeeetin and what time! <3
cnt wait...!
sent.
I threw my phone on the side table w turned my head, looked at him and sighed
he had a kind of scary look on his face as he approached me 'crawling' on the bed.. i have no idea sho ho yals y7wel ysawee bt i just stared at him with one eyebrow raised. he came closer and closer lain ma yab rasa 3nd raseee exactly and he had a smirk on his face...oh he wants to kiss me? Is that what he's doing?
me "mmmmm...a7maddd ...what r u doin"
he let out a low 'heh' then brought his head closer and warmly kissed my neck, then rajja3 his head back and looked at me smiling
a7mad "this.."
The thing is moody e5trab after I talked to fatooma, especially towards a7mad, i mean i suck at pretending nothing had happened! even though I do not really know what happened....It can't be that bad of a thing can it? uff i hate thisss...!
I looked at him trying to put a 'please -no' look on my face so that he wouldn't go on with this kissing since ana 9dg mb fl mood
but...i think he took it the wrong way... he came closer w kamal sh'3la while i sat there bs 7a6ait my hand on his shoulder since i couldn't just sit there. w mb 3akaify agoola move away akeed byshek, plus i have no reason to tell him off, yet.
He stopped at a moment and looked at me with a confused face
a7mad " balach?"
me "haa? nothing.."
a7mad "mmm"
He got up and sat 3adel 3dali...
a7mad "mmm why r u being so...bardaa..."
me "barda? mmm madri t3bana shway"
a7mad "t3bana? c'mon its only 9 pm!"
I shrugged my shoulders not knowing what to say to him...bs maybe he'd take a hint and leave this 'making out' for another day or something.
a7mad "hmm is it about fatma ur friend? "
me "laa may5e9a...im just tired i didn't sleep well ams"
a7mad "la bs 3gb makalamteeha ur face t'3ayar...shaklch..che... uncomfortable"
uf why is he such a good face reader! w laish ana che fashla in hiding my feelings this is annoying
me " la a7maad im fine 9dgg..."
I said while smiling..i hate lying to him, ana mt3awda doum im honest wya this is weird...
a7mad "mmm if u say so.."
he got up the bed and walked to his side of the bed then sat 3alaih with a totally different expression than earlier...kan annoyed and m7arj...yes i can read his face just as good as he can read mine ...
I felt so guilty...what if what fatooma has to say is nothing bad w ana che i'm being mean for no reason faj2a..w tawwa he was so romantic with me earlier......im such an emotional wreck!
me " a7maad.."
a7mad " na3am?"
he said with a low voice, while turning his head looking at me with a semi- frowned face
me " ana asfaa...if u want....mmm 3ady 3ndiii.....che...u knw"
i was blurting out random non sense..m3rf etha feham sho 89dyy bs enna he's my husband magdar amna3a if he wants to do something, i don't want to get ethem....
a7mad " la 3adi...a9lan i don't feel like it anymore..."
he said coldly w laf rasa grabbed the remote w turned the tv on with low volume...
uho ma7b ashoofa che z3lan menniiii laish che sawait a7een a7s aba abooosaa to make him smile to me agaaaain..... he's such a baby...ok ok it's my fault too bs still laish che ysawee 7arakat yahaaaaal ..... MEN! uf
to make up with him or not to? mshkela when u see his face u can't resist el cuteness especially when ykoon za3lannnnn! uf bs this fatooma thing is really annoying me!
uhoo this is just so not me ill just tell him!
me " fine! "
a7mad turned his face to me with a confused look
a7mad " sho fine?"
me " it is about fatooma....."
a7mad "eh...i knew it......"
i had a troubled look on my face i couldn't keep it in, i had to face him with it, maybe he has something to say before I actually talk to fatooma....
I scooted next to him and folded my legs, took a breath, then looked at him with serious eyes...
me "mmm look is there something ur like hiding from me w u want to tell me or shay che?"
he got up w ylas 3adel looking confused...
a7mad "ha...what do u mean?"
me " like anthingg.....u'd want to t5aberni..."
a7mad "what kind of thing mathalan??"
me "ma3rf anyything..."
a7mad " can u be more specific 3shan a3arf ajawb el su2al please! "
me "magdar i really don't know....sho 8a9dik specific how many things are u hiding from me??"
a7mad "la i'm not hiding shay mennich ro'9a bs y3ne sho hal su2al what did ur friend tell u?"
me "she told me nothing a7mad... bs look she told me not to tell u anything w i trust her she was my friend since we were like 6 or something so mabt2allef ashya2... she only said that she needs to talk to me...about u tomorrow....."
He had a confused look ..
a7mad " about mee? sho 8a9dha?"
me "mmmm ma3rf i'll find out tomorrow.....bs glt bas2alk maybe u would tell me urself....wla maybe it's something you don't know of? madri...."
a7mad "hmm...."
he had a serious look on his face while he was blankly looking down...
I just sighed.....still looking at him...he looked up with a serious face....
a7mad "look ana ma3rf what ur friend is refering to....bs you should know that I didn't hide anything from you since we got married, y3ne u know kelshay estwa since we got married until now, I mean i'm always with u a9lan..... but if she is referring to my past then I have done a lot of mistakes w mashft enna la da3i I mention any of them unless you really want to know wla it actually affects u.......w 9ara7a a7s whatever happened in my past has no relevance to my life now...."
me "mmm what do u mean?"
a7mad "mm like ayshay y3ne...u know.... like you're not the first girl i talk to fe 7ayatee w che....."
me "mmm i know.."
i said while rolling my eyes ... him saying that let out an annoying feeling in my stomach...
a7mad "see ro'9a if 3ndch as2la s2leeni w i'd tell u because I have nothing to hide..."
me "mb enna 3ndi su2al bss hmmmmm ma3rf...."
should i let out my questions? I have like a zillion but maybe I can ask one or two...uf i hate my curiousityy.....
me "mmm a7mad...do u have feelings for ay7ad from ur past?"
a7mad "seriously?"
I looked at him with my big eyes..owaih maybe I shouldn't have asked that....but like seriously I should know right?...uf its that feeling deep down in my stomach again...I don't feel good...
I didn't say anything back waiting for his answer...
a7mad "I can't believe you actually think that...listen ro'9a ana mabayls a5re6 3ala MURTY w agoolha a7bch w stuff like that unless i mean it y3ne why would I lie sho ba7a9l mn wara this lie?! "
me "mmm that's not what i asked...."
a7mad "I know bs agoolch y3ne I only have feelings for you....w I've told u once before enna when et3araft 3alaich estaw3abt enna el 5arabee6 that I had before were nothing compared to this..the real thing.....so my answer is definitely not...."
he looked at me m7arrej
a7mad " i can't believe a9lan enna ur asking me this! "
me " what enzaaaain u never know.....asfaa...u can ask me whatever u want b3ad"
a7mad "no i don't have questions for u because anaaa unlike some people....i trust u..."
me "shoy5e9a...i didn't say i don't trust u.."
a7mad "mmm that's what ur question lamma7..."
me "sorry enzaaaain i just needed to feel reassured..."
a7mad " how many times do i have to tell u enny a7bbich for u to believe me?"
He was actually talking very seriously hnee..bs ana I just blushed and smiled because i duno .... i just did! a9lan if I didn't trust him maknt bafta7 hal salfa weya mn el bdaya...I wonder what fatooma has to say tho....
after that shway heda el jaw... he sighed and couldnt help not smile back at me getting shy awana...
he sat back etsanad 3ala his pillow and sighed... his face was still mmm...not fully restored y3ne...ashkera et'9ayag enna s2alta bout that... i didn't know what to do sO i just tucked in into the la7af right next to him and 7a6ait raseee 3ala chatfa...he didn't move a muscle...he usually takes my hand and holds it in his wla shay che...i don't like this feeling......
too tooot.....
i jumped up at the sound of my message w grabbed my phone w fta7t el sms.....
from: Fatooma
oh 9a7 ! lool mmm shakespeare the village ? lets meet there at 10 am? if u can?
I replied as fast as I could...ok maybe the things she wants to tell me aren't good or so...bs i miss her so muchhhh!
To: Fatooma
YAaaaaaay ok :D
can't wait to see u <3
gniteee
I put my phone back on the side table and turned towards a7mad... he was looking at me with a serious face...
a7mad "was that her?"
me " yeaa..."
a7mad " and?"
me "bntrayag fe shakespeare at 10"
I said smiling widely
a7mad "oh so ur still meeting with her y3ne?"
me "mmm yaa i haven't seen her in ages! i miss her so much"
gltella while pouting 3shan ykoon 3adi 3nda..!
a7mad "hmm...ok"
he said nodding then turned back to watch one tv, kano 7a6een harry potter....and yes a7mad is a harry potter geek.. not that I have anything against that <3
re7t ylast jreeb menna bs this time ma7a6ait my head on his shoulder, just sat up right next to him
we did not talk that night...i sat there w next thing i know I woke up to an empty room at the sound of my phone ringing
me " alooo..."
fatooma "WAINCHH??"
I jumped out of bed faj2aaaa
me " SHIT!!!! WHAT TIME IS IT?"
fatooma "mmm it's 10 w ana hnee i thought u'd be here earlyyyyy"
me " SHIt shit shit shit im soooo SORRY ufff i can't believe i didn't wake uppppp! give me 10 minutes w ba6la3 please please pleaseee"
fatooma "hahah calm down ana batraya 3adi bs zain wa3aitich!"
me "sorryyy"
fatooma " hahha 3adi yalla yalla goomi c u in a bit "
me "bye C U!"
SHIT! out of all the mornings in the world TODAY i don't hear my alarm!! wait did I put an alarm? oops i ran to my closet put on any leggings and top... took one of my new 3abayas that a7mad's mom put in my closet and wore it with marc jacobs flats w grabbed a black shan6a shoved my wallet and bb into it then paused when I saw a7mads range rover's keys on the table with a note
"I left the car for u, a7mad"
I took the keys in excitement w got in the car w drove to fatooma
I slowly parked the car into the parking carefully w got down w rushed to shakespeare w saw her ...she stood up when she saw me w we did all our hugging
then sat back down....I kinda got carried away I caught some people next to us staring at is weirdly....
me "how r uuuuuuu"
fatooma "mmmm ok"
me " i miss u zaggaa!"
fatooma "ayyy laish tsbeeni! i miss u too!"
me "hehee testahlain u just ignored me cz i got married "
i said frowning
fatooma " ayy don't say that it's not like that..."
she said while her eyes becoming watery...
fatooma "shoofi a9lan magdart at7ammal so i called u..."
I just smiled to her......
me "a7s mn sneeen i didn't talk to u...its like a7mad'z my new best friend now"
she frowned then sighed..
fatooma "listen....bout a7mad ......i didn't want to hurt u awal matzawajti u know...u were already forced into it so b'3ait u enjoy it a bit .....so maknt aba agoolch elshay fa i saw that it was better etha i stayed away.....bs i couldn't take it anymore....plus it's something you should know about your husband a7s..."
me "fatooma enough with the shoysamoona...introductions.....jst tell mee sholsalfa! "
fatooma " ok ok sorry.....bgoollich what happened mn el bdaya....
che 2 days after your wedding raysa al X called me w 3ezmatni 3ala a party they were having for her sisters birthday in their house...w 3zmo a lot of people...so i went w bs knt a3arf hayail goum 7amda w raysa .. the others i havn't seen them in my life... so ana che just standing there mstansa eyooli bntain w they're like excuuse me enti fatma al X rbee3at ro'9a al x??? ana che mmm yes i am....hum che omg ur friend is such a bitch what the hell is wrong with her stealing people's belongings! then one of them in specific esemha hanan al X was like he was mine! she stole him from mee ! we were gonna get married ....then she went on telling me to tell u she's gonna get him back and return what's rightfully hers w 5arabee6 like that...ana hnee i just looked at her like she's crazy and i walked away.....agoolch she was so scary! "
me "what? they were going to get married??"
fatooma "that's what she said... fl bdaya ana chee enna oh akeed she's just maynoona...so i ignored her...bs b3dain a lot of people came up to me w started saying things like kaif ur friend tetjarra2 tsawee chee wla man7eed ro'9a kanat like that...a7een wayd 6la3 3anha kalam....w ma3rf what else she's spreading around bs like everyone knows that they were going to get married then you came w 5athtee menha...or atleast that's what she's telling people"
me "what the hell shoy5e9a!!"
fatooma " I know!!! w ana ma3arf what to tell them OR YOU....i didn't want to overwhelm u with more bad news w enti roo7ch t3aneen knt aba atm away but now a7s u should know..."
i felt my eyes getting watery
me "he was going to get married?? but .....what the hell..."
she put her hands on my knees...making me calm down...i had nothing to say...why didn't he tell me ams? I mean i asked him right in his face!
a tear escaped my eyes w at that moment my phone rang
riing .............ring
I looked down at it...w it read his name........"a7mady" fatooma peeked in to see the caller's name then she sighed the second time it rang
fatooma " mabtsheleen?"
me ".. ma'9n i'm ready to talk to him yet..."
I felt an ache deep down in my stomach..like its twisting...painfully....the fact that he lied aches...what else could he be hiding.....
while i was lost in my miserable thoughts a girl came 3enna
girl " excuse me"
i turned my head towards her with a blank look
girl " entii ro'9a al x?"
I looked at her then thought if i should tell the truth or not bs just went with my gut and nodded...
girl "fyi ana hanan al X...a7mad al X's girl....yes i'm her...i can't believe lech wayh t6l3een jedam el 5alg after what u did..."
i was so pissed at her! so i stood up and answered back!
me " what the hell do u mean?"
girl "latsaween 3umrch baree2a....i know ur family lured his family into getting u two married just for the money...the money that's rightfully MINE!"
me "enti mn wain t2alfeen 8e9a9??stop judging people's life law sma7ty.."
girl "ma 2a2alef ur a BitCH and u know it."
me " what did u call me?"
girl "bitch."
I opened my mouth in anger and doubt then closed it. what the hell is wrong with her and how dare she...uf if i stay here one more minute i'll probably do to her something i'd regret later. I grabbed my bag bser3a and looked at fatooma who had a scared look on her face
me " fatooma ana baroo7 gabel ma i do to this Thing something i would regret! i need to go back home . BYE"
I marched out to the parking lot as her screaming accusations became lower and lower as i walked further away from her
I got into the car took a deep breath and got out of the parking....
My tears which I was trying to keep inside kept streaming on my face....my vision started becoming unclear...
so did my mind...
everything was suddenly blurry....
I couldn't hear anything anymore.....
I couldn't feel my surroundings.....
everything suddenly turned pitch black.........
tootooot.........tootoooot
what's that sound....why do I feel so tired....my eyelids were so heavy to lift open....I fought through the pain and struggeled to open my eyes....blink by blink until I could almost see what was infront of me...which looked like a philipino lady wearing white..
lady " maaam.....maam can u hear me??"
to be continued..........
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Ro'9a
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me " la2 a7mad i'm not like that...see thiss, thiss is exactly y im shwaya mt'9ayga"
a7mad "ahaa! so u are mt'9ayga see i knew it!"
I just looked at him and glared bdoon ma agool shay
a7mad " hehe sorry sorry, inzain elmohem, what do you means this? this what?"
me " mm how can I say this,,, a7mad we hardly know each other... I mean What's your favorite color, what are your hobbies? what are things you get disgusted from, or t5af menhum . Or ....like kelshay......I hardly know anything about u"
................
It took him a minute to rush back in as he blurted
a7mad " Blue..."
me "ha....?"
a7mad " my favorite color... its blue..."
me "oh"
a7mad "and I like skiing, skate boarding, biking, swimming, reading, hanging out anywhere basically, going to the beach... w mmm what else...oh and I get disgusted from any fruit with hairy qualities.....and mmmm I'm not particularly scared from anything I just dislike cats"
me "mmm"
a7mad " no look , these things don't matter we find out these things about each other in time as we live more together ..."
me "i know but..."
a7mad " but sho ro'9a? I said I love you w I'm not going to take it back, because ana glt sho da5li w i meant it....because those small things may59hom.....I wont love you because your favorite color is green or because you hate cats too, I fell in love with you because of the way you smile to me when we first wake in the morning, because of how you took care of me when I got sick, because of how you put up with my load of crap wya my family and make me feel better at the end of every day, THOSE are the things that matter... those the reasons I fell in love with you ro'9a....not your hobbies or your favorite movie...
.................
a7mad " a7bch....I really doo ro'9a....w a3arf this is not just simple attraction to you, its not just e3jab because your pretty and all... because marrait thro that in my teenage years...but this time its different..."
.................
"fatooma Calling "
shalait el telephone as fast as I could!
me shouting " ALOOO"
fatooma " ro'9aa heey..."
..................
atooma " elsalfa 6weela I need to see you face to face! we really need to talk...about everything"
me " enzain whats it about at leaaaast??? "
fatooma " don't u dare change how ur acting around him....but it's about a7mad."
me " what? shoy5e9a?"
fatooma " when can I see u?"
me " madri ay wagtt"
fatooma " tomorrow breakfasT?"
me " ok...."
fatooma " and ro'9a.."
me "hmm?"
fatooma " I love u ..."
me " love you too...."
fatooma "byeeee"
tooooot toooooooot....................
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Ro'9a
_____________________________________________
I stared at my phone after closing it...
3an a7mad? mmm what could it possibly be that she stopped talking to me for so long.....
I came back into the room staring at my phone held in my hand, while i was in deep thought, wondering...what could it be...mshkela I can't just ask a7mad she told me not to act differently towards him ba3ad...mmm did she see him cheating on me? wla is he like actually married or something...so many different scenarios rushed through my mind until his voice snapped me out of all of it...
a7mad " who was it?"
I lifted my head and looked at him with blank eyes ..
me " haa?"
a7mad " who was it on the phone"
he said with a soft smile on his face, not in an intruding voice bs che asking out of interest....I couldn't feel angry or anything towards him because maknt a3arf shol salfa yet ....
me "oh fatooma my best friend.."
a7mad "oh..mmmm have I seen her?"
me "mmmm ma'9n i haven't seen her or spoken to her since el...wedding..."
a7mad " ha... laish?"
me "mmm madri... bs bachr baseer breakfast wyaha 3adi?"
a7mad "ya sure..."
me "oh shit nsait as2alha wain bntrayag 9a7! "
I took my phone and sms-ed her
To : FatooMa
HEY ! magelteeeeli where we're meeeetin and what time! <3
cnt wait...!
sent.
I threw my phone on the side table w turned my head, looked at him and sighed
he had a kind of scary look on his face as he approached me 'crawling' on the bed.. i have no idea sho ho yals y7wel ysawee bt i just stared at him with one eyebrow raised. he came closer and closer lain ma yab rasa 3nd raseee exactly and he had a smirk on his face...oh he wants to kiss me? Is that what he's doing?
me "mmmmm...a7maddd ...what r u doin"
he let out a low 'heh' then brought his head closer and warmly kissed my neck, then rajja3 his head back and looked at me smiling
a7mad "this.."
The thing is moody e5trab after I talked to fatooma, especially towards a7mad, i mean i suck at pretending nothing had happened! even though I do not really know what happened....It can't be that bad of a thing can it? uff i hate thisss...!
I looked at him trying to put a 'please -no' look on my face so that he wouldn't go on with this kissing since ana 9dg mb fl mood
but...i think he took it the wrong way... he came closer w kamal sh'3la while i sat there bs 7a6ait my hand on his shoulder since i couldn't just sit there. w mb 3akaify agoola move away akeed byshek, plus i have no reason to tell him off, yet.
He stopped at a moment and looked at me with a confused face
a7mad " balach?"
me "haa? nothing.."
a7mad "mmm"
He got up and sat 3adel 3dali...
a7mad "mmm why r u being so...bardaa..."
me "barda? mmm madri t3bana shway"
a7mad "t3bana? c'mon its only 9 pm!"
I shrugged my shoulders not knowing what to say to him...bs maybe he'd take a hint and leave this 'making out' for another day or something.
a7mad "hmm is it about fatma ur friend? "
me "laa may5e9a...im just tired i didn't sleep well ams"
a7mad "la bs 3gb makalamteeha ur face t'3ayar...shaklch..che... uncomfortable"
uf why is he such a good face reader! w laish ana che fashla in hiding my feelings this is annoying
me " la a7maad im fine 9dgg..."
I said while smiling..i hate lying to him, ana mt3awda doum im honest wya this is weird...
a7mad "mmm if u say so.."
he got up the bed and walked to his side of the bed then sat 3alaih with a totally different expression than earlier...kan annoyed and m7arj...yes i can read his face just as good as he can read mine ...
I felt so guilty...what if what fatooma has to say is nothing bad w ana che i'm being mean for no reason faj2a..w tawwa he was so romantic with me earlier......im such an emotional wreck!
me " a7maad.."
a7mad " na3am?"
he said with a low voice, while turning his head looking at me with a semi- frowned face
me " ana asfaa...if u want....mmm 3ady 3ndiii.....che...u knw"
i was blurting out random non sense..m3rf etha feham sho 89dyy bs enna he's my husband magdar amna3a if he wants to do something, i don't want to get ethem....
a7mad " la 3adi...a9lan i don't feel like it anymore..."
he said coldly w laf rasa grabbed the remote w turned the tv on with low volume...
uho ma7b ashoofa che z3lan menniiii laish che sawait a7een a7s aba abooosaa to make him smile to me agaaaain..... he's such a baby...ok ok it's my fault too bs still laish che ysawee 7arakat yahaaaaal ..... MEN! uf
to make up with him or not to? mshkela when u see his face u can't resist el cuteness especially when ykoon za3lannnnn! uf bs this fatooma thing is really annoying me!
uhoo this is just so not me ill just tell him!
me " fine! "
a7mad turned his face to me with a confused look
a7mad " sho fine?"
me " it is about fatooma....."
a7mad "eh...i knew it......"
i had a troubled look on my face i couldn't keep it in, i had to face him with it, maybe he has something to say before I actually talk to fatooma....
I scooted next to him and folded my legs, took a breath, then looked at him with serious eyes...
me "mmm look is there something ur like hiding from me w u want to tell me or shay che?"
he got up w ylas 3adel looking confused...
a7mad "ha...what do u mean?"
me " like anthingg.....u'd want to t5aberni..."
a7mad "what kind of thing mathalan??"
me "ma3rf anyything..."
a7mad " can u be more specific 3shan a3arf ajawb el su2al please! "
me "magdar i really don't know....sho 8a9dik specific how many things are u hiding from me??"
a7mad "la i'm not hiding shay mennich ro'9a bs y3ne sho hal su2al what did ur friend tell u?"
me "she told me nothing a7mad... bs look she told me not to tell u anything w i trust her she was my friend since we were like 6 or something so mabt2allef ashya2... she only said that she needs to talk to me...about u tomorrow....."
He had a confused look ..
a7mad " about mee? sho 8a9dha?"
me "mmmm ma3rf i'll find out tomorrow.....bs glt bas2alk maybe u would tell me urself....wla maybe it's something you don't know of? madri...."
a7mad "hmm...."
he had a serious look on his face while he was blankly looking down...
I just sighed.....still looking at him...he looked up with a serious face....
a7mad "look ana ma3rf what ur friend is refering to....bs you should know that I didn't hide anything from you since we got married, y3ne u know kelshay estwa since we got married until now, I mean i'm always with u a9lan..... but if she is referring to my past then I have done a lot of mistakes w mashft enna la da3i I mention any of them unless you really want to know wla it actually affects u.......w 9ara7a a7s whatever happened in my past has no relevance to my life now...."
me "mmm what do u mean?"
a7mad "mm like ayshay y3ne...u know.... like you're not the first girl i talk to fe 7ayatee w che....."
me "mmm i know.."
i said while rolling my eyes ... him saying that let out an annoying feeling in my stomach...
a7mad "see ro'9a if 3ndch as2la s2leeni w i'd tell u because I have nothing to hide..."
me "mb enna 3ndi su2al bss hmmmmm ma3rf...."
should i let out my questions? I have like a zillion but maybe I can ask one or two...uf i hate my curiousityy.....
me "mmm a7mad...do u have feelings for ay7ad from ur past?"
a7mad "seriously?"
I looked at him with my big eyes..owaih maybe I shouldn't have asked that....but like seriously I should know right?...uf its that feeling deep down in my stomach again...I don't feel good...
I didn't say anything back waiting for his answer...
a7mad "I can't believe you actually think that...listen ro'9a ana mabayls a5re6 3ala MURTY w agoolha a7bch w stuff like that unless i mean it y3ne why would I lie sho ba7a9l mn wara this lie?! "
me "mmm that's not what i asked...."
a7mad "I know bs agoolch y3ne I only have feelings for you....w I've told u once before enna when et3araft 3alaich estaw3abt enna el 5arabee6 that I had before were nothing compared to this..the real thing.....so my answer is definitely not...."
he looked at me m7arrej
a7mad " i can't believe a9lan enna ur asking me this! "
me " what enzaaaain u never know.....asfaa...u can ask me whatever u want b3ad"
a7mad "no i don't have questions for u because anaaa unlike some people....i trust u..."
me "shoy5e9a...i didn't say i don't trust u.."
a7mad "mmm that's what ur question lamma7..."
me "sorry enzaaaain i just needed to feel reassured..."
a7mad " how many times do i have to tell u enny a7bbich for u to believe me?"
He was actually talking very seriously hnee..bs ana I just blushed and smiled because i duno .... i just did! a9lan if I didn't trust him maknt bafta7 hal salfa weya mn el bdaya...I wonder what fatooma has to say tho....
after that shway heda el jaw... he sighed and couldnt help not smile back at me getting shy awana...
he sat back etsanad 3ala his pillow and sighed... his face was still mmm...not fully restored y3ne...ashkera et'9ayag enna s2alta bout that... i didn't know what to do sO i just tucked in into the la7af right next to him and 7a6ait raseee 3ala chatfa...he didn't move a muscle...he usually takes my hand and holds it in his wla shay che...i don't like this feeling......
too tooot.....
i jumped up at the sound of my message w grabbed my phone w fta7t el sms.....
from: Fatooma
oh 9a7 ! lool mmm shakespeare the village ? lets meet there at 10 am? if u can?
I replied as fast as I could...ok maybe the things she wants to tell me aren't good or so...bs i miss her so muchhhh!
To: Fatooma
YAaaaaaay ok :D
can't wait to see u <3
gniteee
I put my phone back on the side table and turned towards a7mad... he was looking at me with a serious face...
a7mad "was that her?"
me " yeaa..."
a7mad " and?"
me "bntrayag fe shakespeare at 10"
I said smiling widely
a7mad "oh so ur still meeting with her y3ne?"
me "mmm yaa i haven't seen her in ages! i miss her so much"
gltella while pouting 3shan ykoon 3adi 3nda..!
a7mad "hmm...ok"
he said nodding then turned back to watch one tv, kano 7a6een harry potter....and yes a7mad is a harry potter geek.. not that I have anything against that <3
re7t ylast jreeb menna bs this time ma7a6ait my head on his shoulder, just sat up right next to him
we did not talk that night...i sat there w next thing i know I woke up to an empty room at the sound of my phone ringing
me " alooo..."
fatooma "WAINCHH??"
I jumped out of bed faj2aaaa
me " SHIT!!!! WHAT TIME IS IT?"
fatooma "mmm it's 10 w ana hnee i thought u'd be here earlyyyyy"
me " SHIt shit shit shit im soooo SORRY ufff i can't believe i didn't wake uppppp! give me 10 minutes w ba6la3 please please pleaseee"
fatooma "hahah calm down ana batraya 3adi bs zain wa3aitich!"
me "sorryyy"
fatooma " hahha 3adi yalla yalla goomi c u in a bit "
me "bye C U!"
SHIT! out of all the mornings in the world TODAY i don't hear my alarm!! wait did I put an alarm? oops i ran to my closet put on any leggings and top... took one of my new 3abayas that a7mad's mom put in my closet and wore it with marc jacobs flats w grabbed a black shan6a shoved my wallet and bb into it then paused when I saw a7mads range rover's keys on the table with a note
"I left the car for u, a7mad"
I took the keys in excitement w got in the car w drove to fatooma
I slowly parked the car into the parking carefully w got down w rushed to shakespeare w saw her ...she stood up when she saw me w we did all our hugging
then sat back down....I kinda got carried away I caught some people next to us staring at is weirdly....
me "how r uuuuuuu"
fatooma "mmmm ok"
me " i miss u zaggaa!"
fatooma "ayyy laish tsbeeni! i miss u too!"
me "hehee testahlain u just ignored me cz i got married "
i said frowning
fatooma " ayy don't say that it's not like that..."
she said while her eyes becoming watery...
fatooma "shoofi a9lan magdart at7ammal so i called u..."
I just smiled to her......
me "a7s mn sneeen i didn't talk to u...its like a7mad'z my new best friend now"
she frowned then sighed..
fatooma "listen....bout a7mad ......i didn't want to hurt u awal matzawajti u know...u were already forced into it so b'3ait u enjoy it a bit .....so maknt aba agoolch elshay fa i saw that it was better etha i stayed away.....bs i couldn't take it anymore....plus it's something you should know about your husband a7s..."
me "fatooma enough with the shoysamoona...introductions.....jst tell mee sholsalfa! "
fatooma " ok ok sorry.....bgoollich what happened mn el bdaya....
che 2 days after your wedding raysa al X called me w 3ezmatni 3ala a party they were having for her sisters birthday in their house...w 3zmo a lot of people...so i went w bs knt a3arf hayail goum 7amda w raysa .. the others i havn't seen them in my life... so ana che just standing there mstansa eyooli bntain w they're like excuuse me enti fatma al X rbee3at ro'9a al x??? ana che mmm yes i am....hum che omg ur friend is such a bitch what the hell is wrong with her stealing people's belongings! then one of them in specific esemha hanan al X was like he was mine! she stole him from mee ! we were gonna get married ....then she went on telling me to tell u she's gonna get him back and return what's rightfully hers w 5arabee6 like that...ana hnee i just looked at her like she's crazy and i walked away.....agoolch she was so scary! "
me "what? they were going to get married??"
fatooma "that's what she said... fl bdaya ana chee enna oh akeed she's just maynoona...so i ignored her...bs b3dain a lot of people came up to me w started saying things like kaif ur friend tetjarra2 tsawee chee wla man7eed ro'9a kanat like that...a7een wayd 6la3 3anha kalam....w ma3rf what else she's spreading around bs like everyone knows that they were going to get married then you came w 5athtee menha...or atleast that's what she's telling people"
me "what the hell shoy5e9a!!"
fatooma " I know!!! w ana ma3arf what to tell them OR YOU....i didn't want to overwhelm u with more bad news w enti roo7ch t3aneen knt aba atm away but now a7s u should know..."
i felt my eyes getting watery
me "he was going to get married?? but .....what the hell..."
she put her hands on my knees...making me calm down...i had nothing to say...why didn't he tell me ams? I mean i asked him right in his face!
a tear escaped my eyes w at that moment my phone rang
riing .............ring
I looked down at it...w it read his name........"a7mady" fatooma peeked in to see the caller's name then she sighed the second time it rang
fatooma " mabtsheleen?"
me ".. ma'9n i'm ready to talk to him yet..."
I felt an ache deep down in my stomach..like its twisting...painfully....the fact that he lied aches...what else could he be hiding.....
while i was lost in my miserable thoughts a girl came 3enna
girl " excuse me"
i turned my head towards her with a blank look
girl " entii ro'9a al x?"
I looked at her then thought if i should tell the truth or not bs just went with my gut and nodded...
girl "fyi ana hanan al X...a7mad al X's girl....yes i'm her...i can't believe lech wayh t6l3een jedam el 5alg after what u did..."
i was so pissed at her! so i stood up and answered back!
me " what the hell do u mean?"
girl "latsaween 3umrch baree2a....i know ur family lured his family into getting u two married just for the money...the money that's rightfully MINE!"
me "enti mn wain t2alfeen 8e9a9??stop judging people's life law sma7ty.."
girl "ma 2a2alef ur a BitCH and u know it."
me " what did u call me?"
girl "bitch."
I opened my mouth in anger and doubt then closed it. what the hell is wrong with her and how dare she...uf if i stay here one more minute i'll probably do to her something i'd regret later. I grabbed my bag bser3a and looked at fatooma who had a scared look on her face
me " fatooma ana baroo7 gabel ma i do to this Thing something i would regret! i need to go back home . BYE"
I marched out to the parking lot as her screaming accusations became lower and lower as i walked further away from her
I got into the car took a deep breath and got out of the parking....
My tears which I was trying to keep inside kept streaming on my face....my vision started becoming unclear...
so did my mind...
everything was suddenly blurry....
I couldn't hear anything anymore.....
I couldn't feel my surroundings.....
everything suddenly turned pitch black.........
tootooot.........tootoooot
what's that sound....why do I feel so tired....my eyelids were so heavy to lift open....I fought through the pain and struggeled to open my eyes....blink by blink until I could almost see what was infront of me...which looked like a philipino lady wearing white..
lady " maaam.....maam can u hear me??"
to be continued..........
Monday, March 22, 2010
wed-locked 29
A5eeeeran! (A)
Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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a7mad
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THERE I SAID IT, i thought to myself.
I felt so happy enna 6ala3t elly fe 5a6ri that I even was smiling while saying it, I looked up at her, observing her reaction.
........
she pointed out all the girls I have.. ah not that I did not expect that..
ro'9a " mno hayail?"
me " mmmmm people from my past... hehe"
ro'9a " ahaa"
............
She brought her head closer to the screen w squinted her eyes, hehe ktkoota.
she turned her head to me with a slight frown on her face she pointed at "khawla al X",
ro'9a " you know her...?"
me " ehh,, she'z a friend of a friend of mine"
..............
kept checking other people's profiles and such. Until she got up w ra7at el 7ammam. Did she look pissed wla ana at5ayyal?
elmohem I opened my inbox fast, since I had the chance to .
I read this
7anan al X
6. january subject: WTF!!!!!
7anan al X
31.December subject: ALO??
7anan al X
27.December subject: 7beebiiiiiiiiiiiii!
I stared at them blankly, it's been a while... I decided to open the first one she sent
7anan al X
27 Decembet at 03:16
halla a7mad babyyyyy!(k)
I've missed you a loooooooooot! You have no idea!!!!!!
I can't stop thinking about you latelyyyyy
I got Your emaail..and I don't know what to say
we need to meet up or could you give me your new number so I could call you?
ASAP, we need to talk, I don't want to talk here on facebook
hehe
a7ibbik 7amoody
mwah! <3
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Ro'9a
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UFF i hate showing him enna im jealous a7een by9adg 3mra!! bs he knowz khaawlaa w therez so much kalaam 3anha, y3ne sm3at'ha mb zaina, w hez rab3 wya shkthr girls, i forgot enna i hardly know a7mad! We never actually talked about our past. I hardly know anything about him.
and he said...he loves me?
that fast?
is he serious? I mean, we skipped everything and went straight to the wedding, I don't even have him on my facebook!
We definitely took things too fast, I shouldn't have led him on... uff......
I don't even know where fatoooma is to talk to her about all this!
i teared when I remembered her, I haven't talked to her in ages, w wayd things happened I NEED HER! w why the hell is she ignoring me!
6la3t mn el 7ammam w i headed to my phone immediately ignoring a7mad.
I went and typed furiously " fatooma... I don't know where you are and why you're ignoring me..but i have no one to talk to...I'm mad at you for ignoring me all this time but I really need you...ma3arf what to do...I need someone to talk to ....please...."
7a6ait el phone on the side table of the bed shway shway, hoping that she'd reply.
rfa3t rasi w shft enna he was looking at me concerned
a7mad " mm ro'9a what's wrong?"
me " nothing"
I muttered under my breath
7a6 his laptop on a side w gam w ya 3dali
a7mad " mmm sho gltee?"
me " mm glt nothing"
a7mad " bs shaklch mt'9ayga, fe 7ad athach? Tra im ur husband its my job to protect u"
me " a7mad mafeeni shay...."
skat shway tthn he looked back at me
a7mad " did I do shay '3ala6?"
I looked up at his innocent face w muttered a very low "la2"
a7mad " Then why r u acting che,, like ur za3lana menni...."
me " im not"
a7mad "yes u are ro'9a...is it cz of the facebook thing? because I knew girls before?"
I raised both eyebrows and looked at him in a 'r u serious' look, even though that was a tiny bit partially true.
me " la2 a7mad i'm not like that...see thiss, thiss is exactly y im shwaya mt'9ayga"
a7mad "ahaa! so u are mt'9ayga see i knew it!"
I just looked at him and glared bdoon ma agool shay
a7mad " hehe sorry sorry, inzain elmohem, what do you means this? this what?"
me " mm how can I say this,,, a7mad we hardly know each other... I mean What's your favorite color, what are your hobbies? what are things you get disgusted from, or t5af menhum . Or ....like kelshay......I hardly know anything about u"
He just listened carefully , looking at me fully focused into what I'm saying to him. he didn't have a blank face but his eyebrows were creased not in an angry way though, more like focused.
He didn't say anything so I decided to go on with my speech since I started already
me " mmm and "
I looked down while saying this...est7ait
me " and ... a7mad u came today w tgool enna .... you mm u know....w u hardly even know me a9lan.....a7s...a7s we went too fast....like faj2a im thinking of what happened and I don't know how all that happened....w hay mb joke we're married this is a real life we're starting....and.......m3rf... thats it i guess"
I looked up at him and faj2a he got up from his place and just walked out of the room.... without a word! nothing! He just left me hanging there my eyes followed him worrying about what might happen, I mean I don't think I said something wrong did I?
It took him a minute to rush back in as he blurted
a7mad " Blue..."
me "ha....?"
a7mad " my favorite color... its blue..."
me "oh"
a7mad "and I like skiing, skate boarding, biking, swimming, reading, hanging out anywhere basically, going to the beach... w mmm what else...oh and I get disgusted from any fruit with hairy qualities.....and mmmm I'm not particularly scared from anything I just dislike cats"
me "mmm"
a7mad " no look , these things don't matter we find out these things about each other in time as we live more together ..."
me "i know but..."
a7mad " but sho ro'9a? I said I love you w I'm not going to take it back, because ana glt sho da5li w i meant it....because those small things may59hom.....I wont love you because your favorite color is green or because you hate cats too, I fell in love with you because of the way you smile to me when we first wake in the morning, because of how you took care of me when I got sick, because of how you put up with my load of crap wya my family and make me feel better at the end of every day, THOSE are the things that matter... those the reasons I fell in love with you ro'9a....not your hobbies or your favorite movie...."
me " he..uh...mu....."
my mind....was like the blankest blank sheet of paper in the world....I did not know what to say at all.....faja2nee...I didn't expect him to say shay like this y3ne t7arait he'll just go along with me w bygool ya ok too fast bla...but ..............sho agoollaaaaaaaa.......he's kind of right.....what he said makes sense... do these small things actually matter?
his face lit up and a bright smile made its way on his face. The adorable 'im so awesome' look of his .
he was grinning waiting for me to say something, bs ana knt mertbka w i just skat w looked at him with puppy eyes....
a7mad " ha shoooo cat got ur tongue hehee"
me "mmm may59aaa"
I said as I blushed like crazy with all the shades of red, I could feel my face heating up! balanii......uf
a7mad " hehe sakattech"
he said very proudly with an amused tone. I looked up at him and pouted.
his expression turned to a softer smile, his eyes kinda sparkly....i think they sparkled or am I imagining things?
a7mad " a7bch....I really doo ro'9a....w a3arf this is not just simple attraction to you, its not just e3jab because your pretty and all... because marrait thro that in my teenage years...but this time its different..."
hnee I started grinning...my god a7madyyy i never knew he liked me this much *blush*
a7mad "haha ashoofch grinning a7eeen "
me " heheee ... you said im prettyyyy* I said while grinning wider
a7mad " a7een hal shay el wa7eed elli sma3tii mn all what i said!!" He said with a glare
me " heeeheee"
a7mad "hehee ur face"
he said while awana making fun of my voice. I just laughed at him katkoot...
a7mad " oh oh btww! I added you on facebook hehee"
me " oh mmm what if i don't accept u! muhaha"
a7mad " mmmm.......baz3al?"
me " mmmm what if I dont care if enta tz3al"
a7mad " just cz I love you more than you love me doesn't mean you don't care about my feelings okk"
me " shoy5e99aaa,,,,"
a7mad "y5e9a"
me " ushhh"
6ala3 lsaana teasing me awana.....I don't want to tell him I love him not just yet at least...because I'm not sure of how I feel...I like him ....ALOT....but isn't love a strong word?
ma3arf .......
still I wanted to show him that I do adore him , so i got up and gave him a quick kiss on his cheeks, w sat 3dalaa. I think I saw him blush a bit, w he had this innocent dimple smile of his on.
trn trn............. trn...
Is that my phone??? I jumped at the sound of it! and stared at it for a second in disbelief...re7t w took it in my hand, no one has called me in such a long time I even forgot my ringtone! I looked at the name...
noo.... I closed my eyes and opened them again and it still read the same name...
"fatooma Calling "
shalait el telephone as fast as I could!
me shouting " ALOOO"
fatooma " ro'9aa heey..."
I stormed out of the bedroom to the living room 3shan akalemha 3a ra7ti
me " HEY? hey? thats it!!! thats all you got to say??"
fatooma " .....mm"
I started tearing a bit.
me " I missed u."
fatooma " mee tooo wallaa"
She started crying on the other end of the phone
me " FATOOMA whats wrong! i know u ignored meee bs why r U crying!!"
fatooma " I just miss you a lot walla ro'9a i'm so sorry its just..."
me "just what?"
fatooma " elsalfa 6weela I need to see you face to face! we really need to talk...about everything"
me " enzain whats it about at leaaaast??? "
fatooma " don't u dare change how ur acting around him....but it's about a7mad."
me " what? shoy5e9a?"
fatooma " when can I see u?"
me " madri ay wagtt"
fatooma " tomorrow breakfasT?"
me " ok...."
fatooma " and ro'9a.."
me "hmm?"
fatooma " I love u ..."
me " love you too...."
fatooma "byeeee"
tooooot toooooooot....................
Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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a7mad
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THERE I SAID IT, i thought to myself.
I felt so happy enna 6ala3t elly fe 5a6ri that I even was smiling while saying it, I looked up at her, observing her reaction.
........
she pointed out all the girls I have.. ah not that I did not expect that..
ro'9a " mno hayail?"
me " mmmmm people from my past... hehe"
ro'9a " ahaa"
............
She brought her head closer to the screen w squinted her eyes, hehe ktkoota.
she turned her head to me with a slight frown on her face she pointed at "khawla al X",
ro'9a " you know her...?"
me " ehh,, she'z a friend of a friend of mine"
..............
kept checking other people's profiles and such. Until she got up w ra7at el 7ammam. Did she look pissed wla ana at5ayyal?
elmohem I opened my inbox fast, since I had the chance to .
I read this
7anan al X
6. january subject: WTF!!!!!
7anan al X
31.December subject: ALO??
7anan al X
27.December subject: 7beebiiiiiiiiiiiii!
I stared at them blankly, it's been a while... I decided to open the first one she sent
7anan al X
27 Decembet at 03:16
halla a7mad babyyyyy!(k)
I've missed you a loooooooooot! You have no idea!!!!!!
I can't stop thinking about you latelyyyyy
I got Your emaail..and I don't know what to say
we need to meet up or could you give me your new number so I could call you?
ASAP, we need to talk, I don't want to talk here on facebook
hehe
a7ibbik 7amoody
mwah! <3
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Ro'9a
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UFF i hate showing him enna im jealous a7een by9adg 3mra!! bs he knowz khaawlaa w therez so much kalaam 3anha, y3ne sm3at'ha mb zaina, w hez rab3 wya shkthr girls, i forgot enna i hardly know a7mad! We never actually talked about our past. I hardly know anything about him.
and he said...he loves me?
that fast?
is he serious? I mean, we skipped everything and went straight to the wedding, I don't even have him on my facebook!
We definitely took things too fast, I shouldn't have led him on... uff......
I don't even know where fatoooma is to talk to her about all this!
i teared when I remembered her, I haven't talked to her in ages, w wayd things happened I NEED HER! w why the hell is she ignoring me!
6la3t mn el 7ammam w i headed to my phone immediately ignoring a7mad.
I went and typed furiously " fatooma... I don't know where you are and why you're ignoring me..but i have no one to talk to...I'm mad at you for ignoring me all this time but I really need you...ma3arf what to do...I need someone to talk to ....please...."
7a6ait el phone on the side table of the bed shway shway, hoping that she'd reply.
rfa3t rasi w shft enna he was looking at me concerned
a7mad " mm ro'9a what's wrong?"
me " nothing"
I muttered under my breath
7a6 his laptop on a side w gam w ya 3dali
a7mad " mmm sho gltee?"
me " mm glt nothing"
a7mad " bs shaklch mt'9ayga, fe 7ad athach? Tra im ur husband its my job to protect u"
me " a7mad mafeeni shay...."
skat shway tthn he looked back at me
a7mad " did I do shay '3ala6?"
I looked up at his innocent face w muttered a very low "la2"
a7mad " Then why r u acting che,, like ur za3lana menni...."
me " im not"
a7mad "yes u are ro'9a...is it cz of the facebook thing? because I knew girls before?"
I raised both eyebrows and looked at him in a 'r u serious' look, even though that was a tiny bit partially true.
me " la2 a7mad i'm not like that...see thiss, thiss is exactly y im shwaya mt'9ayga"
a7mad "ahaa! so u are mt'9ayga see i knew it!"
I just looked at him and glared bdoon ma agool shay
a7mad " hehe sorry sorry, inzain elmohem, what do you means this? this what?"
me " mm how can I say this,,, a7mad we hardly know each other... I mean What's your favorite color, what are your hobbies? what are things you get disgusted from, or t5af menhum . Or ....like kelshay......I hardly know anything about u"
He just listened carefully , looking at me fully focused into what I'm saying to him. he didn't have a blank face but his eyebrows were creased not in an angry way though, more like focused.
He didn't say anything so I decided to go on with my speech since I started already
me " mmm and "
I looked down while saying this...est7ait
me " and ... a7mad u came today w tgool enna .... you mm u know....w u hardly even know me a9lan.....a7s...a7s we went too fast....like faj2a im thinking of what happened and I don't know how all that happened....w hay mb joke we're married this is a real life we're starting....and.......m3rf... thats it i guess"
I looked up at him and faj2a he got up from his place and just walked out of the room.... without a word! nothing! He just left me hanging there my eyes followed him worrying about what might happen, I mean I don't think I said something wrong did I?
It took him a minute to rush back in as he blurted
a7mad " Blue..."
me "ha....?"
a7mad " my favorite color... its blue..."
me "oh"
a7mad "and I like skiing, skate boarding, biking, swimming, reading, hanging out anywhere basically, going to the beach... w mmm what else...oh and I get disgusted from any fruit with hairy qualities.....and mmmm I'm not particularly scared from anything I just dislike cats"
me "mmm"
a7mad " no look , these things don't matter we find out these things about each other in time as we live more together ..."
me "i know but..."
a7mad " but sho ro'9a? I said I love you w I'm not going to take it back, because ana glt sho da5li w i meant it....because those small things may59hom.....I wont love you because your favorite color is green or because you hate cats too, I fell in love with you because of the way you smile to me when we first wake in the morning, because of how you took care of me when I got sick, because of how you put up with my load of crap wya my family and make me feel better at the end of every day, THOSE are the things that matter... those the reasons I fell in love with you ro'9a....not your hobbies or your favorite movie...."
me " he..uh...mu....."
my mind....was like the blankest blank sheet of paper in the world....I did not know what to say at all.....faja2nee...I didn't expect him to say shay like this y3ne t7arait he'll just go along with me w bygool ya ok too fast bla...but ..............sho agoollaaaaaaaa.......he's kind of right.....what he said makes sense... do these small things actually matter?
his face lit up and a bright smile made its way on his face. The adorable 'im so awesome' look of his .
he was grinning waiting for me to say something, bs ana knt mertbka w i just skat w looked at him with puppy eyes....
a7mad " ha shoooo cat got ur tongue hehee"
me "mmm may59aaa"
I said as I blushed like crazy with all the shades of red, I could feel my face heating up! balanii......uf
a7mad " hehe sakattech"
he said very proudly with an amused tone. I looked up at him and pouted.
his expression turned to a softer smile, his eyes kinda sparkly....i think they sparkled or am I imagining things?
a7mad " a7bch....I really doo ro'9a....w a3arf this is not just simple attraction to you, its not just e3jab because your pretty and all... because marrait thro that in my teenage years...but this time its different..."
hnee I started grinning...my god a7madyyy i never knew he liked me this much *blush*
a7mad "haha ashoofch grinning a7eeen "
me " heheee ... you said im prettyyyy* I said while grinning wider
a7mad " a7een hal shay el wa7eed elli sma3tii mn all what i said!!" He said with a glare
me " heeeheee"
a7mad "hehee ur face"
he said while awana making fun of my voice. I just laughed at him katkoot...
a7mad " oh oh btww! I added you on facebook hehee"
me " oh mmm what if i don't accept u! muhaha"
a7mad " mmmm.......baz3al?"
me " mmmm what if I dont care if enta tz3al"
a7mad " just cz I love you more than you love me doesn't mean you don't care about my feelings okk"
me " shoy5e99aaa,,,,"
a7mad "y5e9a"
me " ushhh"
6ala3 lsaana teasing me awana.....I don't want to tell him I love him not just yet at least...because I'm not sure of how I feel...I like him ....ALOT....but isn't love a strong word?
ma3arf .......
still I wanted to show him that I do adore him , so i got up and gave him a quick kiss on his cheeks, w sat 3dalaa. I think I saw him blush a bit, w he had this innocent dimple smile of his on.
trn trn............. trn...
Is that my phone??? I jumped at the sound of it! and stared at it for a second in disbelief...re7t w took it in my hand, no one has called me in such a long time I even forgot my ringtone! I looked at the name...
noo.... I closed my eyes and opened them again and it still read the same name...
"fatooma Calling "
shalait el telephone as fast as I could!
me shouting " ALOOO"
fatooma " ro'9aa heey..."
I stormed out of the bedroom to the living room 3shan akalemha 3a ra7ti
me " HEY? hey? thats it!!! thats all you got to say??"
fatooma " .....mm"
I started tearing a bit.
me " I missed u."
fatooma " mee tooo wallaa"
She started crying on the other end of the phone
me " FATOOMA whats wrong! i know u ignored meee bs why r U crying!!"
fatooma " I just miss you a lot walla ro'9a i'm so sorry its just..."
me "just what?"
fatooma " elsalfa 6weela I need to see you face to face! we really need to talk...about everything"
me " enzain whats it about at leaaaast??? "
fatooma " don't u dare change how ur acting around him....but it's about a7mad."
me " what? shoy5e9a?"
fatooma " when can I see u?"
me " madri ay wagtt"
fatooma " tomorrow breakfasT?"
me " ok...."
fatooma " and ro'9a.."
me "hmm?"
fatooma " I love u ..."
me " love you too...."
fatooma "byeeee"
tooooot toooooooot....................
Thursday, February 25, 2010
SORRY !
My readers <3
omggg I'm SO SO SO SOOO SOOOOOOO SORRY walla! omg 2 months have pasSED?? SERIOUSLY SHIT im the worse blogger fl 3alam! =( !! sorry
I've been SO busy with my undergrad. in uni w projects i don't even have time to brush my hair u guys!
I REALLY WANT TO POST , uf i hate my life :(
anyways, since etrayaito this much u can wait shwaya longer right? :$ , I'll probably post something by the middle of march as soon as things clear up
If i could I really would
I'm so sorry : (
and to one of the anonymous commenters : no I DID Not pass away bismillah 3alay :$ :P
omggg I'm SO SO SO SOOO SOOOOOOO SORRY walla! omg 2 months have pasSED?? SERIOUSLY SHIT im the worse blogger fl 3alam! =( !! sorry
I've been SO busy with my undergrad. in uni w projects i don't even have time to brush my hair u guys!
I REALLY WANT TO POST , uf i hate my life :(
anyways, since etrayaito this much u can wait shwaya longer right? :$ , I'll probably post something by the middle of march as soon as things clear up
If i could I really would
I'm so sorry : (
and to one of the anonymous commenters : no I DID Not pass away bismillah 3alay :$ :P
Friday, January 8, 2010
Wed-locked 28
Previously on W E D - L O C K E D
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me " mmm a7mad, I don't think ur a coward ... ur just the 3jeebest man i know!"
I said grinning, trying to make him smile.
He took my hand that was on top of his into his own, and held it tight, i could feel his warmth. he leaned closer to me.. and whispered
a7mad "ro'9a..a7ibbich.."
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a7mad
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THERE I SAID IT, i thought to myself.
I felt so happy enna 6ala3t elly fe 5a6ri that I even was smiling while saying it, I looked up at her, observing her reaction.
her eyes were widened, and her mouth fell open but no words came out of it. She just stared at me, w ana I sat there looking back at her, not knowing what to do. Adree enna what I just told her is major, and I don't expect her to just say it back for the sake of saying it....
me " look ro'9a I KNOW it's too early to say shay che, bs walla when a guy knows he knows, right? w I don't expect u to say it back.."
I said with a smile on my face to make her feel reassured. I sensed her face relax.
her gaze moved away from me to the space in front of us. w she was so quiet. I couldn't read her face, she's usually easy to read but this time it was just blank.
hm that must have made her uncomfortable. So, I thought of giving her some space, to estaw3eb? I got up kissed her head and looked at her gave her a soft smile w stepped out of the bedroom to our 9ala, w radait el bab enna ykoon shway mftoo7 bs enough to give her privacy.
fta7t el tv, w ylast 3al sofa, w knt yals afr mn channel to channel, not really paying attention to what's on tv. I can't believe I just confessed my feelings to her! I mean adree it's not the first time I talk to a girl w che, bs fel past kan '3air, it wasn't as real as now.
I never felt this way towards anyone. w I didn't expect to feel this way towards ro'9a, so fast, I mean it's only been what? 2 weeks? ymkn I rushed into the confession? no wonder she didn't say anything back.
uf, I'm such an amateur when it comes to hal swalef.
about 15 minutes later I got bored, got up, switched the tv off w went into the room, to ayls 3al laptop or something, no it's not because i want to sit with her, I tried convincing myself, but a part of me knew that I wanted to be inside with her even if according to 'love rules' or madri what to call it I should give her space now.
d5alt el '3erfa w I saw her with her cute wondering expression looking through her mobile quietly. w she looked up at me when I got in, staring at me shyly. I smiled to her w re7t to my side of the bed and took my laptop w 7a6aita on my lap w opened my FaceBook, something i have not checked for a long while! I kept sneaking glances at her, bs I could only see her back though lel2asaf, she stayed where she was for a bit, then got up w looked at me, ana I kept staring at her as she came closer , yat ylsat right beside me w ana just sitting there smiling widely.
she pointed to my screen, lafait rasi, w I noticed that I hadn't even signed in yet.
me " ehh hehe"
I shrugged my shoulders. I was too sar7an I guess...
I started typing my email, then i typed awal part of my password then la7a'9t enna she looked away,
me " mmm I don't mind you seeing it by the way hehe"
ro'9a " oh...glt ymkn mat7eb"
me " oh laa its fine"
I typed el bagee in, w my home page fta7...mmm I wonder if she has seen my friends' list or not. Because I do have a lot of girls on my face book, not that I'm a player or anything, but I was kind of popular with the girls around high school, so I did know a lot of them, not necessarily any serious relationship though.
ro'9a "hmmmmm"
I looked at her with a questionable look.
ro'9a "mm sho maglt shay.."
me " 3yal laish u 'hmmm'-ed?"
she pointed out all the girls I have.. ah not that I did not expect that..
ro'9a " mno hayail?"
me " mmmmm people from my past... hehe"
ro'9a " ahaa"
she said Looking at me with one eye brow raised. I looked back at her innocently, tra 9dg they're only random friends that I don't even talk to.
she sat straight up, her arm not touching mine anymore. Nsait enna she gets jealous bser3a, like that time in Spain. Although she denied it awanna.
she continued looking at the screen, bs I didn't click anything, I had a couple of inbox messages bs Makent aba afta7hom nw jdamha, because I think I know who they are from.....
33 notifications, I read at the bottom of the page. Not bothering to see all of them, i just clicked it twice enna ystwee none.
then went to my profie page.
It had so many wall posts from people saying congratulations on the wedding w madri sho.
I can't believe I haven't opened my facebook since before the wedding.
i was scrolling down the page b3dain i felt her hand on top of mine, gesturing for me to stop .
She brought her head closer to the screen w squinted her eyes, hehe ktkoota.
she turned her head to me with a slight frown on her face she pointed at "khawla al X",
ro'9a " you know her...?"
me " ehh,, she'z a friend of a friend of mine"
I said casually, wanting her to stop asking questions. It's not that I do not want to tell her my past, bs I don't know if she's ready to listen, or if she wont get bothered by it, i just don't want to scare her away from me, not that I've done something major, bs ma3arf HER past to compare. I mean, maybe something I consider minor is considered major to her? ma3arf...
She kept staring at me curiously, shit does she know khawla? Is that why she's asking?
ro'9a "mm who?"
me "oh it's just this girl I used to know,,,whyyy does it matteR?"
I said defending myself.
ro'9a " if she's ur friend's friend, 3yal laish her congratulations on ur marriage mb mn 5a6erha look look, she wrote 'Congratulations on you marriage a7mad" full stop, so that means she's pissed about it!!"
I looked at her with a 'r u serious' look. Although, I knew she was right, bs makent aba a3teref. Not now at least...
me " r u serious?"
she nodded,
me " I don't know okaayy"
she looked at me suspiciously,then laffat to reach for the remote w ylsat b3eed 3anni looking at the tv
ro'9a " Fine.."
She had her arms folded, I turned my head w looked back at my screen w checked my wall again, I did not reply to any of the posts though.
I kept staring at my inbox, but I don't want to open it jdam ro'9a, I mean I just confessed my feelings for her, w the next thing she sees is this. No it's definitely too soon for her to know hal salfa.
I kept checking other people's profiles and such. Until she got up w ra7at el 7ammam. Did she look pissed wla ana at5ayyal?
elmohem I opened my inbox fast, since I had the chance to .
I read this
7anan al X
6. january subject: WTF!!!!!
7anan al X
31.December subject: ALO??
7anan al X
27.December subject: 7beebiiiiiiiiiiiii!
I stared at them blankly, it's been a while... I decided to open the first one she sent
7anan al X
27 Decembet at 03:16
halla a7mad babyyyyy!(k)
I've missed you a loooooooooot! You have no idea!!!!!!
I can't stop thinking about you latelyyyyy
I got Your emaail..and I don't know what to say
we need to meet up or could you give me your new number so I could call you?
ASAP, we need to talk, I don't want to talk here on facebook
hehe
a7ibbik 7amoody
mwah! <3
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me " mmm a7mad, I don't think ur a coward ... ur just the 3jeebest man i know!"
I said grinning, trying to make him smile.
He took my hand that was on top of his into his own, and held it tight, i could feel his warmth. he leaned closer to me.. and whispered
a7mad "ro'9a..a7ibbich.."
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a7mad
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THERE I SAID IT, i thought to myself.
I felt so happy enna 6ala3t elly fe 5a6ri that I even was smiling while saying it, I looked up at her, observing her reaction.
her eyes were widened, and her mouth fell open but no words came out of it. She just stared at me, w ana I sat there looking back at her, not knowing what to do. Adree enna what I just told her is major, and I don't expect her to just say it back for the sake of saying it....
me " look ro'9a I KNOW it's too early to say shay che, bs walla when a guy knows he knows, right? w I don't expect u to say it back.."
I said with a smile on my face to make her feel reassured. I sensed her face relax.
her gaze moved away from me to the space in front of us. w she was so quiet. I couldn't read her face, she's usually easy to read but this time it was just blank.
hm that must have made her uncomfortable. So, I thought of giving her some space, to estaw3eb? I got up kissed her head and looked at her gave her a soft smile w stepped out of the bedroom to our 9ala, w radait el bab enna ykoon shway mftoo7 bs enough to give her privacy.
fta7t el tv, w ylast 3al sofa, w knt yals afr mn channel to channel, not really paying attention to what's on tv. I can't believe I just confessed my feelings to her! I mean adree it's not the first time I talk to a girl w che, bs fel past kan '3air, it wasn't as real as now.
I never felt this way towards anyone. w I didn't expect to feel this way towards ro'9a, so fast, I mean it's only been what? 2 weeks? ymkn I rushed into the confession? no wonder she didn't say anything back.
uf, I'm such an amateur when it comes to hal swalef.
about 15 minutes later I got bored, got up, switched the tv off w went into the room, to ayls 3al laptop or something, no it's not because i want to sit with her, I tried convincing myself, but a part of me knew that I wanted to be inside with her even if according to 'love rules' or madri what to call it I should give her space now.
d5alt el '3erfa w I saw her with her cute wondering expression looking through her mobile quietly. w she looked up at me when I got in, staring at me shyly. I smiled to her w re7t to my side of the bed and took my laptop w 7a6aita on my lap w opened my FaceBook, something i have not checked for a long while! I kept sneaking glances at her, bs I could only see her back though lel2asaf, she stayed where she was for a bit, then got up w looked at me, ana I kept staring at her as she came closer , yat ylsat right beside me w ana just sitting there smiling widely.
she pointed to my screen, lafait rasi, w I noticed that I hadn't even signed in yet.
me " ehh hehe"
I shrugged my shoulders. I was too sar7an I guess...
I started typing my email, then i typed awal part of my password then la7a'9t enna she looked away,
me " mmm I don't mind you seeing it by the way hehe"
ro'9a " oh...glt ymkn mat7eb"
me " oh laa its fine"
I typed el bagee in, w my home page fta7...mmm I wonder if she has seen my friends' list or not. Because I do have a lot of girls on my face book, not that I'm a player or anything, but I was kind of popular with the girls around high school, so I did know a lot of them, not necessarily any serious relationship though.
ro'9a "hmmmmm"
I looked at her with a questionable look.
ro'9a "mm sho maglt shay.."
me " 3yal laish u 'hmmm'-ed?"
she pointed out all the girls I have.. ah not that I did not expect that..
ro'9a " mno hayail?"
me " mmmmm people from my past... hehe"
ro'9a " ahaa"
she said Looking at me with one eye brow raised. I looked back at her innocently, tra 9dg they're only random friends that I don't even talk to.
she sat straight up, her arm not touching mine anymore. Nsait enna she gets jealous bser3a, like that time in Spain. Although she denied it awanna.
she continued looking at the screen, bs I didn't click anything, I had a couple of inbox messages bs Makent aba afta7hom nw jdamha, because I think I know who they are from.....
33 notifications, I read at the bottom of the page. Not bothering to see all of them, i just clicked it twice enna ystwee none.
then went to my profie page.
It had so many wall posts from people saying congratulations on the wedding w madri sho.
I can't believe I haven't opened my facebook since before the wedding.
i was scrolling down the page b3dain i felt her hand on top of mine, gesturing for me to stop .
She brought her head closer to the screen w squinted her eyes, hehe ktkoota.
she turned her head to me with a slight frown on her face she pointed at "khawla al X",
ro'9a " you know her...?"
me " ehh,, she'z a friend of a friend of mine"
I said casually, wanting her to stop asking questions. It's not that I do not want to tell her my past, bs I don't know if she's ready to listen, or if she wont get bothered by it, i just don't want to scare her away from me, not that I've done something major, bs ma3arf HER past to compare. I mean, maybe something I consider minor is considered major to her? ma3arf...
She kept staring at me curiously, shit does she know khawla? Is that why she's asking?
ro'9a "mm who?"
me "oh it's just this girl I used to know,,,whyyy does it matteR?"
I said defending myself.
ro'9a " if she's ur friend's friend, 3yal laish her congratulations on ur marriage mb mn 5a6erha look look, she wrote 'Congratulations on you marriage a7mad" full stop, so that means she's pissed about it!!"
I looked at her with a 'r u serious' look. Although, I knew she was right, bs makent aba a3teref. Not now at least...
me " r u serious?"
she nodded,
me " I don't know okaayy"
she looked at me suspiciously,then laffat to reach for the remote w ylsat b3eed 3anni looking at the tv
ro'9a " Fine.."
She had her arms folded, I turned my head w looked back at my screen w checked my wall again, I did not reply to any of the posts though.
I kept staring at my inbox, but I don't want to open it jdam ro'9a, I mean I just confessed my feelings for her, w the next thing she sees is this. No it's definitely too soon for her to know hal salfa.
I kept checking other people's profiles and such. Until she got up w ra7at el 7ammam. Did she look pissed wla ana at5ayyal?
elmohem I opened my inbox fast, since I had the chance to .
I read this
7anan al X
6. january subject: WTF!!!!!
7anan al X
31.December subject: ALO??
7anan al X
27.December subject: 7beebiiiiiiiiiiiii!
I stared at them blankly, it's been a while... I decided to open the first one she sent
7anan al X
27 Decembet at 03:16
halla a7mad babyyyyy!(k)
I've missed you a loooooooooot! You have no idea!!!!!!
I can't stop thinking about you latelyyyyy
I got Your emaail..and I don't know what to say
we need to meet up or could you give me your new number so I could call you?
ASAP, we need to talk, I don't want to talk here on facebook
hehe
a7ibbik 7amoody
mwah! <3
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